It’s not always easy to be me… and I seem to have more Grit than Grace but I got through Monday! It was Monday on Steroids for sure. Very glad to have come in Sunday. I think we all looked like one of those really fast old movies where everyone is running around really fast. We all had so much to do and I’m sure no one needed to be bothered, but yet there we were all needing things from one another, and bothering one another for what we needed. It was quite the day. I made it through knowing we’d be having dinner with Kevin and Susan later (BIL and SIL).
How appropriate to eat dinner at place called Catch 22 as that seemed to be a theme of the day, LOL. One I won’t go into here but it did strike a funny chord within me.
That is not our car, by the way, but I took a pic of the restaurant for you. I ate lighter yesterday for breakfast and lunch so I could eat better for dinner. Catch 22 has a few salads for those low cal options but I wanted more than just a salad. I had been craving a burger, and they have one of the best burgers around!
I got a flight, of course. You know I love to do the flights of little beers to see what different ones on tap taste like. I was thrilled that Czann’s had one on tap there. I’m so glad he’s in Mount Juliet now.
Calendar of Last Week’s Plans During Snow Week, LOL!
I opened my calendar yesterday to be able to make some plans in it and write things down as I thought of it. I didn’t have a lot of success (no time for planning, only doing). My mind was all over the place on the way to work and I could not wait to sit down and capture it all with pencil and paper, but when I unlocked and set up the work day, and transitioned to all I had to do there, everything left my mind before I could write it all down. Oh well. It will all come back to me in time. But, as I opened my calendar, I had to laugh at last week and how busy it was. Do you want to see for yourself? Here ya go!
Well yeah, I did more than that obviously, but I didn’t need to write anything down! There were no appointments, no grocery lists, and any to do lists were on my Focus Matrix app. Most of the to do lists were things at home anyway. Work has it’s own list on my PC. I don’t really use this calendar here for work – it’s my personal one. But I think we should thank the Lord for such a quiet week. No fuss, no pomp, no circumstances – well not many anyway.
On the way to the restaurant we saw a skunk. It was weird. I didn’t really see much of a stripe. I had the window rolled down but these things can spray 10 to 15 feet, so I didn’t want to make a splash or get his attention! In the video below you can hear us chatting about how close to get and how far he sprays. I rolled up the window!
When Will there Be another Video on the YouTube Channel?
Ok well I am going to wrap this up and get ready for work! It’s my 3rd day in the week to work. It’s payroll closing day. That’s all I know for today. But I’m very excited that soon it will be March. We will have more chances for spring weather. It’s supposed to be in the 60’s today I think. I’m also looking forward to having some more personal time to get things done. But…will not be until Sunday, or after work maybe. I kinda need to go to the store and get a few snack items. And of course, you know I have a whole list of things I want to do always. I really want to get this long list of things done so I can get back in the rhythm of making videos. So much has postponed it with Christmas, working and doing year end stuff, going to Texas, catching up from all that, upgrading Big Sur, getting the back up drive set up, setting up my video files on the external disc, and just trying to get critical things done around the house, etc.
It’s hard to have a consistent YouTube Channel when you work FT. But I’m slowly working through the maze of things blocking me from making progress. I know you are probably tired of me talking about it, but I have had to do some “must dos” before I can go any further. It’s kinda like sailing in a way. You are anxious to get back at it but you got to stop for repairs and then provisions and get ready for the long haul. For now the channel is a hobby, it’s not monetized, and I don’t want the pressure of having a set schedule yet. I can probably manage one every month, but that would have backfired coming out of the end of the year with all we’ve done and had to do in 2021, so it’s been longer. The longer I wait the harder it is to get back going. But I have made myself wait. I am determined to get some of these things done that I needed to stop and do before getting back to my creativity zones. Let’s just call it a “maintenance period”. That’s pretty much what it is!
We had the nicest time with my BIL and SIL going to their house for drinks and appetizers and then heading out to dinner at Chop House in Hendersonville, TN. We laughed at how our 6:30 reservations and the darkness made it seem sooooo late for us “old folks”. My BIL was turning 60 so we lived it up!
The fireplaces and ambiance made the place a wonderful spot for a 60th birthday celebration. We had a nice steak dinner, most of us getting Prime Rib.
As packed as the place was (after this pic was taken) one would not have been able to determine that we lived in a COVID world. Matter fact, I, myself, forgot to restock my purse with a mask. When we were back from TX I removed all of them from my purse for a wash, and totally zonked out at putting one back in my purse. The freshly washed ones all went back into my Work Bag since that is usually where I go these days. So….
When I exclaimed I’d forgotten my mask, my SIL said, “Oh I have lots”. I said, “well let me borrow one and I’ll give it back”. She handed me one with “Coffee” all over it and I teasingly said “wait, I may not WANT to give this one back”. She said “oh you can have it”. I said “I was only teasing – well not really! I love it.” She insisted I keep it. I absolutely love it! She made it and said she had made lots more. So cute. I cannot think of anything more appropriate for me to wear as a mask!
Yes I have on make up. It felt good to apply make up yesterday. Really I wore it to film in but knew we were going to dinner anyway.
We ordered dressed eggs with bacon. They accidentally placed two orders so they brought us another plate, lol. George said “I hope they do that to our drinks!” LOL
We had cocktails as the bottles of wine were pretty “up there”. Since my drink was so big – I didn’t need but one. It was a drink called “Reasoning with a Hurricane”. Leave it up to me to order a “weather” drink. The only reasoning I needed after that one was to find some sleep! After that drink and a steak I was ready for bed. LOL
The prime rib was excellent. This was a “medium” order. I think maybe it was medium rare, but I ate it and it was good.
BIL got a half price birthday dessert and we split it 4 ways. (Gone are the days of a free one? You can’t argue with half price though during COVID days. Nice of them to offer THAT!)
The She-Haven Before and After
I worked really hard on the She-Haven the last two days. Are you ready for the before and after? It’s not TOTALLY finished but I will show you more pics as I add the “final touches” – which is a table, a throw, a colorful pillow, and I will add another floor lamp to the room b/c I moved the one by my desk to be able to have a reading light in the chair. I miss the light by my desk now, but no fret – those floor lamps are cheap at like $29.99 at Target. Yep it’s on order.
BEFORE / CORNER 1
AFTER / CORNER 1
So it will look better when the throw and the pillow are added and the side table and would honestly have taken a better pic if it were sunny out and not night. Since “functionality” played a part I tried not to hyperventilate over the “whiteboard” where it is. It’s a “thinking” corner too so I left it there. Started to move it but it would just start an avalanche of other moves. I decided to just be happy with it. The white board is easy to access there.
BEFORE / DESK and CORNER 2
AFTER / DESK and CORNER 2
Not a lot of change. The floor lamp is missing and the rug is scooted back. Area cleaned up a bit. And you can see a table on the left wall that I moved around.
BEFORE / CORNER 3
AFTER / CORNER 3
Not a huge noticeability here. Since I had functionality as a goal for the office, I decided that having camera equipment in the corner was totally OK. I can quickly grab it without a lot of fuss. I got rid of the plastic drawers. I put the “Choose Happy” in the den for now as it’s slightly off the colors of my office. It’s more the colors of my blog, lol. I decided I really needed to keep the plastic filing system as that is convenient for me and I can keep important papers as well as some “idea files”.
I left the 5 lbs of fat on the table to remind me that even losing 5 lbs is that much gone! I also decided that despite how the silver table kinda stands out – I really need it and it provides function so I am keeping it in the room. I think it worked better here than I thought it would. And the files fit underneath it and that made me really happy.
BEFORE CORNER 4
AFTER / CORNER 4
SO of course the Christmas stuff has been removed and the chair put in it’s spot. Roger’s bed had been improved, that plastic drawer as mentioned is gone. The last two pics overlap a bit. Notice I added a fisherman’s hook or whatever that thing is by the Cafe pic. I went shopping downstairs for that one.
Yes there is a guitar in the picture. We have more guitars than we do rooms with corners, LOL. I may ask if I can switch it to a different one though that will go with the room more!
I LEFT THE CLOSETS OPEN FOR A REASON.
I needed the shelves to be part of my office extension.
Ooops I forgot to get a before shot of the closet in a photo. I did in my video version for the vlog but anyway, here is the AFTER.
The top shelf remains George’s. I need to move his microphone up but hey, maybe I’ll use it sometime, LOL. I need to move some things around still on that middle shelf but it has my Canon box which is empty and not really needed but I keep the boxes to my equipment and devices most of the time. My letters for my message board – OH the sign is in the floor and I need to hang it up but decided to wait til floor lamp comes in so the floor lamp doesn’t block it. My weights I left in here b/c the rug in the middle of the floor can provide an exercise spot! I can do a YouTube video.
So….that lower shelf – on the left is my laptop – windows based. Sometimes if we travel or I want to just sit in a chair instead of a desk, I’ll use it instead of my iMac. It also has Paint Shop Pro on it. So I’m keeping it. And the little basket has greeting cards. The middle basket is just device accessories for phone, earbuds, my older camera, etc.
Here’s some pics.
The larger basket holds just some office supplies – sticky notes, push pins, clips, command strips and book marks. I don’t use a lot of office supplies for what I do in here but needed someplace to put a few things.
Don’t laugh at the mess. But I put the shopping bags from like Target, Walmart, etc in this “world bag” to use as trash bags for my little silver trash can in the office. This was supposed to be a laundry bag, but my goodness, it wouldn’t hold even a day’s worth of dirty clothes hardly. So I needed a different use. Wish I didn’t have to have my off season clothes in here but they have to go somewhere! And this is easy.
I’m pretty happy the way it all turned out.
I watched a show and had a small pizza at lunch sitting in my chair!
I read some too in Kate Chastain’s Lucky Charming book about being a stewardess in the yachting/boating industry. I think I’m watching Sailing Zatara on YouTube above. I didn’t realize what on earth was on my iMac screen when I took the pic! LOL They are so funny on that show but the recent one they were dodging a hurricane.
Today was productive otherwise. I had synergy in the day – meaning it all flowed together. Laundry, ironing, taking Christmas stuff downstairs, working on the office, got nails and toes done, Target order done, and got the telephoto lens ordered this weekend. Also opened my new filters George got me and made sure they fit the lens. They fit the one that came with the camera kit which is the main one that is good to shoot from – as far as a general lense is concerned for most uses – it doesn’t fit the wide angle but the wide angle I mainly use indoors anyway. I feel accomplished getting things done and in order and in control. We had just been away for two Saturdays and the ones before that were all Christmas related and just busy.
So it feels really good to be able get all this done!
And it’s not the most beautiful office in the world, but it’s my office. It’s my She-Haven and I’m happy with my Space. It’s set up to serve a purpose! My “corner” will look even better when the table, throw, and pillow arrives. They yellow pillow matches my yellow desk chair and will tie the room’s colors together.
Ahhhhh, now to download Big Sur, but have to get the back up drive first. Then after that I can start on the next video.
Happy Halloween! Hard to believe that tomorrow is November! And today starts our Christmas Shopping! We have plans that are forming and changing right up to the last minute.
As for yesterday. It was an intense and busy Friday, frantically trying to cover as much ground as possible with the little time I was given to try and get returns filed. I made more ground than I realized this week. And not as behind as I thought – maybe a little more behind than normal but I think I have about two more days of work to go. Only down to the state that we are always a day or two late on, Oregon.
The major return that I normally struggle with a bit, the 941 return was filed though. It was complicated and stumped everyone else too because of the COVID numbers and credits. I was confused as to what number I was supposed to arrive to. I did the return but was it right? You have to matching numbers in your payroll reports to what you see on the screen in the report. lol. It was confusing but I was thankful to have help.
I have a very good and patient boss and teacher. She is so good with me and my personality. She knows I can do things, she knows I get better when I have good notes and that although it may be a slow go at this field I was never “colleged in”. She knows that I will eventually learn the task and can do it on my own. I used to have to have help with Oregon but I can do that one now. It once took three of us to get it done, lol. I balanced the first time yesterday on the unemployment, withholding, trimet, and WBF tax return – it’s an all in one. (But still there is an STT tax thing that has to be filed. And then I have to do all of the same for our Transport company.)
But my boss was very patient with me yesterday knowing I was freaking out late afternoon. I burst out with “I need to start getting this information sooner” and setting boundaries of “Now I can’t stay past dark by myself!” as the fear began pushing in. I wondered if she rolled her eyes inside at my stress (I probably would have if I was my supervisor, lol) – but if she did I didn’t see it. I am thankful that she lets me vent for a minute knowing that I will do so and then I will go on to finish said task. Some supervisors would just sit and argue and judge you over what you just said or vented, but she gets it and lets me just get it out and lets me go on.
I know I have to be frustrating sometimes when I get stressed and honestly a bit angry for having to rush at the last minute when I’m the last domino piece of the quarter end puzzle. And I don’t want to let us down. But this time there were a lot of things going on, and a lot of things that had to come together before the data was ready for me to do my part. Then when it was time to do my part there was not much time left. Could we have planned this better? I don’t know. It is and has been out of my control. I was good until I really needed a “mask” over my mouth in the last hour or two as I vented my frustrations.
If we could do a bit more planning and have little icons set on a timeline that we have to be this far along by certain times in the month or we won’t finish on time – maybe the last minute crunch could be avoided. But there were new types of twists to this one that made things go awry. So….I’m not sure it could have been helped. Of course I pulled the rabbits out of the hat, ate lunch at my desk, prayed, prioritized, and did what I could to make up for it and was pleased that I made lemons out of a sauerkraut situation, LOL LOL. I don’t know where these things come from – they just pop in my head when I’m typing. How one can compare tax returns to sauerkraut is beyond me. I relate everything to food.
So back to the 11th hour…..As I mentioned it was a bit frantic as I had my day planned out but was redirected to do another return instead and rattled me a bit as it was the end of the day. I made notes that we need to try and NOT do that one at the end of the day but at the beginning of the day and I made notes that there are things I can have figured in advance to make it easier during the time crunch. I frustratingly called George and told him I’d be late, and it made me mad that suddenly at 4 p.m. I was just now realizing my night (our plans) was to be blown, but I was able to pull out of it more quickly than I thought. But…it meant I was not going to get through with the other things I was working on -gosh darnit. And then my email was exploding I got about 25 PTO forms at the very last minute as one of our plants had a power outage earlier in the week but decided to put those off til Monday to get ready for payroll.
I should do a procrastination post. I think most everyone lives in a procrastination world. That is so…..against my nature. I could probably title this post Procrastination as the opposite of it would have made for a better day for everyone. But it’s ok….I’m sure I procrastinate in some areas of my life too. And After all our plans were not ruined. I had done what I could with the time allotted, and wasn’t going to be able to focus and function beyond that point with accuracy. So I left at the time I normally do.
Dizzy Dizzy Dizzy
And yeah, There’s more to the story. I worked yesterday with dizziness, sweats, shakiness, and nearly passed out or stroked out or something around 1 or so. I have been doing my 16 hours of fasting and then eating in an 8 hour window of the day. It worked really well for two days! I could feel my body releasing fat, toxins, my tummy getting flatter, and felt great. I had found the way to do it w/o having to cleanse all day. But yesterday, I had water and fruits drink and then when I ate, because I was trying to eat quick, I ate starchy things – carrots with honey french dressing, mac and cheese cup, and two slices of bacon – oh and an oreo cookie. Odd weird lunch I know. Then a few minutes later while filing a return, everything turned upside down and I began to feel out of control like I was about to pass out or just disconnect from the world. I grabbed the desk and put my head down and drank water and ate nuts for quick protein.
So I had gone from not eating, to eating a bunch of everything that was sugar or starch that would turn into sugar. I think my system was shocked by it. This incident made me realize this is what was happening all those times I was dizzy across my life – and I can picture each time it happened, where I was and how it made me feel was just like what I experienced yesterday. And it’s the big reason why I’m afraid to be hungry or miss a meal. It’s the reason I overeat. It’s because I’ve always tried to avoid this happening. I remember these times in my life when this happened:
College dorm, had been waiting to eat knowing we were going out later in the day for pizza. I drank a sweet tea in the lobby while waiting to be picked up.
Working at Cain Sloan, a busy morning and didn’t eat properly- I’m sure I had a coke or something and then BAM. This is the biggest one though – I was dizzy for two days and had a hard time walking after this dizzy spell as it messed with my balance. It was the day before the Challenger exploded. I remember as I was home trying to recover and regain balance and clear vision and balance.
Driving to Columbia with Katy in the car to my sister’s shower. Didn’t eat much knowing that we were going to eat later. Probably sipped on some kind of sweet drink on the way and bam. I recovered quickly and was able to get to the right lane where I chose to stay in case it happened again.
At the movie theatre and mall at Hundred Oaks. We didn’t eat breakfast as we were going to an early matinee around noon and then eat after. I decided I’d cut calories by no breakfast and just eat popcorn and coke. Bam! I had to send Katy to tell George to hurry and get me a taco fast as I was about to pass out. Dizzy, sweat, everything going black. Protein brought me back.
The day we went to Cheekwood, and I skipped lunch as we were going out to eat. Not sure if I had anything sweet or not but got the shakes really bad and felt out of control. We had to get something to eat in a hurry while waiting for friends to join us.
The day we had a late brunch with a lot of starches and I topped it off with a pancake and syrup. BAM! Had to get George to take us through a fast food place where I could get a burger and eat the meat off the bun to bring me back.
Why is this backward from everyone else that has to have sugar to bring them back? Like orange juice. I have to eat protein to be brought back to normal. Anyway, I can’t do this again. I realize now what is causing it. Not eating for a stretch, followed by eating sugar/starch and not much protein.
So why did not do this while cleansing? I was following their system and eating some small thing every hour all day long and they had it built in where you wouldn’t have sugar highs or lows. I’m not sure which it is. I think I’m just getting opposite extremes and my system can’t handle it. Momma told me this might happen and I shooed her thoughts away but she was right. So no more fasting like that.
Instead of going home, I pushed through for the sake of quarter end processing. I knew I had to pull my part of the puzzle. But another reason we need to NOT try and do things last minute. Now we are all much older, I have a Momma older than me that will begin need much more care, and we will have a new Grandson soon. So procrastination could prove to be a nasty notch on the wheel if selected as the course of option always. One never knows when you have a situation that will take you away that will put a kink in everything planned, and then there is payroll. So double trouble. This is why I like to get things done early! You are in a better position for life to happen.
But no worries and no more fasting! That will at least help. If I’d known that I could have had a nice breakfast yesterday! LOL. Dang it!
I’d rather be fat and happy than stroked out and dizzy.
And since I stayed at work, as bad as I felt, I pushed through our plans to go to the new restaurant in town, MEMO’s.
I kinda felt like I was put through a grinder of sorts and spit out the other end of the work week, and it was odd sitting there at the restaurant with George on the other side of me. Wow. All I could think of was taxes, returns, numbers, files, computer, calculator, desk, pens. Now I’m plunked down in a restaurant with a drink in my hand and no words. All I could say was “How was your day?” I had no brain left. Not much energy and was looking very forward to those fajitas! Protein, my friend!
We were so excited when it arrived, I apparently didn’t take a picture, LOL. But I did get the drinks and yes, even after yesterday’s debacle with the fasting, I had dessert. If I have a lot of protein I can handle it. So we got the Mexican Cheesecake.
For a few I came back to life and suggested to watch a movie when we got home. But on the way home I told George, I couldn’t do it. Couldn’t focus, just needed to play Candy Crush and go to bed. Dang it I left those clothes in the washer -was trying to get ahead and now need to reboot it and let it wash again most likely.
Well I slept for a couple of hours and then woke up about an hour after George came to bed. I think about midnight or so. I kept hearing noises that didn’t sound familiar – full moon, booms and bangs in the night, a door shutting, a window being pried open. Who knows, but with each noise the imagination gets bigger. I had a home intruder envisioned in my brain. I got up to look outside. Imagine the horror when my sleepy eyes transfixed on the sun room door that was opened a few inches wide. What? I thought my eyes were betraying me – surely not. I went to another window for a closer look. And YES THE SUN ROOM DOOR was open!
I quickly jumped back in bed – the easiest way to get to George in a king size bed. He was sleeping good. Real good. Snores and all. I kept trying to wake him. It took three tries and alarmed him as I said the sun room door is open and I’m scared someone is in the house or has been.
He got up, I grabbed my phone and had the dial pad open where I could easily call 911 without fumbling. He grabbed the gun and began going forward and looking everywhere. We did not see anyone. I was rattled. I could not go to sleep until 4 a.m. Was anyone hiding somewhere? I played Candy Crush, drank SleepyTime Tea and waited for either morning or a burglar surprise – I wasn’t sure which. I just prayed. And at 4 a.m. when I knew people would start to stir across the neighborhood that we were nearing the safer hours and I crawled back in bed and slept until 8. George put double doors between Maisy and me so she wouldn’t wake me up.
The coffee is good, the blogging is good and I’m going for a second cup, a shower and then we are off to Lebanon TN for the day to shop and eat! And oh yeah, I’ll be grabbin a bit of something before I go. Likely an egg. I’ve been craving an egg sandwich all week. Maybe I’ll do an egg on whole grain – just once slice. Geez!
I think I’ll take my camera and keep it around my neck for our adventures today. What a beautiful day for some shots around the square!