Trying to Stay Positive in a Negative World

Awww, Katy was in the “Buckaroo” News in her home town. She and several teachers did a parade through town past students homes to honk and wave while they continue to be out of school due to the COVID-19 virus. The fireman led them.

Being that the world has slid sideways, I thought I’d start sharing some of our vacay pics. Hopefully none are repeats but it seemed like I had to skip over some just for the sake of being able to get a blog entry out each day. Here’s some shots from the Mercantile in Pawhuska, at Ree Drummond’s store.

I wanted one of those mugs sooooo bad. But do you know how many mugs we have in the house? I could drink about two months out of mugs and coffee containers w/o having to wash anything. I love cute coffee cups. I. have had to get rid of some of the less favorite to be able to keep the most favorite. But I love these. I just would not let myself do it.

The bathrooms were gorgeous.

I just had to take a pic. It was on silent. But I’m laughing now b/c someone’s feet are on my blog. I bet they have no idea! lol. And there was plenty of TP. No one hoarding in Pawhuska.

I wanted this rust colored top. But it is open in the front. I don’t have a lot of shirts to wear under things like that. I knew it would sit in my closet forever before I ever went out and tried to find something to wear under it. So I didn’t buy it. If it had been a tunic – it would have been mine! I love that rust color though.

This reminded me of Maisy. And the one below reminded me of Roger.

I loved the cow pillow. I could have bought up the whole store. And of course I thought of my Nanny Voss because she collected bulls. It was a joke really. Grandaddy bought a bull for his farm and she through a fit b/c they are dangerous. She was afraid he would be killed on the farm. When she said it front of me I burst out crying b/c just the mention of losing my grandaddy…..sent me wailing. He was my big buddy. I think he got the bull. And so did Nanny. Because from then on, everyone gave her bulls for Christmas. lol. She had a curio of bulls. I have her purple head bobbing bull! It doesn’t bob anymore but I have it. As for the pic below. It kinda looks like a bull but not sure if it is.

I took that shot because Katy’s town she lives in, in Breckenridge, the school sports teams are know as “the Buckaroos”. And apparently the newspaper is called that too. You see Buckaroo this and Buckaroo that.

The store was fun to shop in. I loved every minute of being there. I think I shared the meal we had with you already in a previous post. I won’t post again, but the food was excellent.

The upstairs was nice and relaxing and contained a big room with lots of seating and a bakery at the end.

I loved this spot. I could sit here and read and ponder and play games on the iPad. As long as there was a stool to put my feet up. I loved those windows.

Hopefully that brought you some joy. I feel like we all need that right now. Everyone in the world seems to be on edge, stressed, upset, confused, snappy, angered, snoopy, suspicious, accusing, backbiting, slandering, trolling, fussing, worried, selfish, unkind.

If you are lucky enough to find some folks that are in control, appreciative, kind, consoling, understanding, giving, thankful and grateful, God-led, encouragers, truthful, loving, pleasant, righteous seeking, positive, hopeful, spirit minded folk – stick with them because they are hard to find in our worlds these days. I am blessed by the ministers and pastors that give comfort while scrolling Facebook, giving live feeds – because most of our days are filled with negative news, negative results, and burdened with problems and mounting issues.

So news from New York that their peak is not going to be until July? Well, it’s just all over then. I keep thinking when April is over, or June. Now we are hearing July. Because we are going to peak after them right? I still keep thinking the heat of the summer here in the South will kill this protein germ with a fatness around it’s edge. The heat of the summer around here will kill nearly anything but ticks and fleas!

Much to my surprise George was pretty livid about me going in to work. I had no idea he was THAT upset over it, but apparently he had been thinking on it and he was pretty hot about it yesterday. However, he looked up the laws and there are loopholes so not really anything one can do. We both agreed we were lucky to have a job still as we are about the only people, besides the lawyer, that were still working. Everyone else laid off and to be fair, some are retired. His response was “what good does it do for you to be working and then get it and die or give to me and die”. True that. I just told him “look the situation is what it is and we have to trust God on this”. It is what it is. It could be worse. I could be in the medical field. Thank goodness I’m not. I could be laid off. Thank goodness I’m not. It really doesn’t matter what situation you are in, none of it is good.

And to top things off the stress of the situation is making me go into a diverticulitis state. I am having pains this morning and I truly hope that I can squeak out of a full blow attack. I am probably not going to be eating much today. I’ve had too much pasta and bread.

Anyway, I need to get ready, get packed and head on into work to do a check run. I’m just doing the check run to get 8 checks cut and then coming home and doing everything else from here to at least minimize being around others. Do you know how many times I wanted to just bust out crying yesterday? I mean it just gets worse every day. This battle b/w fear and faith. And everything in between. There is so much negative out there that it becomes a struggle to see the light at the end of the tunnel. But it will be there. Yes, it may be the light to enter His holy kingdom for those that don’t survive it, but hopefully we will all get through this. I want to live to see my grandchildren.

Waffle Robe and Update

I figured I should pop in and say hello. It’s hard to work the time in during the week as I try to be at work earlier rather than later, but here I am. I am sipping some really good coffee wrapped in my new waffle robe. I wanted to try it now. Normally I make myself go ahead and get dressed once out of the shower. I will say it’s mighty comfy. It is the type they have for you at spas. And for $29.99 and a comfy 60/40 cotton/poly blend – can be put in the washer with no fear. I tried to save a picture off of Amazon to put on here, but….hopefully you can view this link. WAFFLE ROBE. Hopefully it is taking you to it instead of trying to go through my sign on in which it would just leave you with the main amazon web page. Sorry no time for taking photos this morning. I love it though. I had a big furry robe and finally had to let it go b/c it was too hot and too bulky and wouldn’t stay closed. I found a similar one on line:

Mine is beige though and no blue lines but very similar to this. I love the feel of it and the simplicity and the lack of bulkiness. I should have had one of these a LONG time ago. I discovered them when we went to the Hot Springs in Arkansas. I loved the robes and honestly didn’t want to take it off, lol. We looked for one in the gift shop and they didn’t have them. I figured they would be $60 or so. I didn’t want to pay that much but we probably would have bought it as a souvenir/Christmas gift had we found one. I made a mental note to see if I could find one after Christmas so I’d have a robe on the weekends to run around in. There have been several Saturdays where I showered but didn’t want to put on my “out to eat” clothes yet as I was cleaning house and didn’t want to put on comfy clothes just for a couple of hours. A robe would have been perfect for that transition time. And now I have it.

My “Cactus Ware” (decor) for the kitchen came in – all but the curtains and the big black board for menu planning. They will be a while as I figure they are coming over on a slow boat from China. lol. Last night I began “gathering” a lot of my Christmas decor with breakables on the dining room table and the non breakables on the living area sofa and end tables. So this weekend all I need to do is box it up and wrap up the breakables and disassemble the tree and dust and then put the normal decor out.

It is supposed to rain something horrible this weekend. I just went to check the weather app I downloaded and perhaps I never downloaded it. It’s not there. I guess I never decided which one to use. The one I have on my phone is not available on the Mac. So I can’t be having THAT – no weather program – lol. And I did a search for “best weather app on iMac” and the Weather Dock was one. Carrot Weather is a funny one for 14.99 but I wasn’t sure I’d be up for that. I just dowloaded the Free Weather Dock and shows the temp and conditions at the bottom. It’s simple but I don’t see the radar. I guess I have to find another app for that. Oh well. Not today. I could have sworn I downloaded a weather app a week ago. It’s no big deal I can just pin the weather channel site to my favorites I guess.

This week has been busy at night. It’s always busy at work. But at night I’ve had places to go and things to try and get done. I went to the store Monday night. And knocked a few things off my list. Tuesday night I went to see Little Women with Christy, my neighbor, and it was good. Last night was laundry nite – folding, rebooting, ironing, and putting everything up and washing George’s shirts for the next two days for work. And as I said, I picked up most of the Christmas decor and plunked it down in the front living/dinging area. I love doing that each year. And I always miss something. It’s like hunting Easter eggs or Finding Waldo, or playing a hidden item game. Where is all the Christmas decor? Go find it! lol. I’ve been itching to do that since the day after Christmas. Not all done yet but much of it. At 9:30 p.m. I had to quit and go to bed.

So, it’s been very sad this week. My next door neighbor – younger than me – lost consciousness during her sleep after her husband noticed after snoring, she quit breathing. He gave her CPR and called 911. She is alive, however, I’m not sure how awake she is or how her brain has survived the lack of oxygen. We know very little. I saw it on Facebook. George saw the son walking the dog the other day and learned a bit, but didn’t press for complete details of course – as being the son, this is most definitely very upsetting. I don’t really know what to do at this point. She is in ICU downtown Nashville somewhere (not even sure which hospital). The family is gone all the time of course – no doubt downtown. At some point maybe we will take food, when we know it’s a good time to do so. This happened last weekend I think – on Saturday. Found out Sunday night seeing a FB post. I’m friends with her on FB but not anyone else in the family so only see details if someone posts on her wall or tags her in a post. I need to go look today and see if any updates. She has been on my mind all week.

Also that means there are 3 people that I know of since the holidays that have almost died or did die, when going to sleep. It makes you think differently when lay down to close your eyes. While perhaps a more peaceful way to go, it has just been a very sad “too close to home” kinda thing. And a girl at work lost her 9 year old niece as well after having a fall and then going to sleep. It’s just all very disturbing and I feel for all those dealing with these things right now in their families. So please pray for these three families.

And here I sit talking about how I like my waffle robe. I do. I mean regardless of the blog material today, I do still like it, lol.

Anyway, I need to go and get dressed, get make up on and get to work. A lot to do as always. I’ve done the weekly taxes for the week, the monthly by the 15th for Dec that was due. Now I have to do the quarterly w/holdings that I pay only quarterly. Then I will be looking up info needed to do a reconciliation report. And can begin my “filing” of each state. Most states have some extra Year End report you have to do as well. I have a list of those. Then I have to do the unemployment filing. So no shortage of work.

Also Katy and I have been talking about our next excursion for mother daughter trip. I think we’ll be going to Tulsa and then going to the town where the Pioneer Woman’s shop is. Not sure what all there is to do in and around Tulsa, but I guess we will find out. I think we have picked the date as well, so I’ll be putting in PTO time for that and booking a flight soon. It’s not a month where I’m dealing with quarter end and I’ll also be only taking a Thurs/Friday off.

We also have our date selected with Don and Lisa for February for a French themed dinner. So we are researching foods for that. Several things pending with other friends. I have rebooked my dental cleaning for like July – if you miss it you are waiting months for it but I didn’t want to go in the middle of the day. lol. Work was too busy on Jan 2nd for me to have a dental appointment and be late and then have a hair appt and leave early. Somehow I’d not realized this was all scheduled on the 2nd of Jan until a couple of weeks before the holiday. So I had to cancel the dental one and finally rebooked. I wasn’t going to cancel the hair one. I probably should have cancelled the hair one, lol.

Anyway, also have scheduled my doc appt for the BP med refills. That is next week. But must be done so I can get the refills. And I’m waiting on the vet on the April dog trims. You have to book a long time in advance and she didn’t respond yet. It said it was delivered. I texted. If no response by Monday, I’ll call. I thought maybe she would be good with texting but maybe not. My previous one did.

So looking forward to Saturday and it seems like it should be here by now. Hope I’m not late today but I have dog duty, still have to get dressed and make up and hair done. But I’ve been to work early every day this week and stayed late a couple of days so if I’m running behind one day it should be no big deal.

Anyway ya’ll have a good day and I will, Lord willing, be back on the weekend for an update. I’m soooooooo looking forward to being at home all weekend with this several inches of rain we have coming in.

Haircut Woes and Birthday Joys

Hey there! I realized since I did my Year in Review post, I had not posted about our dinner at Aunt Gwen’s who we lovingly call “OAG”, for Old Aunt Gwen, when George taught Katy to call her that for fun when she was tiny. It stuck. We had a nice time at Gwen’s. Her house beautifully decorated, conversation always fun, and her lasagna makes me long for the recipe. We did this on the 30th of Dec.

Our November and December has been such a whirl that I don’t know which way is up. It’s been fun, exciting, but I’m worn out. My next goal in life is to get caught up on sleep and rid myself of the dark circles and puffiness under my eyes where I’ve had so much on every to do list that it has hampered my ability to sleep. I think the brain has to have “think time”. And when you don’t get it – you wake in the night doing it. In the couple of days I’ve tried to use my drive time as think time so that my mind can just ramble through what it needs to. I’ve also ignored my to do list since the 1st b/c every moment has had something planned this week so no free time to try and knock anything out.

Why is time always a problem and why do we always try to fill our time up? Are we afraid we are going to be bored?

Mom and Dad

Mom posted a pic this week on Facebook of her and Dad back about when they were first married. I didn’t have that pic. I do now! 😉

George’s ham pot pie

I don’t think I have posted this here. Forgive me if I have. I think I only posted to Facebook but George made this with the leftover ham. It was really good.

Roger and Little Bit’s “Stare Down”

Roger and Little Bit had a “Stare Down” this week. Roger won. The stare down lasted for two or three minutes it seemed. Maybe it was just one or two but it seemed forever. George kept telling Roger to stop it but he can’t hear. I really didn’t think it was a big deal, but I guess George knew what was going to happen. One of them finally moved and the cat ran out and Roger chased him – both going at lightning speed. It was pretty funny. Especially since Roger is so timid and laid back and friendly and often scared of Little Bit in Little Bit’s turf (outside on the porch). Inside, Roger had the lead and confidence and ran him out of the room.

New Year’s Day was nice. It was just a total forget the world, forget the to do list, forget everything day. I did what I wanted – didn’t even do laundry and usually I want to do that. I played on the new iMac – still kinda setting up some things and figuring it out. I will be for a while. I also watched some YouTube shows on the iMac, having brought a comfy chair in and setting up a make shift foot stool. George laughed. I think he was laughing as I was using it as a TV. I mostly think he’s happy I’m enjoying my gift. I also took a nap and then it was dinner time. And I believe we watched Below Deck. On New Year’s Eve we watched a Julia Roberts movie (directed by Tom Hanks and also he was one of the main characters.) I’d never heard of “Larry Crowne”, which I enjoyed even though the ratings reportedly were not as good as hoped.

On the 2nd, it was hair cut day. If this were a conversation I’d say “don’t get me started”. I’ve grown my hair out for many months now to get out of the “feathered” stage and have long layers, so that I could get a different type of cut than what I usually get.

Me, on Ugly Sweater Day at Christmas time.

So I have increasingly had a problem styling the back as it grew, but I liked it long on the top. So I picked out these hair styles below to give to my hair stylist as an example, of keeping it long on the top and short in the back.

Me, after Hair Cut
Ya’ll don’t get a big pic of this – I look horrible in this pic!

However, I ended up with a feathered hair cut again like always. I was so upset. I cried when I got home. It took so long to grow the top out of the feathers I had before. I guess I will google what makes your hair grow (in foods) and eat that for two months. lol I would never want to hurt her feelings but I think the stylist knew I wasn’t happy. She left it long in front of my ears like a bob at first but since the top was so short I didn’t like that and had to get her to cut that off. I cut more of it off when I got home. And I’ve never been one that liked the style of longer hairs in the front hanging down like fangs or wings. The long part was supposed to be on top. Anyway, you can’t glue on cut hair so it is what it is.

I wasn’t sure how it was going to look but I did not like the style, so I came home and stuck my head under the bathroom faucet and poured water on it and restyled it. It looked better styled with a round brush to give it body and make it look longer. But it was ruined already. The tears just poured. I think I look horrible with the cut. It makes my nose and cheeks look big. The longer layers distract from that. I had wanted to keep it longer on top like the pictures showed and just have the back shorter at the nape of my neck. I had been so excited for weeks about this cut.

George, knowing he had a crises on his hands the day before my birthday, tried to cheer me up by giving me a birthday card to open that had come in the mail that day. The timing was impeccable.

I don’t “still got it” but at least the message made me laugh. And with descriptives using my middle initials. How sweet. I DO wish I could have that dogs head of hair and start over.

Anyway I look like an old woman that I am I guess – birthday at 57 and short butchy hair cut feathered all over. I’ve a good mind to go ask Rod Stuart how to just spike it up all over and do that til it grows out. I’m at such a loss. But, I’ve got to do something different. But what? Nothing? I guess it just has to grow and I’ll just have to get over it. I have some research to do I guess to try and find someone that thinks they can do this cut. I really didn’t think it was that difficult of a cut. I just don’t want heavily feathered hair like a bird. I want long soft layers.

OK anyway, it is what it is and it will grown and I will get over it, but I cannot control my feelings and I’m very disappointed. I think it’ll take about six months to get the layers on top back down to a reasonable size. I will probably like the cut better in a couple of weeks. Right now it is just so tight against my head that it’s hard to even get any body in it. So looking on the bright side: Getting ready in the mornings sure will be quick. lol And I don’t want to hurt the stylist’s feelings. She is a good person and I can’t account for what went wrong. I just can only account for my disappointment. It was evident by my reaction. I also have decided not to color it again due to where I had that surgery. So I’m afraid it might be seeping in. It seeps in the pores anyway and I just don’t want the chemicals in my body anymore. So I will begin to look old soon. If not already by this cut. I must go back on the shakes in a serious way to get rid of those fat cheeks!

Deer in the back yard upon arrival home

Yesterday – my Birthday was fun. The first thing I thought of when I was drinking coffee is that I would order myself some Cracker Barrel on line and pick it up 45 minutes later on the way to work. Cracker Barrel is 2 min away from my office. I got there in record time but had to wait like 30 minutes. I would have had time to get seated and eat almost. I did have some time to shop and bought a plant. They had some great deals and I needed to get out of there before I bought lots of clothes.

I did buy the plant. Of course it wasn’t on sale. But it was my birthday and I had blow money left. lol

It meant so much to me that Lauren brought over a little gift. Also had conversations with friends Tracy and Mia and others who went out of their way to say Happy Birthday. Of course there were lots of messages from family, nice little messages and texts from church buddies. We have not been in a while since I usually just worship on the go – in the car or office as church takes a 1/2 of a day, and with my psyche, I just need down time. But nice to hear from them. I really didn’t think they had missed us. lol Anyway Facebook was fun. That Story thing was new where people add a birthday message to your story. That was nice. I liked that.

After work I got my nails done and they needed it desperately. They tried to charge me too much though but it was a misunderstanding they said. No problem I let them know it was wrong, lol.

Then we went out to eat Mexican last night at Margarita House. What a crowd. It was good though. Once inside someone dropped a big huge trey of dishes in the hallway. Scared all of us to death as it was really loud. I guess everyone was turning to look at my hair cut and they had a mishap. lol. JK

Anyway, we came home and I watched some of my shows on the big TV. I just needed to zone out for a bit. Had been a long hectic day of looking up over a 100 people’s PTO’s – coding them and having to figure their PTO’s using last week’s report and subtracting out this week’s report which had the last week’s PTO used on it – so I didn’t allow PTO to go through that wasn’t used while our PTO system is “under construction” for the adjustments that take place end of year. Thank goodness next week it should be back to normal. If not I’ll be looking at three reports to get totals, lol. Also keeping a tracking list of the hundred folks that took PTO on the 30th or 31st or both so those can be tracked out of their 2020 totals. So a time consuming day and the more forms I did the more forms that were sent. I thought I’d never get through. Biggest PTO week ever since I’ve been in PR. Didn’t have time to work on tax stuff for monthly, quarterly, or year end stuff. The next few weeks I will have to come in early, stay as late as I feel comfortable doing without people being there. And probably will not have much lunch time just to get through. It will be a busy month work wise. The busiest ever I think. The last two weeks were holiday weeks and they were pretty nutty.

So here we are to the current day of Jan 4th. George and I are going to do some birthdaying at some point and I’ll let you know how that goes. We also do Christmas and birthdaying with my SIL and BIL tomorrow. So much fun ahead. But today I need to go so I can get laundry done and work on the house some. I’ve not had time to do laundry all week – well I could have done it on New Year’s Day but didn’t.

Oh, George gave me $85 in credits for Amazon to order what I wanted. And that along with the $50 Mom gave me, I have ordered some new tennis shoes (two pair), some lipstick (2 colors), and some body wash lotion for winter, and also some cute kitchen dish rags. George took the other $85 for him on Amazon. We split our money back from ordering things on Amazon. I think that is so cool. I bet Target and Walmart wished they had been more successful with their online shopping. I just got tired of them not having what I wanted and they changed to that Shipt program where you have to pay the service. So it began to not be worth it to me anymore. I just buy at the grocery now since I go to buy fresh foods anyway and pet food. I know that Amazon has their own Prime Pantry or whatever, but I’ve still been able to find what I need through Amazon almost perfectly even food at times. I’m not paying for additional services through shopping unless it’s a major thing for me. Amazon is enough. The rest I’ll just go buy in person.

Maisy girl Ready to go to Bed!

She was waiting for me to go to bed last night. And for her “meat treat” from George. She knows the routine. I get up, grab my phone, get water for bedside table, and take her out and they get a meat treat while I brush teeth and wash my face, and then she comes to the bedroom about the time I get in the bed so she can join me. We talk and play a bit and I rub her tummy and she licks my hand for more. Finally when I say “let’s go seepy” She will move over onto George’s side and we snooze.

Snoozin’ was good last night but I did have weird dreams when sleeping in this morning. Anyway better go get that laundry started. Hope I don’t get this long hair caught in anything! LOL