Post Vacation Chaos

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Ahhhhh, that surge of energy post vacation on Monday has waned. I really think the culprit was Monday night, trying to push through and ended up staying up 2 hours past bed time and it really destroyed me for Tuesday and today.

So we got home mid afternoon Sunday. It took a while to get everything from the car to the house and to the rooms they go in. We removed things from suitcases but that doesn’t mean anything really went anywhere. Most of it still on beds or in kitchen. I’ve been sorting through and trying to put things where they go. It seems like it would be a simple thing. But there is all the sorting of it and putting it back in its spot. And the pulling of souvenir gifts to those that helped while we were gone.

Then there is the laundry which is always ongoing anyway only all your favorite things are dirty so most of what I needed for work needed to be washed. So I’ve done what laundry I could to give us what we need. My vitamins and supplements and BP meds needed to be redone for the week – I certainly don’t need to throw that by the wayside in this COVID ladened world.

Monday night our neighbor came over and we talked while I cooked dinner. Dinner was late though as I had to also go to the store Monday night. Oh THAT – let’s back up. I was talking to Mom as my Aunt and Uncle are coming up and Mom wanted me to call them to discuss our “getting together plans”- so I got on autopilot and went home instead of the store. Then got up stairs and realized I meant to do the grocery shopping, dropped off my work bag and headed back out. Got to the store and realized my mask was in my work bag. I had taken masks out of my purse to wash them from the trip. Arggghhhh ::sigh::

I was NOT going back home. So I went in and bought a mask and then continued my grocery shopping. No one arrested me or verbally judged me in the interim.

Got back home and it took 3 trips to get the groceries in as George was mowing. Finally got the groceries put up. Of course having to take the BP meds with a water pill on board also means during all of this – a need to GOOOOOO! More than once!

Then my kitchen is horrid as vacation stuff all over to unpack. Most of it still NOT unpacked and in the way in the kitchen. So I moved that over. I washed up and cleaned up the counters. I have to have a clean kitchen to cook. I did the best I could. We had to eat. So I chopped onions and green peppers to get the spaghetti started. And remembered I wanted to call Kate to ask her something. Had just found a station I liked on Alexa but had to stop it to make the phone calls. lol. I did and we talked for a couple of minutes and the doorbell rang. I told Katy I would call her back.

A neighbor came over and I was glad to see and talk to her. We opened a bottle of George’s Chardonnay he bottled and split it between the three of us as George was back from the yard mowing and had showered. We talked and talked. How fun!

I had to finish our dinner though so talked to the neighbor while cooking. Realized I hadn’t been thawing the meat. Dug around in two freezers. Couldn’t find the ground turkey – guess we ate it already. Found some beef in the freezer. Plenty of that. So we have a new microwave as the old one petered out. The defrost is not as nice. Not sure I ever figured out how to make it work. George couldn’t either but finally got the meat thawed. Wow this dinner was more complicated than I thought. Continued to fix spaghetti. Tried to get the neighbor/friend to stay but she was not wanting pasta. It was whole grain and a spinach one, so not as bad as regular pasta but we could not convince her. So she left as we started to fix plates.

We watched Below Deck until half way through when we were finished eating. It was 10:30 and we still had night time routines and dogs to take out.

By 11 or so we were in bed.

At 5:30 Tuesday morning George had to wake me. I was startled and was sleeping good. Darn it. Really? I have to get up?

So rushed around yesterday morning trying to pull myself together. A reboot of the laundry. I felt horrible. But all I could do was push through. I texted both Katy and Aunt Martha – both of whom I was to have conversations with and apologized I never got back to them. I ran out of day.

Then set off to do payroll Tuesday morning, amidst prayers of “Lord please be with me, I’m so tired, don’t let me have a wreck, help me do payroll, help me get through the day please, and give me some energy.”

I got through the day, through payroll, and had just enough energy, caffeine, food, water, and God’s love to get through. A text from Mom by end of work day “call me on the way home”. So off we go and a call to Mom:

“Did you talk to Aunt Martha yet?”

“No ma’am I didn’t get the opportunity yet”.

“Well I need to make plans”

“I know I do too” and I explained last night. She knew we were tired, but asked that I please call and get it worked out.

OK I will.

So got home, rebooted laundry Tues afternoon, folded 3 loads. I have had some time to wash but not to fold. I called Aunt Martha and Mom and made reservations this weekend for a meal out, warning all that we have been to Texas and gas stations and groceries and shops and a gender reveal party with 40-50 other people – outside but everyone came in to use the restroom. It’s not been two weeks. But – even with mixed feelings – all are ok with us going out to eat in a remote location. Well a remote table that is. We’ll see how that goes. Reservations made during laundry folding.

George fixed a cajun dish last night akin to Jambalaya with the smoked sausage and rice and left over green pepper and so forth. It was awesome and I have leftovers for lunch! We tried to finish watching Below Deck but the Xfinity or Comcast or whatever our cable is would not let us “resume” as it has in the past. George let it play thru during dinner so it would be ready but I was on the phone and making reservations and I guess the show reset back to beginning. So George said a choice word at the TV, lol and we gave up and watched Somebody Feed Phil who was in Venice and that was fun to watch.

Ahhhhhh.

So here we are on Wed morning and I’m fairly exhausted. My spirits are high but I’m looking forward to Saturday to get a break. A break I say? We have to go get oil changed for sure and then finish unpacking and doing an intense cleaning of my house. Once all that is done I can start on my “other” to do list.

But oh – after the fairly hot dish George fixed I opened these:

We bought these in Breckenridge and they are so fresh and awesome. Some times you need a “digestive” like the Italians. lol

I’ve had my coffee and off to try and conquer the day. As much as there is at home to catch up on, there is almost as much at work. So off to address this NEEDY world we live in. 😉

I am running about 30 minutes late this morning. This blog entry not helping. But I am sorry, my insane week calls for a calm cup of java while letting out the stress over my words. Either that or combust. So I may be a few minutes late this morning but I’ll be a better person because of it.

And that is all she wrote. 😉

Battery Died, But I Had a Ride

There is no need to make the statement at how weird and odd this year is. I guess 2020 will go down in the books as the year everything tanked. Normally I’d be all over the weather channel, keeping tabs on Isaias. And even though no doubt it as impacted a lot of people, we have been focused on everything going haywire around us while attempting to get ready for vacay. But my heart goes to those that have been impacted and I am sorry I’ve not been able to watch the news on it. Prayers for all!

Yesterday morning, I was determined to get the video out. It’s out. Not sure anyone saw it, or cares, but a few did and I appreciated those that commented as it made my day. I worked hard on it. But I do realize the following:

  1. It’s not going to be my family and friends that will follow, subscribe, and watch. Sure there are a few of you.
  2. It’s not going to be noticeable on Facebook as it might have a few years ago. FB has probably moved certain video platforms to lower viewing status in their efforts to control what’s being said that is doesn’t fit their plans/model (or political status, lol). I say that b/c I can tell which types of posts I get comments on and which ones I do not.
  3. It’s not going to get a lot of recognition on YouTube itself as there is too much competition.
  4. I’m new at it. And don’t really have a lot of skill yet and have basically been doing iPhone videos.
  5. It’ll be a constant improvement – that was the plan all along.
  6. I’m not sure I want masses of people watching it right now anyway, LOL.
  7. And I realize that the vlog watchers are really not even going to be you all that are here. Some of you will, most won’t.
  8. And this is the biggest one: My camp of Vlogger people IS OUT THERE somewhere. I just have to tap into them. And I will. Just not today. I won’t let the stats get me down. For each video I did, I have less views. They are going down and not up, but I just have to find my “Vlogger People” – lol.

So yeah, that took some time getting the Thumbnail up and getting it published. Was determined. And it’s done.

And then I do the dishes b/c I wanted to as they had piled up. George was staying home but I didn’t want him to have to do them. So I rushed through that and barely had time to get down to the car and head out for work so I’d be there early. Burning the candle at the top of the morning to try to get in to work and get extra hours in so no one complains Thursday at our leaving early so we don’t have to be driving late at night.

So I go to start the car and it won’t work. It was the battery. Thank goodness George was working from home for the dishwasher repair guy. So he was able to go and buy a battery at lunch and get the old one out which took coca cola poured on it as the battery was in bad shape and hard to get loose. He got the new one in.

The dishwasher repair guy didn’t come til late in the afternoon. They refused to let George know when they would be there. The guy came and the dishwasher started right up. Apparently something had blocked the thing that spins that allows the water to flow, back when that last load wasn’t done. Geez. All this time we washed dishes by hand and nothing was really wrong with the dishwasher.

So anyway, I had to take this guy into work yesterday. I noticed that George did not offer for me to use his new ride. LOL Naw….I was given the keys to the old Flinstone Mobile.

And yes, I was in a hurry and went to work with it on E. This is after I got to work so it was above the E when I left. Then yesterday when I left work, I forgot to stop at the station near me but luckily made it to Donelson at the Shell. This car is not very good for the interstate. Sometimes you need to be able to go fast to get out of a situation and this car will not provide that service, lol. And it’s a little wobbly. Easy to go left or right. It’s like an old man out of balance. But thankfully it did get me there and back.

I got there and got the payroll done. It was kind of an interruptive and aggravating day yesterday for a payroll day but it finally got done.

By the time I got home I was just spent. But I was relieved that everything was back to normal. Well, as normal as anything can be this year.

I was glad to see my doggies.

We ate something for dinner and I should have been doing the many things I’d planned to do, but I just couldn’t. I hung out on the Mac and social media for some “time off”. And then after dinner I did a few things. The rest I have to do tonight. A lot more has to be done tonight. Tonight’s the final packing night. Tomorrow’s the day. After work. George is off though but I told him I needed to work a few hours. It’s not a vacay day for me but I will have worked my hours for the week and then some Mon thru Thurs morning.

So off of here to get going. I don’t know if I will be posting again tomorrow. Likely not. It may be while we are on the road. I can blog from my phone. But we’ll see. I may be the one driving.

Prayer requests for safe travels, a safe trip all the way around – no Corona virus, no wrecks, a fun time, no car issues. I kinda won’t believe that this vacation will happen until I see us actually arrive in Texas. Not many plans have made it this year. So I’m kindof expecting something will happen to destroy our trip. Yes I’m a realist. This year has show us that plans are useless, but yet we still try. God says always just say Lord Willing. So that is what I will say. We will soon be in Texas, Lord Willing.

It wasn’t just Maisy that crashed hard at bed time. I joined her, then Roger and George. The sleep was good and much needed.

Now off for another day. Wondering what it will bring. I’m scared to ask.

Full Moon Coming and Impacts Felt

The difference in the past week and all the other weeks of late, has just been a little bit crazy. The week before a full moon – everyone gets restless, stirs the pot, and things shift sideways for whatever reason. So it’s not good when all that happens at month end/quarter end. Usually means someone has to wait for something. There is a lot to do, the phone rings off the wall, and everything goes sideways and upside down. Some full moons are worse than others. But with a Pandemic going on and all that – would you expect anything else than a full ON Full Moon? Bless its heart. Bless OUR hearts.

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The full moon not only brings on restlessness it seems, but the horror of things to go wrong or “sideways” as I mention it. The moons gravitational pull shifts things around – that is my explanation of it. So this past week has been no exception. It’s been so big, bad, and busy lately. People upset everywhere, stirring the pot everywhere. So I decided to look at the calendar. Must be a full moon I said to myself. Sure enough. There she sits. By the time the 5th gets here it should be calmed down. It seems to be the 5 to 7days before it where things go awry.

So yesterday, true to the spirit of the Full Moon scenario, I realized I had erased part of our payroll program. I would call it a mistake. I would say it was my fault. But I was following the directions in the instructions that were given to me to a T so as to not make any mistakes. Yet I was the one that pushed the button, so I’m sure my namesake is mud and dirt at this point, creating a lot of work for other people.

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I felt sooooooooo bad. I wanted to dig a hole. I wanted to just cry. I did go to the bathroom and have a small cry. That is how I release stress and emotion. Writing and crying. I mean don’t anyone call 911 or anything. It’ll be ok. But – I mean who wants to create work for others when it is already crazy enough.

The same instructions that I followed this year is why that part of the program didn’t exist last year when I moved into the position. The previous person also had done the same thing and the check history register was not there for the previous year. However, I don’t think anyone really needed it. But this year they do. Go figure. Lucky me. Lucky us.

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So I talked to God about it and while I feel bad, He set me straight. His whispers back to me…. Look, you followed the instructions and the PR system should have controls in place where things like this cannot happen. Don’t beat yourself up for following, what was not verbal, but written instructions. It was not anything for you to apologize for as you had not intentionally set about to do this but intentionally set out to follow instructions as written so as NOT to mess up.

I think my exasperation over this was b/c I had followed the instructions. I felt as if I can’t win for losing. I try hard to do everything JUST right, and I want to make those around me proud of what I do, and easier for them. And so trying as hard as I do, it was just blew my mind. The kind of blowing your mind where you just want to throw your hands up in the air b/c you realize it doesn’t matter how hard you try things will still go awry.

So I didn’t apologize. I sent out the instructions to all concerned and said here you go, if the instructions need to change then yeah, we need to change them. So the instructions are changing, yes. lol

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And I was really upset for about 2 hours, and then decided to have a mourning period over it. Yes you can choose to flip a switch and be happy but it’s kind of like going to a funeral you know — ok not as bad, but you get the idea. When others are suffering it’s not the time to show your joy. So I mourned for about 2 hours. I was not going to be happy if others were having to fix a problem from a button I pushed, even though I was following directions.

Then I put in my headphones and got lost in the music. And became happier within. After all the week is moving on, I do love my job. I do like my coworkers. Life is good, even with coronaviruses and world tension. I can’t really help what others think of me anyway – that’s up to them. I can’t live up to the angelic images of other people’s favorites – all I can do is be me. And if that is not good enough then that is not my issue.

oh and sidebar…putting on the headphones (well, now ear buds as we say) are people magnets. I can be alone for 4 hours but the very minute I put in the ear buds, people come from everywhere! lol lol

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No one has blamed me or been ugly to me in anyway. I cause my own anxiety because I hate it happened. And I’m dismayed with the feeling of “can’t win for losing”. But I am smart enough to realize that it’s not me this time. We have some faulty directions and a system that likely needs more parameters and backups. It’s not a true payroll system as far as like ADP, Ceredian, and so forth – but an internal one. It does pretty good for what it does. But hit a button wrong or enter a date wrong, or simply following directions can sometime cause severe pains.

Anyway, today is my Friday. I’ll not let this consume me. I hate it happened. But the fact that it did will bring improvement on all parts. Because we don’t want that to happen again.

And there are 3 days to the weekend, hopefully enough to recover! Anyway, I do have a LOT to do today. Not sure how much of it will get done. But I’ll do the most important things first and go from there.

I worked on my To Do List when I got home.

Thanks for enduring the photos from professional others via Pexels today as it makes the blog a little more interesting from the standpoint of simply making a point. And I didn’t have any of my own. It’s good to have a visual. The Pexel photos are free stock photos for Word Press website users to use. So just playing around with them today. I like to have my own photos but I’m not going to sit around at work and take various pics of me all day long. Although I have seen that some do! lol

I think George and I are going out to eat tonight at a place that has an outside porch – if it’s full or too hot or rainy we’ll have to eat in and then hope for the best. And then on to run an errand or two and then to the store for our weekend purchases. Then I guess we are in for the weekend.

What are you doing for the 4th? I think we are going to sit and watch fireworks on TV and try to keep Maisy calm!

And off to get my Friday going and one can only HOPE for an upside.

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