Figuring Things Out, Getting Things Done, or NOT

Good morning! A quick entry here as my alarm did not go off. Or I turned it off in my sleep. I kinda remember hitting my watch and wondering if I had turned it off completely. But I intended to blog this morning. So I shall!

The worst news of the day is that the diverticulitis is back. I began having twinges of pain in the lower left abdomen where my “diverticulae sac” is. (The pocket of the colon at the turn where things get stuck.) I am pretty sure it was tomato seeds. Since the whole stomach is not raw and upset, I know it’s not a colitis situation as it is only a certain section that is irritated. So likely something stuck. I had tomatoes also in my Mexican food the other night and had spaghetti twice. My guess is that there is a polyp or something that needs to be removed that is making things so difficult in there. I think it’s been five years – maybe 3 – since the last colonoscopy. But he’s (the doc) likely going to send me in for that. Our medical procedures are opening up now. However, I am first going to see if I can sneak through this one. I can’t live on antibiotics so if it gets worse, or I cannot pass, or I begin getting a fever (infection) – then I will call. It may get better on its own and heal if I do the liquids and soft foods and start over and we’ll see if I can buy some time during this pandemic. But the colonoscopy, polyp removal – or worst case scenario – surgery – some of it is inevitable. There is no sense in worrying about it. It is going to be what it is going to be. Hopefully it will turn out well.

I feel bad for George who has tried to eat with me and eat things that I have to eat. He’s a real trooper in that way. But he must be getting tired of this scenario that keeps happening. Back to the drawing board.

I got into all the vitamins this weekend and finally decided what I needed to take when. I decided to buy and AM and PM pack – so that some will be taken in the morning and some at lunch time with my meal. This is the one I picked out from Amazon. How cool is that. It’s nice as you take out the day and put in your purse if you don’t want the whole thing. This is perfect. I’ll probably be taking out the Saturday and Sunday ones as I won’t have my “work bag” with me when we are out running around. Hopefully the pills fit, lol. These are bigger than they look. I think they will hold 3 big vitamin E’s on each side (for example).

So, I did get a lot done yesterday. I was pretty happy. Although I did not do a lot of cleaning. It really didn’t need a lot of cleaning. Most things are in it’s space and we’ve not messed up too much. I did work on the laundry, hung the bulletin board, got the ironing done, nails and toes done, dog baths are done (even trimmed their front paws but not the back as they won’t be still). Bed sheets changed, pill box ordered, packages from the week opened and put up. Also checked out Zoom. It’s $14.99 for a month. So I did not upgrade to the paid version yet. But I had George get on and practice so I could see how it would work. Seems pretty easy. I also watched the online church in Graham Tx.

But the things I’m most excited about is that I watched a couple of YouTube videos on Movavi software and actually had the free version on my laptop which I’d forgotten about. I hopped on the laptop to do something else and that icon popped out and grabbed my attention.

It’s been a while since I’ve been on my windows laptop. I have it on the desk (table) on the other side of the office but may move it over to this long desk next to my iMac so I can still do PSP. Anyway it’s a lap top and moveable. But the important thing is that since that icon jumped out to me and I opened it up, it took me to their website and I could see the prices. It was reasonable. $79 for lifetime download for it. So that led me to watching the YouTubes just to see what it was like.

The videos showed the basics of starting and saving and several things in between. So I downloaded the software and gave George $100 bucks of my blow money which is all saved up as we’ve not been going anywhere (lol) – it was that much with tax and some extra fee that they had to protect your download. A fee they probably came up with instead of raising the price, lol.

So I got on the iMac and downloaded. It came in a package of downloads. It had a separate video recording program and some type of Media Player. So all that was a little bit confusing as each one had a key and I was trying to use the key for the wrong thing until I realized “oh I had three emails with different keys” on it. The other two came later after I had already grabbed the first one thinking it was for all three, lol. Geez.

So yeah, I bit the bullet and went with a much easier program to use. I actually made a little stupid video with a few clips just to try it really quickly. iMovie has more upgraded things to work with. Movavi is coming out with a newer version in June. But it looks like I already have the 2020 one – at least it says 2020 on it. So maybe I just got it early. iMovie has a better look to its transitions and titles and has a LOT of music to work with. Movavi’s tools were not as many but what good is iMovie if it corrupts my videos and doesn’t work.

So to appease my soul at having to give up a lot of really good sound effects and music with iMovie, I allowed myself to join Epidemic Sound (one month free) which is know to be THE BEST at being able to download songs (can search by mood, or music type, or emotion) for the video you need it for and with copyright protection when uploaded to YouTube, Facebook, or Instagram.

So….if I am going to pay a $15.99 per month fee for Epidemic sound, then I need to be making a lot of videos. lol I may not keep this around forever, but as I told George – “I found a new hobby”. It’s just something I would like to learn to do. I first want to be able to do our vacation videos. But at some point, I may just do some simple videos of our week to add to the blog. Much like blogging led to graphics, it’s also leading me to video now and want to integrate Vlogging into it, if I can and if it makes sense to do so and I can be artful and intent with it – and it is a useful thing. So we’ll see.

I also did the Magazine project which is for the past couple of years, I have folded magazine pages of things I want to go back and keep. Many were recipes, many were websites, some were products to check into. So I’ve torn them out, tossed the magazines, and separated out the recipes and the other is in a file “check out on the internet”. I will share with you as I look these things up. Some things were very interesting. Some were blogs. So I’ll share with you as I “make the magazines come to life” as I call it. lol

And I need to quit blogging and go get dressed, pack some liquids/lite foods for the day to give my colon a rest, and put makeup on and go to payroll related activities. Sadly the info I needed did not come Friday to begin starting on the unemployment taxes we have to pay for the many states we have employees in. There is no way it can all be done in two days along with everything else that has to be done once payroll is closed. So pretty good chance it’ll just have to be late. I’m only one person and also don’t know what will happen with this diverticulitis thing either. It’s a ticking time clock right now. But the phrase of the decade is: “It is what it is!” None of it really in my control so why worry about it.

Country Opening Up, Diverticulitis, and Other Mid Week Talk

Look what dear daughter did! She is a hunter for sure. I stole this from her social media. She is a woman of many talents.

Well the news is sounding better about the virus. I’m really just baffled by it all. The cases are going up which is what we see in the graphs – even during the shutdown and social distancing. Up 28.9% from last week, yet we are talking reopening the country. And I’m hearing we are flattening out – ummmm, but the graph is going up. So the argument there is that the testing has increased but the ratio of those testing positive to the number of tests done are going down so therefore we can reopen.

This is why numbers can be so confusing. You can twist anything around to “fit the need”. I’m not in either camp really. I am just about as ready as anyone else to get back to a normal life where can go and do and see people, despite the fact that I love love love being home more since I’m an introvert anyway! That part has been a dream. lol. And I do get the fact that business and the economy has been harmed. I also appreciate the fact that the government looked out for people or society as a whole. I get the fact they are in the middle of trying to keep people safe versus tanking the economy. They acted swiftly despite all the accusations that they didn’t. I mean considering the fact that the country was basically shut down – that anyone including our president – give pause at doing so – is understandable in my opinion. I’m not being political at all – I am just speaking from a human being’s standpoint and how I would have reacted if it was me. Shutting down a country is a scary thing to do but it was brave and necessary. I get that it is complicated. But I guess we cannot be “safer at home” forever or “stuck at home” or however you want to refer to it. I guess the fact that this has got people’s attention – maybe if we ease back into society with ‘rules’ it will be ok. That is my hope. However, we all know that people live to break rules because everyone has to be their own individual self with their own individual will according to how they would have it. So we all know how it will go. Unless this virus is killed off by the summer heat – then – it’s gonna get bad before it gets worse.

So people are showing signs of having antibodies in certain regions. I’ve not looked at this much and don’t know a lot about it but that is promising.

Well in case you have been wondering, I’ve been several days with NO pain now as far as the diverticulitis. I’ve not even started the new supplement routine, although they have started arriving. All were to have arrived today in one shipment but some arrived yesterday, some coming today and some tomorrow, lol – I tried to help the deliver guy, by scheduling it to come at once but it is all coming different times.

I definitely think the probiotics help that I began taking again that I already had from Isagenix, the mid day supplement I take for metabolism that has green tea, cinnamon, pepper – I forget what all. And I’ve taken a digestive enzyme with dinner, and then at night magnesium. I’ve also, much like my Dad used to, drink a couple of glasses of ice water with and after dinner – replacing an after dinner glass of wine or decaf coffee.

This is making me savor that happy hour beer or glass of wine as a really special treat. But I’ve also with the same fervor, told myself to enjoy the ice water. And it really is becoming something I’m looking forward to after dinner. I fill my Isagenix cup with ice, add the filtered water, put the top on and add a straw. I go through two of these.

So, it’s been a couple of work days AT WORK the last two days. Today I am at home. It’s easier to blog on those days as I don’t have to put on make up or have a commute. I enjoy each day whether it’s at home or work. It seems about perfect to have two days there, one here, one day there and then one here again, that way I can toss things back and forth, print every other day and so forth. It’s been easier to get things done having only one day at home in b/w the other days.

The parts that are challenging is wagging work files back and forth. And judging how much work you will be doing for the time at home. Bring it all? Or not? It’s hard to judge. But I’ve learned to overload myself so I have what I need. It’s frustrating to get into something and part of what you need is at work or vice versa. So that big white tote bag is what I use to go back and forth. The flowered bag I got at the Mercantile (Pioneer Woman’s shop) and love it. I actually use it as a carryover work bag – I put lunch in it, vitamins, snacks, water, drinks, anything I need for the day. My computer glasses also are in there. An umbrella is in one end and water bottle can be put in the other. Each end has a pouch. This bag is perfect for my carryover bag! But lugging purse, work bag and my lunch/carryover bag all three – is a bit much sometimes. I brought a lot of stuff home yesterday (files) in the big white bag for doing taxes and such and I like to have never made it up the stairs. It’s month end again, so more states to pay.

I had to laugh at Monday’s selfie. I was trying to smile for the camera but it ended up being a smirk. I guess my smiles are just smirks. lol.

I really intended on eating chili for lunch yesterday and testing the waters from a spicy standpoint. But after looking at the sodium content of 1700 mgs per can- I decided to go with something else.

I ordered Cracker Barrel. They had free delivery. And they have a limited menu right now but still the old favorites. I had grilled chicken, brocolli, and pintos. And I ate a biscuit and butter. And then later on mid afternoon I had the other one. I didn’t care. I just ate it.

George fixed shrimp and grits Monday night and then we had hamburger steaks and onion rings (cooked in the air fryer). I went back for 2nd’s on the onion rings and George had eaten all the 2nd’s. lol. He said “oh I thought you didn’t like them”. He said I made a face when he said we were having them for dinner. I don’t remember making a face. I could have wondered if they would be good for me but I didn’t say I didn’t like them. I tried to get over the fact that he ate the seconds – I didn’t care that he ate the seconds – it was just that my taste buds wanted them and I was so excited to go back and they were gone. So I ended up air frying some more. After all it was only 6 minutes at 360. So then life could go on! lol

Here was his shrimp and grits dish.

Sometimes frozen shrimp can taste fishy and I thought these were fishy. That has no bearing on George as a cook. The grits were great, the dish was great. But I think we needed a better quality shrimp for the dish itself.

Well, I guess I need to go figure out breakfast and get plugged in and set up for work.

Oh, I did get the baby shower invitations bought yesterday thru Amazon. So I marked that off the list. And I had some time after work and before dinner to watch a show – I love to watch the YouTube shows but have to sneak them in when I can because they are not George’s favorites. It was a perk to get to do that yesterday.

Ya’ll have a great day and I’ll likely post again on Friday morning.

How do you feel about our country opening again? I’m not sure exact date around here but think it’s going to be around May 1 for some things. Our business is coming back at work also so that is a good thing. I am guessing that by mid May or end of May that we’ll be back FT at work and at our desks all week. But that is just me speculating. I really have no idea. All it takes is one of us getting that dang virus to mess all that up.

Well, ya’ll be good!

How to Make a Mask in a Minute

Yesterday was a much needed “take care of home” and “take care of self” day. I actually was awake at 4:30 and got up and began the day. I guess because we are home more, we are running out of things like jeans, gym pants, and gym shorts, jogging pants – as we wear those a lot around the house. Also I have been lacking on being faithful at getting George’s work shirts done (a golf shirt with their company logo). But they have video conferencing so he has to wear it still as if he is at work this week. So back at doing a mid week load. They didn’t give them enough to get through a whole week. It’s not a problem – I just have to remember to be sure and wash up another load of darks midweek.

While catching up in the laundry room, I listened to iTunes, and just had a huge peace wash over me, and also began to have a sprig of hope that this will one day be over and our lives will be back to the normal normal. Although I did find that yesterday I was quite happy to be at home with no where I had to be. An introvert’s dream. Much to do here and I rarely ever get bored. I think we’ve prepared our whole lives for such a thing – so much to keep our minds occupied. My only fears now are being exposed at work and when we shop.

My sister texted me – thinking about Mom- that many of the stores are delivering now and Publix was even delivering free and will drop to your door step. This sounds appealing for when this thing begins to peak. I think we are slowing the curve so it’ll take a long time to get over this period. We do like to go to the store though as we like to see things and get ideas, catch sales and so forth. Anyway, in case we have to get out, I want something over my face. So I had seen how people can take a bandana and pony tail holders and make a mask. Well, I tried it with a linen dish cloth and rubber bands and it took less than a minute. So this will do. You can probably see here how I did it.

Just fold the towel lengthwise, and slip on some rubber bands about 1/3 of the way through on each side. Then tuck in one end of the towel into the other.

And then pull the rubber bands to the outer folds and it’s ready to tuck behind your ears. Yes it’s a little bulky but with linen it was several layers but I could still breathe.

I also realized that my masks I’ve ordered from Etsy has been shipped. They will arrive mid-week. I’ll let it sit in the foyer for several days when it gets here. I really don’t want to wear a mask to work but as the virus gets more prevalent I may wear it in the common areas.

I worked in the kitchen yesterday and cleaned the surfaces. Made the kitchen pretty again. I dusted the den area and gave our coffee center some attention, replenishing k-cups, emptying the little k-cup trash bin I have sitting on the counter. I have a cute stainless steel “mini trash” thing set up there with a coffee filter on the bottom to catch liquids. So that is ready for the week.

I played candy crush til my heart was content drinking coffee yesterday morning. And I caught a few of my shows (usually little 20 minute You Tube shows) while eating left over peas and potatoes. Probably should have been doing liquids but since it’s a lighter case, I think light foods are ok. I do have some pain this morning a bit and will try to mainly do liquids most of the day. I guess I should have kept at my cleansing and shaking, because when I did this I had very little diverticulitis trends.

Thank goodness I’ve not developed a fever with it b/c I can’t work or be around others these days with a fever. I have to figure out what is happening but I just can’t fret over this right now. It’s just going to be what it’s going to be. It is too difficult to figure out what triggers it. It’s just a gut situation as a whole, probably with the muscles tightening triggered by stress and eating too much faster than digestion can keep up ad no doubt having too much sugar as we’ve increased our intake of bread and sugar. All those things I believe interconnect to make the perfect storm. I also sit intensely bent over peering into the computer screen in times of intense work with no breaks and this seems to kinda block my lower left intestinal quarters and shut it down. I also sleep on my left side as well. So all of these things play a part in my opinion. I’ve had exercise this week, but obviously many hours of sitting in a row without much movement is no good – even if you exercise at the end. I cannot just concentrate on my stomach 24-7. But apparently I am going to have to figure it out or this will be my life forever. The stand up desk worked at work. Since I’ve been home I’ve been sitting more for increased times.

At home, in order to be able to do this blog without pain this morning, I’ve had to create a standing desk. At least I could do this as the iMac will swivel. I think I remember the sales guy saying something about this when he sold it to us. I’m thankful for that.

I found the perfect basket to turn upside down and with the swivel on the iMac it’s perfect. I have to reach down for the mouse but it’s doable as it is totally within reach. I am also missing Tugie, our poodle of 17 years as she passed about a year ago. This little Sloth reminded me so much of her. I have found that I need to have this little Sloth around sometimes. So I set it over by my computer. She would have been by my side at this time if she was here. My Maisy girl is though, but nothing is a replacement for my beloved Tugie.

I found this posted in one of the Facebook groups I joined.

However, you have to be careful. Some of these folks are taking things like colloidal silver which has not had a lot of studies on it and its impact. It can permantly turn your skin tone blue/purple. I will refrain from that. It’s actually “silver” in liquid form, I read. I also wondered if that is where the term “blue blood” came from. hmmm. As it refers to wealthy people. Perhaps.

As I went through the house yesterday, I made a list of supplies we were getting low on, but made it in terms of what we would need after 2 weeks. I wanted to do a Target order and see if I could get it in. But I figured it may take 2 weeks to get it. So if I shop and give bigger lead times, I just have to really watch that when I open one household item, I need to go ahead and order the next one so it will be here by the time I need it again. I figured I wouldn’t have much luck on the Target order without having to sign up for Shipt but it let me order several things. At the end I had a message that I needed to edit my order as some items were not available. What? Had I wasted all that time as it let me put it in the cart. I was willing to wait for it – even if it took 3 weeks to a month. (I also have to wait several days before opening the box in case that darn virus is on it.) So I removed the items that were not available to the “save for later” feature and moved them back one by one watching to see if the “edit cart” notice came up again. It didn’t. So it let me place the order and said that it would come in three shipments as it was slow since supplies were in great demand. They did not have toilet paper. But I was able to get almost everything I needed, including canned tuna, canned chicken, applesauce cups, fruit cups and various things I can take to work. As a reward for them (Target) and me, I shopped for tops and bought 3 of them. I really usually don’t ever find anything at Target for me, especially on line, but there were 2 linen tops, very similar to tops I’ve had before and loved. And also a long sleeve cute top I can wear to work.

Then I got on Thred Up where I had some credit. Not much but a little. I ordered two more tops from there that were “New with Tags”. So I have some things coming in.

I also got to open boxes that came in – in the last week or two. We let things sit before we tear into them. We bring it in but leave it in the foyer for several days.

Took the dogs out and we walked around some. It was just an overall pleasant and much needed day. I also trimmed and filed my nails as this “dip” grows out. It’s not gonna be pretty. I had a similar color. Mine was darker, so I “did” my nails yesterday the best I could.

Today my plans include putting sheets on the bed, cleaning the bathroom, putting up my laundry from yesterday, checking on Mom, doing my magazine project, and watching some shows. I had said we might give dogs a bath. They did not get their grooming yesterday of course. So I may begin looking at pet trimmers and watching videos on how to do this. I don’t think we can wait til July. Also want to do some on line church today.

Plenty of things to do around here today. I’m a little upset that it is Sunday. Mainly b/c work is tomorrow. It’ll be ok though. I’m just needing more of a break from everything I think. Quite frankly, I’m just having a hard time wanting to have to go back into a COVID state of business and be reminded of it. But it is what it is and with God we can get through anything.

I will say this, during this time of ________________ (whatever it is you wanna call it) you really start to think about a few things. I imagine we’ll all be different, with different goals, different priorities, a boundary as to what we are willing to settle with or put up with, and just an overall sense of doing things differently when this is over. There are things that I have decided will definitely be different when this is done. There will be things most of us will rise up saying “oh no this will never happen again”. We’ll all be prepared for a long time as to how much toilet paper we stock, what kind of people we are around and how they handle stress or not, what resources we have, and on the flip side we’ll likely not take for granted things like gatherings, seeing friends, church worship, going out to eat, and so forth. And when you realize that there are only a few things in life that REALLY matter, when things get in your way that stand b/w you and what really matters – that means making some life size and life style changes. In big ways. Big enough ways to make a difference in meeting your expectations of life or not. So yeah, there is a LOT of thinking going on in our world right now. When we emerge, it’s gonna be a bit different. There are some things I’m thinking I’ll definitely not be going through again or putting up with again. And I have some goals now that I’ve decided no one or no entity is getting in my way of. I’ll mesh with life until I get it the way it needs to be. Family is most important – over everything else. That is just the way it is.

Stress is Obviously Taking a Toll

Well, hope you all are doing well. We have a schedule that came out at work that clarified who needed to be in and where so as to keep it under a gathering of 10. We all have separate work spaces. So it has been established that I will go in on Mon, Tues, and Thurs. That way I can do payroll and process check cuttings for garnishments later in the week and also I can print out things and so forth that I can’t do at home. I really only need 1/2 day Thursday at work but I guess I have to be there the whole day it sounds like.

So we are now under a mandatory stay at home order in TN. We were under a “safer at home” in Nashville and I believe Mount Juliet was also. The definitions may be a bit more strict I guess. You just can’t be out period unless you have official business or getting food and supplies and so forth. They had tried not to go this route but said they were watching the cell phone tracking and everyone was going places. So they felt they had to do the order. So regardless I think all along we have deemed ourselves essential at work but I guess since TN has the order and if they plan on enforcing it, I can keep the schedule showing we have to be at work on certain days. I’ve been told payroll was essential so I think I’ll be ok if I get stopped. Our work has declared itself essential anyways. George told me to print that schedule out and put it in my purse for sure so as not to have any issues.

Work has been stressful and I’m trying to nurse myself out of a diverticulitis situation. So far no infection or fever. I ate a little yesterday as I wasn’t sure if it was diverticulitis or kidneys or another situation. But last night I had to get up and take acetaminophen to knock the pain. I woke up feeling wonderful but just had another bout of pain a few minutes ago. I honestly do not know what causes this – unless it’s eating the bread and pasta – or eating more than normal. We have eaten a lot lately. It could be stress induced. And I think I have increased amounts of time sitting and that is probably the biggest issue as I’m sitting for hours hunched over. The stand up desk works good. I can use it on Monday and Thursday’s. At home I just need to set a clock and get up and stretch every 45 or so. Normally at work I am running around doing things, filing, and moving around more. I just have to make myself get up more when we are at home.

I am hoping I will not have to see a doctor with this. I will plan on calling the office if it doesn’t get better. It’s not a full blow case yet – but if it becomes more painful and inflamed or infection where I have a fever, then I will call and have them give me antibiotics. Hoping that they can do this over the phone with this pandemic going on. I’ve asked the Lord to heal and so I believe He will.

But today I will probably need to maintain more of a liquid diet and see how it goes from there to give my stomach a break.

Work is crazy right now. So much to do. Have tried to be a team player and help others but I also cannot afford to get behind. That said, I’m glad it is Friday! There’s a lot saved up that I need to get done this weekend.

Needless to say I guess the pet trims our cancelled. It is not essential I guess. I am wondering if I need to order a dog trimmer set and see if I can figure it out. We may come out with new skills after all of this. lol

I am not sure how the online ordering is going of things. I thought I’d try to do a household supply order through Target. I think we are going to venture out again for more fresh veggies and then hunker down for a while. I really don’t want to go. So we’ll see. But we’ll be out of fresh pet soon.

I wanted to make a gluten free bread this weekend. I guess we’ll see if I can eat. I have a variety of things to open up gathered in the floor of our foyer. lol. Waiting for germs to die. I think I can open them up this weekend and get rid of the boxes.

I have some cleaning to do and laundry as usual. Lots to do but most of all looking to have some down time. I may even do some shopping on line and buy a new blouse. I have some $ from my consignment built up on ThredUP and they have some good sales going on. With the stay at home more stuff going on, I might buy some more jogging pants.

I also need to get my head around planning for a virtual baby shower for our nephews wife Ellen. I have some time for it but don’t want it to sneak up on me.

I guess Katy will not get to come home in May for Cody’s brother’s wedding. I’m guessing. They have not made the decision. However, I don’t think this mess will be over and the airports are not a good place to be, if they are even allowed to fly or leave the state. But somehow when this is over I hope we get to see them. Not even sure weddings can even happen at this point as there are not to be any gatherings. Such as a sad time for those getting married. They either have to postpone or elope just the two of you, if that is even a possibility at this point. Possibly not.

Crazy times for sure.

I don’t have a lot to tell you. It’s all been work and no play except for watching a show while we eat. I fall asleep most nights before the show ends. I kinda quit listening to the news – not totally but like every other day to just catch up. That seems to help my well being.

Yesterday was the first day that I really didn’t want to just put my head down and cry. It was mainly because I was too busy trying to figure out things and was frustrated, knowing that I know how things go and I can predict certain things. lol. Everything is so unsure and our world is so different and you try to figure out how to live and operate in the new world. It’s like being on Mars. You try to figure out how to keep trains on their track – or how to put it on the track after its fallen off. lol

Please pray for the diverticulitis stuff going on. I just really don’t need that right now. And life needs to just calm down so we don’t all lose our health and die before this virus thing even gets to us.

Ya’ll have a good day and hope you have something to look forward to for the weekend? I’ll look forward to watching some of my favorite shows and quite frankly just to sit and play candy crush. lol I need to have a change of thoughts. And to have less worry and fret over things and how to handle things.

It actually makes me mad that across my life, I worry about people being angry at me. I always worry if I’m doing or saying the right things or am I forgetting something. It seems all my life there has been someone yelling or angry at me, even when I’ve had the best of intentions. I don’t know why people don’t like me or think so bad about me that they think they have to raise their voice or yell or try to make me feel bad or think negative against me. Does anyone else have this issue? Is it just the world we live in? or is it just me? Am I a horrible person or something? George says he has his own theories in which he just believes the world is full of A Holes. lol. Well, I don’t know but define A Hole and if they shoe fits I guess one can wear it. But I’ll not be assigning that judgment. I’ll let God do that. It still is hard just to let God handle things sometimes. It’s a new struggle every day it seems letting God handle the pitfalls of this world.

And I’ll log off with that. So raise those coffee cups in the air and ask God to help you not to the BUTT in someone’s day! But a Blessing! lol lol lol I try to do that every day and by days end I’m the butt it seems. I can do nothing right to some. But at least I try. I think really there are just some you cannot please. I’ve been around those all my life. I probably can’t be pleased either b/c I’m part of that world too and I myself have pretty high expectations.

I should stop typing. lol

NOT CONTAGIOUS!

Well, it’s payroll day but I got up early to do a blog entry since I’m feeling better. I’m not out of the woods yet as whatever things I eat now have to be able to successfully “complete their journey”. But I’m pretty confident in it. There is little to no pain now. My stomach is not as tender in that area. I do however get very full on even just water – so things are not totally up to par. My real appetite is not back either as you would think I’d be fiercely hungry after 2 days of not eating anything but liquids and jello and broth – mainly liquids. However, I’ve had moments of hunger in which I’ve craved a piece of bread, eggs, and of all things a bologna sandwich with mayo. lol.

Yesterday at 7 a.m. I went to West Wilson Medical office and had my follow up. The doc said “oh I can tell you feel better” (I was also dressed in work attire, had make up on, and had done my hair). She was so confident I was better so she told me to go on to work that she felt the white count would be ok but she would call if it came out low. I didn’t get a call so I guess we are good. She told me not to eat meat for a week, but to eat softer things and work my way up. So George and I brainstormed back on forth on email a few grocery items (the dogs needed more Fresh Pet anyway). And when I got home at 6, he left out for grocery shopping again for me. Bless him.

The day was pretty easy yesterday as far as getting through and feeling good. I had a lot of things hanging over as I still needed to do about half of last week’s work load since I was working on taxes and unemployment and year end stuff. Of course while trying to get things done payroll and HR are getting slammed with requests for their W-2 saying that did not get theirs yet b/c they had an address change. I don’t know if these are younger folks (new workers in the work force) but most of know if you move to change your address with your employer so you get your W-2. Shaking my head here. In the meantime we are trying to deal with all that and do the 2nd issue of W-2’s. Nothing new. I’ve been involved with payroll many times before and that is the norm. lol. Either that or they lose it so you get another surge in April. lol. Just part of the business. Still amusing to me, since I’m such a planner. lol. It seems like such an obvious thing. It’s like if you know you are going to make a recipe, you gotta have the ingredients. You gotta go to the store and have a way to get there. When you pay taxes, you gotta have the documents to do so and if it’s mailed to you – it’s not like it has a loader that will find you (at least not yet) – it takes a correct address. lol. So we play the game. It’s ok. Still amusing.

I’m also hoping that people are not freaking out that I was at work yesterday after having a fever on the weekend and hearing that I had stomach issues. Some freak out when they don’t understand. I guess I get it if people hear and don’t know what is going on and speak before they fail to find out what has transpired. Rumors spread like wild fire. Yes I was very ill. This can be fatal if not handled quickly and appropriately. (But gosh folks. Do your research please before going to others and whooping up a conversation and subsequent panic). No I’m not contagious. I’ve been very open about what is going on. So it’s not so hard to google diverticulitis to realize that I am not going to spread an epidemic. No I’ve not been to China and don’t have the Corona virus. It’s gonna be ok. (Get back to work, lol).

Some days you kind of feel like Emelia out on the ranch, lol:

This is Katy’s niece that came to visit on the ranch. I took the liberty to “snag” the photo since there were no faces. I love love love this photo. I love the curiosity of the cows. One or two would not be as funny, but there is something hilarious about that many cows just standing there looking at you. Why are they so taken with things? Cracks me up!

Ok someone wanted the recipe for the Chili Mac Casserole. It’s on Food.com and search for Chili Mac. I will try to put a link here: CHILI MAC CASSEROLE RECIPE

But here is the screen shot. I did this while waiting in the waiting room yesterday, lol.

Well it looks like it didn’t open all the directions, sorry, but I think you have enough here to find it on line and well, it really wasn’t that difficult. You just made the macaroni – it doesn’t take much – and cook it al dente (not all the way b/c it keeps cooking in the oven). You make the sauce kinda like you are building up a spaghetti sauce, starting with the onions beef, chili peppers, etc. Then you mix it up in a casserole dish with the beans and bake it – according to directions. I mean it’s really mostly cooked at that point so just until it’s bubbly – about 30 to 40 minutes I think and add the cheese and then continue baking.

We decided this recipe was a keeper. I had rather have something better than enriched flour noodles next time. But this time I wanted to use elbow macaroni as I love the shape. It’s hard to find elbow macaroni in a healthy form, lol. So I will probably switch to spirals or rotini as I’ve seen some of those out there. I’m thinking it needs to be a hearty size pasta because it cooks twice. Spaghetti would get so limp and almost disappear.

It’s a great dish for family on a winter night, or super bowl, or Friday nights! Even weeknights b/c it’s easy to fix. A fun version of this would be to add it over tortilla chips, and toss on a dollop of sour cream. Just saying.

Someone else wanted the apps for the web cams. I will take a screen shot of that on my phone so you can see the app icon, but… I think it is just called “Web Cams” it’s kindof a green and white icon with a camera shape. I just realized it’s almost six and even though I got up at 4, my blog time is almost gone. It’s payroll closing day too. I normally don’t blog on Tuesday b/c of that. But I got up early. My how time flies.

Anyway, the past day I’ve been trying to figure out how to avoid this diverticulitis thing. I mean before there was always warning signs. No warning this time and it was different. Usually constipation is a huge sign. There was no issue.

I mean we can blame it on popcorn but they say as long as you are not constipated then things like popcorn and nuts and seeds are not a problem. The medical studies have said it appears to not be the case.

So yes, pop corn has been involved every time I’ve had it but I eat pop corn every week. I eat nuts every week. I also drink water every week, rice every week, ____, blah blah blah every week so just b/c it was eaten does not mean it was the culprit statistically. You can say anything is likely to be the cause (I eat a lot of stuff during the week) if you are looking at statistics. I DID wonder if leaning over my desk for countless hours on end mashing against my midsection made it happen – I mean reasonably you could conclude that “could” be the problem. I noticed how hard I was leaning over my desk days before this occurred as I had pushed my monitors back to have work space in front of me. Well today I moved it back forward closer to me so that will not be an issue. I talked to IT about a standing desk as well as I know sitting all the time is not really good for this condition either. I need to move around more. But the cost is $500 for a standing desk and they are asking us to cut office supply cost. So I hate to ask for one. I see others with them though. It’s something to think about. Anyway since we are chest deep in storage boxes as archives has not been picked up yet, I have a great standing desk for a temporary option for when I am doing something that doesn’t take the computer. I did time sheets yesterday for the initial look through and stood and got that done. So I will figure it out. I just don’t want to keep having these episodes and it really bothers me how this came up so quick without warning. What was different? Who really knows, I just don’t want it to happen again so I’m trying to stand more, move around more, and yes, cutting out popcorn and anything with sharp ridges. I just don’t know if I can give up tomatoes. lol I’m not sure I can give up popcorn either. I’m bothered by the lack of warning signs so that you can get yourself out of this. But I guess it is what it is. I’ll probably do more research. But I kinda think that things like putting pressure against your tummy and sitting too long can play a part. So I’ll focus on that. So weird. You gotta try to fix something. I don’t want it to happen again! I mean at some point it seems like the colon would just get so funky you would finally have to have surgery and I don’t want that.

Now that I am taking the antibiotics I have to watch the kidneys. So I have cranberry juice and yogurt going on for today’s world.

And I need to hurry and get dressed and lunch packed, make up done and hair done and out of here. I’d like to be leaving right now but…I should have known if I sat down to blog I’d be later than intended. But sometimes you just got to blog your feelings out!

Ya’ll have a great day. Probably be back in – in a couple of days! Much to do!

Making the Best of a Sickly Weekend

In the dead of winter, flowers just seem so pretty. These are some flowers George got for me in the past on Valentine’s Day. Love them.

So…..this past week has just been odd. Just a lot of returns to do for unemployment and end of year, and not having much time to do it in. I just thought that the reason my stomach was being weird was b/c of the stress of trying to get it all done. It’s enjoyable work for the most part, but I was really trying to meet deadlines and kept pushing. But I had a hard week last week. Sleep was so-so. I went in early, left late. For the most part we ate pretty good. I did my shakes on most days. But Thursday, I just could not satisfy my stomach. So I kept throwing more food at it – including a quarter pounder and then shower food at the baby shower just a few hours later.

From about 2:00 p.m. Friday my stomach began feeling it was in such knots. I just continued to think it was the stress and I’d get rest and it would be better.

Upon arriving home, my stomach was so inflamed, swollen, full of pain and nothing could be resolved. It was as if there were a blockage. And well there kinda was. It was diverticulitis where something gets into the wall pocket of your intestines and creates a swelling and possible infection, blocking the flow.

I was in excruciating pain periodically off and on all night Friday night. I was hoping that it would just go away and get better but I knew I had to switch to water only. No more food til this got better. No one needs a tear in their intestines and I wasn’t sure that hadn’t happened with all the pain I had Fri night. So me going with George to get the cow and pig was out as was going to the Memorial for our neighbor. George took care of all that.

So Saturday I stayed in bed trying to recover but about mid-morning I began to have a fever. Great crap. So I googled and my doc office was open for urgent care. I threw on some clothes, gave the dogs some treats and headed out the door. I had about an hour’s wait in the doc office. And then was able to see the practitioner. (Doc’s don’t work on Saturday I guess.) But I just wanted antibiotics. I was the last patient in before the locked the doors, and I was the last patient to be seen of course.

The practitioner was very nice. She agreed it seemed like diverticulitis and having had that before, I knew was happening – eventually. (It just didn’t start out like the other episodes, or at least I failed to see the warning signs).

Because I had a fever and had such intense pain, she kinda wanted me to go to ER and get a scan. But she agreed to let me get going on the antibiotics and if pain worsened and nausea and vomiting occurred (if I got worse) I was to go to ER. She told us about a new ER in our area that was good to go to and not many knew about it yet. That was good to know.

George showed up at the doc office and surprised me. Bless him. He didn’t have to. He’d just made a 5 hour trip to KY and was still going to the memorial of our neighbor. So then I went to Publix and got my Rx so I could get it in my system. And then he went back for a bigger grocery run later and to get me things I could eat with just liquids. My instructions were clear liquids – no coffee.

So I couldn’t wait to get home as my fever was increasing and I felt miserable. I had to wait for my Rx of course and that was bad standing there but at least I was back home and in bed in no time. George had come home and dumped the meat off into all the freezers. I didn’t even look until he made me look this morning. I know he’s proud of the freezer full of steak, but I’m still in the mode of having to sip tea and water and eat jello so I can’t even think about a steak right now. One day!

I know I didn’t feel good, but I told myself “enjoy the sleep while you can”. So there was an upside to this situation. I threw the doggies in bed, grabbed my warming blankets and let myself enjoy slumber and lots of it. My fever got up to 101, but began falling back to 99 by midnight. I slept in the guest bedroom overnight and slept like a baby with no disturbances of snoring or dogs or anything – except for Roger once wanting up in the bed. Maisy can jump up and down off of that bed. At 1:00 a.m. was my next antibiotic and I took that. I was at a normal temp this morning, and beginning to have some kind of appetite. I ate the orange jello that George made for me. And will have some more here soon for lunch. I might do some bone broth for dinner.

So yesterday I didn’t feel like being on the computer (the thought of it made me sick). And of course I didn’t get anything done in the house. Today I feel better but only doing what is necessary. Maybe not even everything that is necessary. lol. At least George’s shirts are washed for work.

Maisy has stayed by my side constantly and Roger has too when I’ve been in bed. He did come bark at me around 10 last night wanting in bed with me, but I made him go with George b/c I figured he would wake me up again wanting down to go to George.

Anyway, it has been a weird weekend. It’s not the way I anticipated it would go. But it was kinda like the flu or something – you just know you are out for the count.

I’m going to close this and go eat some jello and take a nap. Tomorrow morning at 7:00 a.m. I go back to the doc to get a white cell count. If it is up I go get testing and see if there is a blockage and I’m out of work til this is resolved. If the white count is down I’m improving and can probably start eating mild things by Tuesday.

So the situation is not good as far as work. I’m behind already – really needed to go in early – so let’s just say payroll won’t be closed early this week. It’ll be “taxed” (literally) to the limit. I say that b/c I spent most of last week doing tax returns and filings, keeping me from my regular duty. Now we will pay for that b/c who knew I’d get diverticulitis.

It is what it is. But things are at least looking good at this point. As long as the pain and fever stay away and no new symptoms, we should be good.

I will post more as I can.

Ya’ll have a good rest of the weekend. I’m sorry I don’t get to enjoy that good meal George is fixing today. But I will go enjoy another nap. I think this situation makes you sleepy. You definitely want to disappear from life when you can’t eat. It’s one of my best joys! But I’m all caught up on sister wives and my shows.