Video UP: Crab Boil for Two, Fall Decor, and an Anniversary Weekend

The next video is up! Other than the very first video I did, I think I struggled with this one the most. Improvements are needed and will happen over time once I get time to learn how to video myself and get comfortable with it. Just need time to do the lessons. But, I also had over 2 hours worth of footage and had to get it down to 18 minutes. Was shooting for 17 but by the time you add the ending it went into 18. So it’s a little choppy as I cut nearly every breath and pause that I took out of it. All in all though, I think I did an ok job with the effects and music to try and make it presentable. I have laboured over this one for HOURS! I pushed it to finish yesterday, ignoring my household responsibilities.

So if you want to give me some love and support, go to Youtube and subscribe and give it a like. You do have to sign up but it’s free. They will ask you to do the paid one and just ignore that and do the free one. I have 31 subscribers and hoping for 100. I never dreamed how hard it would be to get to 100 subscribers. It really messed with your psyche. But in doing my research, I see that it is never easy to get the first 100 and it gets easier after that. But I have highs and lows after I publish a video. I get excited and then deflated. This time I’m not as excited. I’ve kinda detached my feelings from this one. Well sort of. Let’s just say I’m not getting my hopes up and then maybe I’ll be surprised.

I’ve been in a funk the last few days. Probably several reasons for it. But I’m working my way out of it. Lots to be thankful for, lots to trust God with, and a restful 4 day Thanksgiving weekend ahead that we are looking forward to. The Bible study above was great and it’s finished now. So I’ll be looking for another one of his. I needed a break from the normal study ones that I do. Which is usually Beth Moore.

Yesterday was spent mainly on the video. George gave Roger a bath as he has the walk in shower. I dried him off and gave him a trim. I was surprised that he let me do it. He was very patient for a very long time. I think he knew what I was doing and trusted me. He looks a bit choppy as I don’t have the proper tools and my scissors need sharpening. But this is the way we are going to have to do it. He struggles with his balance. I even had to watch him after the shower as he does his nose and side body along the floor but he runs himself under the bed and gets stuck, nearly knocks over guitars on the guitar stand, and he’s just not safe. Regardless of me being the trimmer, he seemed happy, much cleaner, and looked better. He snoozed.

Grandson News

Katy called us and sent us pics and videos of River’s 3D ultrasound. You can see his face. He’s a cute one. They caught a pout when they kept poking him to move around some. lol. His little cheeks are cute. He looks like a combination of both of them but I can’t tell about whose features are whose. I had decided he had Katy’s cheeks. He looks a lot like Cody but still a lot like Katy. Of course it is hard to tell with the 3D images.

I’m not sure what I can post and can’t. I was told not to post their faces and home in video but I think I can probably post the nursery on my blog. There shouldn’t be any reason that would be a problem. Plus I want to brag on my girl! Look how pretty. She has done a great job with it. And the floor is open for play time!

That dresser was mine growing up and then eventually Katy’s.

I got on line and ordered some vitamins I needed and a few more Christmas items. We blew it out of the water for Christmas shopping already. Our Amazon bill was incredible. There was more than Christmas on there too I think. So we’ll be shrinking back a bit on the things we do. And with COVID rearing it’s ugly head again, we have another reason to hang low. It’s ok. While I’m sad that we can’t have the hustle and bustle, there is a part of me that is totally ok with less hustle. I mean really is that not what the blog is all about? LOL And of course I just went and filled my coffee up again.

Thanksgiving Update

We downgraded our menu for Thanksgiving since Mom is not coming. We are not going to have the broccoli salad, not going to have dessert, having plain cranberry instead of the gussied up cranberry salad, and no longer having rolls – we are eating those this morning for breakfast with the leftover ham. George is buying stovetop stuffing instead of making the real thing. I’m considering making dressed eggs though. Mom was going to bring those, but I think I may make those now. So we’ll have turkey, dressing, pea and asparagus casserole, dressed eggs and we’ll have the special Japanese sweet potatoes that George got from Demeter’s Common.

So today’s goals?

  • Iron, finish laundry.
  • Pick my wardrobe out for tomorrow
  • Take care of doggies
  • Watch for the rain coming
  • Look at the forecast for this week
  • Clean my office
  • Vacuum
  • Clean the tub
  • Fan blades clean in the kitchen
  • Clear out the imovie and start the next one
  • Read a chapter in my book
  • Do a devo
  • Look at some cookbooks for things to fix to help George out

It has the potential to be a lovely day, despite the grey outside. I’m ok with a grey day.

I have plans to film our day on Thanksgiving from start to finish. We’ll see how that goes. My learning curve with the camera is not coming along too well as I don’t have time to sit and do the lessons. I keep doing videos on a whim w/o taking time to learn. Why? Because life doesn’t stop. However it seems like it is slowing down so I will take advantage of it and I plan to do that some next weekend – maybe I can sneak in a lesson today before Thursday when I’m supposed to video some. Much of the video I shot in the latest video in the house was out of focus. It didn’t look out of focus in the view finder. Anyway, I will make the most of the time we have and try to learn something. The lighting in the house is horrible also. I have not invested in the lighting equipment yet. That will have to come later. But it’ll be a big help when I am “learned” (lol) with the camera itself.

I’ve been working on my list of things to work on in 2021 and I’m very excited about that. Mainly has to do with the video and vlogging journey.

And with that I think I’ll end. I’ve not taken a lot of photos lately. Not much going on and it’s kinda been a tough week for me for a LOT of reasons. I will admit it has been a struggle. But I will not park all my feelings here. To do so will just wallow in it and make it worse than it is. I’m choosing to rise above it, LET GOD do HIS thing, and then I’ll do my things in peace.

Likely I will not be posting much this week unless I get some time from somewhere. I have 3 very long and busy days of trying to cram 5 days into 3 for payroll and taxes. It won’t get all done and I’ll play catch up the following week in a month end situation. But I will work longer hours to get the critical things done. And then we will have 4 blessed days off. And we are looking forward to that. We’ll also start decorating for Christmas the day after Thanksgiving. I’ll film some of that too. ha.

I better get cranking with all the footage I already have! Bless its heart. We’ll see! And I may do a private blog entry to just get a few things off my chest.

Thanksgiving Changes, Challenges of Working from Home, and a Bobcat Visit

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And leaping off of yesterday’s post where I ended the day with trying to be the Little Train that Could, meeting all responsibilities, it seems appropriate to begin this blog post with the fact that I’m about out of steam! LOL

I am truly happy that it is Friday. And my favorite Friday phrase. “If it weren’t Friday, I’d be making it Friday”. I truly need a change of pace. I am ready as Freddy for this Friday to be done and on into our weekend. We have worked hard all week, done errands and to do’s at night (plus dinner and a show). Sleep has been both good and missing depending on the night in question. But last night it was a good one but I am feeling very tired and just need a day or two of hanging out in PJ’s!

So I’ve run out of steam but getting some good steam from my hot coffee this morning! That wonderful God given brown brew that just ignites my light in the mornings.

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Thanksgiving Plans Changed

So the latest. Mom has decided not to come for Thanksgiving. I knew it was coming. She feels more comfortable in her world and with the virus and all. I felt the responsibility to tell her that people I am around have COVID in their immediate household. She asked about their 14 day quarantine and I told her for the most part I didn’t see where there was any 14 day quarantine. So that took the safety feature out of it for her. And she decided it best to not come. She said she has worked hard all these months to stay home and then be around us who could pass it on to her. It’s just too close in. This makes me very sad.

Another plan we’ve made for naught. Another example of God saying you might as well give up making any plans. We should just all crawl in a hole and sit there I guess. In a way that is like saying “Throw me in a briarpatch b/c I do like having my home time”. And so we still have plans just minus Momma. So we will have a big Thanksgiving dinner – and now with bigger leftovers, and with less travel, which Mom really doesn’t like being on the interstate either, so I’m sure she is also happy about staying home in her PJ’s and not going anywhere. We were looking forward to her coming but it’s not the end of the world yet and we will still enjoy our holiday. It’s probably best this way, with COVID moving closer in upon us. I think we are at high risk now with the 14 day quarantines not happening. I don’t really know what the rules are or supposed to be but it used to be if you were around someone that had it you had to quarantine for 14 days. But it may just be so unrealistic to do that now. For example, I heard someone say someone had been through 3 fourteen day quarantines now. lol. I don’t ask the questions, I just keep praying we don’t get it – and we may have even already had it. Who knows.

Anyway, it is what it is.

Company Gift

George got the most wonderful Thanksgiving gift from his company. They had them bring a cooler to work and they gave them several packages of bacon, a ham, brats, and sausages and such. What a cool gift. We had the ham last night for dinner and will be having sandwiches from it today!

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George will be working from home the week after Thanksgiving. Our offices will be minimal as well. I’m not sure what my schedule will be. If I have to work at home, I’ll have to have help moving back and forth. I have to take back and forth a monitor, mouse, keyboard, and about 20 or so files and it’s too much trouble for having to do an every other day thing. Everything I need is in the office. I don’t have ability to scan or print and it just makes things really difficult. There’s only so much I can do it home. As much as I’d love to work from home, for payroll it’s just not going to work. I was so happy when we actually got to just stay at work. I was so tired of lugging things back and forth. I’m in a corner so I hope I get to stay. If not it’ll put us behind right when I need for things to not be behind. When Katy has her baby I need to be leaving with things “ahead”. But what have we learned in the past year?

We have very little control over anything! It matters not what I think or feel. I know better than to make any plans at all. It’s easier this year to just be a damn feather in the wind. A lot less frustrating anyway. If I get to work in the office I’ll get more efficiently done. If I don’t I won’t. And it will be what it will be.

Jokingly, but not really, I can’t control the fact that my water bottles lean. That is a pet peeve – when companies make things so cheap it reveals itself. I mean if you are going to put water in a bottle, why not put it in something that is not going to potentially topple over at least. It didn’t topple over but it’s base was not secure and it wobbled. I mean really?

The Bobcat Visit

You know this is just a weird year anyway. When a bobcat comes and sits in your window at work in your office complex? You can barely see his head there in the window b/c of the reflection. Yeah it’s just a weird year for sure.

So when a bobcat comes to YOUR WINDOW, you can’t pass up the opportunity to look up the symbolism and meaning for that. Was God sending me a message? Probably not, but in case He was – as I had prayed intensely about a few things that very morning after listening to an audio by Max Lucado, You are Not Alone. So I decided I best pay attention to this bobcat for meaning.

Here is what I found:

And copied some of it here:

Bobcats tend to hang alone or simply co-exist in their environment. When they are among other Bobcats, their actions belie wariness; this means that Bobcat recognizes that even family and friends may not always have your back. Bobcat constantly measures everything and knows when to step in or step out of a situation.

Because of Bobcat’s independent nature, this Spirit is a perfect helpmate for keeping secrets. Those who walk with Bobcat can be trusted wholeheartedly. Knowing when to speak or be silent is among Bobcat’s gifts. Mind you, this comes with great responsibility. You are honoring someone’s trust. Once broken, it will be very hard to reclaim it.

The quiet time for Bobcat Spirit is one of introspection; this is when the unseen world meets here and now. One of Bobcat’s great lessons is that we live with all manner of energies every day, but rarely stop to notice them! Each human also has many levels of self that remain unexplored. Bobcat’s message encourages both endeavors.

While the Bobcat sounds imposing, like all felines, He has a love of play. When the opportunity arises, they will roll and romp with the best of them. Here Bobcat reminds us that play is very important to our inner child’s wellbeing (let alone our stress levels).

Shamanic traditions consider Bobcat a very wise and ancient soul who is often attracted to other old souls in the earth plane. Old souls often have problems sorting out the vast amount of mystical information gathered over lifetimes. They also often feel that they are not well understood by their peers as their maturity level far exceeds the standard. In this Bobcat comes to say, you are not alone. This Spirit helps you navigate the wilderness gracefully so you can integrate your life.

So yeah I could take a lot from that. I do not believe in spirituality of animals – but I do believe that as a creature of God that He can send us messages through them. If I had more time to blog I would analyze some of the sections and try to make sense of it. But that is for another day.

Have to get off and go spend my energies elsewhere. The coffee has revived me and off I go!


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Good morning! Just a quick pop in. Mom’s friend did not have COVID and so she will be taking her for her Wed and Thurs doc appointments. So that frees me this week to get work done and not have to work Saturday or lose the beloved scheduled PTO day. But I was happy to take her if I needed to. It is my daughterly duty to do so more so than the friend.

Regardless, I was going to have to make decisions on figuring out how to keep everyone happy and get everything done and still not have to give up my beloved PTO day. As a woman, you really need a day off – at least one if not two or three – to get Christmasing done! So I’m trying to hold on to that day. I have 40 hours also I’m holding on to for the grandbaby in Jan. So the PTO days seem scarce these days as we already took one week for Texas and I took a scattering of days here and there as needed during the year.

I hate that I get so caught up in making everything work out that I drive myself and everyone else crazy worrying about trying to make it all work out just right. But that is me. Making sure I get it all in, all done, and still get time to do what I need to do also.

The pic above signifies time! It goes way faster in some respects than we can respond to, and way faster than the things that we want to do in life.

I don’t really know why I have such an issue with time. I protect it and value it as if it were silver. I tried to remember as far as back as I can when this started, my severe protection of my time. And my obsession with trying to make everything fit in a box with a bow on top.

I think it was back in highschool. Everything tried to happen at once. I have worked since age 15. Started early to work my way to take a trip to Hawaii, and have been plowing after career and personal goals ever since. But trying to fit school, church, work, dating, family, friends, studying was always a challenge for me. Back then I thought nothing of it other than scrambling and staying up late. And that is the factor that made the difference as I cannot do that now.

But then I planned my time, and got all the important stuff done in little pockets of time and I started long projects in advance. I was just not a procrastinator. I learned to do things early to conquer it. And nailed it every time. A and B student, dating, working, and fitting it all in. It helped not being the one to maintain a household. That came later. That and parenting, kinda sent me on overload. I really became even more protective over our time. A lot more things to fit into a calendar.

I was told I couldn’t have both career and parenthood by someone. Oh I proved them wrong of course. George was a big help though as he loved to play and loved to cook so together we made a good team of keeping a household, keeping careers, being parents and making a life for ourselves and even having fun. But I remember sitting in church service (yes in church) making to do lists at the same time that I took sermon notes, because that was the one hour where I was sitting still and could do it. I remember having to make decisions that impacted our time. It was always a struggle. There were always so many church events we wanted to do. We took on so much church work that when we moved to Mount Juliet to set up our household we said no church for a month so we could just have a season of rest while we set up this house. Since then our spiritual journey has been much different. We’ve learned that God He is not just in a church building, but wherever we go. But this blog entry is not about my spiritual journey but about my obsession with time and planning. And I’m also very particular about protecting my time at work so there is enough time to get it all done.

God is teaching me that time is important in some realms and not important in others. The devil is definitely in the details. He says we should worry about today as tomorrow has its own trials and troubles. So true. I still think it’s important to plan. I will always be a planner. There are things I’d never get done if I didn’t plan. As I’ve said before I have to learn to be flexible. But when it comes to impacting others with my flexibility I have to take that into considerations and make decisions that impact them too – like work, or Mom’s health. I know without a doubt I will always be one that tries to make everything work out just right. God made me that way to be a balancing act I guess. It really comes down to just accepting the puzzle pieces that are on the table, adjusting it, praying over it. It’s ok to talk about it and wonder about it, but not worry about it. I forget to leave that part off. lol

So those weeks will come when our parents need us. They took care of us and still do sometimes. So we have to be there for them. Sometimes work will have to be patient, sometimes I will have to be patient. Sometimes we all make sacrifices. Time is definitely not making a sacrifice itself. It keeps moving. It’s up to us how we fill the train cars of time with what we do. It’s so important to me to pack the train appropriately with all the right box cars of to do’s so it becomes the Little Train that COULD! 😉 And now it’s TIME to go to WORK!

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