Plantain Sandwich, Finger Puppets of My Life, and Figuring Out my Schedule

Plantain Sandwich, Jose’s Sandwich & Grill

George and I had an excursion on Saturday – one in which time has not allowed me to share yet. It appears that not one, but all of my hobbies are being taking away – eaten away – one by one but at least this day was replaced by some fun. I’m forcing this entry in today to discuss at least an hour of my Saturday, although really I’m robbing time from my video editing this morning. The rest of our excursion (The Hermitage) will have to come for another day.

We began our excursion day out Saturday by eating at Jose’s Sandwich Shop in Hermitage, TN.

It’s way more than your average sandwich shop – it’s Venezuelan sandwiches. I want to go back again and get the “bowl” – pictured in the window above.

George’s Pepita Sandwich, Jose’s Sandwich & Grill
Peeking into the Inside of a Plantain sandwich

I did not eat all of the plantain. But I love plantain. The entire thing was so good. The beef, the sauce inside, and the ingredients were fresh with the lettuce and cheese. I don’t think people realize what a gold mine this is. It was so good. And the lady that was running it was so kind.

Oh look, the “bowl” is on the card here. That is what I want next time. Also I the same strip mall there is a hot chicken place, and Italian place and a Mexican place – none of which we have been to. So our summer bucket list (when I get time to work on it) will include these restaurants we’ve not been to.

Our day out was fun and hopefully on the weekend I will get some time to do my Hermitage entry – The Hermitage – Home of Andrew Jackson as opposed to the town of Hermitage which is in between Mount Juliet and also Nashville. It’s really only about 10 min away (the town) and The Hermitage is about 15-18 min away, closer to Donelson side which is on the very far out East side of Nashville area.

Thank You

Thank you everyone that left comments for Cody and Katy on the loss of their doggie, Findlay. She reads the blog and my heart has just been so heavy with this. I know how they feel but they had expected to have this dog until she was old -at least, so it has been a shock to lose a very important part of their family. You were kind to leave them a message (previous entry) and I appreciate you all for doing that.

Puppet Lives

Finger Puppets at The Hermitage gift shop

Looking at this photo made me laugh this morning. I was thinking that these puppets are the stage of my life. Which finger puppet is Sonya wearing at this moment? Let’s name all the puppets! The Work Puppet? The Homemaker Puppet? The Care-Giver Puppet? The Family Member Puppet? The Blogger/Writer Puppet? The VLOG-er and/or Video Creator Puppet? The Traveler/Excursion Puppet? The Project Puppet? The photographer/videographer “wannabe” puppet?

What you say? There’s only five puppets there and several are missing and not enough to go around? Yes! My thoughts exactly! That is why it’s my life, lol. At least we can find humor in the situation.

Can someone say “Bless Your Heart!” lol I need a heart blessing! I like the brown one on the end. It looks most like a dog. The black and white one could be Maisy and the black one “Little Bit”.

Here’s What’s Going On In My Head, My Heart, and Life

  • We are planning another Excursion for Saturday – mainly because we have a couple of gift cards to a particular restaurant so we are headed out to go to some areas we like nearby that area. We’ll start the day at lunch somewhere and then shop and explore our way until dinner. We have contacted our friends and plan to join up with them at some point.
  • My arm is better but….. I’ve decided it is hampered by lifting heavy things, doing a lot of data entry, and or blogging and writing. I do think I hit my elbow hard enough a few weeks back to have a hairline fracture as that still kinda hurts but it’s healing. I will mention this to the doc in July that I’ve had trouble with my arm. It feels better after a rest and the elbow only hurts if I lean on it like elbows on the table. So I just don’t lean on it. Icy Hot works wonders for when the muscles hurt. I do think I have a cyst developed on my right wrist just from years of working that muscle from typing. The knot on my lower arm I have determined that is where my arm rests against the table or desk and creating a dent in my arm making a knot of sorts form next to it. It’s almost like a callous inside my arm, lol. Hard to explain but basically a dent in my muscle making the sides against the dent bulge out. Am I making sense? Again, I’ll show the doc all the knot spots. I don’t want surgery and I don’t want pain meds and honestly really don’t want anything. I just really need rest more than anything.
  • I’m trying to work on a couple of projects but time not giving me any of itself to work with. Everything I do is stolen time away from something else. For example work yesterday was a 10.5 hour day with 45 min commutes on each end. I left in the 6 pm hour and got home in the 6 p.m. hour. So my personal time was gone. I ended up doing my video editing because it was nagging at me in my head to do it last night while George cooked, and I really needed to be working on other things. Dinner was ready before I got through working on the video edits.
  • I am wanting to convert cable but with me it’s a whole research thing b/c I want it to be right. And I have not had time to even *think* about it. I’ve at least made a list of what all I need to do: get a current cable bill, talk to Comcast, see how much various streaming live TV services are, check out the Hulu box and Live TV and check out YouTubeTV, etc. I’m just so confused.
  • I am going to get my REAL ID also and get that out of the way. I don’t want to wait until winter or 2023 close to the deadline or it’ll be packed or snowed out or whatever. I have to call and get that set.
  • I have to call and set a GYN appt. I’ve not been in several years and I think it’s worth a check out.
  • I want to do the Summer Bucket List.
  • I’d really like to do a few things on my Winter into Spring Bucket List to be able to check them off. If I could find about 3 hours of time.
  • I need to get a car wash with mud all over my white car, lol. After work I’m too tired to stop or have other things that need doing worse.
  • We began looking for doggies yesterday on a PetFinder website. I’ve downloaded three apps for it and mostly they pull in the same dogs. There is one I can’t get out of my mind but she gets carsick -extremely car sick, it said. I don’t think that will work but —her face. Oh she is so cute. Anyway that is a start.
  • My desk is snowed under with ideas, projects and to do’s.
  • I was able to get a refund processed for our recent tow when my car broke down. Yay – progress at SOMETHING
  • I’m taking Mom to Cracker Barrel tonight. George is going to stay home and work on his music project. He too, has been fussing over no time to do things. He’s been wanting to work on his winemaking also but that has been put aside for quite some time. I mean, we basically have given Mom all of our free time last year and a chunk this year. So our interests are few and far between when we get to spend time with them.

I’m trying not to be overwhelmed by the things I am not “getting to” and by not getting any days off or at home for like – a month. So I’m claiming Memorial Day as a stay home day with NO plans. I think company will be in town but we will have to plan time on other evenings. Memorial Day. It’s mine! For Sanity’s Sake! I have all of the PTO’s spoken for. A lot of it comes toward the end of year – at Thanksgiving, Christmas prep and shopping – when I really really really will need it and then rolling over some into ’23 so I have some at the beg of the year to use for that first quarter before I’ve accrued any yet.

The Time Thing….I Think I Have Figured it Out

Sorry to fuss about time so much but I’ve determined that until our schedule gets ironed out enough to be able to cover all the things I need and want – I will continue to vent about it. It’s a continual struggle that doesn’t go away until I get time for what I need to be a complete person and human being. It’s always something I’ve vented about when I feel life strangling me.

I’m just not willing to give anything in my life up. So each part of my life will continue to screw up the next part. I can’t give up work (yet), can’t give up caregiving, and refuse to give up things I like and want to do as that is a part of who I am as an individual. I refuse to give up going to church as I do think it’s important as we have started back.

One thing I can do is track my hours at work and cut back to 40 instead of working upwards to 50 (or more some QE weeks). I mean with expenses going up and me having a time problem and my income probably not going up I can cut back on my hours to at least give me some time back and it’ll just have to be what it will be. That will make my value go up per hour – even though I’m salaried. I doubt I will go by that during a quarter end month. Hmmm..if you work a snot load of extra hours over 40 during QE one could actually do less than 40 during the other times – not that I will do THAT but that is what would be fair. But I at least should cut back to 40 then.

I leave sometimes early for doc appts but I’ve been waaaayyyyyy far over compensating for those times by coming in early, staying late, forgoing lunches, and working extra during quarter end months —- and I need to manage my work time more to have more of a life balance. That is really the only place I can steal time from right now and it’s not really stealing – it’s taking what is rightfully mine back! :-O So that is the only logical answer I can come to. It’s the place that is sucking most of my day. So there ya go. Tracking starts today. :-). I’m so glad we had this talk! lol. I love coming up with solutions.

THE TRIBE HAS SPOKEN

Things Lost and Found, Productive Weekend, and Feeling Accomplished

What a weekend! It was productive on all fronts and we enjoyed it as well. Time well spent. All the normal weekend things happened such as laundry and picking up the house and vacuuming. I began working on the sun room, vacuuming it, washing the sofa covers and pillow covers and will continue this week/weekend to get it dusted, windows clean etc. But I went to get the easter things to decorate and I could not find them. I decided on a whim to do some organizing in the basement. Organizing is something I am good at. And I decided to do some things I thought my help us get started in cleaning out the basement some. While doing so, the whole time, looking for my Easter decor.

I began by putting all the empty cardboard boxes together, folding the moving blankets neatly, starting a Good Will pile, throwing away trash, and putting like things together. While doing so I discovered a box I’d brought home from the office when our office moved. (Thinking about this time in my life makes me cringe. Moving Mom during the holidays and trying to shop, family coming in, wanting to spend time with them, and then our office up and decides to move as well. I about lost my marbles and it’s still kinda up in the air whether I did or not, quite honestly). But I found this box. I had to buy more plants from Amazon. And I found my little turtle bobble head I kept on my desk. I missed him too. I will take a pic of him later. I am so happy to find this box.

George came and helped me look for the Easter items and said they might be at Mom’s but to be aware – she had sent a lot of stuff to Good Will.

George knew that removing the bed in here was important to me. I thought we’d have to both move the mattress but he did it without me even seeing him. I’m not sure how he did that without breaking things with such a flimsy bed. So now I have room to redo parts of this room. I sat in there a while considering the best look for it all. I have a wooden filing cabinet for files coming up and a black bookshelf in the basement which I intend to put camera equipment on. I’m not sure how the room will be rearranged. I’ve considered rearranging the entire thing to have a different look and feel, but that is more involved. I will have to play around with it and see. It’s cramped right now the way it is. But I will figure it out. The main thing is that the bed is gone. I’ve wanted it gone since November, but we had so many other fishes to fry that was more important. It’s taken a pretty minute to get Mom settled. She is not there yet but close. And we’ve had to pry away some to get some stuff done that we wanted done so that all our spare time is not spent over there.

The bed being gone is big for me. It’s a huge representation of getting my life back, my office back, some time back. The box being found is big with my plants in it. It made my day. And when we went to Mom’s yesterday, I found the Easter box. This has truly been a real life Easter egg hunt. For in the Easter box were these guys. I would have been very sad to lose them.

I’ve had these quite a while. And their presence made me smile! So happy these didn’t leave for very long. George had moved them to Mom’s thinking they were her Easter decorations. He did not know. I bought most of my Easter decor last year when Mom was coming to the house and spending the weekend and I wanted to make it festive for her. Matter of fact, I don’t think George believed me that I had Easter decor. He quizzed me strongly about what was in them to see if I knew. I knew then he doubted me. But why would I make that up?

I had forgotten about this little bunny though. I honestly don’t remember it and wondered if it was Mom’s and she didn’t want it or if I had just picked it up somewhere last year when buying last minute easter decor as last year was such a blur!

So I began putting out some of the Easter things last night as George fixed our beef stew for dinner, which was out of this world.

We will be having Easter dinner here. I encouraged George to go ahead and buy the spiral honey ham while we were at Aldi’s. And it is time to plan the menu! I want some salads! At least two! Like maybe a layered salad, macaroni salad and then a couple of hot sides and rolls and I want to eat off the leftovers for a few days! I’m looking forward to this meal! We’ll go get Mom and Fancy and have them over.

An Easter Bunny, River’s Books for us to read to him on FaceTime whenever he calls sometimes and there is my niece and nephew who we have so missed growing up these last few years after my Mom and sister’s last and final argument. It’s just so sad.

I hope my niece and nephew know we love them but they probably forget who we are at this point. My sister banished both Mom and her Mom-in-law from her life. And with all that strife and dissension that makes it hard for the family to all get together. I tried the first year but my sister was not happy with the timing and said we didn’t really want to see them and said to just forget it. So we did. My guess is from that conversation is that they really didn’t want to see us. And that is ok. You can’t make people like you. Especially if you don’t try, lol. I’ve missed my niece and nephew but my sister sent me updated pictures and I’m grateful for that at least. And that is all I will say. I don’t want to sin against my sister by judging her. It is what it is and I try to stay out of their relationship or lack thereof, but ultimately a permanent family division can’t help but have ripple effects on the whole family.

Where it has impacted me the most is what I’m having trouble with. We could have really used the help with Mom’s move. And I always thought that my sister and I would be close while taking care of our parents. We lost Dad early on, unexpectedly and the family seemed to ravel apart after that.

But I just have to pretend that I’m an only child. When I don’t think about having a sister my anger goes away and I don’t sin and then I don’t have to go through a forgiveness cycle all over again. You can love a person and not like their actions. You don’t have to accept it. But having to take care of so many things on my own has really made me angry at times. And I don’t want to be that way. I don’t want to let the actions of another person have ownership of me. So I choose to put it all away and forget all of it. It’s easier that way. The past and everyone’s anger in this situation has taken a toll on everyone.

My sister would tell you she “got out” for her sanity. So I guess I’ve chosen the insane route and it does feel like I’m going insane sometimes. But I feel like I’m doing what God wants me to do in serving Mom who is not only a parent but a widow and cannot do all the things for herself she once could. I would never turn my back on her. I guess I should never say never. It would take a lot for that to ever happen. I would have to fear my life was in danger. And while our relationship has also been a strained one across my life – she still put clothes on our back and saw that we were safe and I intend to do the same for her.

Wow, this post took an unexpected turn, lol. Anyway, I try to keep my mind focused and forget all that has happened so that I don’t form awful opinions, hold on to anger, and then sin. It’s also very cathartic to let these feelings out here that I have harbored and pushed down for so long. I see no harm it mentioning these things on the blog because anyone that knows us pretty much knows our family is divided. I don’t think it is much of a secret anymore so no family secrets are here. It’s all public knowledge. And these are my feelings anyway so…..yadda yada. You know my motto anyway – ya’ll not want to be news worthy tomorrow – be nice to your fellow man today! Lord knows many lips have flapped about me over the years by ALL!

But yes, every bunny needs some bunny! In a big way. And God fills in the missing gaps when other people are not present in their God given duties. A dog would help too. lol

We had a great weekend of getting things done and finding things! We ate well too. But not too bad. The chips were the worst thing I ate. I fixed chips and salsa and a turkey sandwich, also with chips because I like the crunch.

On Sunday we took Mom to church. And went to Ruby Tuesday’s after and had big salad.

I piled it high and it was so good! I could do this every Sunday. I love their salad bar! This holds me for a long time. But last night we had beef stew and it was excellent. We need to have it more often.

We also took Mom to AT&T to get her TV streaming live TV. We spent about 45 to an hour at the store and got her box and then had to figure out how to get it all started up at the house. It was a little confusing but each thing prompted us on and it was hampered by Mom forgetting and not knowing passwords but we got those changed (I can’t keep up with my own passwords either – so no judgement there). Between the three of us we got it figured out. It took all afternoon. Once we got her signed in we had to get the google microphone set up so she could speak what channel she wants as she can’t see well enough to pick the channels on the guide. (And she says she is going to get out and drive soon. :-O).

I did get to spend some time with the cat. I love it when he nestles on my lap. But mostly he doesn’t stay there long. George and I watched a movie Saturday night about 9/11 with Tom Hanks and Sandra Bullock. Last night we watched Law and Order but I didn’t really like it. Not my bag.

I’m pleased that we were able to get things done here and also Mom set up with TV and streaming. She missed her Hallmark Channel. So hoping that keeps her happy this week. I was even happy that by Saturday afternoon, I made significant progress on the next video and I think you will like it much!

The Week Ahead

So I get my hair cut Tuesday night. Storms Wednesday. :-O. Thursday to Mom’s for dinner. Sunday to church. I suppose Saturday we will continue to work on things here. I was thinking of getting a pedicure. Might do that Friday night or might wait til next week depending on how busy next week is.

  • Finding my lost pink jacket. I have one place to look. At work. If not there I’ll order another one. ::sigh:: It’s not here, not in our car, not at mom’s. The last place I remember it is in my car. Or at home in the chair. Not either of those places.
  • Finish ironing
  • Fix my google credit card expiration date which will hamper this blog if I don’t get the card updated for the annual renewal of my domain.
  • Check out the candidates for voting so we can early vote.
  • Set my annual physical with Dr. Pare for August.
  • Finish sunroom cleaning for the warmer temps and early summer evenings. By June’s end it’ll be closed off again until fall unless we have some rainy days.
  • Measure my patio table for an example of finding mom a table for her back porch.
  • Order Pics from Shutterfly – will I ever get this done?
  • Set up my puzzle
  • Work on my videos.
  • Learn how to do GIF’s in videos on Final Cut Pro. I thought I had this one figured out but something didn’t work for me the other day. So I’m trying to learn this and also learn a new trick each week.
  • Shop for Mom a cabinet for her laundry room
  • Read some
  • Cannon Camera lessons. Bless it’s heart it gets put off last.

So is this enough to keep me busy this week? I feel like we are getting into a routine now, thanks to God who I have yelled at, begged, (bless him for understanding as He does) and so I think we are settling in with a routine that works. If we can get some important things done as well as some hobby/personal time in, we’ll be good. We all have to be patient which is what our Sunday school lesson was on. I noticed that neither George, Mom, nor I offered any advice on that subject less we end up judging one another and saying “why you giving advice to others about patience?” LOL Yeah we all sat there with are mouths shut! LOL

Meanwhile in Texas

River said “Poppy”! It’s so cute. He’s learning to TALK ya’ll!!!!!

Y’all have a good day! Anything accomplished or fun you had on the weekend????

Clean Underwear Brings Joy, A Payroll Mistake, and Do Not Disturb Brings Focus on iPhone

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In an effort to determine what I will be blogging about this morning, now that I am given the opportunity, I have determined that the main event, other than back to work, is laundry. I don’t know how we accumulated so much extra. I was only a couple of days behind schedule but seemed to have twice the loads. So the first part of this week was doing laundry so we had clothes to wear. And I had to do it quickly. We were running out of undies! lol

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No these are not mine! It’s the Pexel app’s photo but I thought it would make you laugh. Here’s my half of the laundry. The whites are currently in the load now. I have to take those out this morning and then wash a sweater on gentle.

We are mostly unpacked, except for a few sacks of kitchen items but need to send our suitcases to the basement.

Last night I cooked spaghetti after getting my pants ironed for the week. I was down to having to wear jeans but now they are washed – but our company prefers that we wear jeans only on Friday – not that everyone does, but I got a couple of pair of dress pants ironed. (I wash and hang most of my clothes as they last longer that way. But it does mean pressing them at times. Mostly my pants and any cotton blends that might have gotten wrinkled while sitting in a “to be folded stack”. I’m not here long enough nor awake long enough to finish a cycle through completely unless it is Saturday or Sunday.)

George caught up the finances a bit. I cleaned the kitchen also before cooking spaghetti. It was a mess and I cannot cook with a mess to begin with.

So coming back from a trip – there is a lot to do as you miss a weekend but still have those things that need doing to get back to normal. There are few hours to do it in when you are leaving the house in the 6 o’clock hour and don’t get back until almost the 6 o’clock hour again. So we’ve done well with the – what – four hours – that we’ve had to do laundry and finances and another quick stop at the store for whatever Sunday’s late day trip we didn’t get.

The floors need vacuuming terribly but I”ll try to get to that tonight. I also need to do an Amazon order.

I turned in my PTO request for my colonoscopy date and also for Thanksgiving week in which we plan to go to Texas. I know my employer doesn’t want to have to do payroll but I deserve to get a full week off and at least I’ve picked one where there are two HOL dates. I have not taken off that week in what two years now so that others could, so I’m requesting that week off. In my job there IS NOT ANY good time to take off for a trip to TX. TX is hot during the summer and the months I want to go when Katy is off, are always quarter end. I think they will have an extra room for us by then. As the remodel is almost finished.

Speaking of quarter end, it is month end and quarter end again, so I have many many many more boxes to check off of across the next month and will be working eagerly to get all that done.

It seems like the virus thing is no longer a part of our world around here. Although in China and other parts of the world there is a union of the two latest versions – which I think they called them DeltaCron or something like that. I don’t know much about it but just when things seem quiet, another round comes, but at least people are getting tired of talking about it and hearing about it so maybe it will just be dreaded flu and go away. I am still doing temperature checks, but I swear I see no other person’s doing it, lol. Most enter the side of the building and there’s no thermometer there. But I still do it. It’s always 95. If I had a real fever it would still show normal. Cracks me up.

Tonight maybe I can get the kitchen floor done. George wants me to give him a hair cut. Maybe I can get my Amazon orders done.

Mom’s doc appointment is Friday and is earlier in the day so I’ve stayed some extra and gone in early to make up for it, plus we have quarter end now so I’ll be having to work extra anyway. Then Saturday is Fancy’s trim, furniture shopping, AT&T store, bank, and grocery or whatever else Mom needs. Maybe unpacking a box or two and taking her out to eat, so anything we do this weekend will have to be done on Sunday. I would suggest taking her to church but we have to have a day to get our things done. So it’ll have to be a quick devo Sunday.

I made a mistake on payroll last week. There is a screen you enter through and then press save and it creates any auto pay for the week. It’s where HOLIDAY pay is created. So on a normal week I just enter enter enter enter like four times – just enter through the screen. And it is a necessary step. Someone had been in my office talking to me and when they left I entered the screen again because I didn’t think I had done it yet. Well I was trying to figure out where I left off. It’s such a quick screen and you don’t really think about it. Well apparently I had already done it. I have since learned that this same screen not only sets up HOL pay (which I didn’t enter as it wasn’t a HOL week) but it sets up SALARIED pay each week when you tab through it. So guess what? For this particular state’s payroll, the salaried people got paid twice. Live and learn. Sometimes we don’t know the purpose of things but are just taught to do them. Anyway, we know now. And that made me set up an array of rules.

One of the things I’ve learned in my management career is that when something goes wrong, you fix it but not only that, you keep it from happening again. This is such a simple step – it’s easy to overlook it and easy to do twice. So I made up a new rule.

When I do payroll I’m shutting my door and also putting on Do Not Disturb on my phone. I was worried about serious calls not being able to go through but if something serious is happening they’d be calling 911 anyway for immediate help. All other calls can wait til payroll. I was also soothed to know that if it’s a real emergency someone only need to to call twice. I think favorites might be allowed through but not sure. I just know that I don’t want any more conversation during payroll closing. Because at 59 it’s already hard enough to concentrate and remember where you are, lol!!!!!

I also decided to block two hours in the morning and two hours in the afternoon to give me some focus time so that none of my apps come through with notifications in those hours. I mean it adds up. I have allowed these items on my alerts so that I will know I have comments/alerts:

  1. Weather
  2. Texts
  3. Word Press Comments
  4. Facebook Comments
  5. Instagram
  6. News – both a national and local

And while I don’t look at my phone every time an alert goes off, I realize that it is becoming increasingly distracting. I didn’t used to get the news but with so much going on with the Russia thing I started to keep up with a few things. So it’s easy to look at your phone and get sucked in to what is happening in the moment. I thought it best to just give me two hours of uninterrupted time.

Why did I choose those hours? I figure it’s best not to go “missing” until the 9 a.m. hour in case any family is having emergencies getting to work or getting up for the day. My lunch is usually falling somewhere in b/w 11 and 1 so I just left that open. And then after 3 the day is winding down and that leaves room for last minute emergencies and such. People at work can get me on my office phone or call me twice during those focus hours.

How did I do this? Go to your settings on an iPhone and then find your Focus setting and go from there to turn on Do Not Disturb. When it’s on it will show a moon on your Home Screen.

I also decided to try CALM again as long as I don’t have to pay but so far it’s annoying because everything you try to do requires premium. You have to search for the free stuff and I’m not paying for this app. There’s too much else I can do to find “joy” and “peace” for free. But I did like this saying below. It’s just a reminder that YOU are YOUR OWN being and despite how others try to control every darn little thing you do, they just really don’t get to. At least the mood check in is free. Yes another alert. I allowed this one to alert me for a mood check in two or three times a day. I am interested to see how it turns out.

George has really been pressing me lately saying I let others control my mood. He is right to some extent. It’s more my personality to worry that I’m not doing something right or not meeting some responsibility or worry that I’m missing something, and wanting to please people that are NEVER going to be pleased. And I’m conditioned in some areas to respond in certain ways or to certain demands. So I’m working on that. I don’t want anyone to try and take advantage of my feelings or make me feel guilty, or manipulate me in any way, or play games with me – so I’m trying to learn and understand my personality and how to take control of certain things. And to find my joy again. It’s been a struggle with near depression lately. I’m finally digging myself out. This trip helped a lot and getting some sunshine and getting away from everything.

But I’m ready to get quarter end done, ready to work on some of my lists, and goals, and even ready to help Mom with her goals. As George reminded me, her needs are met we just need to work on the things she wants at this point – aside from the weekly medical needs and groceries and such which we are doing.

And that is about all I have for today. Just a mid week update. The week is going by fast. Our spring time is filling up on the calendar too – lots of fun and events coming – and some of my own doc appts as well. I also have one more appt to set but I’ll wait til April to set it so I can spread them out across the year.

Have to have some dental work done too. Anyway, enough smack talk for today, lol! I guess in summary you can say we are just barely keeping our heads above water here in this thing we called life. I mean at this point, you can say that having clean underwear at least brings some joy! Yeah we are down to that.