Happiness Audio Book, Christmas Phone Background, and Office Decor

Quick pop in today. I need to get to work for a long day today as I have to get a lot done at the office that I won’t be able to do tomorrow in my home office. It’s funny, we have 4 office areas set up in the house. George and I each have a personal office and each have a business office for our work.

I began this book as my worship series. I always keep a “worship” audio going. Lately it seems that my contentment easily slips away. It’s my constant need for perfection in all things around me I think that begins to seep in. I think I was brought up in a perfect world sortof – the house was clean, everything worked, everything was neat, new, and in order. Everything prepared for, all options weighed and decided.

I have to work hard at making my world to perfection and when it falls short, I wear myself out trying to figure out why! The world grows farther from perfection every day. I keep spinning my wheels trying to get there! So I think this book will do me some good. A lack of contentment simply means I’m not spending my time and thoughts and efforts in the right places. Already in the first chapter, this book is making things a bit clear for me. We constantly have to reground ourselves toward God and others and less of ourselves.

I was happy to go to work yesterday after being off the four days. It was nice to be off and we were able to get much done. But it was also four days of sadness watching Maisy struggle. Although, that said, I would not have wanted to be anywhere else.

But it was a relief after she ate. She continues to eat some twice a day. And to realize that she may have a chance to pull through this. It was a relief to focus on something else and keep my mind off of it for a few. Joy truly came yesterday morning, amidst the storm.

I brought in a few Christmas things for my work office AT WORK and packed up the few fall items I had. Yes I guess I have 3 offices now? lol

I really need a few more things to sit around. I have some other things in boxes I’m not using. Much of it is breakable though. So I will dig around and see what I can find that is not being used. I am not putting out all my breakable santas and things. I don’t like a lot of things setting around anyway. I will likely begin giving these things away.

I brought the Octopus in and laid it at the door. You press it’s button and it sings a song under water. I thought people would like that.

And a little bitty Santa that lights up in front of my computer and the three candles by my in/out boxes that I have a remote to, to light them up.

George sent me pics during the day to show me what Maisy was doing. Warmed my heart. He also sent pics of the snow. Mount Juliet and Nashville had a bit of snow yesterday but it didn’t stick to anything but the roofs in Mount Juliet, anyway.

At lunch time yesterday at my desk, I ate spaghetti and made phone backgrounds til I found one that worked for me. You can’t have a lot of “jazz” in the background of your phones. I have to be able to see the icons of your apps.

Here is the one I went with. I realized after it saved I didn’t get the lines right but you can’t tell on your phone. Feel free to download it if you want to try it. I use CANVA.

I also found these two “ready to go” on Canva. This one is cute too. I just wanted a pine background and then I’ll move to a snowy one for January.

I made this one but didn’t like it as a background. It was too busy behind my apps.

I’d like to spent more time being creative but it was time to go back to work. I did stop to have a Reece’s and realized how much they have shrunk. I mean didn’t they used to be bigger at one time.

Yeah they used to be a lot bigger. If these manufacturing companies keep shrinking things, we are going to have to use a magnifying glass to see how to open them. They are cutting everything down little by little but selling for the same price and hoping we won’t notice. I noticed.

My resolve? I ate two.

I came home to a sleeping Maisy who woke up and was very excited to see me. No she did not hop up and come wagging her tail, but she lifted her head up and slowly got up to come see me. And tried to follow me around until she just had to sleep. Bless her. I hugged her and loved on her when I got home. I think that is important for her healing. It’s certainly important for ME! This is where she sat while George worked all day.

This was a past year’s December calendar pic that popped up in memories on facebook. I thought it was pretty. Must have been the year I had the Porch Calendar.

And that is all for today. It’s 6:15 and I would have liked to have arrived at 6:30. But I could not get up at 4 this morning. And I really want to blog so here I am. I was up til 9:30 or 9:45 or so ordering Christmas gifts and finalizing a few things. We had a late dinner as we also had a meet up on where we were with Christmas. George buys some and so do I -so we needed to plan. We also had to decide what was for birthdays and what was for Christmas. And I always try to even things up between people as much as I can. For example, Katy and Cody. Does one have more to open than the other? If so more shopping is done. lol.

So I finished a lot of the orders last night. Katy and Cody’s are just being sent to their house. But we have some things we have to ship so I’ll finish the wrapping for those things tonight and Wed night. And then I’ll work on Christmas cards and then the rest of the wrapping.

But I’ll have a long day at work today as there will be a lot to wag home just for a day and wag back tomorrow and the wag more stuff home from work for Friday’s day at home. It IS truly a lot of trouble. I need a private sherpa. I already have a purse and a purse overflow bag. Now I’ll also have a laptop, monitor, calculator, and all my files to pay taxes for the states I’m working on, envelopes to stuff checks with, and so forth. It’s nice to work from home except for the hauling back and forth every day. Oh well.

Better go and get there so I can get through as quick as I can to start gathering and loading. lol

Fall Decor, Home Decor, and a Being a Woman with a Voice

I found a spot for my “Coffee Sign”. It was half price at Hobby Lobby and not very much so I decided it was a must have. Less Hustle and More Coffee for sure. One thing is for sure, I don’t like being rushed and quite frankly I don’t conform to a rushed lifestyle anymore. Not quite sure I ever rushed to begin with, just mainly was frustrated having to move so quickly from one agenda to another every heartbeat. I think life in a city with a career and family was just that way. I chose to “have it all” and I did, and I’m ready to slow it down. I think we’ve done a tremendous job of that lately especially during the pandemic. Pandemic aside, I’m ready to get out there, do some shopping and adventuring!

So back to the coffee area, I love our little Keurig center. The books make me want to read. I’ve not had time to do so. The making of the videos and the blogging and our watching shows – and sleeping – keep me from getting much reading done. Most of mine are audio books.

Then there is the tea center. Some of these teas are really old. I don’t drink as much hot tea as I should. I’m usually wanting something with caffeine and most of what I have here does not have caffeine. But perhaps I can sip some while watching Netflix. I forget about it.

I added the “We are Thankful for our Blessings” sign to our fall decor. I have a turkey or two stuck back that I will add once Halloween is over. I never really got into Halloween decor after Katy grew up and honestly we never did do much anyway. I do have a Halloween face pumpkin though and I need to be hooking that up at night and keep forgetting.

Why I’m Not in the Mood to Cook

My goal was to get in the mood to cook, but for some reason lately I have not been in the mood. I’m not sure why because normally I get in spurts of it. I really think it is more of a “time” thing. I’ll want to make things and then don’t have time to because I choose to do something else and it gets squeezed out. I also do not love cooking in our kitchen anymore because because because – old counters, old flooring, old stove(s), old everything. It just does not inspire me anymore. George does most of the cooking because he likes to and so a lot of the time it just feels like his domain sometimes. However, I am sure once the flooring is installed that I will become inspired to work in it again. Cabinets need reorganizing, and we need matching glasses instead of all the onesy twosy things. But George gets attached to certain things and won’t let go of them so if I get new glasses he won’t let go of the old and it really makes the space difficult. So I stick with the old things. I am about ready to buy some new dishes though. I’m toying with the idea of black stoneware kind of dishes or a brown or tan. Right now I have white dishes. I like them but just ready for something different. It seems wasteful to spend money on it though. But I do plan on looking at these some in the next year. It’s a next year thing and something to maybe save blow money for. Anyway, those are things I think about when I am ready to cook. I think about the changes I want to make. These things about me drive George bananas. His wanting to keep things the same drives me bananas. But at 58, I’ve decided to be me and well quite frankly I think I decided to be me a long time ago, lol. I’m just not going to feel bad or let anyone make me feel bad for being me.

Making a Nest and Plumping it Up

As a little girl, all my life, all I dreamed about was having my own home, making it nice, creating a nest, and decorating it. I’ve done a lot of that. It’s not been as fast as I’d have liked. Anything over $300 required some topsy turvy conversations, near divorces at times (thinking of the old house and a table I wanted for the new house), but yet we spend house facelift money tens times over with food, wine, beer, liquor, concerts, fine dining and all our hobbies and so forth – and used to spend it on nails and hair coloring, and now all my monthly subscriptions to everything. So I don’t feel bad for being me and wanting to enjoy these things and making my nest nice. Not going to apologize for that. Yes I’m thankful for what I have. But it doesn’t mean you can’t plump your nest up occasionally. Won’t apologize for that and not being selfish for that. I have a personality that likes to make things better, and I can’t help that. I’m looked at being negative because of that and that really hurts my feelings. “I’m never happy” they say.

Maybe I’m not at times because I always feel held back from so many things that I want to do so often. But when there are two of you, you unselfishly allow the other person to have a say and have their way a lot so….we wait, and wait, and wait until it’s your turn. I’m really looking forward to the flooring. And I’m really looking forward to a new stove and counter tops after that. Wonder how many years that’ll take. lol I’ll be dead before I ever get to RV. LOL

Men, Embrace Your Women’s Strengths

So yeah, all that just coming from – I am not in the mood to cook and here’s why. I was trying to analyze why and that all came out. I guess a few years worth of frustration was hidden down in my heart somewhere. But it’s all good. We are blessed beyond belief and I will never be able to shed my love for having things look nice, clean, functional, and organized. I love my clean lines and a fresh look. That will NEVER go away and I will NEVER apologize for it or try to change my persona for another. But I will be willing to compromise so long as it truly is a compromise and not one sided. Sometimes as a woman don’t you think people just want you to be shoved in a corner, be silent, and not saying, not cause any ruffles, any changes, not spend any money, not have an opinion. Oh yeah, it’s everywhere in my world. Has been for a long time. I witnessed it early on and continue to see it in ALL parts of my world. Women get less pay, less titles, less help, less heard, ignored, bullied, and so forth. Some worse than others. I could prove those things to you right now, but I won’t. I choose my world and I choose not to expose ALL that I have seen because I have no need to do so. But I have some stories! But I also am not going to belittle myself just because ANY man wants me to, whether it is my spouse, an employer, or some odd man you have to deal with in a retail store.

Wow, lots of frustrations coming out today. And that is good thing. Apparently I’m frustrated with some men in general these days – no not just these days – actually for a long time. I think they have a lot they need to prove otherwise to convince me they are not the way they are. We shall see. Not all men are that way to shove women aside. But a lot of them are and I do not respect that at all. We have a voice as women. We often have to raise our voices to be heard when others won’t give us space to talk and then we are accused of yelling. And if we are responsible we are called the B word. If we call the behavior out we are most certainly the B. lol. Oh wow, this stuff mainly goes back to my career all those years and all those places in HR. I could go on but there is no point. It’s over and done. I fought the battle and I actually feel like I won. I won for me! I usually said my peace when they needed to “come to Jesus” as they call it, LOL. Usually when they would try to pick a speck from my eye, I’d show them their beam of wood in their life that stretched out a mile and a half from their eyes.

I’m happy with what I’m doing now career wise and retirement is almost here – 4 years or so. And I will celebrate all men who hold their women up and cherish them for who they are, whether it’s their secretary, their wife, their management professional, or their girlfriend. Embrace and celebrate who they are as a person – don’t fight it- work with them, encourage them, endorse them. Have the “balls” to humble yourself and be a good partner, friend, or boss, supportive of their efforts. Don’t leave them on an island to fend for themselves, hoping they screw up and die along the path or just go away. Don’t make fun of them or mock them. Shame on those who do those things. God sees and God will deal with those as he may. Some sooner than later.

And that’s all she wrote for today as payroll must be done. But Wow I feel Better with a capital B. I’ve been listening to Jen Hatmaker and it’s making all this tangle of a mess of feelings come out that I’ve held in a very long time for many many many years. Whew Jen, thank you dear!

Ya’ll gotta read this one! There is no reason other people should make you feel less than special. God made you and me the way we are for a reason. And YOU are needed, as Jen says. Excellent book, Jen.

Next Video, Relaxing Weekend, Fall Decor, and Que Sera Sera

Surprise! The new video is published on my YouTube Channel. Here is the embed of it. Was fortunate to have time to get to work on it this weekend. It was good therapy for me. Even when I’m not in a good place, it seems like I can enjoy doing these videos. So that is a good thing. That is how much I enjoy working on them. If you go watch it, please give it a like and subscribe if you would like to see more. I appreciate your support and I’m still looking for a goal of 100 subscribers. I get some perks when I reach it. But don’t forget about coming back and reading the blog entry! I have a lot to share.

It’s been a really good quiet and much needed down time this weekend. I value that. And I have revived and recovered from the shenanigans of recent days and am ready to move on into holiday flair and shopping and of course eating that wonderful cuisine as we do and heading into the holidays with camera in hand.

I’m surprised that with the footage I have and photos, I was not able to cram it all into one video, so I think I actually have a couple more now I can make. Of course life is happening and I’ll have more videos and footage as we head into the holidays and then our mystery excursion in January when the baby is born.

George and I have thought of various angles for this trip. If you read the blog you know that. We really would like to take the dogs with us. There are dog friendly versions of RV’s and George had already looked at that option but the per mileage rate was horrible and would have been outrageously expensive. I was watching a video where the YouTubers were saying you could have a rig delivered to you at the RV park and set up for you (not having to drive it all the way down there). Ding ding ding! I looked at ones that you can drive (would be only a local drive to Katy’s house) so if we wanted we could boon dock for a night or two on their property but man it’s still very expensive. Anywhere from $199 to $299 per night. It’s like a luxury hotel. It will be in January and in Texas it can still be cold. There would have to be heat. I’m not sure if this will work to boondock some but I guess it’s something we can look into. We cannot rent or book in advance unless they are flexible with the dates. So not sure exactly if we can do this but it’s worth checking into more. Can you imagine how much this would help me in my worries about not having a plan? That would be so cool to rent an RV. I wish we could just buy one already and be done with that. But not to be. Not yet anyway. If we do rent one, I was looking at driveable ones so we could move back and forth. But I’m so unfamiliar with all this. But anyway, we will look into it further.

I found a good chip snack. However, they are very filling. They have sweet potato in them and also have brown rice in them. It’s a good snack to hold you over til dinner when working on payroll, ha!

I am not sure if Safflower Oil is good for you or not. But overall as “chips” go – not too bad. No long worded ingredients.

Over the next few days I’ll share some fall decor photos that I took this weekend. I probably already shared some with you but I’ve bought a few more things and moved some around. Who remembers anyway right? I live here and it’s my blog and I have no clue what I shared. I’d have to go back and look, lol.

Fall Decor on the Bookshelf

Dog Beds

I washed the dog bed linens this weekend. Mainly blankets. They love it when I do. I made Maisy a bed underneath the coffee center and bookshelf. I’m not sure why I never thought of it before. She liked it.

Roger was comfy in the clean blanket on his bed. Later Roger was missing and I found him curled up the new bed I made for Maisy, LOL. He likes to break them all in. Maisy doesn’t like laying where he has been so he is marking it just by laying on it and getting his scent on there. That little bugger. He knows. He likes to claim all the beds.

While George went to McKays bookstore today, Roger spent a lot of the time looking out the window for his Daddy. He is more clingy of him (and us) lately. But especially of him. He is not happy unless he is looking at his Daddy and by his side.

And claiming yet another bed with a new blankie. lol

A cool front came through and brought cooler temps and George made the most awesome Tortilla Soup or I guess it was really “Taco Soup”. So incredibly good.

We are well into our 2nd Season of Yellowstone! And I’m caught up on all my You Tuber shows.

What a great weekend!

Bizarre Week Ahead

Now this next week has potential to be a little bit crazy and bizarre. For the following reasons……

  1. It’s a Full Moon week so everyone will need everything all at once and everyone will be unsettled and there will be chaos, confusion, and short tempers. Isn’t that usually what a full moon brings?
  2. It is the final week to clear up any quarter end filings and guess what? I’ve basically had the last two weeks where I have filed ZERO nada of anything as I needed info from others and it either wasn’t available, everyone was too busy, or there were things not jiving up to the numbers. Regardless of the reason it was time lost that cannot be replaced and there is only so many hours to get it done and well….yeah…it’s NOT LOOKING GOOD to be on time.
  3. The normal weeks have been a little nutty in the past few weeks so….a full moon is going to cause some issues on top of the nuts! lol. And there are some nuts out there for sure. Trust me.

But we will offset that with some good meals at home each night and will end the week with some fun.

Photo by Anna Shvets on Pexels.com

Friday I got my Mammogram done at 8 a.m. So in a few days or a couple of weeks, they didn’t say….I’ll get my results. Hopefully all well there. No signs otherwise.

I think that is about all to tell. I will probably not blog until about Wednesday when payroll is over unless there is something to blog about. It has the potential to be a rough week but there are only so many hours in the day and I don’t plan on working after dark by myself, so…..it’s just the way the cookie crumbled. I can’t get two or three weeks worth of stuff done in one week so it will be what it will be. Let’s sing Dorris Day’s popular hit all week, Que Sera Sera. Everytime I’m asked if I’ve done something yet….I’ll hum this in my head. I can’t worry over things out of my control. It truly will be a Que Sera Sera Situation. I feel the QSS situation going on in several corners of my world!!!!!!!

Now quit looking at Dorris Day and go watch my video! LOL LOL