Faith Over Fear, God’s Wrath, and Little Debbies!


I have really enjoyed having on line access to my daughter’s church. They don’t always do on line service but have been since COVID-19. The message today was really good. “Faith over Fear”. Some take ways from this morning:

  • The enemy wants to make you have fear and break you down so that you lose your faith in God.
  • We are called to conquer fear thru our faith
  • Your faith, or lack thereof, can either move mountains or create them, which is it for you?
  • We can trust our God
  • We made it thru Y2k, stock market crashes, 9-11 and still have our faith, and we can trust God to get us through COVID-19
  • Our God has kept his covenants through the ages – Moses, David, etc.
  • God’s kingdom is EVERLASTING
  • If you are not firm in your faith – you are not firm at all “If you will not believe, you will not be established” Isaiah 7:9
  • We can have CONFIDENCE in Christ
  • Faith is like a muscle and you have to work it.
  • Consider Christ who endured….Heb 12:3
  • Have faith, hope, and love. Love is the greatest of those things.
  • Love more…on family, on neighbors, on coworkers, on our church, on our communities, etc. (On doggies too – that was my input, lol).
  • There is NO Fear in Love
  • Faith doesn’t panic.

So….yesterday I mainly just did what I wanted to do. I needed down time – time to process, time to think, time to just be, time away, time out, just letting time be.

I went for a walk in the neighborhood. It was a warm day – not very pretty as it was cloudy, for much of the day, but it is nice to get in daily walks. Much thinking is done during the daily walks. And planning. Only my plans were mainly what to do today. The dogs greeted me at the end of my walk.

Most of our herbs survived the winter. That was good to notice as spring is sprouting!

We had an excellent dinner. I had found a recipe for pork chops in our cook book. George loves to cook more than I do. It seems lately through all this, he seems to like my direction of what we eat. Whether it’s just to pick the meal and he finds the recipe, or I find a recipe, or make suggestions.

I found a citrus, but simple, pork chop recipe and we had that last night. I had my 2nd chop for breakfast/brunch this morning. And based on our scores for fresh veggies Friday, we had a nice salad. I’ve missed salads. I bought two kits also to take or have for lunches next week.

I also notice today that as I have sent some things up to the Lord to handle – every morning when I wake up, I do a little analysis of the “state of what is going on”. You should notice and take note of what is going on in your brain when you wake up. Is God telling you something? Is your creativeness flowing (or not), what are your thoughts? Maybe God wants us to deal with whatever it is that we are thinking, as our minds renew every morning.

My first thoughts yesterday and today tended to go back to things I gave to God already and it reminded me of several things. Forgiveness is continual. It’s a continual telling to ones self that you handed it over. It’s a continual telling to ones self that you don’t have to worry about it anymore. So I think we have these thoughts and then quickly need to override them with the way it is supposed to be. A perhaps a prayer for the help to be able to do that. I think to renew our thoughts we have to ask God repeatedly to take it.

So I think I have woken up, had certain thoughts, those thoughts make me angry and so mad I can’t see straight (I’ve heard my Momma use that phrase many times). Then I remember ‘oh yeah, God’s got this one’ and it’s very freeing of the mind to not let anger build, and to let it go as if it’s just a bug that you flick off into space. Then you can go on about your day, be productive and not be ridden with negative attributes the enemy would have us be ridden with – such as fear, anxiety, uncertainty. Ridden is just my term, sorry if it doesn’t fit for you linguists out there, lol. And we can replace those thoughts with goodness, purity, love, faith, patience, and all those things.

More than once today, I’ve dealt with anger. Just —let’s call it “the enemy” just trying their best to own your day. As mentioned, I again sent it to God – once last night and again this morning. And just like that, a bug flicked into the space – the problem (the person) – gone. Kinda sad really, but the enemy doesn’t like it when faced with the truth. I’m not always willing to just sit, look pretty (as if that is possible, lol) and keep my mouth shut. When there is a time to speak, I do, and with my whole belief system. I can take things and take things and take things, but in the 14th time when I’m done being quiet, and the words come out and I take up for myself, along with my Spiritual Maker, how often does the enemy run and tuck tail b/w the legs and run away? Nearly every time. lol Oh well and just like that *poof* the enemy flees – gone, hitting the trail, not a word, can’t face truthfulness. Making one think they should have spoken a long time ago. I really think it’s a Godly righteous anger that I’m experiencing now that I think of it. God is angry as He sees some things and I think I’m feeling that from Him in a big way and He is reminding me He is on my side.

We can’t control other people and their actions, but we can draw boundaries as to what we are willing to accept off of a person or situation. We can give God the issue, pray for wisdom and speak when words need to be spoken. I’ve said things in the last couple of days that I didn’t even know where the words were coming from. I think they come from a righteous anger b/c usually when spoken is when I’m chastising a wrong, after I’ve been silent for many times over. But now that I’ve pondered it – I see exactly where it is coming from. I do think the Wrath of God is coming out through me as we enter these “end times”. I think sometimes we think God is just peaceful and loving only, but oh he is an angry God as well. You can certainly see it in scriptures. Anger is not always bad when it is in response to evil doings.

I am not one that likes to argue. I will walk away or shut down – until you make me mad – or I get tired of putting up with it. lol. So I’m dealing with anger these days at some situations until of course I hand it over. It’s truly a battle of faith but I’m ready for the fight with the enemy. I have my Master by my side. He slays even the tallest of Giants for me. And He sees I’ve had enough these days. He’s flicking ’em off one by one out of my path because I’ve asked Him to. And He is giving me the strength to say what needs to be said. I’m not a speaker, I’m not a theologian, I’m not a scientist, I’m not a perfectionist, I’m just me.

“Don’t mess with my God”. He is definitely working through some issues with some folks. He is angry and He is present. He provides peace when it’s time and words to protect when it’s time. I can see Him working. And He is not happy.

I was thinking today that I should develop a model for the perfect prayer – you see this is how my thoughts go – I like being creative and creating routines and such. Immediately the Spirit corrected me and reminded me “excuse me Sonya but this has already been done” – the Lord’s Prayer. Oh geez, How could I have even though about coming up with a model prayer? I guess I’m always thinking I have to recreate the wheel for myself. It’s already been done and there for the taking!

How perfect is the Lord’s Prayer? Praise, protection from enemies, forgiving our enemies, forgiveness of self, prayer for our needs for the day of food, and so forth. There is no prayer any more perfect than the one our Lord provided for us. Read it today and pray it! WE need it. We all need it.

And a funny for ya, as we all need that to. Ain’t all that funny really as George and I been eating our Little Debbie oatmeal cookie after dinner. Or lunch. Or both. :-O

The Prayer

We find ourselves looking for the beauty wherever we can during these COVID days. And we try hard to keep our spirits up and find beauty in the day. We place our trust in God to get all of us through this situation. We love one another through it, we pray for one another and support one another. You begin to have faith in human spirit and love and kindness again. You try hard to keep the normal, to get done what you can despite the circumstances. And the sun finally shines.

And then someone comes along and is rude, hurts your feelings, and embarrasses you in front of others – trying to suck the joy – that you worked so hard to maintain. Emotionally, leaving you on the floor and sucker punched and holding your head asking “what the hell just happened?”.

Yeah.

So.

I got out my Bible and prayed. The more I thought through and the more I read, the more angry I became. God sees. He knows my heart. And now I know that HE is angry too.

George came back and said “how’s your day going?” The tears fell. I told him of the issue and he said not to grant anyone access to ruin my day. He might have used additional descriptive adjectives in place of “anyone” – as he has seen this before.

He then sent me Meme’s during the day to make me laugh. Sometimes you can’t just flip a switch when someone hurts your feelings, makes you angry, doesn’t get you, misunderstands the situation. It gets very complicated in your head. I want to make sure that if someone is upset with me, what was the role I played, what did I do wrong, was there something I could have done different, and why is this person angry with me? Or are they angry at someone else. I go through this because I care. I go through this because I want to fix whatever is wrong. I go through this because I don’t want it to happen again. But most of the time my thinking is in vain, b/c I’m not able to talk it out with the person(s), who is/are wired much differently from me. And most of the time I just end up wasting time figuring it out coming to no conclusion other than avoid the same said scenario by totally avoiding the person(s) completely. I’ve seen this same conclusion in others as well. So knowing this, I very carefully decided to pray “The Prayer”.

While I won’t go into the complete description of The Prayer, as I call it. I will just say that it is a prayer of resolve that I pray and sometimes as a last resort, in which I finally just give the whole thing to God and say “ok your turn, you handle this now, I’m done!” It’s not just any prayer. It is a very serious and fervently prayed prayer which results in God’s teaching of very serious but valuable lessons and it changes lives in big ways. So I don’t take it lightly. It is a permanent transfer of my judgment to God’s judgment and His handling is often much more dynamic than any handling of it that I could ever do. And by the way, I’m not a revengeful person and I don’t wish detriment to anyone- but God says to plant any wrongdoing on Him and let Him take it from there. I’ve found that He does indeed handle it. And that is why I’m very careful when I pray The Prayer. The circumstances can be painful but when it’s through there can be rainbows in the end. It’s almost like praying for patience. Don’t ever pray for patience, lol!

George, lifting the spirits a bit – says “hey why don’t we go to Houston’s at lunch time and see if we can get some fresh veggies and some chicken and see what they have?”

So we ran out to Houston’s and was able to get chicken, their home made biscuits, parmesan cheese, lettuce, and few fresh things like potatoes and onions. I also bought salisbury hamburger helper, lol. We used to eat that a lot. It’s a good comfort dish.

Then George said we should go to Kroger and see if we could get stuff to make homemade pizza.

I was immediately taken in by the $4.99 roses and pretty flowers. I started to grab some, but didn’t. I decided a picture would do. That way I could have them ALL.

I was relieved to see that meat had come back! Yay. Limit 2 per person.

Onions and potatoes were available as was plenty of salad kits and fresh veggies.

The frozen section was pretty much just demolished still.

It was tempting to get a few things as we miss fries and certain frozen things, but…we bought that 1/2 of a cow and a pig, so we can’t really put much more in the freezer. It’s why we couldn’t stock up on sale chicken like we do.

So we came back and had a busy rest of the afternoon. I ended up working a full day yesterday instead of trying to get some of last weekend back. Oh well.

I did stop to do a Bible Study as my heart was still hurting from earlier, making it really hard to concentrate on anything else. It’s true that people have a lot of pressure and anxiety and very little patience, and apparently also very little understanding of what is really taking place. So I’m trying to forgive – although really there is no excuse for anyone to be unkind to another. But there is resolve and maybe even forgiveness, if you can focus on beautiful things and not how bad things are.

There really is beauty and kindness in the world. It’s out there. And as if God knew I needed some, right then and there, a text came thru from my SIL asking how I was. I was fine I told her. I didn’t want to waste her day on my problems (soon to be God’s problem by nightfall). But just the kindness of “I’m checking on you” was all I needed to make my heart smile and have faith in human kind again. Plus George trying to make me laugh. He makes a good “office complex cohort”.

We had kindof an interesting dinner. Lots of carbs. lol Tamales (real ones, not Chef Boy R Dee), Refried Beans, and leftover spaghetti noodle which was turned into a cold noodle with vinaigrette. It may not look good, but it was.

So at bed time. I snuggled with doggies and held Roger by my side and hugged him. And Roger laid his head on my arm. I thanked God for my babies, and for their love, and their loyalty to me. I thanked Him for our blessings, and laid my heart out and prayed The Prayer.

This morning as I awoke, for the first time in many days, I did not think of COVID 19 first. I thought of what happened yesterday. Anger fired through my soul. I remembered then, that I had prayed the prayer and it was mine no more. The negative residue then began lifting and I realized it is just no longer mine to bare. Whatever happens from here is purely and spiritually defined by the hands of God. And we have to be ok with that.

So finally it is Saturday and while there is no where we will be going, I will be doing my normal Saturday stuff. I have no desire really to do much. This whole thing, as mentioned, has a tendency to suck the life out of you. All plans cancelled. Secretly, being an introvert, this is a chance of a lifetime to get to do what I want to do, read, write, do projects, clean, bake, the slate is open.

What are you doing with your Saturday?