Oh yeah! It’s Friday. Here I sit with a beloved cup of coffee and a few minutes at my hands to blog. Could it be any more wonderful? Well yeah, being in a forest in a RV with a day’s adventure ahead. Only maybe not right now – too many fires out west! Prayers for all impacted. Our world is just becoming something hard to survive these days. Is it me or is it getting more turbulent out there? Has it always been so eventful? Wow, I went down a rabbit hole fast there. I guess it only takes a few sips to wake up and see present reality across the globe. And good to consider all that everyone is going through to appreciate the mountains and valleys of life.
So back to how wonderful that it is Friday! Yes it is. It has been a tough week like some of them are, in the realm of sleep. It’s almost to the point of non-function at times, exhaustion, and just the need to sleep – especially between 1 and 3 p.m. Am I just getting old? I need a nap now after lunch! I struggle and pour coffee, e+shots, blow cold air from the fan in my face, until I come alive about 3:30 or 4:00.
Yesterday after work I went to Belk and got credit for the pants I bought online that did not fit. They were slimming jeans I guess so they were supposed to be tight, but I DO NOT LIKE tight fitting clothes. And of course we can’t try them on. I got so tired of holding them up in the store. That does not work! I can’t tell what will fit or not. I need to try them on. I gave up. Please give us our dressing rooms back!! We have our masks! I mean – now the jeans I brought back have been in my home and laid around for a week before taking it back to the store to be hung on the rack. How is that helping anyone? No I don’t have COVID. Well, I could have and not know it – as they always say. So give us our dressing rooms back please and boost the clothing economy – or at least the pants economy! We need our breeches bottoms! And our bottoms need their breeches! LOL We can’t just go bottomless or show our rears throughout life! Belk has so many returns right now they have assigned a complete return booth at the entrance to keep everyone from walking around the store with their bags. I was met at the door and immediately pointed to returns, LOL.
At this point it’s easier to just lose the weight and keep the jeans I have than to keep buying and returning. But I’ll try one more time I guess as I have to have some jeans that fit as fall comes on. I’m really only 1/2 size away from losing enough though where the current ones will be comfy. A few tuna meals and shakes and maybe I can get there!
I am between sizes thanks to all the comfort foods we’ve eaten on top of vacay. I’m trying to eat right but get side tracked. Like yesterday I didn’t want fast food and I thought fajitas would be good and healthy but when I got to Santa Fe I ended up ordering Quesadillas b/c they looked so good to be dipped in sour cream and salsa. Nothing else looked or sounded good to me. So I got it. It wasn’t going to be too bad except for the cheese and sour cream and I needed my dairy, LOL, I rationalized. But then the basket of rolls came…..HOT fresh from the oven….WITH the cinnamon butter.
Yeah, there’s THAT. And THAT has to STOP. I forget to say NO BREAD!
Coming home last night after the Belk run, I put up the clean dishes in the dishwasher and put the dirty in – aka “rebooting the dishwasher”. And George came home. I was about to start dinner but I was just absolutely flattened. Tired enough that I was almost sick at my stomach. So I told George I just didn’t feel like cooking. I needed sleep. So I laid down for about 20 minutes. Just total silence with me and my Maisy. I had to calm her down first and give her tummy rubs. LOL. But then we just laid there and rested for about 20 minutes and then I had my stamina back -well sortof. But we ended up having corn dogs. Yeah I know, THAT’s at the TOP of the health/wellness list of nutritional things to eat—-NOT!
Got a fairly good nights sleep. Tossed and turned between 2:30 and 4:00 and slapped alarms b/w 4 and 4:30. But at least enough hours of sleep to feel somewhat refreshed. Hoping to catch up on the sleep this weekend. It’s bad enough to have to get up early to shower and dress for work but when you also can’t sleep for 2 – 3 hours every night it adds up. And it HAS added up. So much so that by week’s end I cannot function. This happens a lot.
I don’t know what the problem is with the sleep so therefore it’s hard to fix. Am I comfortable – yes and no. Sometimes the bed we bought from work gets a little too firm. It’s firmer than it first was. But I don’t want to mention getting another bed right now. George worked so hard getting that King Size mattress in.
Is it quiet – definitely not quiet for the most part as George’s snores are increasingly loud and not consistent. Lots of varied noises and rhythms and gasps. It might be time for him to do that sleep study and get the sleep machine thing. But I don’t think he wants to do that. I think we’d both feel better the next day if he did. I’ve considered sleeping in the other room. That option keeps quickly moving further up the list of things to try. All I know is I can’t continue on with lack of sleep. But most of the time I can sleep eventually with his snoring. And that is why I’ve not given up trying. Or it could be the pillow. Sometimes just a different pillow can make a difference. Is it my shoulder? My right arm/shoulder has been hurting fiercely when the lack of sleep sets in. It’s better with vitamins, sleep, and nutrients from eating right but let any of those things slip and it’s aching. I don’t know what is wrong. It started about 2 years ago and it’s slowing increasingly worse. Rotater cuff? Cancer in my arm? Getting ALS? Arthritis? It’s anyone’s guess really. I brought it up to the doc a couple of times but since I could still move it I guess there is no cause for concern? lol I guess as long as it remains attached we are good! It’s increasingly bothering me at work too with typing and such.
Anyways thanks for listening to my laments of no sleep and the problems it spurs. I need to get ready and get on my way to the eye doc this morning. I noticed on vacay that I could not see the signs very well. So I’m hoping no changes. I need to have him check my sun glasses prescriptions b/c those are the ones I’m really having an issue with with driving. Maybe that is the problem.
And that is why I am intensely celebrating the fact that it is Friday, with my beloved coffee! The chance to sleep is coming and rest and rejoovy!