The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly

Well, we are ALL so very different, but somehow God brought us together back in 1980 and 1981. And yet again here in 2024. One of our girls could not join us at the last minute, but we missed her. Quite a fun lunch and catching up in Williamson County, TN. A nice little mini reunion. One of the girls made this dessert.

It’s been quite the rush of a weekend. It’s all gone by so fast. I’ve had to excuse myself from our nightly quality time to catch up on a few things. Since I didn’t get to do much here this weekend.

This morning we had church, Sunday school, then Wendy’s, back to Mom’s to get a gift card she needed, and then to Home Depot to buy her a grill as she wants to cook out. Then we went to the store and bought a few things she needed. So we were with Mom from about 8:30 to around 2 or 2:30.

I was ready to be home. Gone all weekend and worked all week and have to go back to work tomorrow. So me not being in a good mood to begin with, today did not go well. I had ZERO tolerance – to spend the day being picked at, poked, and prodded to anger. Anything I said was picked apart, made fun of, or disagreed with ALL.DAY.LONG. So the best bet with a narcissist they say is to be a grey rock. But I’m tired of leaving my feelings aside and pretending to be grey matter!!! I don’t have to sit there and take it. I engaged and bit back and defended myself!

Instead of being a grey rock today I was just in the mood of “Fine. You have now officially met your match!”

So I refuted, met her words, corrected her, and prodded back to protect myself. It doesn’t matter, you can’t win with someone like that though. It was just a ridiculous dance with the devil. They just want to be disagreeable, and try to make you angry, so they know they are still alive, according to the psychologists. That’s how they get their thrill of the day. But I don’t have to be a door mat and I’m not gonna be. If it’s gonna be like that neither of our lives are ever going to be pleasant or peaceful again. And I’m ready to fight!!!! My patience has flown the coup! I’m not a grey rock or a little mouse that is going to just sit there and take it.

My friend just posted this on Facebook. Is that not the truth? That was me today.

I’m so done! I am about 1/10th of an inch from praying THAT prayer!!!!!! And about to remove myself completely from the situation. I’m just so tired of the negativity.

Anyway, I’m not sure what the answer is, but when I pray THAT prayer, God WILL be removing one of us from the situation, because that is what THAT prayer is about. I’ve prayed THAT prayer about 3 times in my life. It’s a very serious prayer. God always hears it and He always answers it QUICKLY. I take it very seriously and I don’t pray it until I feel I have absolutely hit the wall and no point of return. I’m an inch and a half from hitting that wall.

However, just because we have people in our lives that can’t shake miserable cow syndrome does not mean our entire life is kaput. At least there are areas of our lives that bring joy and that are, thank God, immune to this type of negativity and hatefulness.

So Trace is starting to “play and smile” and be so much more alert. Isn’t this sweet? A polar opposite feeling to other situation above. I just count my blessings that I only have to be around negative energy a few hours a week and I can’t wait to get away from it.

I’m going to quit talking about it on here. Even though I need an outlet, I just don’t want to be sinning by talking about it. Even though it is what it is and I don’t want to hide it either. I mean it’s all just fact. I really need to be talking to a Christian counselor but I don’t want to pay for it. That would make me even madder. But sadly, I am really starting to be angry. Not just a little. But…Very very angry.

Other good things this week is: I learned how to program a mix in my sleep program, LOL LOL

I like this mix!

Being home brings peace.

The weather was so pretty and warmth has returned. Even though storms return and rain for the next few days.

Here’s Little Bit. He is also glad it is warm!

Since I’m never home to play in the dirt, George planted my yellow petunias.

He also planted a new bush where last winter’s harshness had killed one.

I had quite the afternoon once we got home from church today. I did about 3 to 4 loads of laundry, cleaned the kitchen, filmed a video for midweek (you get TWO this week). And also edited it. And vacuumed. Also took care of the dogs. I’m having to push through a few things, to get things done. And stay up later than I want. But I’m stubborn and I’m tired of having to keep rolling everything over to the future that I want to do.

I’ve decided to just rebel against everyone today. I’m tired. I’m tired of it. And I’m not taking anything off of anybody. lol

The TRIBE has spoken. More than once. The drums are beating. And the wings are flapping! And the birds are squawking. lol lol lol

Nite Nite