Good morning! I have not slept very well last night and struggling a bit. I need to follow my own advice and let God handle things I suppose. There were a couple of things that made me sad, then mad and then something else made me mad later on top of that. So not exactly a happy Sonya this morning.
There is a conflict with some time off I’m going to need. There is so many times I’ve put other things before my family, like work, while trying to meet the needs of everyone there. Much like the rest of today’s world, no one really cares about my needs or my family’s needs. And I get it. In today’s world it is not anyone else’s job to. I was kinda hoping for a compromise or a work together or a let’s see. But those are often hard to come by. We have to do what we have to do when the rubber meets the road. So either things will work out, or they won’t. And how that comes to play will yet to be seen. But my decision is made anyway, that is the easy part for me. I will be where I need to be when I need to be when the time comes for me to be there. The rest will have to play it out. Being how that I like for things to be perfect and settled, this is just another hole to be buttoned up – or in this case left unbuttoned for the time being. Life is not perfect. And it makes me very sad knowing that there could be some very serious changes upcoming.
Whenever something good happens there is always some negative thing to try and pounce and spoil it. It’s up to me not to let it, but I can’t help being sad knowing there will be this big “thing” looming. It my mind it’s settled. No decisions to be made on my end. I just have to deal with the aftermath. But family has encouraged me that it will all be ok. I’m talented and have much to offer if it can’t be resolved.
Then, after seeing Black Lives Matter all day long – for how many days now, and after spending some time in the word, being heart broken over our nation and these groups that try to manipulate people, I simply posted “We ALL Matter” based on my belief that God loves us all and we are ALL included in His plan for salvation. Of course, someone (the same someone who has a reputation among friends/family for correcting people on Facebook and letting them know they are wrong – lol), posted a link to it saying that I should watch the link and learn why I should not say that. Another friend texted George and asked him to tell me to take it down so I would not get in trouble that it was “not proper form”.
My response? You talk to God about that. It’s His Master plan and He didn’t leave any race out of it. We are called to love one another and WE DO ALL Matter! Period. How is this wrong? Don’t answer to me on this one. Answer to God on it. It’s His plan. I’m just sharing the WORD. And WE DO ALL MATTER.
Also for the person sending my husband the text, has no right to tell me how to handle a facebook post. My husband did not show me the text but I was at the table when it came in on his phone and saw my name on the screen so I picked it up and read it.
So then by the time 7:00 p.m. came, I was pretty steamed. First of all I do not like to be told what to say or how to say it. And do NOT EVER tell me to SHUSH of my opinion. OH. NO.
So people are mad that I’m all about love and equality? Am I hearing that right? Sounds like mounds of others are just misjudging me or are being swayed by media and others to sway their thinking into sectors and establishing good phrases as being bad ones. It’s like the rainbow. They took that symbol for being gay. Now if I use that symbol someone thinks I’m gay. But it’s a beautiful rainbow. Beautiful colors. Just because I share a rainbow or have colorful this or that, doesn’t mean I’m gay. You don’t get to assign meaning to my words. Oh no. My words are mine. My opinion is mine. My right to speech is mine. And if hearing God’s word or God’s plan or God’s love is offensive, then go dig somewhere else. Because my words, plan and opinion is not going to change. And you’ll just be aggravating yourself by sticking around. I’m not budging. WE ALL MATTER. Yes we do. God loves all of us. There is no room for bickering and putting people in corners or sectors. If you assign me to one – that is on you my friend. Not me. If you take something beautiful like equality and tell me that saying We ALL Matter is wrong, then you might need to do some refiguring and not letting these groups change your moral thinking. They have you twisted around in your mentality. We all matter to God. We should all matter to each other. We should all treat each other with love. And that does not mean setting fire or stealing in order to do that. God’s plan has no room for hate or dissension. And if I’m being misunderstood here then that is on you.
In light of the present world and opinions that are just going twisted, let’s go back to Kindergarten class? And I can assure you I have no hidden mean racial agenda by saying this. I mean really.
And I hope we all have a better day today. I intend not to let the world or others who try to control my life in any fashion get me down b/c I know who is REALLY in control and as long I’m trying to do the right things, then I’m not worried about it. I’m not racist and therefore nothing I need to worry on. And I will be serving my family when the times come and those decisions have been made as well. It gets interesting trying to do the right things but then God said it would. It will.