Stress is Obviously Taking a Toll

Well, hope you all are doing well. We have a schedule that came out at work that clarified who needed to be in and where so as to keep it under a gathering of 10. We all have separate work spaces. So it has been established that I will go in on Mon, Tues, and Thurs. That way I can do payroll and process check cuttings for garnishments later in the week and also I can print out things and so forth that I can’t do at home. I really only need 1/2 day Thursday at work but I guess I have to be there the whole day it sounds like.

So we are now under a mandatory stay at home order in TN. We were under a “safer at home” in Nashville and I believe Mount Juliet was also. The definitions may be a bit more strict I guess. You just can’t be out period unless you have official business or getting food and supplies and so forth. They had tried not to go this route but said they were watching the cell phone tracking and everyone was going places. So they felt they had to do the order. So regardless I think all along we have deemed ourselves essential at work but I guess since TN has the order and if they plan on enforcing it, I can keep the schedule showing we have to be at work on certain days. I’ve been told payroll was essential so I think I’ll be ok if I get stopped. Our work has declared itself essential anyways. George told me to print that schedule out and put it in my purse for sure so as not to have any issues.

Work has been stressful and I’m trying to nurse myself out of a diverticulitis situation. So far no infection or fever. I ate a little yesterday as I wasn’t sure if it was diverticulitis or kidneys or another situation. But last night I had to get up and take acetaminophen to knock the pain. I woke up feeling wonderful but just had another bout of pain a few minutes ago. I honestly do not know what causes this – unless it’s eating the bread and pasta – or eating more than normal. We have eaten a lot lately. It could be stress induced. And I think I have increased amounts of time sitting and that is probably the biggest issue as I’m sitting for hours hunched over. The stand up desk works good. I can use it on Monday and Thursday’s. At home I just need to set a clock and get up and stretch every 45 or so. Normally at work I am running around doing things, filing, and moving around more. I just have to make myself get up more when we are at home.

I am hoping I will not have to see a doctor with this. I will plan on calling the office if it doesn’t get better. It’s not a full blow case yet – but if it becomes more painful and inflamed or infection where I have a fever, then I will call and have them give me antibiotics. Hoping that they can do this over the phone with this pandemic going on. I’ve asked the Lord to heal and so I believe He will.

But today I will probably need to maintain more of a liquid diet and see how it goes from there to give my stomach a break.

Work is crazy right now. So much to do. Have tried to be a team player and help others but I also cannot afford to get behind. That said, I’m glad it is Friday! There’s a lot saved up that I need to get done this weekend.

Needless to say I guess the pet trims our cancelled. It is not essential I guess. I am wondering if I need to order a dog trimmer set and see if I can figure it out. We may come out with new skills after all of this. lol

I am not sure how the online ordering is going of things. I thought I’d try to do a household supply order through Target. I think we are going to venture out again for more fresh veggies and then hunker down for a while. I really don’t want to go. So we’ll see. But we’ll be out of fresh pet soon.

I wanted to make a gluten free bread this weekend. I guess we’ll see if I can eat. I have a variety of things to open up gathered in the floor of our foyer. lol. Waiting for germs to die. I think I can open them up this weekend and get rid of the boxes.

I have some cleaning to do and laundry as usual. Lots to do but most of all looking to have some down time. I may even do some shopping on line and buy a new blouse. I have some $ from my consignment built up on ThredUP and they have some good sales going on. With the stay at home more stuff going on, I might buy some more jogging pants.

I also need to get my head around planning for a virtual baby shower for our nephews wife Ellen. I have some time for it but don’t want it to sneak up on me.

I guess Katy will not get to come home in May for Cody’s brother’s wedding. I’m guessing. They have not made the decision. However, I don’t think this mess will be over and the airports are not a good place to be, if they are even allowed to fly or leave the state. But somehow when this is over I hope we get to see them. Not even sure weddings can even happen at this point as there are not to be any gatherings. Such as a sad time for those getting married. They either have to postpone or elope just the two of you, if that is even a possibility at this point. Possibly not.

Crazy times for sure.

I don’t have a lot to tell you. It’s all been work and no play except for watching a show while we eat. I fall asleep most nights before the show ends. I kinda quit listening to the news – not totally but like every other day to just catch up. That seems to help my well being.

Yesterday was the first day that I really didn’t want to just put my head down and cry. It was mainly because I was too busy trying to figure out things and was frustrated, knowing that I know how things go and I can predict certain things. lol. Everything is so unsure and our world is so different and you try to figure out how to live and operate in the new world. It’s like being on Mars. You try to figure out how to keep trains on their track – or how to put it on the track after its fallen off. lol

Please pray for the diverticulitis stuff going on. I just really don’t need that right now. And life needs to just calm down so we don’t all lose our health and die before this virus thing even gets to us.

Ya’ll have a good day and hope you have something to look forward to for the weekend? I’ll look forward to watching some of my favorite shows and quite frankly just to sit and play candy crush. lol I need to have a change of thoughts. And to have less worry and fret over things and how to handle things.

It actually makes me mad that across my life, I worry about people being angry at me. I always worry if I’m doing or saying the right things or am I forgetting something. It seems all my life there has been someone yelling or angry at me, even when I’ve had the best of intentions. I don’t know why people don’t like me or think so bad about me that they think they have to raise their voice or yell or try to make me feel bad or think negative against me. Does anyone else have this issue? Is it just the world we live in? or is it just me? Am I a horrible person or something? George says he has his own theories in which he just believes the world is full of A Holes. lol. Well, I don’t know but define A Hole and if they shoe fits I guess one can wear it. But I’ll not be assigning that judgment. I’ll let God do that. It still is hard just to let God handle things sometimes. It’s a new struggle every day it seems letting God handle the pitfalls of this world.

And I’ll log off with that. So raise those coffee cups in the air and ask God to help you not to the BUTT in someone’s day! But a Blessing! lol lol lol I try to do that every day and by days end I’m the butt it seems. I can do nothing right to some. But at least I try. I think really there are just some you cannot please. I’ve been around those all my life. I probably can’t be pleased either b/c I’m part of that world too and I myself have pretty high expectations.

I should stop typing. lol

NOT CONTAGIOUS!

Well, it’s payroll day but I got up early to do a blog entry since I’m feeling better. I’m not out of the woods yet as whatever things I eat now have to be able to successfully “complete their journey”. But I’m pretty confident in it. There is little to no pain now. My stomach is not as tender in that area. I do however get very full on even just water – so things are not totally up to par. My real appetite is not back either as you would think I’d be fiercely hungry after 2 days of not eating anything but liquids and jello and broth – mainly liquids. However, I’ve had moments of hunger in which I’ve craved a piece of bread, eggs, and of all things a bologna sandwich with mayo. lol.

Yesterday at 7 a.m. I went to West Wilson Medical office and had my follow up. The doc said “oh I can tell you feel better” (I was also dressed in work attire, had make up on, and had done my hair). She was so confident I was better so she told me to go on to work that she felt the white count would be ok but she would call if it came out low. I didn’t get a call so I guess we are good. She told me not to eat meat for a week, but to eat softer things and work my way up. So George and I brainstormed back on forth on email a few grocery items (the dogs needed more Fresh Pet anyway). And when I got home at 6, he left out for grocery shopping again for me. Bless him.

The day was pretty easy yesterday as far as getting through and feeling good. I had a lot of things hanging over as I still needed to do about half of last week’s work load since I was working on taxes and unemployment and year end stuff. Of course while trying to get things done payroll and HR are getting slammed with requests for their W-2 saying that did not get theirs yet b/c they had an address change. I don’t know if these are younger folks (new workers in the work force) but most of know if you move to change your address with your employer so you get your W-2. Shaking my head here. In the meantime we are trying to deal with all that and do the 2nd issue of W-2’s. Nothing new. I’ve been involved with payroll many times before and that is the norm. lol. Either that or they lose it so you get another surge in April. lol. Just part of the business. Still amusing to me, since I’m such a planner. lol. It seems like such an obvious thing. It’s like if you know you are going to make a recipe, you gotta have the ingredients. You gotta go to the store and have a way to get there. When you pay taxes, you gotta have the documents to do so and if it’s mailed to you – it’s not like it has a loader that will find you (at least not yet) – it takes a correct address. lol. So we play the game. It’s ok. Still amusing.

I’m also hoping that people are not freaking out that I was at work yesterday after having a fever on the weekend and hearing that I had stomach issues. Some freak out when they don’t understand. I guess I get it if people hear and don’t know what is going on and speak before they fail to find out what has transpired. Rumors spread like wild fire. Yes I was very ill. This can be fatal if not handled quickly and appropriately. (But gosh folks. Do your research please before going to others and whooping up a conversation and subsequent panic). No I’m not contagious. I’ve been very open about what is going on. So it’s not so hard to google diverticulitis to realize that I am not going to spread an epidemic. No I’ve not been to China and don’t have the Corona virus. It’s gonna be ok. (Get back to work, lol).

Some days you kind of feel like Emelia out on the ranch, lol:

This is Katy’s niece that came to visit on the ranch. I took the liberty to “snag” the photo since there were no faces. I love love love this photo. I love the curiosity of the cows. One or two would not be as funny, but there is something hilarious about that many cows just standing there looking at you. Why are they so taken with things? Cracks me up!

Ok someone wanted the recipe for the Chili Mac Casserole. It’s on Food.com and search for Chili Mac. I will try to put a link here: CHILI MAC CASSEROLE RECIPE

But here is the screen shot. I did this while waiting in the waiting room yesterday, lol.

Well it looks like it didn’t open all the directions, sorry, but I think you have enough here to find it on line and well, it really wasn’t that difficult. You just made the macaroni – it doesn’t take much – and cook it al dente (not all the way b/c it keeps cooking in the oven). You make the sauce kinda like you are building up a spaghetti sauce, starting with the onions beef, chili peppers, etc. Then you mix it up in a casserole dish with the beans and bake it – according to directions. I mean it’s really mostly cooked at that point so just until it’s bubbly – about 30 to 40 minutes I think and add the cheese and then continue baking.

We decided this recipe was a keeper. I had rather have something better than enriched flour noodles next time. But this time I wanted to use elbow macaroni as I love the shape. It’s hard to find elbow macaroni in a healthy form, lol. So I will probably switch to spirals or rotini as I’ve seen some of those out there. I’m thinking it needs to be a hearty size pasta because it cooks twice. Spaghetti would get so limp and almost disappear.

It’s a great dish for family on a winter night, or super bowl, or Friday nights! Even weeknights b/c it’s easy to fix. A fun version of this would be to add it over tortilla chips, and toss on a dollop of sour cream. Just saying.

Someone else wanted the apps for the web cams. I will take a screen shot of that on my phone so you can see the app icon, but… I think it is just called “Web Cams” it’s kindof a green and white icon with a camera shape. I just realized it’s almost six and even though I got up at 4, my blog time is almost gone. It’s payroll closing day too. I normally don’t blog on Tuesday b/c of that. But I got up early. My how time flies.

Anyway, the past day I’ve been trying to figure out how to avoid this diverticulitis thing. I mean before there was always warning signs. No warning this time and it was different. Usually constipation is a huge sign. There was no issue.

I mean we can blame it on popcorn but they say as long as you are not constipated then things like popcorn and nuts and seeds are not a problem. The medical studies have said it appears to not be the case.

So yes, pop corn has been involved every time I’ve had it but I eat pop corn every week. I eat nuts every week. I also drink water every week, rice every week, ____, blah blah blah every week so just b/c it was eaten does not mean it was the culprit statistically. You can say anything is likely to be the cause (I eat a lot of stuff during the week) if you are looking at statistics. I DID wonder if leaning over my desk for countless hours on end mashing against my midsection made it happen – I mean reasonably you could conclude that “could” be the problem. I noticed how hard I was leaning over my desk days before this occurred as I had pushed my monitors back to have work space in front of me. Well today I moved it back forward closer to me so that will not be an issue. I talked to IT about a standing desk as well as I know sitting all the time is not really good for this condition either. I need to move around more. But the cost is $500 for a standing desk and they are asking us to cut office supply cost. So I hate to ask for one. I see others with them though. It’s something to think about. Anyway since we are chest deep in storage boxes as archives has not been picked up yet, I have a great standing desk for a temporary option for when I am doing something that doesn’t take the computer. I did time sheets yesterday for the initial look through and stood and got that done. So I will figure it out. I just don’t want to keep having these episodes and it really bothers me how this came up so quick without warning. What was different? Who really knows, I just don’t want it to happen again so I’m trying to stand more, move around more, and yes, cutting out popcorn and anything with sharp ridges. I just don’t know if I can give up tomatoes. lol I’m not sure I can give up popcorn either. I’m bothered by the lack of warning signs so that you can get yourself out of this. But I guess it is what it is. I’ll probably do more research. But I kinda think that things like putting pressure against your tummy and sitting too long can play a part. So I’ll focus on that. So weird. You gotta try to fix something. I don’t want it to happen again! I mean at some point it seems like the colon would just get so funky you would finally have to have surgery and I don’t want that.

Now that I am taking the antibiotics I have to watch the kidneys. So I have cranberry juice and yogurt going on for today’s world.

And I need to hurry and get dressed and lunch packed, make up done and hair done and out of here. I’d like to be leaving right now but…I should have known if I sat down to blog I’d be later than intended. But sometimes you just got to blog your feelings out!

Ya’ll have a great day. Probably be back in – in a couple of days! Much to do!

Making the Best of a Sickly Weekend

In the dead of winter, flowers just seem so pretty. These are some flowers George got for me in the past on Valentine’s Day. Love them.

So…..this past week has just been odd. Just a lot of returns to do for unemployment and end of year, and not having much time to do it in. I just thought that the reason my stomach was being weird was b/c of the stress of trying to get it all done. It’s enjoyable work for the most part, but I was really trying to meet deadlines and kept pushing. But I had a hard week last week. Sleep was so-so. I went in early, left late. For the most part we ate pretty good. I did my shakes on most days. But Thursday, I just could not satisfy my stomach. So I kept throwing more food at it – including a quarter pounder and then shower food at the baby shower just a few hours later.

From about 2:00 p.m. Friday my stomach began feeling it was in such knots. I just continued to think it was the stress and I’d get rest and it would be better.

Upon arriving home, my stomach was so inflamed, swollen, full of pain and nothing could be resolved. It was as if there were a blockage. And well there kinda was. It was diverticulitis where something gets into the wall pocket of your intestines and creates a swelling and possible infection, blocking the flow.

I was in excruciating pain periodically off and on all night Friday night. I was hoping that it would just go away and get better but I knew I had to switch to water only. No more food til this got better. No one needs a tear in their intestines and I wasn’t sure that hadn’t happened with all the pain I had Fri night. So me going with George to get the cow and pig was out as was going to the Memorial for our neighbor. George took care of all that.

So Saturday I stayed in bed trying to recover but about mid-morning I began to have a fever. Great crap. So I googled and my doc office was open for urgent care. I threw on some clothes, gave the dogs some treats and headed out the door. I had about an hour’s wait in the doc office. And then was able to see the practitioner. (Doc’s don’t work on Saturday I guess.) But I just wanted antibiotics. I was the last patient in before the locked the doors, and I was the last patient to be seen of course.

The practitioner was very nice. She agreed it seemed like diverticulitis and having had that before, I knew was happening – eventually. (It just didn’t start out like the other episodes, or at least I failed to see the warning signs).

Because I had a fever and had such intense pain, she kinda wanted me to go to ER and get a scan. But she agreed to let me get going on the antibiotics and if pain worsened and nausea and vomiting occurred (if I got worse) I was to go to ER. She told us about a new ER in our area that was good to go to and not many knew about it yet. That was good to know.

George showed up at the doc office and surprised me. Bless him. He didn’t have to. He’d just made a 5 hour trip to KY and was still going to the memorial of our neighbor. So then I went to Publix and got my Rx so I could get it in my system. And then he went back for a bigger grocery run later and to get me things I could eat with just liquids. My instructions were clear liquids – no coffee.

So I couldn’t wait to get home as my fever was increasing and I felt miserable. I had to wait for my Rx of course and that was bad standing there but at least I was back home and in bed in no time. George had come home and dumped the meat off into all the freezers. I didn’t even look until he made me look this morning. I know he’s proud of the freezer full of steak, but I’m still in the mode of having to sip tea and water and eat jello so I can’t even think about a steak right now. One day!

I know I didn’t feel good, but I told myself “enjoy the sleep while you can”. So there was an upside to this situation. I threw the doggies in bed, grabbed my warming blankets and let myself enjoy slumber and lots of it. My fever got up to 101, but began falling back to 99 by midnight. I slept in the guest bedroom overnight and slept like a baby with no disturbances of snoring or dogs or anything – except for Roger once wanting up in the bed. Maisy can jump up and down off of that bed. At 1:00 a.m. was my next antibiotic and I took that. I was at a normal temp this morning, and beginning to have some kind of appetite. I ate the orange jello that George made for me. And will have some more here soon for lunch. I might do some bone broth for dinner.

So yesterday I didn’t feel like being on the computer (the thought of it made me sick). And of course I didn’t get anything done in the house. Today I feel better but only doing what is necessary. Maybe not even everything that is necessary. lol. At least George’s shirts are washed for work.

Maisy has stayed by my side constantly and Roger has too when I’ve been in bed. He did come bark at me around 10 last night wanting in bed with me, but I made him go with George b/c I figured he would wake me up again wanting down to go to George.

Anyway, it has been a weird weekend. It’s not the way I anticipated it would go. But it was kinda like the flu or something – you just know you are out for the count.

I’m going to close this and go eat some jello and take a nap. Tomorrow morning at 7:00 a.m. I go back to the doc to get a white cell count. If it is up I go get testing and see if there is a blockage and I’m out of work til this is resolved. If the white count is down I’m improving and can probably start eating mild things by Tuesday.

So the situation is not good as far as work. I’m behind already – really needed to go in early – so let’s just say payroll won’t be closed early this week. It’ll be “taxed” (literally) to the limit. I say that b/c I spent most of last week doing tax returns and filings, keeping me from my regular duty. Now we will pay for that b/c who knew I’d get diverticulitis.

It is what it is. But things are at least looking good at this point. As long as the pain and fever stay away and no new symptoms, we should be good.

I will post more as I can.

Ya’ll have a good rest of the weekend. I’m sorry I don’t get to enjoy that good meal George is fixing today. But I will go enjoy another nap. I think this situation makes you sleepy. You definitely want to disappear from life when you can’t eat. It’s one of my best joys! But I’m all caught up on sister wives and my shows.