Tag: Depression

Seasonal Disorder, Supplements, and Little Roo

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Oh my gosh ya’ll. I’m struggling here this week. But I know how to fix it. I’ve been behind on taking the daily multivitamin and I’ve not had a wellness shake in a while which is loaded with goodness. So it’ll take a few days to build myself back up with the added nutrients I need. But every day I’ve been getting worse, going into a lethargy, tiredness, and yes, starting to head into depression or sadness. I have been with myself for 58 years now (good thing eh?, lol, that could be debated on many levels) however, I know the signs. I start to feel tired, put out with life, and then gradually begin to lose interest in doing anything, and I just really want to sleep. Every day this has been getting worse – but just in the last two to three days I realize this needs to be fixed fast. Usually warmer weather, a change in routine, something exciting happening can pull me out of it really quick too.

The vitamins….well, I take blood pressure meds which most of the people in the world my age do, but I take supplements along with that – Vitamin D, Vitamin C, Turmeric, and Grapeseed extract which I’ve been out of for about two weeks (it’s ordered and on the way). And I have a vitamin pack that has a lot of other things in it – through the wellness company I use. They pack a big punch! I’m supposed to take two packs a day, but….when I added some other supplements and we started adding fruits and veggies more into our diet, I backed off to one pack a day which served me well (and a better deal financially) until about the time we came back from Texas. For some reason I would take my supplements but not take time to reach for the little pack of vitamins which are only 4 pills but pack a pretty good punch of most of the daily vitamins that women need. I also take two supplements at night – a probiotic and a product called Isaflush which is mainly magnesium, and I do three squirts of a sleep product. This formula contains melatonin, L-theanine and a proprietary blend of natural herbs and ingredients. Sometimes I take an additional supplement during the day which is wonderful and is good for the gut, called Natural Accelerator and it has cayenne, green tea, cocoa seed, and apple cider vinegar. I should take this more often but when I feel I need extra gut health, I’ll take one of these as an alternate friend on the opposite side of the day from the probiotic.

So by the time I get through with all that, I’m worn out of reaching for supplements. You can see why eh? Not having the multi-vitamin though is bad. So for the next five days to a week, I’m going to try my best to take these packs twice a day as recommended. And then go back down to one. I guess I will need to set a timer or place it in a time that works. I have placed in on both desks – at home and at work – and on my bedside stand and I tend to overlook it and say “later”.

Also during the months where we are closing quarter end, I wave it off because of the time and being busy. And also I don’t eat as well those months. So probably have had fewer greens and definitely fewer fruits. When I get busy I go back into a rut, slowly, without realizing it – of forgetting to eat right and grabbing whatever is available. It’s a cycle that I struggle with. I buy carrots and forget to grab them, but grab the frozen meal from the freezer on the way out the door. One thing that has been helpful though is to keep a stock of applesauce and a can of pineapple and a can of mandarin oranges in the fridge – at home and at work. I try not to drink juice because it seems to have a greater quantity of sugar absorbed all at once by the body.

Missing Maisy Dog

So I’ve been thinking about another dog as I’ve been missing Maisy so much this week now that my mind is slowing down some from our trip and from Christmas and from getting the house back to normal and working on the iMac – basically I’m getting time to miss her again – and I do so much. Her photos pop up and I miss her following me and being by my side and loving me. And now moving into the guest bedroom makes it seem even lonelier – but don’t get me wrong – I’m enjoying and needing my solitude of sleep right now. I just do. And it is not going to be time for a dog for a long time. Well it is, but I think we need a break to be able to do a few things without dogs. We will see how long that lasts!

So it was pretty fitting to see that the calendar said what it did yesterday about the puppy. The Aloha pic above was over the weekend. That was appropriate too because I need some sun! I need some palm trees too. I need some tropical weather. I need a tropical healing.

All I Want to do is SLEEP!

So my last task of year end, besides boxing up 2019 files to make room for 2021 ones, is to get one of our states w-2 reporting done. It’s a big state and even though the plant number of employees is small – I’m thinking 50 or so, the turnover is bad so I’m entering 188 w-2’s for this location. I have all month to do it. I’ll probably get most of it done this week or early next week, depending on how busy it is. I’ve broken it down into sections of twenty at a time. It’s just cumbersome. It’s kinda fun but it is relaxing to just sit and do data entry and so it nearly put me in a coma. I wanted to sleep so bad! I only got 13 done! I entered a few more as I had time yesterday. I had to go get coffee at like 10 a.m. I never get coffee until after 1:30 and sometimes not until before the drive home so I don’t get sleepy. The weather is not helping my cause any here!

I just took a snapshot of the pop up weather on my computer. Rain and temps going down again. And a lot of clouds.

iPhone Wallpapers

I put the 2nd one as a background wallpaper and the first one as the Lock Screen wallpaper. I think it’s fun to change these out monthly. I also change the phone cover and my Apple Watch band. You can download these if you want. They came from CANVA.

Little Roo!

I have some baby pics to share. Sometimes I’m sent them, and sometimes I steal them from Katy’s Facebook or Instagram page because they are too darn cute.

The faces of Little Roo!

Here’s 1, 2, 3 and 4 weeks old.

Collagen

I have also been taking Collagen which I failed to mention earlier. It’s this:

It has quite a few things in it too like zinc for example. Taken from Google: Collagen Elixir™ is a potent marine collagen supplement infused with vitamin C, minerals, and superfruits like goji and acerola berry to help hydrate and nourish your skin from the inside out. It tastes just like church communion. Here’s some results from it that Trudy posted yesterday for us all to see. This is someone I follow on Instagram who is on the same system I am. I’m only 9 days in with 8 drinks as I forgot it on Friday. I can tell a subtle difference. I’ve ordered more but will run out before it gets here. I don’t intend on taking it forever, but will take it periodically if I don’t have anything else I’m needing or I think my skin needs the help. My skin always needs the help! But I won’t do this ongoing b/c it’s too expensive. While still working I think it’s ok to splurge on it a few times – especially to keep my auto ship going b/c I want to have access to the products at a discount if I can.

Anyway, that’s what’s going on with me! Now I need to get ready and get to work and I’m not moving too fast these days. Ugh! Come on Spring!

What vitamins or supplements do you take and do they help? Do you tell a difference when you forget to take them?

Taxes, Texas, and Letting Go

On By BackporchwriterIn Uncategorized6 Comments
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Good morning friends! Boy let’s see what comes out at the type writer this morning as I have no plans. The coffee is absolutely wonderful this morning.

It’s questionable as to whether I’ve slept good. I went to bed about 8:30 but woke up at 1:00 for about 45 min and then also again around 2:30 when storms rolled through and again about 4:00 when my alarm went off. I chose to ignore it and go by George’s 1st alarm. His 1st alarm at 4:45 (allowing him to snooze for 30 min) is just enough time for me to get up, make coffee, get the dogs plates ready with their Science Diet, Fresh Pet mix topped with Doggie CBD oil. Take Maisy out and give her breakfast, and get my shower. Go grab my cup and hit the computer for the morning blog. And those sips of coffee and an open blog slate is always a fun moment.

I have not really felt like I’ve slept good this week. I have felt most all week like going to bed and taking a nap. I’m not a napper but if I were not working I would probably become one at this point.

So I’ve been pushing through the days the best I can. I am almost finished with quarter end (taxes and tax returns) and today is the last day of it, so good thing. As I go along I discover more I have to do and some of it confusing on the parts I’ve not done before, as to what is supposed to happen. At least I ask questions right? But about to get it all figured out now. Hopefully today will be a good day so I can finish it up and begin on the month end so I don’t have to work around the clock next week when I need to be getting ready for the trip. I’m already tired now so I bet that next week I’ll be zonked by the time we get off the merry go round and actually get in the car to head out.

I’ve been trying to stage things for our trip and trying to write things down as I think of it to avoid that last minute “oh no I forgot this or that”. I’m usually pretty prepared though and ready to go since I’ve traveled and packed for trips a lot in my life.

I worked some more on the next video and decided to try to go forward with it. I said I didn’t like it and wasn’t going to do it and that decision bothered me. So I’m in! I’m stripping some things out that I don’t like and may have time to add some different clips in. I think yesterday I was just sleepy, tired and thinking about so many other things. But I am adding layers to make it more interesting. We’ll see but I will really try and get this knocked out so I can post it before we go. There is a LOT to do this weekend though.

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You know what though? I think my zest in doing the video has been clouded or shadowed by several things, which are both good and not so good depending on which thing it is.

  1. Definitely the virus – keeping us at home primarily, away from friends and fun plans and excursions, or anything interesting outside our household
  2. Planning for the trip – most everything is on hold until “after Texas” but we are very excited about the trip.
  3. Quarter End/Month End at work – paying taxes and doing tax returns. It’s just hard to concentrate on anything happy for worrying about getting that done on time.
  4. My spirit is zonked anyway which is really #1 all over again except for maybe #5.
  5. Sleep needs to be better. I think I could sleep for a year right now.
  6. I need more fish – it’s good brain food and we have not had much lately. And Logan’s upped their price on me. It’s a $20 meal to get salmon at lunch unless you get it on a salad and it’s scarce on the salad. I may start calling it medicine though and spring for the $20. I miss it.
  7. Creativity – I’ve not felt creative for probably all those reasons above. My mind is elsewhere. Things are a bit crazy and stir crazy and all plans are on hold til taxes and Texas are done, lol!

I think a change of scenery will do me good. I’m tired right now and I’m tired of everything.

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I hope my post yesterday did not offend anyone. It was not my intentions. I just had/have questions as to why certain things happen and certain things don’t. I find it quite frustrating that sources you once trusted can no longer be trusted. And that so much has become corrupt that you can’t see straight any longer. Everything seems crooked. It doesn’t help matters for any of us. The very fact that you question something to even try to form an opinion even brings anger or rejection. So I give. Not giving up my rights to saying what’s on my mind. As long as the world is turning I’ll be doing that. I will hold it in until a certain moment and you will know it all at once and really fast. lol. Just ask anyone who has ever poked at me and tried to get away with it. But for the most part I just give. I just give it to God. I guess I don’t need to know what is happening on this earth. I’m not a God and can’t fix it anyway. And I’m trying to just go with that. That maybe I’m not supposed to know.

And I do want to say that “Yes I do believe the virus is real” that is really not what I’m questioning. I did say that I didn’t know of anyone that has had it but that does not mean that I didn’t think it was real. I do want to get that very straight and clear so there is no misunderstandings of that! I hope no one I know gets it. Yesterday’s post was simply asking questions as to why certain things happen and certain things don’t. I will remain suspicious of it and I will talk about it when I need to even if it upsets someone that I’m asking questions. But my goal is not to upset anyone. I think we would all be amiss not to ask questions. I think we all probably should have been asking questions about a lot of things in all parts of our lives when we shove things under a rug. But for now, I’ll let God take it and he can have it all til I’m ready to take any of it back. lol

There is a frog outside my window talking to me right now.

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No worries though. I usually find “my happy” and “content” in whatever I’m doing. But I do recognize the 7 things listed above and try to fix it – adding nutrients, God’s word, music, and definitely food – to fix the moment.

There is a deep deep sadness though and maybe some hidden anxiety. About the corona virus, the future, and all that goes with that and many other subjects. As the sadness starts to come through I try to fix it and cover it up and squash it back down. So many things bring joy to cover it up. So while I’m sad we can’t do this and we can’t plan that, I’m at least grateful and happy and blessed for all the things we have to be grateful and happy and blessed.

And it’s Friday and that is a blessing in itself. Two whole days off and much to do in those days. And I get to go get a 2nd cup of coffee and wear jeans and a tee shirt today. At there is comfort in that!