The Dream that Made Everything Clear

Tuesday, July 21, 2026

Yesterday (Monday) I awoke, knowing that I had a LOT on my list for the week. I organized my day on my phone, using my iPhone reminder list. All the TO DO items were already there, and I sipped coffee and rearranged them in the order that I thought I could make it happen.

I knew that I needed to get out and run some errands. Our neighbor had some things they wanted to put in Mom’s sale. So George had talked with the guy setting up the sale the day before and he said we can drop extra things in if needed but not to take things out. So George and the neighbor went to his storage unit and dropped the things by Mom’s so they could get it priced. George had to be out the door early yesterday morning. So he took my car as he needed the room in the SUV. This meant I didn’t have to get out and go as early as I had intended.

So I enjoyed my morning and was productive at home. Laundry. 🧺 ✅. I did my walking 🚶on the walking pad. Did my World Bible School, checked Mom’s bank account, even read some, knowing I would not get to later.

The Estate Sale Drama

I also needed to promote Mom’s estate sale which is this weekend, arrange/confirm the cleaning lady to come in for end of next week, and let our realtor know approximate updated dates for listing and see if she could drop some business cards by for the sale (we were told people often ask about the property at the estate sale). So I got the process started on all that. Our realtor would be dropping off cards. I posted the estate sale website on all my social media pages – except for here and on YouTube and my Facebook page for Less Hustle More Coffee. I still need to finish that. I ran out of day. The day got really busy from there once I posted a few places. I started getting texts and messages from everywhere.

I’m so glad the estate sale website and posting is creating interest and buzz! Everyone was asking how much for this and that. And they were asking if there is a presale and asking to buy things. Fortunately the estate sale people are handling everything so I only needed to refer them back to the sale. I even had a family member to text and ask me to go get several items from the sale – that they would even pay for it – but we were under contract at that point and family has had ample time and invitations to come get what they wanted. The time for that has passed. I’ve also had to tell Mom it was too late also as she wanted me to go back and get a few things too a week ago.

Then George got home and wanted to go run our errands. I was still in PJ’s and had to get a shower. So I rushed getting ready so we could get out the door. I began getting texts from a family member accusing me of not handling Mom’s estate (her things) properly and not allowing family to come in and have their choice of items. I had handled it appropriately as I could by phone, video, and text, and invitations to come to the house. I offered to my sister first, and then to my daughter. And discussed each time with Mom as I wanted her to understand what was happening and that it was in order. I packed what each wanted and saved it for them. I was told I missed an item (a recipe book) that someone wanted, which I did not remember. I still don’t remember being asked to pack that item. I apologized to the person if I forgot something. I supposed it’s possible I didn’t hear it or had so much going on with Mom that it went right over my head.

We all know in any situation that the person that does the work, is the person that gets the blame for things. It was that way at work, it’s that way at church, it’s that way in a family when someone is the one having to dismantle everything.

I kept explaining what happened with this person over and over to which I realized that they would always have their version and they would never see my version and would never understand their version. I have a pure heart in this situation and they will never see it that way. I have offered china repeatedly til I’m blue in the face and quilts I’ve asked about to which they didn’t remember being asked. I finally took home what I could not part with and I’ve offered even that it to anyone who feels I’ve done them wrong in some way.

I don’t know how to make “come get what you want” (twice) any clearer. Or “do you want any of this glassware or China” any clearer or “do you need any quilts” to be clearer. To me, it is just stuff. I am not arguing over it. I did argue over my doing what was right and that my heart was in the right place. A reputation is something worth fighting for. China and quilts are not and I will have no part of it. I don’t know why families want to quibble and fight over such.

I was told it was not about the china. And we agree on that point now that I have had time to see what is REALLY going on. I think people sometimes need to find “something wrong” or “anything wrong” so they can deflect attention from themselves and highlight something else.

So yeah, I’m having to ask God again what forgiveness is supposed to look like. I can’t say that is ok what that person did to sin against me. I cannot approve what they are thinking, saying, or accusing. So that is not ok with me. I can try to love the person. I am grieving the loss of this person who I feel is no longer in my arena, and the trust I slowly had built back is shattered again. And that really sucks and is very disappointing.

Oh they say, “don’t let them have the energy, it makes them own you”. Well there is no owning there as after a day it’s just all over for me and I did not go to bed angry but with a hurt heart. But when you have worked so hard, tried so hard, only to get kicked in the face – if you cared at all – it’s gonna hurt.

I then realized you can’t win an argument when someone has already made up their mind that you were not fair to them. I’d also equally made up my own mind they were not being fair with me either and twisting everything around from what was the truth. No one agrees what the truth is. But I know what it is and God knows what it is.

I realized they’d never see my point and I’d never see theirs. So I did what I was supposed to do and prayed about it. I then told the person that I was done talking about it and they’d have to take it up with God from there b/c it’s in His hands. They then accused me of saying they were going to hell or something to that effect to which I ignored because I had not said that at all. And that is my point. You can’t reason with that. That was the whole basis – it was just all a conversation that held no ability to reason.

I just told God to take the situation that I was done. I was a little sad and miffed for a while because I take things like this very seriously and to lose the trust of a family member was not what I had intended for the day, but it wasn’t my choice. The person removed themselves by breaking our bond of trust. And now it’s broken for both of us.

And honestly, I kinda knew this would happen and that is why from the beginning I was very careful to do it all right and in the order it should be. But I will NOT accept the responsibility for those that don’t respond to the invitation to take what they want in the window while it’s there for the taking. And I can’t respect those that fuss over something so trivial especially when they don’t make much effort to help.

Post Office Win!

Did I mention it was Mom’s birthday? No of course not. So we had plans with her but we had to go the Post Office to pay one of Mom’s bills that I paid by check and to check my mail box there for the brand. In the process, I asked what we had to do to get Mom’s address forwarded at the post office so her house villa mail will come here. We got it done!

So now all her mail will begin coming here in a few days. I showed them my POA and explained the situation and we got it done. I had to show license and ID etc. But yay! She also gave me a stamped approval copy to take to Social Security office to get her address changed there. Bless her. She even brought that up. I didn’t know they would take that but she said that had helped others in that situation. It has been so much trouble to get all these things changed with addresses when you are not the person it belongs to and don’t have address and phone on you to do the 3rd party authentication. Some things I could only do with Mom present, but her social security wouldn’t change her at all even with her present (by phone). So we have to make an appointment but I’m saving that for another season. I’m exhausted right now with all this stuff. One thing at a time. Each week brings new goals.

Doc Office/Insurance Ordeal

So we dropped ANOTHER form by my doc office and trying another way to get the 5 years of medical records and a letter stating I haven’t been diagnosed with heart disease. I actually had to make an appointment to get the letter. As a patient of theirs for the last 18 years, I had to make an appointment. I got the letter which assesses my EKG and tests and gives opinion on it which may or may not help the cause, but we will see. I feel like I’m going through the motions of all this, so we can save a lot of money as we pay horribly $1260 per month for insurance instead of the $900 we would have been paying until I’m eligible for Medicare at 65. So George wanted me to appeal it. I have prayed about it. I keep going through the motions of every step to please everyone and that God will eventually bring it around. But if not, we have a $10,000 max out of pocket and basically zero coverage until we hit $9000 deductible. I broke down and cried in the doc office yesterday because we had dealt with the receptionist out front for a period of time as I guess no one had ever requested 5 years of info before and it’s taken 2 weeks as the last time they helped me do the paperwork it would not go through as they forgot to put their company location name and ID on there. And they had to find out what their ID was and it was a whole thing and very confusing. And I was done by the time I got back into the appointment office. I was thinking how sad life is. First I get accused of being dishonest and being a liar by a family member and now having to deal with all this crap. I was a bit done for.

Bad News: We lost a friend.

Then came the worst news. We lost a friend from our Sunday School class. He died from cancer yesterday.

Mom’s birthday. Oh my. We had to rush to get from the doc office, to Publix to bring her flowers and to take her out to eat. I had called and said we’d be late. And now our friend has passed. I cried again. This sweet man from our Sunday School class. Such a sweet heart he has. His wife too. They have been through so much. His celebration of life will be Saturday and we will be there.

Mom’s Birthday Outing

We picked Mom up. I was numb from the day. I had no joy within me. I tried to smile. We were all quiet. It was not a joyous day and not a day I wanted to celebrate. I got a Stella Artois, George got a tall beer himself as he is the one who experienced all of the day along with me. Mom got a Margarita. We ordered the meal which comes on a huge trash can lid for 5-6 people even though there were 3 of us – just so everyone would have one of each thing (as the smaller order for 2-3 would not have been enough – heaven forbid we be a corn cob short and a muffin short and someone get stuck with a chicken wing instead of a breast or thigh – lol). So we had leftovers. It was good and the evening brightened my spirits some.

Bed Time

I still felt numb from yesterday when I went to bed. I felt joy though that I had a savior that could see my heart, wrap peace around it, and know me and love me for what I am, when not anyone else can see it or understand it. God sees, He knows, He was there. He sees it all. He sees the hard work we have put in, the responsibility we bare, the care we give. And well…..He sees the flip side too. He sees what doesn’t happen. But that is for him to judge and not me.

Dreams / Visions Bring Desired Relief

I dreamed all night a very weird and odd dream. I was shown that there were two dimensions, two realms. And that life existed in both realms. I was able to see both realms in my dream. At times they were morphed together like one graphic scene blended in with another graphic scene. To me this dream or vision means that what I experienced in all of yesterday and in this lifetime of experience – is there are two dimensions happening at once. We are told about it in the Bible. There’s things happening on other realms that we don’t and can’t see. I saw the two dimensions blending on earth. I could see us living our every day lives and I could see the crowds or armies of the darkness all around. Some were dressed in blackness and some were in white. The best way I can describe it it like robots (black and white) and as I type this, I think that the black ones must be evil spirits and the white ones must be angels of God. We coexisted as if we were all on one plain. I think God is trying to tell me that everyone is gathering around and a battle is taking place in the same places that we are, but we can’t see it. The evil forces are fighting with the forces of truth. It was night of flip flopping. Wondering why on earth I see these things in my dream and what does it mean. Only now after coffee and explaining my day yesterday and realizing that I had prayed to God for peace and understanding as to why life has to be so difficult when I try so hard. But now I understand. And we all know who wins in the end.

Wow. Thank you Lord. And today, we WILL make it a good day. For we know WHO holds us in HIS hands.