Night in Nashville, Hurricane Remnants, and Addicted to my to Do List, Plus Updates

Good morning. I slept in this morning, but that was a good thing. I needed the sleep. But I slept past my 7:00 a.m. video time! I usually promote it right at 7. And some of you come here for the link so I’m sorry to run behind. You can watch the video HERE.

Weekly Update

It’s been a good week this week, but a busy one. I struggled getting the video done this week as it had a lot of footage that had to be cut from an hour and 15 minutes down to 35. It usually takes 2 to 3 passes. I also had problems with some of the camera footage which is why I detest my Canon EOS M50 now. I had ordered a card reader and got the footage out of the camera at least by transferring the SD card footage through the reader (ordered from Amazon). But the footage was just horrible. The worst ever and so bad Final Cut Pro colori tools could not fix it. I even wondered if it was the camera instead of me. lol But you’d think Canon would be big enough to have software that would work on an updated Mac. Its software is very old and defunct. I want to try the Sony but not until after I retire.

Anyway, once the footage was in and I saw it wasn’t going to work I had to come up with a new plan. I did, got the video done in a new way. And I also saw I had a birthdate in some of my footage (on my to do list) and I tried to bleep it out with the censor and it looked stupid so I scratched that part of the footage too.

Then once I began uploading to YouTube overnight, it got stuck on 52%. Tried again the next day, Stuck on 48%, finally just deleted the file from my Mac, and RE-Exported the video from Final Cut Pro to the hard drive I use connected to the Mac for my videos. And this time the upload took overnight. So I was working on loading videos Thursday night at 1 a.m. and again at 3:00 a.m. I slept in a little yesterday (Friday) as I worked from home and didn’t have the commute. And all was well.

So I hope everyone appreciates this video. It may not be the best one ever but I worked hard on it.

Work Update

The new payroll person is hired. I don’t what her title would be. Technically they had told me it would not be Manager as they said I didn’t manage anything. I think that is not true, but I don’t manage anyone as a supervisor. I managed our program as far as getting payroll processed- making sure everyone had turned in what was needed and as far as getting the withholding and unemployment taxes paid. I had to manage people without being their supervisor which is harder because you have to make them do things without having a say so in their review. I laugh as I say that though. I’ve never had a review since I’ve been there, lol. Twelve years, no review. lol

Anyway so my replacement is hired and she starts Monday. And so training begins. I also took another box load of stuff home. I still have some big stuff to bring home. I’m no longer going to take weekly groceries in but will start just bringing things in by the day like in a lunch box. So there is only 12 weeks of work left. Can you believe it? I think one of those is vacation so only 11 weeks really. I have only 11 more payrolls to go. And only like 51 actual days to work or something like that.

I’m really starting to recognize how close it is.

I worked from home yesterday because of all the flooding rains we were supposed to get from Helene. I was so glad not to have to drive in the heavy downpours. Antioch where I work is known for its horrible flood prone areas and many people have had to be rescued there in the big flood of like 2010 or something like that. So I hauled all the equipment back and worked from home.

Home Update

We are really starting to get into Christmas shopping mode. My office is starting to fill up.

Mom Update

Mom is having some troubles walking. She got one problem taken care of that I won’t mention here, but yet, she is having trouble walking in church to the seat. We go in the middle door. I picked the middle because I felt it was safer. I don’t want to be sitting at the entrance in case an active shooter comes in. I wanted to be further in. I told her she could choose a different seat if she wants. But instead of just picking a closer seat she chides us for where we sit. I asked her to please sit in the back if she didn’t want to continue to walk down the aisle and she said I was trying to get smart with her and that she’d had enough of me.

I had to leave in church because as I was singing praises of love to God, the tears starting pouring down that I have a Mom that is so bitter towards me when I’m trying to help her. She is always so mad at the world including me. I just could not sit there and sing praises of love and joy while I was seemingly being hated by the person next to me. I know she is just having a hard time but she has also been this way as long as I can remember so…….is it?

A very nice lady in the hallway stopped me to talk and asked if I was ok. I guess she could see I was not. We talked for a while and I finally went back in church.

In Sunday school Mom talked and participated in the discussion a lot about Christianity and living the life. How can she bite my head off and yet participate in loving Christian discussions? Then she said something about giving at Church and said that the ministers made too much money and was given too much. If she had not already said these things in public with her own mouth, I wouldn’t repeat them, but I was so embarrassed.

Well now Mom says she is not going to church anymore for a while. She says she just can’t get up and get ready anymore that it takes her 4 hours. I had to wonder though if she realized just how poorly the day went and wondered if she didn’t get enough sleep. Maybe she realized she was in a bad mood or something. I think she might have realized she embarrassed herself in class. I’m sure the Sunday school class was shocked as everyone got quiet and my Sunday School teacher was not sure what to say. I think he said something quickly to redirect the conversation. He is such a good teacher and very humble.

Mom got off on how she wants to redirect her giving somewhere else. I’m not sure what bug got up the butt about the ministers making a lot of money or why she suddenly is so against this church. I wondered how God must feel about her actions but it’s not for me to judge. And not for me to even guess how God will judge. I am not perfect myself.

She doesn’t even know how much the ministers make as I asked her how she knew but she said their houses were too nice. Geez. So is hers. It’s very nice. It may not have as many bedrooms but she more nicer flaunty “things” than they do! Some of them have big families, does she expect them to live in a dirt shack with not enough bedrooms? No they were bigger than her house I guess. One person told me, that she must be jealous to say such things. Mom said the building was too nice too so she wants to give to another agency. George reminded her that other agency’s buildings were even nicer.

I am very embarrassed at her comments. And I suspect that maybe she realizes she has embarrassed herself. But who knows if she can do that. Anyway she won’t be going to church tomorrow. She’s ducking out.

It’s ALWAYS some kind of drama. At least we have been a few months without it. I imagine when I retire there will be more. She will expect me to live over there and I’ll be over there more but I’m not going to be over there as much as she thinks, I guarantee it. And I’m not going to be over there with any drama. Sugar and honey attracts more positivity to you. Negativity washes everyone away. One sister has already left the scene and the other is truly barely hanging on with a light hair of a thread. I’m so done in my head and heart with trying to help and getting my head bitten off. But I feel it is my God given duty to try and make sure she is ok. It’s at the point I can’t meet all her needs though. She really needs to go to assisted living at this point. It’s long past actually. I won’t be over there to clean, cook every day and while I can help some, I’m not going to be over there 24/7 like she probably thinks.

It got better for a while but the angry persona always returns. There is no reason for anyone to be angry, ugly, judgmental, and damning to others. It’s very scarring.

And if you read this far and want the link to the video here it is. Sorry to be so late this morning and then I typed forever, lol. But anyway, life goes on and it’s just another day in paradise, lol. All we can do is try to be positive ourselves, push through our anxieties and dilemmas, and even the technical issues which have been poured upon me this week.

So yeah, I needed to sleep in. 😉