You don’t notice it when we are in the room so much, but the lights are not working too well in the middle of the pre-lit tree. I always have a light problem. lol. But let’s ignore it and go on. Forgive if I’ve posted this already. I think I posted on Instagram and Facebook but not here yet. When you are over 50 you forget what went where.
Yesterday came and went. I left here at 5:30 a.m. for work in the dark, and left work there at 5:30 p.m. in the dark. Bam! Already my hours for being off a few hours to take Mom to the doc last week made up! But wait, I’d already made them up last week by working longer across the other 4 days. HA. Give two cloaks instead of one. Give two hours instead of one. Bam! Done. And no PTO used as I need it for January and had already worked the day I took off anyway.
Payroll closed yesterday but as per above you see I hurriedly crammed two days into one – well 1.5 as I worked a long day yesterday. Most of the plants were prepared for the earlier payroll, one caused a long delay, making my day even longer but it’s done now.
I think the full moon must be happening before long? I get the most calls and the most issues in a the weeks that are the shortest. Give me a long week, and it’s fairly quiet. Fact is one can do what they can and the rest rolls into the next day. At some point you have to call it. At 5:30 yesterday, I called it. I’ll have another busy day today. Tomorrow will also be very busy but hopefully not as long.
So we are turning the corner into Christmas now and plans are still in place as of right now. Tonight we go and get the fixing’s for our Christmas Dinner and Christmas day. Tomorrow night I fix Sausage balls and Christmas Eve morning I’ll get the Christmas Day brunch casserole made. I’m looking forward to Christmas. I’m also looking forward to the 4 days off. And hopefully more sleep on the weekends.
Roger was doing better at sleeping, but last night was not a good night. I didn’t sleep much beyond 1:30 a.m. other than brief snoozes between about 3:15 and 4:00 when my alarm started going off. I laid there until 4:45 just to get the rest, but I was awake. On the weekends we can at least sleep later in the morning and recoup some of our missed sleep. He has no problem snoozing during the day usually. Makes us want to wake him up, lol. But no we don’t.
My mind has been on the videos (and lack of). This time of year there is just not a chunk of time to invest in it. So much time is passing that the more time that passes the harder it is to do. I have some material (videos, pics) of things we have done in the past couple of months. And then Maisy passed. I have some video of her in a lot of them. So I am going to try to piece another one together, that summarizes our past couple of months and that has a focus on Maisy and in it I will announce her passing. I also have to redo the intro AFTER that video and so my wheels are turning. I liked that intro but I need some more up to date footage of us. And I’m probably not going to include Roger in the intro as he is probably not going to be around very long. I could be wrong. Anyway, the longer I go without doing the next video, the harder it is. I’m itching to work on it, but honestly not very motivated as it seems too much right now with Christmas. And then after Christmas we will begin packing for Texas, and awaiting the word.
Katy is in her final month. She is due January 19th. But after Christmas we feel like we need to be somewhat prepared. The hospitals won’t let us in, so I think we’ll have the ability to drive part of the way and stay somewhere overnight. It’s such a long drive. If we have Roger it’s going to be even longer. He will be unsettled during the drive. I dread it having to fight with him all the way. It’s like having a toddler that won’t sit still, lol.
I pulled up the fireplace on YouTube – they are ALL over YouTube – just pick one. This one was nice. If George is cooking, he’s listening to music, so I put the TV on fireplace mode, lol.
Anyway, those are the thoughts on my mind… I have not been very good about taking the multiple vitamin pack as it’s been so busy. I’ve done good to get the blood pressure meds in and to get the extra supplements in like Vit D once or twice. But the pack of Daily Essentials, just keeps getting pushed aside “later, too busy”. I have made myself try to drink more water as that is how I get into trouble not getting my water in. I forget to drink up. So I’m trying to sneak in greens and hydrate. But I can tell when I don’t take my multivitamin pack. I start to slide into a darker place. Winter doldrums. SAD. Seasonal Disorder. Usually starts after my birthday (Jan 3rd) when all the holiday and birthday excitement is over, I’m tired, and the sun is at a minimum. Perhaps it will be refueled with our trip to Texas, a bit further South, although totally apt to getting ice storms on occasion. I cannot allow myself to worry about that one. There is so much to worry about over this trip but I gave it up to God months ago and still having to do it. We have no idea where to stay or what will be going on. No reservations of course. We are just going and hoping for the best. Then there is the virus that could bring us to our knees and ruin any plans, so I’m trying to let go and let God. And honestly I don’t believe any plans will come to fruition anymore until I see them happen.
I’m learning to be flexible, by not allowing myself to get excited about anything. Kinda sad really. But I think that is the only way I can cope. I think I’m doing well considering my loss of Maisy. I don’t bawl every day. It’s only every few days now when I long to see her, hold her, talk to her, and have her at my feet.
I’m sad, but content at least and that is at least the state of being God has asked us to be in, in our circumstances. I have go to’s that bring me temporary joy. Like that quarter pounder I had for lunch yesterday. The glass of wine I had with my ribs last night. The game I’m playing. Patting Roger on the head. Planning my videos and thinking about things we’ll do in 2021. And of course, the joy it brings knowing my grandson is due soon. And looking forward to Christmas, seeing family and watching everyone open their gifts – and getting some gifts too. Wonder what they will be?
On that note, I shall rise and make my way to the Work Zone! So HOW are YOU ALL doing this Christmas? Are you seeing extended family? Are you feeling ok? How are you coping with our new world? I suppose it helps if you are introverted, which I am. But I still miss our active lifestyle sometimes.