Well, when I woke up yesterday, I was in a HORRIBLE mood. It seemed like every where I looked there was chaos. Last checked there was no full moon. I never was able to put a defining reason for my bad mood other than NOTHING was in my control. And everything just compounded upon itself. And EVERYTHING frustrated me.
There were so many things I wanted to do but didn’t have the time. There were so many things I wanted to say, but no one to talk to really. I just needed time to absorb everything that was going on I guess. So many good things happening but I think I was just on sensory overload.
Of course when the washer is not working – that kinda sets a precursor for my mood and morale right there. The one thing I usually can control is the laundry. And it’s now removed from my control by it’s chainsaw sounding noises. George was having trouble finding someone so it’s been 5 days we have been without it and we won’t have it until at least next Monday, IF the guy even fixes it Monday, has any parts or whatever. So that tanked my mood from day 1.
As per my entry yesterday I also began feeling this week that my flooring and kitchen upgrades were out the window for a long time. I can assure you THAT has done NOTHING to upgrade my morale. And it also brings back a flood of memories of my dreams of RV’ing/exploring being squashed as well. And so yesterday I began to feel my life was just in a box. Not able to make many plans and would all be out of my control anyway. I’m something of a free spirit and I just felt like I was contained, deflated, and mashed into a tight box with lid going on and strings tied all around. So repair people everywhere, family in town and we don’t get a lot of time with them, Maisy going through some stuff (but better). And on top of everything going on around here, we have to work.
At work you think you will calm down and be a little less frustrated. But still nothing goes as planned. One of our pet peeves is not being able to access something with you need it. Only one at time can be in certain things. I have to fight every Thursday morning to get the garn checks run. Often you get one out and have to chase people across the country begging for 5 min to do my little 8 checks. lol. This also did nothing for my mood.
While waiting for my turn at the system, and ready to pounce on it before someone else jumped in, I decided to find a theme for my computer that gave me some “peace” in my day. This helped.
I also had my “Ionix Tea” and that helped. It’s not really the fault of any one person or any one thing. I think I was just tired, had a lot on my mind, had sensory overload, the list of to do’s were not working, and my mind began to dig up everything I could think of that irritated me. EVERYTHING!!! And to top it off my nails were HORRID and the pants were tight.
So I ordered Cracker Barrel – a good healthy meal. Grilled chicken, carrots, broccoli, and pinto beans. I checked “No Bread” on my order. I was sorry I did that though because I really really wanted a buttered up biscuit for dessert, but that is why I didn’t order it. The pants are tighter and I have to curb it! So I ate a couple of crackers instead.
So I will say that today I woke up on the better side of life this morning. My hope and patience have returned. My ability to be happy in most any circumstance has returned. And I can tell you that it being Friday has a lot to do with it. I realize though that even though it is the weekend, and the COVID mess is still going on, we are busy. I have a virtual shower to “go to” Saturday, we hang out with Katy and Cody on Sunday and I have a shower of my own to plan and do the invites for and a video to create (yessss). And all sorts of things to do. I won’t be doing laundry so I’ll have extra time there.
George send me this pic yesterday of all the dogs sitting by him in the dining room while he worked. He said Findlay “REALLY LOVES” her bed. I mean REALLY loves on it!!!!! Like very intimately loves it. lol lol lol She’s a mess. Poor Maisy she just prefers the regular floor and leaning against the wall. I fix her beds but she usually avoids them.
Oh and I need to cut my hair and the dogs need trimming. I’m going to call the groomer and see if we can get an earlier appointment somehow. Maybe I can take them and George could get them picked up at lunch.
So many things on my to do list. So many things not meeting my standards. And so much to do. And working FT on top of so much going on. No wonder my mood was charred yesterday.
I’m better today. I have hope that all things will work out and I will do the best I can at getting some things accomplished this weekend with the little time I have.
It didn’t help to remember I was supposed to be leaving for Florida this weekend. Boy did those plans change. We probably would have been alright to go as things are opening back up again, but I’m not sure we would have been totally ok with a FULL ON vacay at this point. I need to plan out my PTO time for the rest of the year and into next year.
One of the bad things about my job is that quarter end takes up nearly all of a month after a true quarter ends. So July, October, January, and April are all stupid busy. None of those months are good vacation time, but there may have to be exceptions based on what is going on. And payroll has it’s certain days of the week that have to be avoided. The problem is, LIFE does not stop for payroll. As Mom needs me, or other things going on – I’m afraid there will be more people inconvenienced other than me. Family has come last in many instances over the years, but with life altering things happening here and there, there will have to be times when it’s WORK’s turn to be inconvenienced. I try very hard – even to family’s disliking at times – to be conscious of my responsibilities. So much so it drives me crazy too. But yeah – I realize with the new job and some planning things that are going on or will happen – there are going to have to be some compromises because I can see it now – LIFE and WORK are probably going to clash.
Yes, I worry too much and I need to get off of here and get to work before I stir up more crises as I think aloud on the screen. Happy Friday, Happy Snooping and Sniffing if you are one of those, and Happy Everything b/c we probably missed your birthday, your anniversary, your graduation, your ______________. But it’s Friday and we are happy to celebrate it all right now! lol
And off to work we go!
4 responses to “Mood and Morale Much Better Today”
Enjoy your weekend. It’s been a hard time for all of us. Our entire world has been turned upside down. I’ve had a hard week. Three people I worked with in years past at the same company died. 2 of them were my age. It’s hard to lose friends and family those you love. Really makes me think.
I’m sorry for your loss Cassie
it has been a difficult time for all of us. you are not alone. we understand your frustration. try to enjoy your visit with katy and cody. the pups are adorable.