Finding My Happy, Pushing thru to a Good Mood

As angry skies gathered, I took myself out to lunch yesterday. I allowed myself to have the salmon, although it was not as good as in the past as they didn’t use the same sauce and herbs. But I needed the fish for my psyche, the baked potato was for my soul, the salad with ranch dressing was my splurge and the iced tea for my energy. The staff was unmotivated, as was I as their customer, just exhausted from recent days and still a bit of anger lingering within my stirred up emotions.

Much as the day cleared after the storm, so did my thoughts and so did the issues. We secured the extra weekend in June to move, Mom signed off on the addendum to allow it, I ate a Reese’s cup mid afternoon with coffee, texted with my sister who agreed to try and sell some furniture for Mom as she’s had success listing on her FB page and also wanted Dad’s desk, and is going to get a couple of Dad’s fiddles.

I texted with a friend, and was face timed by Katy and River, and grabbed a white wine and watched “Sailing Project Atticus” on You Tube, and so happy that Desiree got her cute puppy dog to take onboard. Was fun watching them with the puppy.

And I ate an entire pint of Halo (270 calories) after our dinner last night as we watched two back to back Lillyhammer shows, the 2nd of which I snoozed through. Once it was over I quickly got in bed and snuggled next to my little “Snuglet” or “Snuggie”. The little thing has had several names. I call it whatever comes out.

I’m 58 and without a dog or human in my bed (due to hubby snores and an old Roger dog that can’t sleep and is needy all night- long story) – but I’m 58 and totally ok with having a “fake doggie” in my bed even if it is a sloth. I don’t know why, but it gives me great comfort to pretend I have a dog in bed with me. Yes, I’m 58 and sleep with a stuffed animal in the bed. My dogs have been so important and I miss them. So as I sleep, I just simply pretend it’s my dog. Somehow it works for sleep! I have a favorite “blankie” too, ha! It has a picture of Tugie on it (former poodle) and it radiates body heat back to you. It is the warmest thing. I keep it on the bed and if I get cold I use it.

So all that said “It took a village and lots of food, favorites, fun, and sleep” to get my happy mood back. But I’m a bit de-stressed, de-flated from my anxieties and anger, and feel happy this morning.

Knowing that today was Friday helps. I have managed to get caught up through the work week from being a HOLIDAY Monday by a couple of days of going in early. I already have in 2 extra hours of the four I will need to take Mom to the eye doc later this month. I don’t want to use PTO so I’m going to work earlier 4 days of the month to get the 4 hours worked so my work does not suffer and so the hours are reworked before I reclaim them back for the doc appt. I think that will work well and will be fair. I will be able to get my work done so it’s all good.

Facetiming with River. I look awful! And he looks blurry. But this was the best I could do in a screen shot.

The night before last George fixed us a comfort meal, breakfast for dinner. Forgive me if I already posted this. If so what harm does it do to post anything with bacon twice! But this was so good.

And texting was pretty funny. I dislike auto correct. I think it does more damage than good, lol.

So I wanted to pop in and say that everything is alright. We are all just tired and exhausted but we get about 2 weeks off from the move details and can concentrate on River and seeing our friends and having a little bit of fun in our lives again. It has been work, work, work nearly 24/7 except for sleep. Our stamina held for so long but it seemed to unravel the last few days with morale tanking on EVERYONE’s part. So having a break will help.

I might even get to clean and do SOMETHING in my house. It’s all gone to total disarray here. Things need a complete cleaning, house needs to be picked up, laundry needs doing again as it is already Friday. Trash cans need to be emptied, bathrooms need cleaning and so forth. It’s good that Katy and Cody are not staying here. It’s a mess!

I also have my follow up today at the Urgent Care place. The place on my back is not better by much but I think that the antibiotics are keeping it from getting further enflamed. I think it is trying to dry up and heal in spots but it’s just not there yet. It might be a little less sore, but yet it still is. So subtle difference in two days. I’m just wondering if this wasn’t a spider bite on top or next two a place that was already there. It seems like there’s two things going on. Anyway, I think the cellulitis part is not as bad. It no longer seems like blisters are around the edges.

This has been the weirdest year. lol. I think I liked 2020 better. It was at least easier! ha. No I don’t want to go back into a Pandemic state, but I am looking forward to not spending my every moment on the moving Mom project. Again, we love her and are glad to do it, in case my words are mistaken as people LOVE TO DO, but I mean I think we all agree that we are all exhausted trying to do this on the weekends. But we have had no choice as we can’t quit our jobs and don’t have enough vacation time to do it any other way. And didn’t want to pay $17,000 for a complete move job which would have been complicated as some things are going here and some in storage. And it all has to be done again in Oct/Nov. But…that move should be easier! It’s already packed! The unpacking will be fun! I love that part. I’m looking forward to helping Mom with all that.

Ok over and out. I have to deal with putting a dressing on my back. I figured out how to do it on my own without help. And we get to see River the next two days. We pick them up at the airport tomorrow. I am so excited! So prayers for their travel. They have to travel 2 to 3 hours to Dallas from Breckenridge and then pray that River is good on the plane. Their first time to fly with the baby. And I hope his ears do well on the landing. Babies can’t chew gum or pop their ears.

I’m so glad it’s a weekend! And a weekend of fun.

What you all doing this weekend?

Cargo Van Move Day 2 and Day 3

Hello friends! Didn’t really get in here yesterday to blog. No time. Day 2 and 3 of the cargo van move went ~ ummm ~ smooth may not be the exact word, but….it went okaaaay. I think each day I grew tireder, not having much sleep, and being pulled in forty different directions at once all at the speed of light. We would unpack the 2nd load each morning at the storage unit and begin the hour and 42 minute drive to Columbia. Pack pack pack and load load load and do it all again.

Saturday and Sunday we did two trips to Columbia and back (once to Lebanon in b/w for storage drop off). Yesterday we only did ONE load. Thank God! We were so tired after unloading that last load at storage. And it was hot. But then it about make me sick to think we had to drive to Nashville to turn in the cargo van – and back home. But we did it. For the most part the weather was good! No rain, not too much heat. The clouds began rolling in last night though.

George mowed and I worked on laundry last night. I was probably a “toot” at Mom’s, just tired to the point of not even wanting to be talked to. Have you ever had that feeling? Or am I the only one? I snapped a few times after my name had been called so many times in a row. Questions and more questions, where’s this, where’s that, who has the tape, who has the scissors, hand me this, hand me that, go get this, go get that. I couldn’t finish a thought in my own head must less answer 20 questions and do 20 other things when I had 20 of my own things in my head. I had a lot to do trying to get the packing done so we could get it packed, knowing what a long day it was. Then I had to unpack a box I’d already packed as something was lost. We were packing things faster than Mom was ready for us to pack. She hadn’t had time to do things or hadn’t felt like it. So it was slow going at times, but we did pretty good and after all we all came together and got a LOT done. I’m thankful to my Aunt and Uncle for helping to wrap picture frames in bubble wrap and run errands for tape, boxes, and bubble wrap.

Then everyone was planning my schedule in the coming days for me. How could I focus on two weeks from now when I can’t even get today done and I snapped about that. I felt bad and apologized to my aunt when I got home. I was about to lose my freaking mind! You know those moments when you hear introverts say “don’t talk to me til I’ve had my coffee?”. I felt like that all day. I finally got my coffee fix about noon-thirty and I was better and more able to deal with everyone and everything. I.was.just.so.tired!

I’m not trying to be ugly by typing this, I’m just trying to describe what it was like. I enjoy packing and moving because I like organizing things. I’m probably the only stupid person that enjoys packing and unpacking. But I have to say it’s more fun when it’s your own stuff and can be done at a pace. But we work all week in a different city. Mom is not able to do all the packing and we weren’t there to do it. So we were packing as fast as we could and George had to wait for a load. All that said, all in all, Mom was a good trooper and did better than I could have imagined. We are still not over yet. She still has a house full of furniture and stuff that remains for the U-Haul trip. George took pics and it’ll have to be a big one. We also have to figure out storage. The storage rooms are pretty full. A little room but not much. So we are trying to figure out what we can do in our basement or if we are going to need more storage.

I was like that girl in the Sybil movie with her head going around and around and around. I wasn’t sure it was even attached anymore.

I felt like this when the weekend was over.

Maybe we will laugh about it one day. But it’s off to work we go. I have to go in early today. I have to do both the Monday and Tuesday of payroll so long day for me. I did get a couple of loads of laundry done and folded last night and changed George’s sheets on his bed. I’ll change mine tonight and get my vitamins reset for the week.

I don’t think I can tolerate a Tuesday cleanse day. I think it would turn me into some kind of growling pirate animal. Speaking of that….George is already there. I was in the sun room and heard him growling. Seriously, he was growling.

I opened the screen and said “are you ok?” and he responded, “yeah, it works better if I growl at it!” He was fooling with some yard tool.

WE have all lost our freaking minds.

We did have a moment with our drinks at 9:15 to about 10:00 on the front porch, in the dark, it felt so nice outside. The fireflies have begun here and there and we watched fireworks in the distance. We had both had our showers and felt better and “the day was done”. It was nice just sitting there. We stayed there after the fireworks had ended, and talked about the move, and other things. Finally we went to bed. I was so tired I wasn’t sure I could sleep but I did.

The next few weeks are crazy busy! Will still be back and forth to Columbia and also Mom’s house closes TODAY!

I need to go get my things for the day and head out the door for work. I told George we had to go back to work to get some rest! lol

Ya’ll take care. How was your Memorial Day? Did you eat well and did you think of us moving Mom, lol? No celebration or cookouts for us but we did get to have a couple of quick meals on the go. lol

Storage Units and Appointments Galore

Well, Wednesday I was able to get the storage space all set up for May 29th for the Cargo Van move. I was very pleased with the place. They had nice landscaping which was a nice touch. We were not able to get a big storage unit so we got two medium ones. We also have a little bit of room left in our basement.

Their office area was nice and clean and a nice lady helped to run the place.

And we have made this little girls next two trim appointments. She has one last one in Columbia and we have set one up here in Mount Juliet, first available in July on Saturday. It’s hard to get Saturday appointments!! In June I will call and set up the August one. When I got off the phone I thought, “man, I should have gone ahead and made the next one too”.

Mom also made her first two appointments up here in these parts for her Eye Appt. They are in Hendersonville, which was really about the closest. All of the places were about 45 min away so we chose that one as I can zip through some back streets and avoid interstates. Mom prefers no interstates and while she will have to endure some, at least I can avoid it for the eye appointments and take back roads. They are scheduled through July.

There is an eye injection one every month to keep her vision in the one good eye. The other eye is blind. I will be having to take off about 1:00 for them one day a month. She made them on Fridays as late as she could get them so as not to interfere much with my work. We figured if I took PTO for this time I’d lose 6 days of vacation a year. So we figured I could just make the hours up by working over an hour a week each week to make up for the 4 hours I’ll miss a month. I will pick the days to do this and keep up with the time I made it up so I can show it was done. As I told George, I should have enough hours in the bucket worked over through the years from the HR job alone to be off every Friday from here to kingdom come! And laughed. But I will “give my extra cloak” and work the time so there are no questions asked! My bosses are understanding though so I’m not that worried over it. More worried about what those think that don’t know what is going on, as people think “why does she get to leave early on Friday and not use a PTO day?” Well it’s because she worked the hours on another day! I will get my work done and time made up. Which should be all that really matters.

So I got a pedicure yesterday after work and it was fine! However, they went up on prices. These price increases are killing me! And making me rethink what I am willing to do. I will make up the difference by eliminating a certain number of pedi’s per year that equals the cost of the increase. Because I’m stubborn that way. I still want my pedis but I’m not paying extra. So I’ll figure the extra cost and eliminate that many pedis, mostly will be cut off in the winter months when it doesn’t matter as much and I have more time to do them. Also in 2022 I will likely NOT do my nails anymore. So they are cutting me out of their market niche by the dramatic price increase! I will replace it with periodic manicures a few times a year just to do the things I can’t do as well – like shaping and cuticles and such.

I had really allowed myself to get nails done temporarily anyway as it was supposed to be a tradeoff while we were so incredibly busy with Mom on the weekends and didn’t have much free time. So we’ll see, but those are my thoughts on that.

And as for the progress on next video: I have organized end of Feb through current time and have several folders set for the upcoming videos and their segments and photos assigned to each. I just have to delete the last movie media from iMovie and import the new so soon – very soon – I will begin editing the next video. I like being able to have a set time to work on the videos now. As I’ve said before it works well to alternate blog mornings with video editing mornings! I get more time to plug away at it. And now that I’m a little more seasoned with it I can walk away from it a little easier to go to work. But it’s still hard! When you get into your creative zone it is hard to tear away! In the beginning I would get into learning something and be right in the middle of trying to solve an issue with something and it’d be time to go and it was so irritating. I’m coming around the curve with it though.

All that said I need to head to work! I didn’t leave myself much time and George left me with Roger responsibilities this morning. Have to try to change his diaper while he is asleep. That should be fun.

But you know what? I’m going to Target after work today. I’m so looking forward to it! Moreso than the Pedi yesterday I think. That’s saying a lot.