Do You Find That Life is Getting a Bit More Confusing?

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Well it’s time to do a blog post on confusion. I picked the best photo I could find to represent it. This is a blurry photo and I guess that works. This is something that has been on my mind for a while. The fact that life on earth can be so confusing. This day and age has become so difficult. Many things you try to do contain numerous hurdles to accomplish, whether it’s buying something, repairing something, traveling somewhere, going to the store to buy dinner, buying fuel. Getting and finding true information is also a problem. Who to believe? Who to trust?

Confusion can also be found in relationships whether family, friends, work – and for most of us – that is nothing new. Confusion is in politics, the news, social media, and I could go on and on. You know what I’m talking about. Life has become so entangled in red tape. And so has our economy, which in some way in the last two years has touched all of us.

While we once grew and expanded, we are shrinking and going backwards. Our global expanses are failing us at times and we are left to stretching across our own resources and community for just about everything. I have faith in God that He will protect us and I also know How it all ends and I think that is a blessing.

All this talk about confusion in my own head, had me writing down and listing the times in which I have felt confused across my life. I love doing these little inventories. It’s almost like interviewing yourself. lol

Confusing Times I’ve Had in the Past

  • Matters of the Heart. Oh I don’t even want to go there. But I suppose life ended up well and I’m where I’m supposed to be. It’s so hard to make decisions in your 20’s that are right for you. The heart is ripe for love, there is fear of the future and of being alone. The need for independence but yet feeling dependent at times. We have images of what we think we want, but it’s hard to even know what we want or need at that age. I can go to bed at peace at night knowing I’m safe and content now, finding a mate that was good for me.
  • Meshing all the opinions that float on any given topic and trying to form my own opinion. I’ve always been able to see “both sides” or “most sides” to a story. Sometimes it is hard to decide. I would never make a good judge. lol
  • Understanding myself. This has been one of the hardest things. I think it’s really me trying to understand how others see me. And if anyone is ever critical of me, you betcha I’ll be doing some kind of psychoanalytical study to figure out what went wrong, lol.
  • Understanding the psychological layers in others. I’m not sure I’ve totally figured it out yet. But the older I get the wiser I get. One thing a person does wrong does not mean their whole being is rotten. But I’ve been around those who think that for a chunk of my life and that has not helped me any. I realize you are only getting the surface here on these bullet points. Really each one could have their own blog post. lol
  • Understanding the psychology of work and working relationships throughout my career. Basically trying to understand “where the fart people are coming from“, lol, putting it in every day terms. I’m not even going to try to explain. There is just a lot. I keep saying I’ll write a book on it. We’ll see. I would do it only if it helped others to get through the bumps. I guess there is so many different personality types at play and the dynamics of the working relationships have both interested me and plagued me, lol. That is all I will say. Some relationships have been heaven sent and others, well I guess they came from the opposite direction, LOL! Maybe there is no more to understand. I just figured it all out. lol
  • Any matter in which the facade covers the truth. Our society is so full of it. What is really happening beneath the surface on most anything? It’s probably quite a lot. I will always believe where there is smoke there is fire. It’s confusing though because you want to believe the best, but then we keep getting conflicting information on nearly everything!

Remember when you were a child, you felt you could trust adults, the news, any form of media for the most part, and you could trust that an agency or company was usually honest and had it all together. Most people knew and followed the rules. There was a moral code that even people who didn’t know God would follow. So much has decayed over the last couple of decades.

It’s my belief that the devil wants us to be confused and he would love it if we were confused because we were fearful on top of that. But you know what? There is so much that doesn’t even matter any more. So much that really does NOT have to be figured out.

God has asked to have a child like faith. Well that pretty much sums it up. If you don’t believe in God or the Bible that won’t mean much to you. Neither will the outcome of this blog entry. We don’t have to have all the knowledge. We know how it all ends. We know God places our feet onto the proper path. We know he will snatch up his own before the world gets too horribly bad.

The signs are all there. The mountains are crumbling, the earthquakes are happing, the waters are stirred, the signs are in the heavens, the selfishness has been here for some time, the famines have been and are coming, it’s going to be harder and harder to live.

God is already at work and the show down is beginning to get serious. He’s taking back what is His, little by little. The devil and his followers do not like it. Some serious laws are changing about and coming into play. The devil and His angels are going to be very mad and things will get worse.

I’m so glad to know that He has us believers in His hand. Most won’t see this post because it has the word God in it. I truly believe that media crushes whatever we try to post now with spiritual references. But that is ok because God delivers and He will overrule where it needs to be overruled.

It’s been on my heart to do this post because the confusion continues, but for those that believe, we don’t have to worry. God made it very clear just what we need to do and what will happen. We just have to listen and follow the instructions.

Am I Selfish? Do I Have What it Takes?

Am I Selfish?

When times get tough sometimes you wonder if you have what it takes to get through. So the next video is up. Click “Watch on YouTube” for the best results. All free. It was one of the busiest times of our lives. I appreciate you all and if you don’t want to miss an upload – hit subscribe on YouTube and it will remind you for upcoming posts. Any likes, comments, and subscribes help the channel. I love sharing with you all and doing these videos for you.

Happy 4th weekend. Enjoy!

Weekend Update, Dog Update, and To Do List for this Week

Well, Mr. Dexter had a good weekend. He was mostly just a lazy dog watching us and would have spurts of play and went outside a lot. He has chased after three baby skunks in the dark (while on a leash so didn’t get far). He has slept in the hallway and has done great. I’ve gotten full nights of sleep and he has too I guess. No whines, no noises. So maybe that is what he wanted. When he gets older we may try it again but I suspect as big as he will be, having his own bed is just the right thing. The lights are off and I think he feels safe in his space. So all is restored to being well again on the sleep front as long as I can catch up on what I missed.

Not getting enough sleep has made me sluggish over the last few days all catching up with me. And when I’ve had no sleep I cannot think properly and certainly can’t remember anything. So if it is not routine and not on my immediate radar, its not going to be remembered. I left my cold groceries in Mom’s fridge when I left her house and also left the container tub she was giving me to put up my winter things so I’d have more space for my shoes so Dexter won’t chew them. Everything is a domino effect, lol. As I walking out Mom had me take a picture/video of a light that has gone out and I got sidetracked and forgot everything.

So I went back and got the groceries and but still forgot the tub. I think also I was trying so hard to relax and get away from having to remember anything and enjoy the day, but I enjoyed being free so much that I let go of everything. I do that when I don’t stay on task or on list —-or get enough sleep to function.

I was zoomed in on this one to catch it quickly and so it’s distorted a bit. He laid on the hearth for a while. I am going to have to clear everything off of it or he will chew on my frames and birds, but I’m running out of space to put things.

He has been a good boy and I’m so happy with him. Disappointed about the bed sleeping but I suppose that God is saving my bed for a little poodle or something small down the road. I wondered if I could have both a small and a big dog in the house. What do you think? Of course it may have to be a ways down the road as Dexter will be too spastic right now at times. He’s all we can handle for now.

His training is still on spot. He’s learning fast. The one that takes longer is “no no”. He has a stubborn streak and chooses to ignore that one.

So Mom and I went to church yesterday and then out to eat at Ruby Tuesday and had the pleasure of our friend Kathy to join us. Then Mom and I went to the grocery at Dollar General Market nearby. It’s about 3 miles from Mom’s house and was close to Ruby’s. First of all the salad bar was so good at Ruby’s. You should have seen our salads. I thought I took a pic but as I was about to I got side tracked as I helped Mom do her plate. The more help she needs I think the more I will be forgetting what I was doing. It’s going to be interesting trying to take care of both of us because I can’t even take care of myself and my own wishes and to do list. lol. So no pics of our beautiful salads, lol. But as for the Dollar General Market – we loved it. It’s just the right size for Mom to breeze through. Their prices were so much better than the other stores out there. It was a pleasant experience and the customer service was good in this store. Everyone was very nice. We will be back there!

After church I was able to get laundry finished. I was tired though and fixed popcorn and watched a couple of shows. It didn’t bother me that I stopped to enjoy myself. I needed that. I also had quality snuggle lap time with Dexter. He knows that “come see Momma” while I’m sitting down means, to get in my lap for doggie snuggles. He gives sugar and rolls over so I can pet his tummy, lol.

I was able to get the video finished. So I’ll start the uploads now so I can schedule it for Saturday at 7:00 a.m. I am also interested to see if our internet speeds are better. I bet it is not. They probably are just going to tell us it is, lol. I will be able to tell with how fast the video uploads.

I didn’t get everything done this weekend. I would have liked to have vacuumed and mopped but I didn’t vacuum as George was gone Sat and I was gone Sunday and then he was in the yard Sun afternoon. Someone needs to be with Dexter when we use it for the first time as he is going to wig out. Or I may just have to put him in the hall.

To Do Lists

I still have a lot on my to do list suddenly. I didn’t get the ironing done. But I’m not stressed. I have clothes to wear today. I’ll start working down the list this week. I also get my hair cut Tuesday and Dexter’s shots are Wednesday. Both appointments after work. So it’ll be a busy week trying to get everything done. Publix is dropping the ball on my Rx reminders for the BP meds. They used to text when the Rx is ready or coming up to be ready, and now I’m not getting them. And it throws me off. So I have to call them and remind them to fill it. I better go and get ready for work. I’ll pop in mid week with updates. Ya’ll have a good one.

Oh and I’m continuing my study on Narcissism – like when people are narcissist or just selfish? I’m trying to understand the difference. I think we label people as a narcissist when they may just have some of the traits but not all. It’s still a very confusing subject to me. It may be even relative between psychologists according to who you talk to. The deeper I dive into it the more confused I am. I’ve about decided that it is not a perfect science or diagnosis, lol. But that is on the list and I figured you would wonder about it.

Also the Self – Parenting is a new topic for me. I found it interesting. I’ll blog more about it in the future. As a person who has been at times very emotionally immature – or unable to handle my feelings well, I find this topic very interesting. I wish I had this information long ago on why you need it and why you are this way and how to self soothe when things go wrong. I need to be two or three people to be me to have time to do all I want to do b/w hobbies, research, learning, and working and living and care-taking. lol

Ok I’m over and out this time.