All Alone at Home, After He Left

Good morning. Here is the link to today’s YT video. You can watch it HERE. I’ll let you see how it all went. lol.

Everything’s going ok here at the Homefront this week. The main focus this week was getting this video done and it was a labor of love. With three hours of footage I had to weed through and cut out 2 hours worth. Plus it was the week that I also had put out another video, so I’m a little tired of editing right now. And if I am being honest, a little tired of videoing, because the subject matter I chose to vlog this week was time consuming. So now there’s that. I may not start the next video for a while. I could stand a catch up anyway. I’m usually two weeks behind real life which gives me time during these moments to take a week off if needed and no one really notices.

So maybe this next week I can blog more, but this week has just been crazy with editing even though we were home a lot.

Insider Thoughts that are Way Too Deep for Discussion

I have a lot of deep thoughts right now I cannot share as if I did they would be hurtful to others, so best if I just let God handle those people that continue to be ugly (sneakingly spiteful). It’s not George in case you wonder, lol. There’s just some people that I cannot tolerate to be around or even talk to as they don’t know how to be nice (or just choose not to), they don’t know how to NOT be rude (or just simply decide they will be). They don’t know how to NOT judge people, or condemn them (or perhaps just decided to let their mouth be free reign as usual).

The Lord says that the mouth can cause wildfires. How is that any different than any other sin? The mouth can cause just as much damage as anything – ummmm, if not MORE. And well, I think the person has proven that over and over, but apparently NOT to themselves, just everyone around that sees it so clearly. The person is really smart at times but that said can really just make no sense at times. It’s so stinking odd.

So…ok. I just have to be around positive people and chop off the negative. I always need a positive retreat of rest from that person as much as possible, so that it doesn’t damage my psyche or my day (anymore like it used to). George and God have coached me through things. Thank the Lord. I see what to do and to stay away. Thank you Lord for that wisdom.

Another reason I just can’t blog right now is because when I do I dive deep and I probably shouldn’t go there so I don’t take up the same sin of trying to make people feel bad, judge others, etc. lol. I just feel better when I’m NOT around these types of negative people, when I’m trying to make my world a positive place and be able to be a positive and cheerful person and not do the same behaviors that have caused so many people so much pain. And I want to allow God to reign in my life and not the negative narrow minds of others that try to pull me down into their miserable hell hole of a negative world.

But try as they may, this person, cannot and will not take my joy, b/c I’m wise enough now to take care of myself and my psyche and to stay away. ;-). And as I type this I’m letting it go from my day and giving it to the Master so He can deal with them as He may. Sometimes it’s not a good thing how He deals with it. So I am praying He’s not to rough in the situation but it’s tough love so I guess He will be as rough as He has to make it to refine the person as silver. I think He’s been trying to do that for a long time. It’s not my say as to whether the person has accepted the challenge or how well they’re doing. lol. I guess this blog entry and the matters at hand are proof of the character that has been built or lack thereof. I see what I see. The world sees what it sees. God deals with it as He may as I’ve asked for Him to. I guess it’s time to pray the prayer. Because quite frankly. I’m just really tired. Really so very tired. I’ve only got a little bit left of anything to give this person.

The tribe (me, myself, and I, and God’s Spirit) has spoken. 😉