My Human Resources Career Changed my Personality

So guys, here is the video that went live today on YT. You can watch it HERE.

I don’t know what to say. But over a period of several weeks, I wrote down my overall briefing comments about my HR Career on several pieces of paper and grouped them into categories and this is what came out. In NO WAY could I come up with a true recap of 38 years of my life in a 45 min video. But this is what emerged anyway and this is what bubbled up to the surface. This is my takeaway. A little nervous about it as I know a lot of my experience has to do with my personality. And that makes me vulnerable and nervous to post it.

I anticipate having a lot of negative comments because of that instead of supporting comments and no doubt it will be disliked (thumbs down) instead of thumbs up – even though it’s a telling of MY true Experience and takeaways. But regardless, it WAS my experience, both positive and negative.

I already know that my personality, my introverted-ness, my wanting to be a perfectionist, my high expectations of myself (and therefore others) played a part in how everything played out. It rubbed people wrong that I wanted to do things right and perfectly and that I followed up on everything, and held others to the same standard I held myself to. I held myself accountable and also everyone else was expected to do what they said, if they were on my team- whether above or below my position.

But yeah, it’s out there now and I have decided to ignore any comments that are ugly. And I’m counting any dislikes as people who have yet to realize what it takes to serve people in a role, when you are an introvert and sensitive to so much, but yet having the balls to call people out when needed, and/or protect myself. So we’ll just pray for those people that dislike, that they learn patience too (oh dear, won’t they be surprised how God teaches patience) and that they can sympathize one day. Bless their hearts. ;-). So there’s that. And that is how my soul will handle the dislikes. God will be dealing with them and that is my revenge on them, lol. (Ok that is my Southern passive aggressive coming out but yet- God gave us permission to let him do the revenge, so it plays out perfectly and how it is supposed to. So if I get any dislikes, I AM going to smile and know that they’ll be learning their lessons too.

THIS WEEK’s UPDATE:

Not a lot going on outside our house but plenty going on inside it.

• Working on two videos this week and unfortunately the 2nd one is the longest footage I’ve had yet of my week alone. I have to cut it down to under an hour. I prefer them 45 min but usually they end up closer to an hour. And so the next two days are going to be rough to get it out by Saturday. I don’t want my extra WED to thwart the Saturday video so I might have some late nights because it WILL be done as long as I can.
• Trying to find an evening dress for a black tie wedding in September. I ordered some dresses from Amazon that could work. Two have come in and one arrives today and I will try them on. And yes in front of the camera (well you know what I mean, I’ll let you guys see what they look like). This whole thing makes me nervous. I’m excited about the wedding but I don’t dress up normally and to dress up black tie is totally out of my league. I don’t even know what that means, and I keep getting various definitions but the wedding site the couple gave said long dresses and evening wear and no colors the bride would wear – white or beige. ChatGPT said black, navy, teal, crimson, and that the material was important. Silk, satin, velvet, chiffon, etc – no cotton or casual fabrics.
• Eating our farmer’s market veggies. They are almost gone! Expensive but good. I learned to fix squash casserole this week. I’d been doing it wrong adding milk and flour and it just never tasted really good. But without it – just seasonings and butter and cheddar cheese mixed in with cracker crumbs on top, left in the good flavors and really tasted good.
• Took George’s car in for service and had an errand day yesterday. That was our one day out.
• I fixed blueberry Zucchini bread and it turned out great. I froze some, gave some to neighbors and have some to take to Mom (frozen til I can get it to her Sunday).
• I used all our eggs and sugar and flour so had to go buy all that again yesterday so we can cook the rest of the week but we got it at Walmart as we had to do ANOTHER return for Mom. She ordered a bedspread that didn’t work. I’m failing to remember how many bed spreads or comforters that is, but maybe 3? She is never satisfied as it is not her house. No amount of redecorating is going to take her back there. I just sit and watch. It’s all I can do. So sad.
• There are many other things on the list that won’t get done this week as the videos and YT are taking too much time.
• I’m also videoing the chores I’ve been putting off this week- so that is obviously taking more time as I am stopping to do some time consuming cleaning on top of my already weekly/daily chores.

That is about all I know this week. Just trying to keep up with everything! Hope you all are having a great week.