Maddie Recovery / Trying to Catch Up / Life After Giving Notice

Good morning everyone. I cannot believe I slept til 7 this morning. Much needed sleep that I prayed for as I have gone a long time now with repeated wake ups in the early morning hours. I did it! I slept in! But something I can only do on my off day. And have to stay in bed a long time to get a full 8 hours as I toss and turn after midnight for some reason. I don’t know why.

So the new video is out this morning. It’s the week Maddie was recovering from her nearly fatal tummy issues where she became extremely dehydrated. In the video is also some very chatty moments about life lately and pushing through and still smiling and trusting God. I hope you enjoy it. It may not be the most interesting life, but it’s my life. And I thank you for being here and supporting me and hanging out with me whether blog or vlog.

You can watch the video HERE.

The Work Scene after Giving my Notice

Now that my notice has been given at work, it seems like life in my office has returned more normal, my printer is working and now the scanner working (I had to send IT the error code information that I found on the internet and 5 min later my scanner worked lol). Things are going right again in my office and working. No double sided printing, and am able to get receipts (no pop up blocker issues). Am I no longer having to fight with everything to get it done. And everyone seems less anxious now that everyone knows “the date”. It seems the gremlins or little devils have left. Geez. Things were so bad I actually rebuked my office (prayed over it).

They are starting to run the ads to fill my job so that someone has 4 months to work with me. I was surprised they are downgrading the role to an hourly position and all that goes with that, including the pay. It’s hilarious to me that it’s being downgraded but yet it takes 4 months to train with me for someone to learn how to do the job. I’m not sure any other role has gotten that much attention ever that I remember. And my guess is that they will likely end up having to chop the role in two because of the way the work force is today. No one wants to do that much work, in today’s world. But I think it has to do with decision making ability and the new government rules. It’s sad the rules don’t consider how much detail and cognitive (obsessive compulsive tendencies) that it takes, lol. I heard my boss say to find someone with OCD. lol. It does take that.

And I had thought before myself that it wasn’t a manager role, which is what the new laws consider. I don’t manage anyone. I don’t make decisions. Only one big one every day. Do I want to keep doing this? lol. It was always a lot to do but it can be done. You have to do everything just right with the payroll and in a certain order and there’s not much room for mistakes. Any mistake causes lots of time and other people sometimes to be involved – like a computer programer.

I liked this payroll position better than HR role as I got older and very burned out with all the details from that HR role and I was not very good at asking for help. Well no wait —I did ask, I just didn’t get it! But the people after me did. And I think there are a lot of other people that help support and do things for that role that I used to do on my own. I see a lot of my bosses working on a LOT of HR things that they didn’t before. But there were other reasons I left HR. Very big ones. This is not the time nor place. And I’d like to forget and continue to forgive there too. Anyway, my life has been a fun little career of a life, but I’m ready to focus on other things and I’ll be glad frankly when these last 19 weeks are over with.

One of the execs came in and said not to worry that they were not going to get rid of me early. That was a concern that if I gave my notice they would send me packing early if the other person was trained. So I appreciated that. I mean they were starting to replace me whether I gave notice or not as they knew it was coming. It really hurt my feelings that I hadn’t given my notice yet. (See previous entries.). I don’t think I will ever forget that. I’m still trying to forgive and work my way through the disrespect of that. But as God and George says, “you know it really doesn’t matter” – it’s business, it’s life, and no one cares about you really, as life has lost the human touch. So all is ok – well sort of – I’m very sensitive and it takes me a longer time to detach, or to forgive as the feelings come back day after day and I have to keep working through them every time. No one else gets it I don’t think. But I am human and have feelings. I may work like a robot but I am human.

George’s Birthday

We are starting George’s “birthday explosion” this week. I call it an explosion – as we are doing several things. Mom is taking him out, we’re going out to a couple of other places, and we are seeing friends soon (not for his birthday but to see our friends, but he’s counting it as birthday fun as it’s a present to get to see them.)

Mom’s Latest Scenario

Mom? Well the disposal seal leaked from her sink area and flooded her kitchen. She had to call a plumber and clean up the area. Home ownership. We discussed assisted living and not having to worry with such things. She was crying saying she hated her place and hated she came up here to live. We knew that already. She has made that clear. But her other daughter is not going to care for her due to their apparently irreparable relationship, so she is up here. I guess she thought I’d quit my life and be over there 24/7 but no. I have my life too. I can’t keep up one household, much less two. Even in retirement, I am not going to be over there all the time. I can help some but it’s not going to be like what she is probably planning. Anyway she doesn’t want assisted living because she has to get dressed and come to the table. She will lose her “will” at doing what she wants when she wants, and that is NOT her. But yes, this is her third disposal. So I’m not sure what is happening. She has nearly rebuilt that place 3 times over. It’s always something.

Ok I hope you enjoy the video this week. Again you can watch it HERE.