Difficult Week, Juggling Life, Feeling Bad

Here’s my struggle trying to get proper help from the doctor to clear up diverticulitis (or whatever it is that is causing pain in the colon). It’s difficult to work and care for an ailing mother when you are not well yourself. It’s been a true struggle these last few weeks. The saga is not over yet. Stay tuned.

You can watch the journey here.

I’m off today. And so incredibly happy. The goals are to get some of Mom’s things taken care of: handicap license and placard papers, her tax rebate papers, pay any bills due. I plan to clean out my work bag and change purses, clean my office and organize it a bit, send some sympathy cards out, wrap some gifts, do laundry, do some planning. There won’t be much time for cleaning. I’ll have to work on that next weekend. I will empty the trash cans across the house and change George’s sheets today.

I’m really hoping I can get to polish the silver jewelry and write in my grandmother’s journal today or finish a book. All of which I have set myself to finish by end of year. And I’d like to work on some plans for 24.

My head and heart is about to bust to do some things I want to do but there is never enough hours in the week left. I’m just left feeling exhausted from trying. But for some reason I never quit trying. I guess when I do, life will be over, lol.

Maybe some day my life will be more calm. I never dreamed 60 would look like it does. But there is one thing for sure. Being as busy as I am, and trying as hard as I do, it will sure make 24 go by fast. I just want to feel good.

Today my tummy is much better. It’s coming along. Not as much pain. It gets better every day. But right now, I’m exhausted. I think I read where the antibiotics can cause that. But I have a lot to try and do while home today. It’s my only day to be here until next Friday. I’m taking that day off to wrap and get the house ready for Christmas. Not a lot of time off around Christmas. It’s all going to be rushed. I have to do payroll the day after Christmas. And I’m off the Friday before but….that is only going to make my Tuesday harder.

Anyway, I always dream of having all this time off during the holidays but when I do it’s rushed and hairy and then I’m left exhausted after the holidays. No relax time it seems. But soon. Very soon.

It’s helping to have George home. He has kinda kept the house in order, did some laundry and is trying to be productive. I’ve not asked him to do that. But I appreciate it. I can see the little touches of his being here – the Tupperware cabinet looked neater, the counters were cleaner, and he washed and folded the towels and did his own load of jeans, and many other small things like putting the dog food up from the Amazon box and putting it up in the “dog center”. All these things make me smile and I realize I’m not alone, lol.

Well again, I hope you enjoy today’s video. There is a very cute scene at the end. And you can watch it here.

Have a great weekend!