Peace and Happiness During January’s Chaos

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The past day or two has been chaotic, but yet somehow peaceful. Most of the pressure comes from trying to pack too much into periods of time, meetings, appointments and deadlines. But several things have kept me from totally falling apart – and I did get very close.

God has been listening and has been my tower, my strength, my “go to” and at night when I lay down, I totally rest in Him and ask him to just help, and He has. He has given me peace, rest, little avenues of unexpected time, little pockets of joy, little moments with friends or family, and little bits of fun with the after Christmas Amazon shopping, lol. Even Mom has been joyful and patient with our last two days of doc appointments and errands.

This watch band has been sitting my “wish list” page on Amazon for a long time. A year to be exact. It seemed to be more of a “winter” band and since I didn’t order it last winter, I didn’t see a need for it until about fall. I had decided I’d get it with the Amazon points, so here it is. I really like it because I wear a lot of black and grey in the winter. And I really didn’t have anything that looked like winter. I don’t even think I had a black plastic band. All of my plastic bands have turned and the dirt seems to be melded into it over time and won’t come off.

I have loved my watch. At some point this one will become obsolete though. I’m not sure I want to pay the price for another when it does. I’m just not sure that I really need it so much. My phone is usually with me. However, there is something to be said about it being able to to do so much with heart, sleep, and being able to call for you if you fall – at least on the newer models there has been improvement, so likely I will want to continue having it.

I needed a little energy outlet yesterday – you know swinging a hammer and beating on the walls kind of a thing to release a little nervous energy. So I figured out where to hang a few things on the wall. These walls are so big and ceilings high so anything (that I can afford) to hang up is just swallowed by the wall. My map seemed bigger when I ordered it but came out so small. It’s ok though. I decided to keep the lamp right where it is as it provides good soft light. Kinda weird to be in the middle of a wall like that, but that is where the easiest plug is. And when I hung the pictures up, it kinda creates a little separation there. I have about a 3 foot plant that I will put on that tan filing cabinet there. It will “fill some space” and give the room a little lift with my sad desperate try at decorating. It’s good to have the space though don’t get me wrong. I’ll also be adding a little black bookshelf behind me to put paper on for my printer, my Kleenex, hand sanitizer, and things like that. I hope it works because I really need the shelf. That will also add a little more to the room as I’ll put a plant on it too. I hope when I put the bookshelf in, that I don’t have to rehang or move things around. I might have to center things up. I didn’t think about that. But, hopefully all will work. The chalkboard and chalk came in. And I have a bulletin board to put up. I am just ready for warmth and welcome when I go into my office. Trying to make it a nice cozy feel since I’m there so much. That could be argued this week, lol. I’ve not been there much due to working from home, doc appointments, etc.

I was happy to see that Mom will still be able to see a sunset, despite the villas going in around her – at least so far. They are coming up fast. I went outside to take a pic. Her place is going to be so nice when spring and summer and fall are here. We will look for a patio table as well and can have sandwiches or dinner out there some.

Last evening was pleasant as we arrived from the doc appointment and I ordered pizza for us all and George picked it up. It was so good. I had a little pocket of time to play a game on my phone to release some more nervous energy. lol

George and I came home and began watching Ozark. I fell asleep toward the end and he had to wake me up. I had gotten up at 3:15 yesterday morning just because I was awake. I’ve done the same this morning. But sleep was solid for the 6 hours I did get both nights. We have to be at Mom’s by 8:30 this morning to hang curtains. So when I woke up at 3:15 and was awake, I was delighted, so I’d have some goof off time as well as some laundry time.

I only fixed half pot of coffee b/c not sure when George would get up but certainly not for a couple of hours later.

While waiting for the coffee to finish and after sorting and starting the first laundry load today – I picked out my next two books. Since I’ve slotted myself to read three books until summer, I figure I needed to pick the other two. I’m reading the Magnolia story as the current one. But I think I’ll try the technique of having 3 going at once. I just can’t seem to find time to sit and read so why not have 3 sitting there pulling at me instead of one. Maybe the force of will – will be greater! I can’t sit still long enough. lol

I’ve had these in my wish list since probably August or September when I knew for sure I was making my hair grow longer and was sticking to it. I ended up buying some different ones because they had a lot more in them for the money. But I kept looking at how pretty these were. I love the turquoise flower and the white flower one the best, but I’m also fond of all of them. I guess I’m starting to look like a granny. These look like something my grandmothers would like. Maybe that is why I like them. They kindof pull your hair when you pull them out so I have to be gentle, but they hold good and are so much better than barrettes or hair clasps and don’t fall out like combs do.

And so that is about all I have today. I am glad it is the weekend although lately, with snow, meetings, doc appts, and all that is going on, it’s been difficult to know what day it is. There is no question, however, as to what month it is.

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So the weekend brings a day at Mom’s or with Mom and we’ll do whatever she needs today. BIL and SIL arrive sometime after lunch and George and Kevin will go to the playoff Titans game and Susan and I will be around for Mom and we’ll all have a girls afternoon, whatever we decide to do. Had promised Mom a day out to get shoes, look at furniture for her den (needs smaller furniture as the current is hard to fit in there). Mom has not really liked (none of us have) getting out in the cold so I’ll leave it up to her. It has been freezing or below most of the time and with wind, just horribly frigid.

Tonight we celebrate my birthday with Kevin and Susan as between all four of us we do birthday meals – no gifts and it’s a great excuse for another meal out. We buy Kevin and Susans and they buy ours. I’ve opted for a steak house tonight, but I had steak earlier in the week and I may opt for chicken tenders as that sounds so good. But we’ll see.

Sunday, tomorrow, is a work day for me, but I’ll have to finish our laundry and sneak in a grocery trip so I have food to eat at work next week. I won’t go out more than likely for fast food (no time to take lunch) until after quarter end/year end duties are finished. I’m trying to robotishly keep plugging away til all boxes are ticked off or I’m ticked off, whichever happens first. lol lol lol

The off site meeting I had to go to on Monday is cancelled so I’m grateful for getting about 4 hours back into my week to plug away at the impossible line up before me.

But most of all I’m looking forward to doing a Target order and the grocery store run. (Isn’t that pitiful? But I can’t wait to do both!) I’m not pushing any of my own agenda until February. If I can’t get to my agenda by Feb 1, we gonna have some trouble with everyone. I’ll shut down everything including myself. lol lol. I have to have some time to work on some things I want to work on. I have things to download, things to cancel, want some creative time, need to flip some things around the house, put up the Christmas trees, pretend it’s my new year, look at my goals and actually have time to work on them, think about them, do them. See my friends from Franklin finely. And pretend I still have a life of my own. It’ll be great! 😉

What you doing this weekend?

Roger Dog’s Woes and Some Pictures that Make me Smile

Good morning! It’s Saturday here. Going to do a bit of shopping today and I am looking forward to it. I don’t really have a lot on my mind this morning except for shopping and Roger. I’m giving it a break. Live and let live. One can simply only do each day the best they can. But I know I’m thankful for the sleep from last night, even though it was broken with yelps and howling from Roger. And I know I’m thankful for the day before me.

Roger. He is in his last of days, I’m afraid. It’s just time. He is now in a miserable state. Being the beloved dog of George’s, he will have to make the final decision himself, and the final steps. I will not make this step for him. Both Mom and I know it’s time. It is just so hard to let go. He’s no longer enjoying life, is miserable, and now a hazard to himself. It’s no way to live.

Yesterday he shat in nearly every room and then laid in it and went to sleep. Mom was unable to deal with it, but did the best she could. He had gone under my bed, pooped, laid in it and slept. George had to move the bed, get him out, and deal with it the best he could. Somehow my phone charger got drug through all of this. I guess his legs got caught in it. The whole thing got drug through the poop. George said “uhhh just order another one”. I did and it will be here this morning before 8:00. They have 52 minutes. I was going to pay the $2.99 extra but since I ordered vitamins, it’ll get here by then for free – or we will at least see if it will. May already be on the porch but I don’t think so.

He has started howling and moaning off and on for two days, two nights. He’s not resting as much. We lose him and find him in weird places. He is wanting to hide. This morning I found him under the ironing board with the ironing board cord wrapped around his right front leg (iron was sitting on the ironing board). Had he moved, the iron would have come down on him. He seems to have a relationship with cords and bags. He gets all hung up in both. Yet he seems to seek them out.

He is having a hard time drinking his water. He can’t find it. He can find the bowl and go up to it but he can not find the water itself and drinks the air. Then he steps in it and knocks it over, or falls asleep with his ear in it. We are afraid he will drown.

So, keep us in your prayers. It’s a sad day already watching this. It’s almost agonizing to continue watching it. I’ve gently asked George if he was thinking it was time. He said “it’s crossed my mind”. I thought he might decide today, but he has not mentioned it again. So I will go on about my day then shopping. And we’ll see what the week brings. I hate that Mom has to be here all day to listen to the moaning/groaning. It has to be nerve wracking for her.

So to just lighten the load today I’m going to share some pics that I’ve taken in my room recently, just to make me smile. You have seen some of these before. I have tried to make this a good homey and relaxing space – my office and bedroom.

Upcoming Book to read!
God, Grace, Grattitude, and where I take off my jewelry every night! LOL
An “everyday mess” but a “beautiful and inviting mess”
My home office and where I love to be.
The soft and cozy bed that gives me comfort and rest each night, and the cute little friend I pretend is my “dog”. I miss having a dog sleep at my feet. This one is easy to care for. His name is “snugie” short for “snuggle with Tugie”. Tugie is my former poodle of 17 years. This is a sloth but he looks like Tugie. He makes me smile. Sometimes I’ve called him “slugie” b/c it’s a cross b/w sloth and Tugie, but I like Snugie better.
This is for the trolls. You know who you are. But I choose to love your spying ways anyway. So we’ll make the most of it. Thanks for making my daily blog visiter count go up. Now there’s looking at the bright side of things. 😉
Yesterday’s calendar. Yeah seems appropriate. Why am I still here? lol. This dream seems so far away now. I’m strapped and capped and getting old. Other than realizing that, it made me smile.
Yesterday’s salad a coworker brought back from Publix for me. It was so good. It was filling and made me smile. Made me smile someone offered to bring back lunch for me too.
Guess who is too big for his car seat?
Bean soup and grilled cheese sandwiches. Made those while George was mowing. Soup already made by George was leftovers. Yes each side had butter slathered on. Just call me “Paula Deen” and move on. Yes it was good. I’l try to be better today.

I did something weird while cooking dinner. I had Alexa play frog noises. I totally listened to frogs until after we cleaned up the kitchen dishes. It was relaxing and felt like we were away from the world, in a log cabin, by a stream. It was little touch of nature. Strange and weird but it was very relaxing! I needed it. I also sipped the last of the Coppola Red we had left over from Tuesday night. Did a bottle of wine last that long? Apparently so. That is how busy we have been.

After cleaning and scrubbing carpets in my bedroom (both George and I), I finally just moved my bed back into place. And slept. Only to be woken up a few times b/w 2 and 5 as I forgot to turn on my sound machine.

The coffee pot made an entire pot this morning without going all over the counter. I sat and watched it for 5 minutes or so to make sure. So many weird things keep happening.

All Mom’s flowers had no water in them. Same morning we got up to water all over the floor. Not sure. We thought it was Roger’s water bowl, but then where did the water go in the flowers? Did someone knock it over? Did the flowers soak it all up in one day? So I put more in it.

Somedays you wake up and go “huh? what happened overnight?” It’s like having an invisible elf on the shelf!

A souvenir from Florida many years back to play Sol (Solitaire). I brought them upstairs to play – soon! I love dolphins. I should have been playing all along. Real cards are more fun than the iPhone version.

So I’m going to go start my day, shower and get on my way to shopping. I’m truly looking forward to it. We’ll see how it goes. Pray for our situation with Roger and George. George is going to need your prayers, if Roger’s behavior continues as is. George – and none of us – will want to continue watching him suffer. I’ll keep you posted.

Night Out and She-Haven Before and After Pics

We had the nicest time with my BIL and SIL going to their house for drinks and appetizers and then heading out to dinner at Chop House in Hendersonville, TN. We laughed at how our 6:30 reservations and the darkness made it seem sooooo late for us “old folks”. My BIL was turning 60 so we lived it up!

The fireplaces and ambiance made the place a wonderful spot for a 60th birthday celebration. We had a nice steak dinner, most of us getting Prime Rib.

As packed as the place was (after this pic was taken) one would not have been able to determine that we lived in a COVID world. Matter fact, I, myself, forgot to restock my purse with a mask. When we were back from TX I removed all of them from my purse for a wash, and totally zonked out at putting one back in my purse. The freshly washed ones all went back into my Work Bag since that is usually where I go these days. So….

When I exclaimed I’d forgotten my mask, my SIL said, “Oh I have lots”. I said, “well let me borrow one and I’ll give it back”. She handed me one with “Coffee” all over it and I teasingly said “wait, I may not WANT to give this one back”. She said “oh you can have it”. I said “I was only teasing – well not really! I love it.” She insisted I keep it. I absolutely love it! She made it and said she had made lots more. So cute. I cannot think of anything more appropriate for me to wear as a mask!

Yes I have on make up. It felt good to apply make up yesterday. Really I wore it to film in but knew we were going to dinner anyway.

We ordered dressed eggs with bacon. They accidentally placed two orders so they brought us another plate, lol. George said “I hope they do that to our drinks!” LOL

We had cocktails as the bottles of wine were pretty “up there”. Since my drink was so big – I didn’t need but one. It was a drink called “Reasoning with a Hurricane”. Leave it up to me to order a “weather” drink. The only reasoning I needed after that one was to find some sleep! After that drink and a steak I was ready for bed. LOL

The prime rib was excellent. This was a “medium” order. I think maybe it was medium rare, but I ate it and it was good.

BIL got a half price birthday dessert and we split it 4 ways. (Gone are the days of a free one? You can’t argue with half price though during COVID days. Nice of them to offer THAT!)

The She-Haven Before and After

I worked really hard on the She-Haven the last two days. Are you ready for the before and after? It’s not TOTALLY finished but I will show you more pics as I add the “final touches” – which is a table, a throw, a colorful pillow, and I will add another floor lamp to the room b/c I moved the one by my desk to be able to have a reading light in the chair. I miss the light by my desk now, but no fret – those floor lamps are cheap at like $29.99 at Target. Yep it’s on order.

BEFORE / CORNER 1

AFTER / CORNER 1

So it will look better when the throw and the pillow are added and the side table and would honestly have taken a better pic if it were sunny out and not night. Since “functionality” played a part I tried not to hyperventilate over the “whiteboard” where it is. It’s a “thinking” corner too so I left it there. Started to move it but it would just start an avalanche of other moves. I decided to just be happy with it. The white board is easy to access there.

BEFORE / DESK and CORNER 2

AFTER / DESK and CORNER 2

Not a lot of change. The floor lamp is missing and the rug is scooted back. Area cleaned up a bit. And you can see a table on the left wall that I moved around.

BEFORE / CORNER 3

AFTER / CORNER 3

Not a huge noticeability here. Since I had functionality as a goal for the office, I decided that having camera equipment in the corner was totally OK. I can quickly grab it without a lot of fuss. I got rid of the plastic drawers. I put the “Choose Happy” in the den for now as it’s slightly off the colors of my office. It’s more the colors of my blog, lol. I decided I really needed to keep the plastic filing system as that is convenient for me and I can keep important papers as well as some “idea files”.

I left the 5 lbs of fat on the table to remind me that even losing 5 lbs is that much gone! I also decided that despite how the silver table kinda stands out – I really need it and it provides function so I am keeping it in the room. I think it worked better here than I thought it would. And the files fit underneath it and that made me really happy.

BEFORE CORNER 4

AFTER / CORNER 4

SO of course the Christmas stuff has been removed and the chair put in it’s spot. Roger’s bed had been improved, that plastic drawer as mentioned is gone. The last two pics overlap a bit. Notice I added a fisherman’s hook or whatever that thing is by the Cafe pic. I went shopping downstairs for that one.

Yes there is a guitar in the picture. We have more guitars than we do rooms with corners, LOL. I may ask if I can switch it to a different one though that will go with the room more!

I LEFT THE CLOSETS OPEN FOR A REASON.

I needed the shelves to be part of my office extension.

Ooops I forgot to get a before shot of the closet in a photo. I did in my video version for the vlog but anyway, here is the AFTER.

The top shelf remains George’s. I need to move his microphone up but hey, maybe I’ll use it sometime, LOL. I need to move some things around still on that middle shelf but it has my Canon box which is empty and not really needed but I keep the boxes to my equipment and devices most of the time. My letters for my message board – OH the sign is in the floor and I need to hang it up but decided to wait til floor lamp comes in so the floor lamp doesn’t block it. My weights I left in here b/c the rug in the middle of the floor can provide an exercise spot! I can do a YouTube video.

So….that lower shelf – on the left is my laptop – windows based. Sometimes if we travel or I want to just sit in a chair instead of a desk, I’ll use it instead of my iMac. It also has Paint Shop Pro on it. So I’m keeping it. And the little basket has greeting cards. The middle basket is just device accessories for phone, earbuds, my older camera, etc.

Here’s some pics.

The larger basket holds just some office supplies – sticky notes, push pins, clips, command strips and book marks. I don’t use a lot of office supplies for what I do in here but needed someplace to put a few things.

Don’t laugh at the mess. But I put the shopping bags from like Target, Walmart, etc in this “world bag” to use as trash bags for my little silver trash can in the office. This was supposed to be a laundry bag, but my goodness, it wouldn’t hold even a day’s worth of dirty clothes hardly. So I needed a different use. Wish I didn’t have to have my off season clothes in here but they have to go somewhere! And this is easy.

I’m pretty happy the way it all turned out.

I watched a show and had a small pizza at lunch sitting in my chair!

I read some too in Kate Chastain’s Lucky Charming book about being a stewardess in the yachting/boating industry. I think I’m watching Sailing Zatara on YouTube above. I didn’t realize what on earth was on my iMac screen when I took the pic! LOL They are so funny on that show but the recent one they were dodging a hurricane.

Today was productive otherwise. I had synergy in the day – meaning it all flowed together. Laundry, ironing, taking Christmas stuff downstairs, working on the office, got nails and toes done, Target order done, and got the telephoto lens ordered this weekend. Also opened my new filters George got me and made sure they fit the lens. They fit the one that came with the camera kit which is the main one that is good to shoot from – as far as a general lense is concerned for most uses – it doesn’t fit the wide angle but the wide angle I mainly use indoors anyway. I feel accomplished getting things done and in order and in control. We had just been away for two Saturdays and the ones before that were all Christmas related and just busy.

So it feels really good to be able get all this done!

And it’s not the most beautiful office in the world, but it’s my office. It’s my She-Haven and I’m happy with my Space. It’s set up to serve a purpose! My “corner” will look even better when the table, throw, and pillow arrives. They yellow pillow matches my yellow desk chair and will tie the room’s colors together.

Ahhhhh, now to download Big Sur, but have to get the back up drive first. Then after that I can start on the next video.

Ya’ll have a wonderful Monday ahead.