Realizing I’m Happy and Some Salads I Made this Week

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Good morning! Well, it is morning here anyway as I type. So glad to blog this morning if Dexter will let me without trying to tear up my office, lol. (He’s getting better at minding but he still tries to get his way and loves to chew on my baskets, my chair, my camera bag, and the trash.) I have noticed this week and maybe last, the numbers of readers plummeted on the blog. I wondered if I had said or done something wrong, as we all tend to do. Or if my blogging every other day instead of every day was making it dwindle. But then I saw a few other bloggers mention it in their post also. Often there are about three times of year when this happens. Spring, Fall, and the last part of the year as everyone gets ready for the holidays. Usually I notice it more in spring when the weather starts to warm up. Now I’m thinking there may be 4 times a year – add June to that list. A lot of people taking vacations, school is out, Father’s Day and a lot of family time going on. So I’ll take that. But at first I thought it was me.

I Noticed I was Happy the Other Day

What a weird thing to say huh? But I was driving along and I thought….I’m so happy. I made a list (once I was parked, lol) of what all I was enjoying about my life.

  • Getting a dog releases another side of me that is fun (also can be frustrating but mostly fun) but it creates a sense of family again and George and I are working together to give Mr. Dexter a good home and trained.
  • Job going well in the payroll position (it’s not as frustrating as the other one was) and I enjoy most all of it and it’s still a challenge at times for my brain.
  • Love doing my blog
  • Have a bit more time in the schedule and that is working so we get some fun in our lives
  • Cooking – learning to cook differently via the Hello Fresh and the meals are awesome
  • Going to enjoy doing a bit of cost cutting (already cut the cable bill)
  • Exercising is making me feel better and have more energy
  • Getting more sleep (well until last night b/c there was a criminal on the loose and the camera kept going off saying a person was on the front lawn – it was a spider, lol)
  • Bible Study – I’m enjoying may daily Revelations walk, although it is a bit frightening, but if we walk with Him we are ok
  • Keeping the house, well it’s gotten more interesting with dog dog but I’ll be making more of an effort since we are home a bit more to enjoy the results

I think the only things that changed really was: getting the dog, exercising, and doing Hello Fresh. But I also asked God for more contentment and His spirit also sends a peace to us that lends to contentment at times.

The only thing I’ve not been able to do is keep up with the reading. It was hard to come by before but now the dog has taken up that time. lol. That is the missing piece I need to figure out.

It also makes me happy to be able to work toward goals and see myself moving in forward directions. I enjoy the seasonal bucket lists and it gives me glee to check something off of it. I’ve also enjoyed the daily to do list breakdown, including all those goals and have been using the iPhone to do list to track it. I don’t let it stress me because if it comes to be too much I simply hit the information button and change the due date or reminder date for another day. That is really working well for reminders and tasks. All these things make me happy and keep me organized.

My Pants are Loose Again 😉 How’d that Happen?

So, I put on the new pants I ordered from Belk, the lower size that felt just right last week and they are too loose this week. I had to check to see that I had the right size on (the smaller size) and I did. I was shocked. How did this happen?

  1. My guess is the exercise is starting to help.
  2. We are eating more veggies with Hello Fresh
  3. We don’t have as many leftovers (but feel full) with Hello Fresh
  4. Running after the dog – getting up and down, bending down and looking under things for his toys, and changing his paper, and getting things out of his mouth, and taking him for a walk, giving him his food and water and toys. Lots of movement having a new dog! We get up and down out of our chair even during Netflix shows, lol.

Here’s some popcorn I’ve been enjoying: Black Jewell. You get it at Publix if you have one near you. I think you can order it on line too. It doesn’t have all the bad things in it. Very natural. I usually add popcorn salt or reg salt.

Made an Awesome Dinner List Night…Am I modest? lol

I ordered the pasta salad as an add on but ended up making it for last night on a non-Hello Fresh night. My menu was to have bacon and blue cheese salad with boiled egg on top, this cavatappi salad with basil pesto, pasta and green beans, and then I added something from the freezer – chicken cordon blue. It all went well together.

So I learned how to do this salad – I guess you can buy the basil pesto? But the green beans were put in the microwave for 2 minutes or so and steamed in a bit of water. I added the pesto and microwaved again for 20 seconds. It made them softer. They were still a bit crunchy but yet cooked. Not limp. Then you add parmesan cheese (the real kind).

The salad has been a favorite of mine for a long time. It is good with darker leafy greens (not iceberg) but spinach is good or other darker green salad mixes and you have crispy bacon pieces and blue cheese crumbles. I added the egg because it is so good in there. And then you put olive oil, lemon juice, and a light vinegar on it. We had a lemon olive oil and used it. It was all really good. I can say that as none of it was really my creation. lol. I just copied it. But it was good. I also fixed extra bacon and eggs so we can have that for breakfast and we have some pasta left for lunch.

Well today is Mom’s doc appointment where she gets her eye injection. And so I leave at half day. Anyway, we’ll go out to eat afterward and she needs some groceries and probably get her mail. It’s also my day to take her to church Sunday.

Speaking of that. Last Sunday there was someone weird at church that was suspicious. They wondered if he was scoping the lay out of the church for something later. This is because of all the shootings lately I’m sure. So I’m a little nervous about going to church Sunday. It’s also supposed to rain a lot this weekend. But anyway, I suppose we will still go but we may change where we sit. We are right in the line of fire if someone walks in the back door. Anywhere else though and Mom will have to walk some more but it might be worth it if it saves our lives. You have to think about these things. Of course if it is time to go and God says it is time, then it is time. What you gonna do?

Dexter is too busy to get his pic most of the time. Or if he is not busy, I am. But I will try to get more pics, lol. I did good getting the food pics I thought. Oh yeah, here is another one of our wonderful Hello Fresh meals. I guess ya’ll are going to get tired of me talking about it. I have just been majorly impressed. So the cost is more than buying it on your own, but less than going out to eat. But it’s fun to do, all put together for you, recipes are easy and fun, and you can keep them, and it’s delivered to you and you eat gourmet as well as if it were fine dining. And you have some portion control but are still full. And I’m loving picking out the menu selection each week. Sorry I’ll try to not mention it so much but it’s just been a joy. We are spending about $60 to $70 a week for the meals but I buy a few extras for other meals when they are on sale: salads, egg bites, so I add it up to about $90. Then at the store or Target or Amazon we buy our other household needs. We have a lot of stuff already in the freezer too for our other meals so we don’t need a lot extra other than maybe a few fresh veggies, drinks and snacks.

Anyway, gotta get dressed and ready for work. I’m running behind today.

Oh, there is a man on the loose in Mount Juliet somewhere and I hope they find him. It was hard to sleep last night knowing he was out there not too far away. He kidnapped someone and got stopped and then he ran. So yeee ha. I was awake in the night and used my Thred UP credit and ordered a shirt, lol. I was sleeping good when alarm went off.

Ok over and out. What all you got going for the weekend? Me? Mom but we get Saturday off and may meet friends for dinner. Supposed to rain a lot I think. Have a good one.

Video goes live in the morning at 7:00 a.m. and I’ll come on here and leave the link. Already started working on the next one, so it’s paying off to do them, get them scheduled and start the following one before it goes live. So that gives me some advance time. I am getting in a rhythm now. Can’t believe within 1 week there is already another.

Ok too quiet, where is that Dexter and what is he into now?

Hermitage Natchez Hills Wines | Yard Sale Finds | Weekly Update | Contentment

As mentioned in a previous entry, we did the wine tasting at the Hermitage and really enjoyed it. I liked the wine very much. And was shocked to learn they had an “iced tea wine”. George had his favorites and I had mine and so we bought enough to get “their deal”. You buy so many you get 15% off. So we treated ourselves.

We also went to a few yard sales last Saturday. There were not many with it being Mother’s Day Weekend. But there were a few. I have become to love adding flowers to a room for decor. I needed a couple of big vases that would hide the bottom of stems (most of mine are see through). I bought these with the idea of spray painting them. (Like I have time for any more creative projects). Currently they are in the basement “waiting their turn”. If I can get them to a neutral color, I can use them in various places in the house. And I can sign up for Hobby Lobby emails again and be able to find out when their flowers are 50% off.

A friend (Lisa J) from work brought cookies and left them on my desk. A little Momma’s day treat. So sweet. I shared with my next door office neighbor, Deb.

My Mother’s Day card came in Monday. It was worth the wait. It was a special constructed Momma’s day card.

The gift itself came yesterday. A pic of Little Roo.

I love this photo but everyone is going to tease him one day for being just like Cody and George. They love to sneak something into the photo without being totally obvious – a subtle little birdie or in George’s case sometimes a purposeful glimpse of his belly button. lol. If you see it in the pic let me know. Yes they will tease him about it one day. That makes the pic even more perfect. lol lol But I love that pic of him by the planter. I love him in his little khakis and plaid shirt and bare feet!

A “Peace Offering” Cookie.

There’s a “Mexican” bakery close to work. I’ll go there someday. I saw where it was while driving around in the area. But someone brought me one this week. But this week another department had some “issues” that caused payroll to be half day behind as I was told not to close payroll yet til they were ironed out. I stayed over a bit and then had to focus to rush through Wed and Thurs to catch up. I didn’t get many of my extra projects worked on this week because it took away some of my week. To make matters worse, no one told me when the “issues” were fixed so I waited three extra hours to start payroll. I could have gone after about 2 hours of waiting if I had known. And when I checked three times I was told it was not finished. (Yes, It was confusing and miscommunication as life often is. You know when several are involved.) Anyway the department felt bad and brought peace offering cookies, which was so nice of them to do. I was so impressed. Often in this day and time no one cares when someone makes you work harder and longer because of an issue. So it was nice to see that there are people that care or recognize it when they make your life more difficult and didn’t mean to. So Thank You Lord for that. There is a bite missing. I took a bite before taking the picture. No harm. No foul. At least we made the upload/deadline for the deposit.

Night Out with Mom

One night I took Mom out to Cracker Barrel. I don’t think she felt too good. She seemed a bit agitated and unhappy. They set us at a 2- seater table and she brought it up 4 times before our order that she was not happy sitting there. I get it. I prefer a 4 seater also so you have more elbow room. Neither of us is a small person, lol. I asked the waitress to move us but Mom refused. Thankfully she didn’t go on about it after that. I think I would have moved and ate by myself if she had, lol. I either wanted us to move or get over it. And she fussed about the purse she has and how small it was. She can’t ever find anything in her purse and when something comes out it won’t go back in and that was making her mad. She cursed loudly at it. I felt sad for her that she was having such an unhappy day. I often have those days when I don’t feel good or upset about something else and I’m just impatient with the world. Patience has never been her strong suit. So if you wonder where I get THAT. There ya go! It’s not been mine! So let’s talk about that!

Patience, Emotions, Guilt, Manipulation, Contentment – We are all a work in progress.

I’ve had to work really hard on this thorn in my side of not being patient. I can’t say that I’ve mastered patience, but I can say that I am better at it and that I am learning to “self parent” myself (lol, don’t you love that psychological term?) when something doesn’t go my way or suit me. I’ve had to learn how to better handle my emotions in my adult life. In the early days (20’s and 30’s and even 40’s), I just said “it’s me – it’s who I am – I want what I want and when I want it – I’m just driven – so get over it”. But that attitude is just kinda selfish, childish, and not very loving or considerate of others. So I’ve tried so hard to be better at reacting. I’m not perfect but I’m better. And I no longer desire to lay claim proudly with that type of reaction or behavior. I admit to not having patience at times but I’m no longer proud of it or claim it as a character trait that others must live with. I’ve learned to “self soothe” as the psychologists/psychiatrist calls it. And that has been a big learning curve to try and find contentment within yourself and soothe your own spirit. A lot goes into it. It’s a lot of work to try not to be narcissistic when your pattern is cut out for you to be. :-O I have decided that recognizing those patterns within yourself is over half of the problem. Because only then can you begin to be honest with yourself and be humble and ashamed of that kind of behavior and let go of the ego and start again to trying to be a better person. Believe me, Iiiiiiiiiii know.

OOOOPS! Anyway, I got off subject, lol. I offered to take Mom to a store nearby to find a purse but she said she would go on line or get Aunt Martha and Uncle Ken to take her when they got up here. She had not asked me to take her to Belk so I will not be made to feel guilty over that – that is another thing I’m learning is not to be made to feel guilty for things that are out of my control. While this manipulation tactic has worked on me before I’m learning to let go of that as I am learning how to be aware of various people’s manipulation tactics – intended or not. Sometimes I think people are so engrained at manipulating others they don’t even know they are doing it. I’m sure I do it myself. We probably all do to a degree at whatever has worked in the past. I expect for others to let me know if they need something from me as it’s not my job to determine what others are wanting or thinking. Mom may not have been manipulating me in this way – only she can answer that, but whether or not she was- I am the one that has allowed myself to feel guilty in the past as if I had done something wrong. Even then, you see – I immediately offered to take her to get a purse. I’ve been trained in that way to respond to negative behavior – after I saw her curse at the purse. I wanted her world to be right. Even though we all know the purse is one thing. And tomorrow it’ll be another item. I’ve been the same way. So I’m still in a work in progress too. lol. I almost think Mom is happier when George is with us. He must lift her mood. With me she seems more agitated. Or perhaps she is more comfortable and lets her guard down and allows herself to me more agitated with me. Sometimes I feel like I’m just the no count daughter that can’t do anything to please, other than provide gossip worthy adventures, so… Who knows. At least I’m the daughter still around. The other one said she couldn’t handle it and took off. lol

I hate she didn’t seem to have a good time although she thanked me and said she did. And I appreciated that. I tried to make her happy by getting her out of the house. I can’t make people be content though. And I can’t be held responsible for anyone else’s happiness. As I know toooooo well, contentment has to come from within. Other people can’t fix everything for you. There is nothing anyone else can do. An individual just has to learn to find their own contentment with their circumstances. I have had to do this for a while for things that turned out a lot different than I had expected or wanted. Often my own desires and plans in life have been squashed. I can accept it and go on. Or I can wallow in misery. Or I can decide to change the situation. It’s my choice. And I’ve made my decisions. Subject to change again if I decide. But on the way back from Mom’s God gave me the most awesome sunset to watch as I drove home. It’s as if He was consoling me from the work week and life’s snotty little trials. Or was it me just settling in with my own contentment at going home, finding silence and peace, and going to bed?

George stayed home this night to work on a few projects music wise. He is doing some recording with the device/equipment I got him for Christmas finally. And it’s yard work season so that takes up some time on other nights. Mom takes up some time during the week and on weekends some. And he cooks which he loves to do. But…..I’m also trying to give him a break too by doing some cooking here and there. I just don’t have time either, lol. My problem is that I get in the store and don’t have recipes with me, don’t want to take time to find them in the store, and have tried to get organized with this for some time and it just gets pushed to the bottom of the list. So….a friend at work gave me a “free box” invite from HELLO FRESH. So…..

Hello Fresh

So George and I got on last night and I ordered the 3 meal plan with Hello Fresh. We got a “free box” and it will come every week all with fresh ingredients. You can skip weeks if you need to. But often I don’t get to the store but every two weeks and we take Mom and it’s hard to get my own groceries bought. But this will help. I’m excited. I don’t have to pick a recipe other than getting on line each week and making a choice. I set up the app on my phone and have the alerts come when it’s time to pick the next week. You can add on breakfast and lunch items too. Even like granola bars, oatmeal. And the price is about what I’d spend at the store. So it’ll come in and I’ll be able to fix these quickly with the ingredients and recipes already gathered.

I am excited to try it. My friend says it’s worked well for them. They spend less because instead of having to buy a whole thing of bread for example or buns – you pay for just the ingredients you need and a whole bag of buns or the cost of it doesn’t go to waste if you don’t have time to eat them. That makes sense. I will let you know how it goes.

We also began looking at pet finding apps and websites. I’m not sure we will qualify as some of them are very self righteous as George calls it about their pets. Did we forget a year to do the rabies shot? Do we have a fenced in yard? Did we faithfully do heart worm meds? Do we work and out of the home a lot? George said not to get my hopes up. I already wasn’t. I know God will allow us to have the dogs(s) – yes two of them – when the time is right and the dogs are right. He does that and I’m praying every day so I will not fret over it. I’ll patiently wait. But it was this dog that got me started. When I started. Then George got started. He’s inquired about a set of dogs that are bonded. But this one is the one that got me started as I inquired about her. But I’ve yet to go in and finish the sign up as it required an application before they will talk to you. I needed to get references. So I’ve got permission from non-relatives mainly friends and neighbors (required not to be a relative) to give their address and phone so we can try to get a dog. I was not going to blindly do that w/o their permission. It seemed wrong. So I’ve not finished signing up on line (no time). But the reference information has been obtained at least through some phone work. Monkey gets extremely car sick but I’ve inquired. No response. Other than an email to do the next step by completing an application. (Insert eye roll here). So we will “play their game” for a while and try to find dogs their way, if not we will try something else – visit shelters and find a more personable way of doing business that works for us. But hey – at least we are getting started! George said he could go a while without a dog but when he retires he’ll want one. But he is also good with getting one now. I’m ready now. But letting God decide. If not us, I hope Monkey finds a perfect home for her. And I appreciate her getting us started so she deserves special mention. That sweet face. I want a dog with a sweet face. I love you Monkey. For getting us going. ;-). I wish you could be mine.

I’m sorry my blog is all over the place. My head is all over the place as usual. I have more to say but I’ll wait til tomorrow I suppose. Tomorrow I’ll say what all the week next week will bring.

Today we are going on an excursion and seeing friends and eating out and doing a bit of shopping in between, and another wine tasting. I’m not getting many groceries due to the Hello Fresh. But we do need a few things. I like to see what Whole Foods has. But we need some condiments and basic things – like coffee, peanut butter, snack items, and such.

Ahhhhhh. I have so many things I want to do this weekend but we are gone today and half of tomorrow. It’s ok. We are having to force ourselves out and have fun. Although we may discuss maybe doing it once a month instead of three. lol. I can’t keep up with ourselves. LOL LOL. My blog can’t keep up with our adventures either now. LOL LOL So…More tomorrow.

Sunshine in My Soul

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Two nights ago as I lay in bed in prayer and conversation with the Lord having heaviness in my heart and depression in my soul. He promised me I would awake a new person Sunday morning and would be filled with joy, beauty, and enjoy living again. He promised there would be sunshine in my soul again. Sunday seemed to be a transition day when I awoke. A day of acknowledging, purging, letting go, forgetting, and cleansing. And today when I woke up the image of a sun brighter than this sunflower was in my head as clear as if it were shining right in front of my face. Try as I may to remember the woes of the previous weeks, I cannot recall them. He is pushing the dark clouds away from my mind and filling me with sunshine.

Yesterday, I blogged my heart out. I wrote all that I was feeling and it included a lot of information about who I am, and about things that happened in the past that haunt my soul at times. I actually erased all the examples as it was too raw to see in writing. My intention was not to hurt anyone but purge with the support of my friends here. Facts are facts and sometimes we have to face them, whether we write them or read them. It’s not easy for either side. But I have stared at the facts face on and I’m no longer afraid to face them. I’m not running from them anymore. I’m not going to be afraid to have difficult conversations if they need to be had or faced by anyone else. I’m not afraid to protect myself and my psyche. I’m not afraid to be me. And I am worthy of being regardless of what anyone else says or thinks of me. A new conversational motto is going to be in effect immediately and it is: “if you want to go down this road, then let’s go there with gusto and let’s talk about this”. Others might should be very afraid to have that conversation with me. But I am to the point now where I will say what I want and need to say – fact filled. If the truth makes one feel bad, well that’s just tough love.

God has also followed up the sunshine graphic he placed in my head this morning with the scripture of the fruit of the Spirit. I guess He is letting me know He is here and in charge! 😉 He is our Protector and our Safe Tower and we can run to Him. And we can consider it JOY in times of trouble, and in trials, because He will refine us like silver.

We can wallow in the mud and the muck and throw arrows and allow thorns and place thorns or we can allow the sunshine to fill our hearts and rise above it and walk the road of life again. I’m choosing the latter.

Yes it helped to have the first day at home all day in 14 days of being gone all day. Much was accomplished that we were not able or had the mind to do in the evenings. George worked in the yard and did our taxes.

I did my Joy devotional, blogged, fixed a smoothie, changed my sheets, vacuumed, finished the laundry, ironed, restocked my work bag (food items/drink items), refilled my vitamin bins, mopped the kitchen floor, gave George a hair cut, updated the Mac software, deleted some Mac files, started the next video, watched a couple of YouTuber shows, and broke down the bed in my office to go downstairs. It felt good to get some things done and to actually have a day at home.

So this week is a busy one. I have a doc appointment myself at 5:20 today. I’m glad my doctor does some days early and some days late. He tries to work in before and after work hours during the week on various days. This is mainly to get BP meds refilled.

Tomorrow we are going to a Predator’s game!

Wednesday we have a customer appreciation event to go to – if we are still going. It’s up in the air.

Thursday night I’m getting my nails done.

Friday we will enjoy being home for a night!

Saturday is our home day to get things done. I will be working on the sunroom and opening it up for the warm days of spring and early summer. I will get the Easter decor out as we are planning an Easter dinner here. I have some Amazon orders to do and also will be cooking some as George does projects outside. I tried to cook a bit more in the summer. So I’m getting some recipes together and will need to get ingredients on the grocery list and planned out. Will get all the weekend reboot things done.

Sunday will be church day and any Mom errands. And hoping to get back early afternoon for video editing, but at least I’m set up with the next video and can work on that some during the week too.

As for Mom, We still need to go to ATT. So we can try to do that after church next Sunday if she wants to go. I will also be trying to find her a patio table and chairs. She gave me hers that she was getting rid of in my twenties and she wants one like it. I just can’t give it back as we like to eat on it in the sun room. But she had told me she wants one just like it. I figured she wanted that one back but didn’t want to ask for it. I have had it 25 years and can’t part with it, lol. Need to try and find a cabinet she wants for the laundry room.

So I’m going to get ready and go in. It’s month end again and quarter end. I was off half of Friday so I’ll have some payroll items to attend to today on top of my normal Monday items and then I’ll have to leave in a rush at day’s end to get to my doc appt and won’t be able to stay late to work on ME/QE. Tomorrow is payroll day and Pred’s game. I predict the week will go by fast! As we are busier than normal on all fronts. April will soon be here. I will also be working on our summer bucket list which I intend to start May 1, most likely. I’m surprised but we’ve done a lot on our bucket list for Winter into Spring.

Over and out and it might be Wed or Thurs or even the weekend before I’m back. I am feeling the urge to take a little break from blogging. While it has been very cathartic, it’s time to rest for a bit but I won’t be gone long. Matter of fact usually when I say that I’m back as quick as I left, lol. We’ll see. Have a great week in case I’m not back til the weekend. Be safe and take care of yourself. Til then my friends.