A Few Unexpected Events Throws Me For a Loop

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I’m a little tired. A little down. Ok, mostly I am just working in a perpetual state of exhaustion and maybe burnout too. I’m hanging in there. But I’m not ok. Ok. I’m ok. Well geez. I’m not sure if I’m ok. But I’m trying at least.

At least I can do laundry today and we are home all day, although we are prepping for Life Group coming tomorrow. Here’s this week’s highlights for those of you that prefer blog style and/or come here for more up to date events. Not in any particular order of importance.

1. Training going well with my replacement. For the most part I think she’s got it. We get through things quickly. I think I am more slow and methodical. I think she is a lot faster than me. Most people are. That is why I identify my spirit animal as a sloth. I am slow, methodical and take my time with most things. I think both ways have their pros and cons. I have check points in place for my own work that slows me down and I think that is a good thing. I have been coaching to that effect also. It saves lots of time later, not having to correct your work.
2. Mom’s meal planning efforts to deliver her home cooked meals since Meals on Wheels has not come through, was a bust so far. Mostly just a waste of my time and her money, I think. She now wants to cancel. George and I had predicted this. I accidentally ordered meal kits (to prep and cook) for her the first week which was my fault. I thought I was in the section of pre-made meals. I nearly pulled my hair out trying to fix the situation and explain how each recipe worked. The pre-made meals came this past week though. She liked them but decided it wasn’t worth the extra expense.
3. We have been trying to prepare for the life group this week and get a count for how many to cook for, for a sit down place setting meal. I’ve been a little – ok a lot – frustrated about it. George said not to worry about getting an exact account that he’ll just cook for 12 and whatever happens, happens. That is all I will say about this. I’m not sure I want to continue with the life groups in the future. I don’t feel like it’s going like it should. And I don’t think our group is meshing. And the communication (or lack thereof) just frustrates me in so many ways that I don’t want to write here. I’ll just keep my feelings to myself for now.
4. YouTube. Oh gosh. I have had to be stagnant for so long with no time to think, plan, or be creative with content. It’s just shoot and go. And then try to edit to make some sense of our life for those viewing. We have been horribly busy and along with that I’ve been trying to keep on track with the holiday schedule from October through December so that things happen on time without me getting sick or stressed. I always get sick by Christmas. Always. But so much is going on that all that gets filmed is me stressing over the to do list and our schedule, it seems. And I’ve lost some subscribers. I keep saying that is “ok” though because it’s life on YouTube. People come and go. I’m not a young chick. Not beautiful. I’m just a raw 60 something videoing our un-eventful life, where things go amuck and the world ends only if the washing machine quits or the dog is sick. But I’m trying to hold on til retirement where I can do some more strategic videos. It still makes me feel bad because I just don’t have time to focus on the channel much right now. I’m just lucky to get ANYthing up. So I’m telling myself not to worry about it.
5. Other stuff. I got my nails done with Mom and we went out to eat on Thursday. We went out with friends last night at Hermitage Steak house.
6. I’m tired and needing some down time so desperately.

I guess I’ll stop typing at this point. I have a lot to do today with company coming tomorrow. I think we are well enough along for Christmas that we can stay home next Saturday. It’s been about a month since I’ve had a Saturday where we didn’t go anywhere. I still have laundry to do today and clean up for tomorrow. After tomorrow’s event I can just focus on November and these final weeks of work and what we need to do to get ready for Texas and Christmas wrap. It’s all going to happen so fast. That is the problem. Life goes faster than I want it to. I can’t keep up with it all while working FT, taking care of Mom, doing church, WBS, and the videos. Just about 8 more weeks or so. Mom has LOTS of doc appointments and tests coming up too. It’s a crazy life.

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