Got up a little early on this Tuesday morning 3:45 a.m. and now I have a little time to myself and able to do a blog entry. It seems the only way to get quality time to my self is just to keep getting up earlier and earlier to make room for me. That may sound selfish but if you don’t give yourself what you need, you are not good for anyone.
I’m doing a new challenge this week. I’ll not tell anyone what it is so no one can judge, sabotage, tease, or poke. I just simply need to do some things for myself without anyone knowing my business. It’s not about food, water, weight loss, nutrition, but it is about protecting myself, my thoughts, and my needs so that I can be in a good place for those around me. It is a secret but that said there are hints at times within this entry.
I also need your prayers in a very big way. A very dear family member is having some testing done as they are not feeling well. The doctor has laid out possibilities ranging from not so serious to serious. And of course it’s very scary waiting to see what is wrong. I have chosen not to post who at this point out of privacy for them, but really need your prayers for healing for this person and for a not serious and very treatable situation.
I sometimes want to be mad at God for letting things happen to good people. But I realize that no matter how much this world or the enemy tries to destroy, HE IS IN CONTROL. I think this year HE has shown me that none of us is in control. We have to let go of our fear and LET GOD. Because there is not much we can do.
We can give and give and work and work and think that at the end of the day we can look back on our hard work, and often we do, but at the end of the day you are given so much more to deal with for the next one. Ten more things exploding on our to do list, another person heavy in grief, another needing great healing, and all in a period of time that is supposed to be filled with contentment, joy, peace, and love.
Only in sleep, when it comes, can we seem to be exempted from the frustrations and must haves and messes and the continual arrows that are thrown at our days.
Lord give me strength to be there for those that need me, to face things I have to face, to do things I need to do, and if there is anyway to please make it easier, do that!
So as of today here is what is on our plate:
~So yes, waiting on the further testing to come back.
~Mom’s company arrives this weekend. Bed is not ready. Bath is not ready. I have to go shop and get a list of things Mom needs. When? I D K maybe after work one night?
~Dishwasher repair man comes today. Went to get Mom last night and she spent the night (in the chair at her request) and was kind enough to be here to let him in today and we’ll take her back home today.
~Still have some Christmas shopping to do. Hoping to work that in after work as well. I haven’t even had time to plan.
~Office move happening and all has to be packed up by end of day Thursday. Not sure what is supposed to happen Friday. I could use the day off if it comes to that. My life is obviously such turmoil and I need to be three people. We will know more today.
~I get stressed normally this time of year, but this year is a triple whammy.
That said, let’s take a deep breath. Let God send some kind of magical energy that will swoop down, embrace us, and give us strength and perhaps even a magic wand. Here’s some pretty pics from the trip on the drive.
I covet your prayers. I know EVERYONE is busy. I’m not the only one. But when a family member I’m close to is not feeling well, it just breaks my heart into. Lord heal like only you can do, all that is wrong. Right it. Right it all. OK off to do payroll on my early day.