Fun with Family, and a Few Household Frustrations

We had a great week this week having family in town and it was much needed few days off. We still managed to get a couple of really good work days in the house. And Katy and the kids got to go see Mom.

I was exhausted when the week began and over the last few days have been able to catch up on some rest even though we were crazy busy. I’m behind on so much though.

I have a lot to do here in the house that has been ignored and also there are several phone calls I need to make as I’m still trying to iron some cancellations out on Mom’s end (AT&T not cancelled even though we cancelled it, SSA appt needs to be made for address change, and need to set up her expanded Xfinity cable) and make sure my health/dental insurance is going through (our broker is not very attentive, I’ve discovered, so we have to stay on top of it) and Maddie needs a vet appt.

The housework here at the house is beyond needing a good cleaning but I keep moving it forward because of all the things we are doing for Mom to get this house cleaned out and/or ready for the estate sale.

Also trying to work in a shelf that Katy and Cody were needing to get rid of from their storage here at his grandma’s. They were going to take it to Good Will but I asked if I could have it. It used to be here in the house for a few years after Katy graduated from college. And before that it was in her dorm room. But it fits in the sun room perfectly. Katy said “you could have had it all this time (10 years) as it was sitting in storage”. Oh well. I also have a few things of Mom’s to work in. Like her silverware. I like hers better than mine but I’ve not had time to make the switcheroo, lol.

Of heavy concern is that some structural things are happening with our house here. The gutter situation has been bad for years but George has not been willing to spend the money for it. It’s on the very long “we’ll fix it later list”. We’d have to get it out of investments, but it needs to be done because it’s already impacting the ceiling in my bathroom with leaks. I can’t imagine it being the roof as the roof is fairly new but I believe it to be back up from where the gutters are not properly guiding the water, and/or backed up gutters from leaves not cleaned out.

The gutters are horrible, my bathroom ceiling is leaking, the basement ceiling needs to be fixed again (we had it fixed and the plumbing leaked again within a year after and they had to cut the ceiling again to get to the plumbing). Our bathrooms and kitchen are old and way outdated and becoming dysfunctional in areas. We already cannot use one of the bathrooms because of a problem in there which I’m still unsure what the problem is but it likely has to do with plumbing. And part of the front porch is hanging crooked on one side? What? It looks awful. The ceiling fans and lights are not working properly in the den and in the sunroom but we keep putting off electrical work. This project has been on the list for about 10 years. I’ve kindof given up. By the time it gets fixed we’ll be downsized or moved.

I’ve decided I’m not worthy of having a newly remodeled kitchen or bathrooms or anything quite honestly to be fixed. I don’t know why George doesn’t like to fix things. We have the money. But it’s in investments. And I’ve wanted to take a trip for a loooooooooong time since we’ve been retired OTHER than Texas. But we’ll wait til one of us is sick or dying and we can’t enjoy it.

Anyway, I’m beginning to get disgusted with my situation here. I mean really. Home used to be the refuge but now it’s becoming a source of anger and frustration because everywhere you look there is something that needs to be fixed. Now the ice maker is broken. BOTH garage doors are broken and you can’t easily get in and out of the garage. The list is starting to get really personal.

I’m overwhelmed and honestly ready to move out. You think I’m kidding? I’m not. I am very disappointed in how things are going here at the house. And I am about to blow a gasket because I live here too! I should have a strong say. And this is NOT how I want to live. I don’t want to have a blow out with the spouse, but there will be a plan put in place soon or there will be trouble between us in a very big way. I’m about 10 min past the limit of what is acceptable.

I’ve prayed over it and I hope that George decides to relax a bit with the finances and have some faith and let it be fixed because now the list is overwhelming. And even the things we got done 5 years ago are starting to fall apart (flooring). I mean if we can’t be responsible homeowners, then do we need to live in an apartment? Gosh I hope not but my goodness, we are needing some repairs big time and the list just keeps growing. And the ice maker and garage door-now that’s just personal.

And it’s a shame because if we can’t afford to keep up the house then maybe don’t need this house. I really don’t want to wait til we sell the house to make the repairs because it will be like the old house in Gallatin, we’ll pay for repairs but won’t get to see the benefit from it- the new owners will. This makes me mad.

I may just have to override some of his decisions, which I don’t want to do, but somebody gotta do SOMETHING! This is getting really old. And some decisions need to be made, if not on his part, then by me, because I’m over it. I don’t want trouble, but I have a standard for how I like to live and this is not it. I need to see a plan and some action. Or there will be some trouble in the house. And it won’t be the repairs at that point.

River (my grandson) took a pic of me while cleaning out Mom’s dresser. I thought it was funny. He also learned how to take a video too but I forgot to tell him he needed to let it run for a bit, so the video was really really short, lol.

Well I felt I needed to do a pop in and I wanted to give an update. I’m making progress through Mom’s house. I finished with the clothes this week and now I need to finish her dresser drawers and the utility room and then go through the garage and open all the boxes and see what is in each one and get out memorabilia. I am going to have to sort it out and memorabilia comes home with me – and my sister and I can go through it later. And I will pull out things for the estate sell. I’m putting a box of holiday decor out for Mom to use at assisted living outside of her door. I’ll keep that box at my house and then can take her what she needs for each holiday. I’ll have to decide what will work.

Katy and Cody and the kids are on their way back home. The time goes by fast. I’m sad to see them go. But I guess it’s time for us to get back into the villa house and make more progress there.

We need to buy groceries. We have hardly any fresh veggies, yogurt, etc.

I just feel like my life is falling apart on all fronts and it’s making me very upset. But I’ve asked God to help us with our own house and with everything else. I have to trust Him that things will get taken care of, before I try to take matter into my own hands. It won’t go well if I do. George likes to be in control of the finances and expenses. It usually does not go well if I question anything or try to be involved. He gets irritated with me very quickly if I even question things.

We do a lot of giving and do a lot of things for the Lord, so I just hope He will take care of our needs too, because they are starting to overwhelm me now. I don’t do well when I’m overwhelmed. At least it’s not this bad as the pic below, but we are on our way, if this keeps up, lol. I feel like crying or screaming but that’s what other members of our family would do, and I don’t want to be like them so I will just keep praying that the Lord will provide for our needs too. Til then I kinda just want to be somewhere else but here. It’s really embarrassing to me honestly at how things are going (or not going, lol). I don’t even want to have people over anymore. I used to think the pop corn ceilings were ugly but now the ceilings are not just popcorn but have leaks and holes in them. I wish things could get better instead of always getting worse. Is that too much to ask? Apparently so. I just need to get away I guess, but who am I kidding? That would be asking way too much as well.

And with that, I’ll close and get to the list of many things I need to do over at Mom’s, get the grocery shopping done, the phone calls made, and so forth.

Video goes live tomorrow. See you then.