Another Week of Worry and Current Updates

Here is this Saturday’s vlog. You can watch it HERE. This one is probably best titled “A Week of Waiting” but I might have worried a little bit. I try to put my anxiousness into a prayer and there was plenty of that this time.

Work Updates

Everything is going OK as far as I know. I am detaching myself from work and from owning my position. Keeping my eye on the prize…retirement. It only took a day to sortof feel the detachment begin and to get used to that. The video focus and YouTube going viral helped. Suddenly I had a team of 70,000 people coming along for the ride. Many of them cheering me along and telling their own stories. I’ve tried to respond to each one. There was only one comment that I deleted. I was happy to see that I was able to do that. Opinions are acceptable, ugliness and rudeness is another and not allowed on my channel. So glad to see I CAN control that.

The day after my notice I already felt like I was “on the other side” and “feeling left out” –which is always natural and part of the process. No one did anything wrong. Closed doors in front of my face have been the norm where my position (and probably me) are being discussed. I’m used to it now and it no longer stings not being part of the ____ fill in the blank (in the know group, on the team, part of the system, the crowd). And that is ok. After all – that’s what we are shooting for – a retirement from all that. Right?

Supposedly they had an interview Friday after I left to go take Mom to the doctor. I have all my PTO’s but one planned. I figured I should save one for an emergency date. I will get it paid out if not taken. I guess I should start taking things home little by little. This week I took home my brief case, a little turtle and a stress ball and my Isagenix blender. I still have 18 weeks I think so…too early to take too much home. I’ve decided I’ll leave the fridge there for the next person. We don’t need it and won’t use it and I’m not even asking for $ for it. But I just have to take a little something home every week so I’m not having a complete move out on the last day. There’s a black book shelf I bought that I am looking forward to having at home. Along with a black chalkboard. And my wall decor which is pretty minimal. I have a floor lamp and desk lamp, a heater and a fan. Anyway, I think I need for the new person to see how it was set up so she or he can see what they may want to purchase for themselves.

Mom

Took her to the eye doctor yesterday. We had some issues and I don’t want to go into it out of respect for her, but it was a hard day for her, let’s just say that. We had to take an urgent trip back to her house before we could head out to eat. She is feeling like she is afraid to go out much anymore. She was also very winded moving around. But we ate a Demo’s and had a very good meal. I was extremely tired by days end as the day went something like this:

• Up at 5:00 a.m. and was already tired when getting up.
• At my desk in Antioch TN by 7:30 ish
• Left work by 12:30 to pick Mom
• Arrive at Mom’s by 1:30 in Lebanon, TN
• Off to the Eye doc in Hendersonville, TN by 2:20
• Back to Mom’s house in Lebanon (traffic horrible everywhere, sitting thru traffic lights twice)
• Out to Demo’s in Lebanon around 4:30 I think.
• Back to Mom’s to drop her off around 5:30 or so.
• Back home I think around 6 or 6:30. I kinda lost track of time.

All I could do was veg out on the couch. My mind and body was exhausted. Bed felt good and I slept hard. So hard my hips hurt this morning!

This Weekend

We are going out with friends today. Much needed. I want to see them so badly and look in their faces and enjoy time with them. Have blocked off most the to do list except for laundry, paying Mom’s bills, and taking meds, lol. Tomorrow is church, Mom’s groceries, life group etc.

Not much of a chance to get anything done here this weekend so it’s all moved to next weekend. I’ve taken the last 3 weeks off of filming because I had so much footage built up but no worries -you all won’t miss a beat. I’m doing a one for all of anything important that happened these last 3 weeks, otherwise just boring stuff and I’ll hopefully keep you from that. I’ll be titling that video “End of Summer” or something like that. On the flip side, have a shopping video coming up next – “Retail therapy” and in Sept some very fall like things staged to bring you. Starting to plan a little more on the footage and filming.

Also will be sining up for a YouTube Partner this week. They sent me an email asking me to join. Hoping to do that this morning if I can work it in. I’m now eligible thanks to meeting the 1,000 subscriber mark this week and that goal is doubled as it is 2,000 or 2300 now – something like that. Wow. That’s just really special and I’m so happy. It’s like God gave me a golden carrot to take my mind off the “end” of work and all that goes with all those feelings. And those feelings surprised me a bit too as it is like leaving a house you have lived in for 47 years.

Ok guys, a fun weekend here, and then a short week next week – a 4 day week for me. I’m taking a day to myself to reboot a bit. That is how I’m managing to get through the weekend. lol

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Happy Weekend everyone.