A Momentary Mind Dump

Hey, it’s me! Just a little frustrated at the moment. That’s NOT me by the way in the pic – just one from Canva. I’m having a little bit of a frustration thing going on. It kinda started Sunday. I just didn’t get enough of my Saturday I think. I ran out of time. And the realization set in that it will be 3 weeks before I can get another Saturday at home. I’ll have portion of days, but if 1 day a weekend is not enough then a portion of it is certainly not going to work.

I have plans for the next TWO Saturdays. This Saturday I have slated as the day to take Mom to get flowers and go to iHop and the Dollar Tree. I probably should have made it on a Sunday, so that is on me. Then the following Saturday is us girls from high school are getting together in Franklin, TN. Of course I want to see them. It’ll be fun both Saturdays but it makes it really hard on me to get things done.

I was thinking of taking a PTO day, but it’s quarter end and I need to make sure I get my job done on time. I don’t want anything being my fault because it was late. So I have to push through.

I’m trying to be patient and just let it roll off. But I’m kinda in “grief mode” over it. That is just the best way to describe it. It’s the closest word to the feeling I have. I know it’s silly but it just mentally and physically throws me for a loop when I can’t get a day “off” to get things done. Yes I’m off of work for two days but one day is usually church/Mom day. So when I say I need an off day, I need a day to do things here at the house and do things that I want to do. A RESET day, if you will.

Just so many things have happened in the last month. I’ve been patient through all of it but it all has been taxing and some of it has been fun and exciting. There’s appendicitis thing, the new grandson and our trip, getting ready for and catching up after it, the new car, the car swap drama, and quarter end.

I need rest. I didn’t get good sleep last night. I am not on my game. I’m losing my stamina. I feel like I’m losing the battle at being able to stay on top of things. The smallest things will set me on edge. I couldn’t find my phone this morning and nearly had a meltdown. It was in the bed, covered by a blanket behind Maddie. I guess the volume was low so when we called it we could barely hear it. I knew it was in the house, but I was trying to get ready and get out the door.

The TO DO LIST just keeps getting rolled over and rolled over and there’s such a list now. It’s just all so incredibly frustrating.

I will get over it. I just prioritize. By the time I actually retire, it will take me about 3 years to get everything caught up and done, LOL, that I keep rolling over.

I have to remember I’ve made good progress. I have to remember that I actually DO have a lot on my plate and a lot going. I really should be proud of myself I suppose.

But I’m tired instead. I’m doing a mind dump on how I feel. So there ya go. I’ll just keep prioritizing and work around it. And keep praying.

At least I got this blog entry done. I would have combusted if I didn’t park my feelings here.

Ok I think dinner will be soon and I need to do a video edit.

Hopefully sweet sleep will come tonight. Then it’s supposed to storm tonight overnight I think so probably not, lol.

I’ll be ok. I’m just feeling a bit stretched. George is sick with some kind of awful sinus infection with a fever. Now I’m getting a headache. I don’t usually get headaches. Oh dear.

How ya’ll doing?