Moving into the NEW YEAR and an Honest Look at January so far

It’s been a tough week, coming off of being sick, trying to get a good head start on month end, quarter end, and year end at work. All the while feeling the tugging strings of my goals in the back ground, always seeking for a slot of time to fit them into. Some things never change. A New Year still has the same amount of hours in it as the old. Yet we imagine somehow it will be different. You can watch today’s video HERE.

I am not at the level of energy I’d hope to have, having had this flu like thing that leaves me tired by 2 pm and ready for bed, yet I’ve managed to get second, third, and fourth winds throughout the day until bed time.

All that said, blogging never made it to the forefront. To be honest, I’ve not even felt like vlogging, but what I did get done you will see here. I don’t have the energy, desire, or motivation to do much right now. Well, let me rephrase. I have a lot of motivation, but just not the physical or mental capacity to push through much. So lucky for me, embracing the sloth as a spirit animal, it’s ok to go at my own pace.

That said, I’d still like to get my “goals video done and aired in January” lol and not June. lol. So my ONE BIG goal today is to get that done, otherwise it won’t happen til next Saturday to be filmed and then won’t go up until sometime after that. 

But all is well. Other than a few frustrations, I’m fairly content. 

We have out of town company coming this weekend (my SIL and BIL) that we will eat with tonight at an Italian place and then, much to my displeasure, I had to cancel plans with them tomorrow so I can take care of Mom. She only has me now – as her family visitors have left to go home, and of course there is no one else in the family that is willing to help so it’s on me. So I cancelled and bowed out Sunday to get Mom to church, out of the house, and we’ll get groceries, get her mail, and try to put up her Christmas tree before she loses any more brain cells worrying over it and worrying us over it. I’ve heard “I’ve got a tree that needs to be put up” every day since Christmas. I basically just told her last night, “Mom this is surely something you can have a little patience over – we’ll get to it”. I realize she has no concept of how busy my life is since she rarely worked FT for much of any time frame.  I may do like some people I know at work – the more you ask, the longer I’m going to take. No that would be mean. I won’t do that. But not feeling my best, I have no problem letting someone now that I myself am running out of patience with people that do not have patience. If it’s that much of an issue let’s just not put up a tree next year. 

So I invited our company to join us Sunday but she is wanting a quiet day of knitting so she will stay at the house (I think, at least we’ve offered) while George goes to the Titan’s game with my BIL. The dogs will be happy to have company and I hope that my SIL doesn’t mind a chihuahua in her lap. I usually end up getting home about 3 and 4 on these Sunday outings so I’m not sure if I’ll get to see them on Sunday at all. I feel bad but felt worse not getting Mom’s things taken care of as she has not been out of the house in two weeks and needs more groceries. Once I get her mail tomorrow I will come home and pay her bills and try to do her financial recap for Dec and get ready for the work week.

I also got her nails appt made. We do that after work Monday night and then we’ll go out for my birthday dinner hitting two birds with one stone. I hate that phrase but you know what I mean. And then Thursday is her hair cut appt after work. So Mom gets three days of my week this week which severely cuts into my week.  But she hasn’t seen much of me in the past two weeks so I guess it’s due. At least she has been patient with that. 

Other January Mom goals include: getting her a cleaning person and seeing if she will be interested in Meals on Wheels and checking into that. Her desires and needs are usually far greater than my time allows but I do my best to juggle and I realize that I only have one more year to deal with this intense schedule. 

I refuse to give up vlogging and blogging as they are such outlets for me and are icons for me that I actually have a life of my own – ever so small. To give that up would seem like totally giving up me, so I stand firm with that. It’s also my outlet and my badge of honor so to speak at what I’m doing with my time! Even if it makes my life difficult, I will still push to do these things because I am doing it for me to show myself that I am actually here on this earth and exist as a human being and not just a robot. lol

So here’s the video for this week. You can watch it here. I’ll try to be back with a few updates at some point – even if just photos and a couple of sentences. It’s just going to be a crazy week with so much going on. I’ll just be rolling from one responsibility and outing to the next.

Hope your New Year is going great. I think January is always such a let down sometimes. We have grand hopes for new beginnings but in reality it’s gloomy, cold, we are all sickly, still worn out from the holidays, and yet we have new demands and expectations in life weighing at us. So for now. I’m mostly going to go hug a sloth and do things as I can. Even if it means others may have to have a little patience. I’m only one person with a lot on her plate. Surely I can do this one more year, or will the year just do me in? Remains to be seen. Ok here’s the Christmas Aftermath Video and Moving into the new Year! Enjoy.