School Traffic Isn’t Pretty
It’s mid-week of the first week of August. Schools are starting back and if not, the teachers are. The light summer traffic is no more. I am wondering if I can stand it. It really doesn’t matter if I leave at 3, 4 or 5. It’s awful any direction. Monday it took me an hour and a half to get home, instead of 45 to 50 minutes but there was a main road closure and pandemonium ensued on the road I was on. It’s also been “tax free” days and the road here is also on the way to Providence Shopping area.
Quarter End
It’s “over the hump day” today. Did I finish quarter end? Of course not. Being given a week and half’s worth of quarter end work information with less than 3 days to do it in and I had to be off one of them to take Mom to the doctor. So no! So I have a big Oregon return left but I had to stop and do payroll. I started it but as 5:00 approached I left, because I’m not staying in the building by myself and I also don’t work over just because I didn’t receive info in time. I’m sure those providing the info didn’t work over to provide it either. It is what it is and I do the best I can. I can only usually get quarter end work done by working over an hour a day to do it because it doesn’t fit into my regular job unless it’s an easier work load that week.
Final Cut Pro and Green Screen
I’m so proud of myself. I took 15 minutes from editing and learned how to do the “green screen” effect where you have numbers fly across a screen. I’ve seen others do this. It’s a pretty popular thing to do with YouTubers. It’ll be coming up in the next video – look for it. It’s a cool effect. I’m so happy to learn something new.
In Final Cut Pro you put the above math clip over a video clip you want it to appear in (Final Cut allows you to stack or layer video on top of video) and then add the “green screen effect” over your video clip and it “hides the green” or “filters the green” from the math clip. It allows the numbers to float across the screen.
I’m almost finished with the next video. I only have about 10 min left in editing and can review it an upload it. I was interrupted last night and otherwise would have been finished. But I’m close enough. So I should get done tonight. I’ll try to get the thumbnail done tonight too but if not, I’ll do it tomorrow night.
How Did God Know?
Well of course God knows, because He knows everything! And He provides us with what what we need, when we need it for those who are His. I am so happy for my recent research and therapy on Narcissism and self-parenting as it really has helped me as I deal with others that appear to be on the narcissistic spectrum. And I am so happy about this verse.
No you cannot win an argument with a narcissist and anything you say or do can and will be used against you. I think I’ve had nearly every thing pulled out of the book on me with this one person. It’s the same old song and dance. I’ve come to accept what it is and how to deal with it. It’s no longer as painful and hurtful as it used to be. It’s just aggravating. The question is what boundaries do you set and at what point do you just excuse yourself entirely from the situation?
Last night I considered that I am about “three more arguments away” from totally removing myself from a particular situation. However, I’m bathing it in prayer and turning to God and letting Him deal with it. For now. But the end is getting close for me. At least I can hold my own now in a conversation and not run from it. Matter of fact I’m to the point of “Go ahead and tangle with me if you want. I have a lot I want you to hear from me as well.” Not that the information could actually be absorbed or embraced, but will be deflected. But it makes me feel better anyway. That way I say how I feel to the person and not my blog or others. Works for me but you have to listen to them rant on though – like a hyena in the dessert heat. (Is that a thing? I just made it up!)
Of course a Narcissist cannot listen to the truth. It’s too painful for them. They will recoil, hang up, run off, etc. So the conversation never lasts long as they have to remove themselves from the conversation when the truth comes back at them. God said the “truth will set you free”. It sure does. It’s a double edge sword. It does the trick.
The Narcissist plays victim, dances and sings the song of “woe is me” and “nothing is ever done for me”, and ________(fill in the blank). The Poet says, “Oh dear let me count the ways and give you a list of what all has been done for you”. The Bible says to love one another and be grateful for what we have. Society says “don’t bite the finger of the one who sees after you” and don’t “kick a gift horse in the mouth”. People want to shame you so you will do more, manipulate you to doing everything their way. The Narcissist does not like it when they know you are on to them. They never remember what all you do for them. Until you are gone.
The irony here is that “momma didn’t raise no fool”. 😉
Joined BJ’s
We have a BJ’s coming in the fall. George and I joined it. I set it up yesterday at a discount provided by my employer.
Other News
So the week is going by fast. I hope you all have a good rest of the week. I personally have not felt good this week, and I’ve not been in a good space, but I’m pulling through. I really think it’s spurred on by not having down time this past weekend. I usually require some downtime to reset me, reset the house, and get things done. I feel rushed and inadequately prepared when I don’t get that time.
I have been presented with some information on Adult Women High Functioning Autism. I’m doing some research with that. What I’m finding is kinda blowing me away. Are any of you familiar with that? I didn’t know it was a thing. Til now.
More later. Lord Willing, the Creeks don’t rise, and I don’t stroke out!
It makes my day when I hear from you…