Less Hustle More Coffee

Good morning! It’s Saturday here. Going to do a bit of shopping today and I am looking forward to it. I don’t really have a lot on my mind this morning except for shopping and Roger. I’m giving it a break. Live and let live. One can simply only do each day the best they can. But I know I’m thankful for the sleep from last night, even though it was broken with yelps and howling from Roger. And I know I’m thankful for the day before me.

Roger. He is in his last of days, I’m afraid. It’s just time. He is now in a miserable state. Being the beloved dog of George’s, he will have to make the final decision himself, and the final steps. I will not make this step for him. Both Mom and I know it’s time. It is just so hard to let go. He’s no longer enjoying life, is miserable, and now a hazard to himself. It’s no way to live.

Yesterday he shat in nearly every room and then laid in it and went to sleep. Mom was unable to deal with it, but did the best she could. He had gone under my bed, pooped, laid in it and slept. George had to move the bed, get him out, and deal with it the best he could. Somehow my phone charger got drug through all of this. I guess his legs got caught in it. The whole thing got drug through the poop. George said “uhhh just order another one”. I did and it will be here this morning before 8:00. They have 52 minutes. I was going to pay the $2.99 extra but since I ordered vitamins, it’ll get here by then for free – or we will at least see if it will. May already be on the porch but I don’t think so.

He has started howling and moaning off and on for two days, two nights. He’s not resting as much. We lose him and find him in weird places. He is wanting to hide. This morning I found him under the ironing board with the ironing board cord wrapped around his right front leg (iron was sitting on the ironing board). Had he moved, the iron would have come down on him. He seems to have a relationship with cords and bags. He gets all hung up in both. Yet he seems to seek them out.

He is having a hard time drinking his water. He can’t find it. He can find the bowl and go up to it but he can not find the water itself and drinks the air. Then he steps in it and knocks it over, or falls asleep with his ear in it. We are afraid he will drown.

So, keep us in your prayers. It’s a sad day already watching this. It’s almost agonizing to continue watching it. I’ve gently asked George if he was thinking it was time. He said “it’s crossed my mind”. I thought he might decide today, but he has not mentioned it again. So I will go on about my day then shopping. And we’ll see what the week brings. I hate that Mom has to be here all day to listen to the moaning/groaning. It has to be nerve wracking for her.

So to just lighten the load today I’m going to share some pics that I’ve taken in my room recently, just to make me smile. You have seen some of these before. I have tried to make this a good homey and relaxing space – my office and bedroom.

I did something weird while cooking dinner. I had Alexa play frog noises. I totally listened to frogs until after we cleaned up the kitchen dishes. It was relaxing and felt like we were away from the world, in a log cabin, by a stream. It was little touch of nature. Strange and weird but it was very relaxing! I needed it. I also sipped the last of the Coppola Red we had left over from Tuesday night. Did a bottle of wine last that long? Apparently so. That is how busy we have been.

After cleaning and scrubbing carpets in my bedroom (both George and I), I finally just moved my bed back into place. And slept. Only to be woken up a few times b/w 2 and 5 as I forgot to turn on my sound machine.

The coffee pot made an entire pot this morning without going all over the counter. I sat and watched it for 5 minutes or so to make sure. So many weird things keep happening.

All Mom’s flowers had no water in them. Same morning we got up to water all over the floor. Not sure. We thought it was Roger’s water bowl, but then where did the water go in the flowers? Did someone knock it over? Did the flowers soak it all up in one day? So I put more in it.

Somedays you wake up and go “huh? what happened overnight?” It’s like having an invisible elf on the shelf!

So I’m going to go start my day, shower and get on my way to shopping. I’m truly looking forward to it. We’ll see how it goes. Pray for our situation with Roger and George. George is going to need your prayers, if Roger’s behavior continues as is. George – and none of us – will want to continue watching him suffer. I’ll keep you posted.