Finding My Happy, Pushing thru to a Good Mood

As angry skies gathered, I took myself out to lunch yesterday. I allowed myself to have the salmon, although it was not as good as in the past as they didn’t use the same sauce and herbs. But I needed the fish for my psyche, the baked potato was for my soul, the salad with ranch dressing was my splurge and the iced tea for my energy. The staff was unmotivated, as was I as their customer, just exhausted from recent days and still a bit of anger lingering within my stirred up emotions.

Much as the day cleared after the storm, so did my thoughts and so did the issues. We secured the extra weekend in June to move, Mom signed off on the addendum to allow it, I ate a Reese’s cup mid afternoon with coffee, texted with my sister who agreed to try and sell some furniture for Mom as she’s had success listing on her FB page and also wanted Dad’s desk, and is going to get a couple of Dad’s fiddles.

I texted with a friend, and was face timed by Katy and River, and grabbed a white wine and watched “Sailing Project Atticus” on You Tube, and so happy that Desiree got her cute puppy dog to take onboard. Was fun watching them with the puppy.

And I ate an entire pint of Halo (270 calories) after our dinner last night as we watched two back to back Lillyhammer shows, the 2nd of which I snoozed through. Once it was over I quickly got in bed and snuggled next to my little “Snuglet” or “Snuggie”. The little thing has had several names. I call it whatever comes out.

I’m 58 and without a dog or human in my bed (due to hubby snores and an old Roger dog that can’t sleep and is needy all night- long story) – but I’m 58 and totally ok with having a “fake doggie” in my bed even if it is a sloth. I don’t know why, but it gives me great comfort to pretend I have a dog in bed with me. Yes, I’m 58 and sleep with a stuffed animal in the bed. My dogs have been so important and I miss them. So as I sleep, I just simply pretend it’s my dog. Somehow it works for sleep! I have a favorite “blankie” too, ha! It has a picture of Tugie on it (former poodle) and it radiates body heat back to you. It is the warmest thing. I keep it on the bed and if I get cold I use it.

So all that said “It took a village and lots of food, favorites, fun, and sleep” to get my happy mood back. But I’m a bit de-stressed, de-flated from my anxieties and anger, and feel happy this morning.

Knowing that today was Friday helps. I have managed to get caught up through the work week from being a HOLIDAY Monday by a couple of days of going in early. I already have in 2 extra hours of the four I will need to take Mom to the eye doc later this month. I don’t want to use PTO so I’m going to work earlier 4 days of the month to get the 4 hours worked so my work does not suffer and so the hours are reworked before I reclaim them back for the doc appt. I think that will work well and will be fair. I will be able to get my work done so it’s all good.

Facetiming with River. I look awful! And he looks blurry. But this was the best I could do in a screen shot.

The night before last George fixed us a comfort meal, breakfast for dinner. Forgive me if I already posted this. If so what harm does it do to post anything with bacon twice! But this was so good.

And texting was pretty funny. I dislike auto correct. I think it does more damage than good, lol.

So I wanted to pop in and say that everything is alright. We are all just tired and exhausted but we get about 2 weeks off from the move details and can concentrate on River and seeing our friends and having a little bit of fun in our lives again. It has been work, work, work nearly 24/7 except for sleep. Our stamina held for so long but it seemed to unravel the last few days with morale tanking on EVERYONE’s part. So having a break will help.

I might even get to clean and do SOMETHING in my house. It’s all gone to total disarray here. Things need a complete cleaning, house needs to be picked up, laundry needs doing again as it is already Friday. Trash cans need to be emptied, bathrooms need cleaning and so forth. It’s good that Katy and Cody are not staying here. It’s a mess!

I also have my follow up today at the Urgent Care place. The place on my back is not better by much but I think that the antibiotics are keeping it from getting further enflamed. I think it is trying to dry up and heal in spots but it’s just not there yet. It might be a little less sore, but yet it still is. So subtle difference in two days. I’m just wondering if this wasn’t a spider bite on top or next two a place that was already there. It seems like there’s two things going on. Anyway, I think the cellulitis part is not as bad. It no longer seems like blisters are around the edges.

This has been the weirdest year. lol. I think I liked 2020 better. It was at least easier! ha. No I don’t want to go back into a Pandemic state, but I am looking forward to not spending my every moment on the moving Mom project. Again, we love her and are glad to do it, in case my words are mistaken as people LOVE TO DO, but I mean I think we all agree that we are all exhausted trying to do this on the weekends. But we have had no choice as we can’t quit our jobs and don’t have enough vacation time to do it any other way. And didn’t want to pay $17,000 for a complete move job which would have been complicated as some things are going here and some in storage. And it all has to be done again in Oct/Nov. But…that move should be easier! It’s already packed! The unpacking will be fun! I love that part. I’m looking forward to helping Mom with all that.

Ok over and out. I have to deal with putting a dressing on my back. I figured out how to do it on my own without help. And we get to see River the next two days. We pick them up at the airport tomorrow. I am so excited! So prayers for their travel. They have to travel 2 to 3 hours to Dallas from Breckenridge and then pray that River is good on the plane. Their first time to fly with the baby. And I hope his ears do well on the landing. Babies can’t chew gum or pop their ears.

I’m so glad it’s a weekend! And a weekend of fun.

What you all doing this weekend?

9 responses to “Finding My Happy, Pushing thru to a Good Mood”

  1. Hi Sonya, I’m so so pleased that your …almost….back to your happy self again. I’m sure having today not toooo busy will help to and tonight you will have time to do a few bits in the house you feel needs done. Praying that Kate Cody and River will have a good journey home. Good idea if Kate could give Roo something to suck on when they are landing and taking off. I have heard/ seen other Mums do that and it seems to help. It must be horrid when you can’t explain to your baby what’s happening…..I am just back with Mary and our old neighbour from having morning tea,and toasted T Cake at a lovely farm tea room. We ate inside however the sun is out now and it’s getting lovely and warm. I’m going now to go sit outside for a while….Have a good nights sleep …Looking forward to hearing that all is well once your home from the airport….WHEN you have time !! God Bless

  2. Strain is on all. It will be over soon. It will take a week or so to adjust to living together as all are independent people. Things are settling down here a little. She is relaxing a little Still getting things done but more at her pace where she is not feeling as pushed. The pressure of getting it done, the loss of her home and the place where she lived the large part of her life with Wayne are heartbreaking to her. She is looking forward to her new home, which is a plus.

  3. I hope your back gets better. I wonder if they would drain it if you could get some relief.? Husband once had one he had to get drained then removed. It came back and the Dr. said he had to get the sac out. I had to be his nurse and change his bandages.
    Change is hard, I can’t imagine how your mom feels leaving her home. But know she will be much happier living closer to you and George. And her new place is going to be nice. She can decorate it how she wants with new colors.
    Hang in there. Nothing much going on here. It is a pretty day. I am enjoying this nice weather we are having.

      • It’s a beautiful day in my neighborhood. High 60’s and sunny. Air is clean. Windows are open. Breathe…ahhh
        I hope you can recover & get a 2nd wind from the back breaking move. I saw this coming. We moved from our 1st home after 30 years. It was something that I wouldn’t wish on anyone. The things & crap you accumulate are just beyond the imagination. My husband did get a few guys that worked for him to help load the Uhaul & then he did all the unloading on this end but didn’t have to rush. He’s a big strong guy but it was a lot for 1 macho man. lol
        I don’t think I’ve yet to recover but that’s another story. lolol
        I’m redoing my makeup. Out with old in with the new. I haven’t worn makeup in a couple of years but now that the masks are going away I decided to “pretty up”. It’s all about the eyes 😎
        And yes, it’s Friday!!!

      • I know and the Uhaul main move is yet to come and it is only 1 of 2 moves. But the next one all will already be packed. Enjoy your maskless makeup! 😎

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