Less Hustle More Coffee

Good morning! I thought I’d pop in and give a quick update on the diverticulitis situation and a few blessings from yesterday!

I drank mostly liquids all day including coffee, water, hydrate from the system I use, and bone broth infused with ginger and turmeric (it came that way). I sucked on a square piece of dark 70% chocolate. I had one cup of applesauce, and about a cup and a half of black cherry jello. Not a big cherry fan, but it sounded better than lemon or lime that was in the cabinet. The black cherry wasn’t too bad. It honestly felt like a “cleanse day”. My heart rate was really low overnight, like 55. Is that low? It is for me anyway. It did that on cleanse day too when I did those, in the overnight.

So am I better by giving my tummy a day’s rest? Yes and No.

I know there is not a total blockage so that is good. And a BIG GOOD! But I did have some pain in the night, particularly when changing positions. So there is an aggravated section of colon in there. But I am not sore this morning when I move and bend, no pressure building, and no discomfort this morning, and haven’t had pain since 3 a.m. That is not a long time though for the pain. But so far so good this morning. I think another day of letting it rest or at least by eating soft foods and mostly liquids again will be a good thing. I think I’ll be able to squeak past this one. Thank the LORD!

I certainly have prayed over it many times. I must say that I felt good yesterday while doing this liquid thing. I was thinking, this is NOT bad. I can do this. I’ve done this many Monday’s doing my system in the past. I kept myself busy, I was able to think clearly, and my body was saying “thank you for the break”. It wasn’t that hard yesterday. Some intermittent fasting days I did in the past had been very hard. Most of them were not, but it’s the hard ones that break you in many ways!

Does God Think I’m Bossing Him Around?

However, all in all, I think I will be better now. Maybe God knew what He was doing by allowing this flare up as it showed me again I can DO the fasting w/o having a sugar issue. At first I was mad at Him. I was trying not to be. It was more like disappointment that God didn’t answer a prayer and allowed me to have this attack. I had prayed and wanted weight loss but NOT at the expensive of being sick or with diverticulitis to get there. And I was wondering why He was forsaking me or turning His head from me in this request. Then I was thinking that maybe He thought I requested too much in my prayers and needed to show me He wasn’t going to just answer every little thing I asked for because I asked for it. Does God think I’m bossing Him around? Maybe I am trying to subconsciously but I don’t mean to, or do I? Oh dear!

Then I began analyzing if I was selfish in my prayers or too bothersome or did I expect too much for selfishness sake. Then I finally decided that my mind was tired of trying to figure God out in this situation. I certainly can’t always figure out myself, much less try and put tabs on God and why he would not answer my prayer. I gave up and told Him “Sorry God I’m really not trying to play mind games here. Really not. Sorry for questioning you. I’m trying to believe that you will answer my prayers as you always do like you said you would in scripture, so when you don’t I tend to question it? I really KNOW you are in charge “.

God is a man according to scripture (use of He pronouns anyway and He’s referred to as a Father). You see where I’m going with this? Men often think women are bossy, in my experience, sadly, and often they don’t want us to have our way so they can show us who is in charge. I hope your experience with men has been different. Not every man is like that but I know many of them. I hope God doesn’t think I’m bossy by my many requests. But has my belief become expectatory? Is that a word?

Women – we just have special talents is all! Just as the men folk do. We see things in a different way! We are skillful but we are also manipulative – oh let’s use the word creative- it sounds better. We usually don’t mean to use this craftiness in a bad way – it’s just an inherited God given skill. So just in case, I’m trying to be humble in my request and approach so I’m reverent and not demanding or expecting God to wait on me in my every whim. I wondered if I was trying to make God accountable by HIs Word. After all, He said…. If I believe, just ask…he’ll give.

Sometimes I just like to go to sleep and quit thinking, you know? LOL. As I laid there, I think I told God that I was just tired and I hoped He knew my heart. And I knew I thought too much, but wanted to be RIGHT with him and not demanding. I can tell he smiled upon my efforts. He gave me peace and let me sleep. And today is a new day.

He did give a few blessings from yesterday:

• I still felt great even though I couldn’t really eat much
• I still enjoyed the coffee and it was oh so good!
• The day went by fast
• It was a beautiful day with a beautiful sky
• I enjoyed conversations had with coworkers: about my grandson, about the Covid Shots, etc
• Our health insurance is changing for the better
• We got a new benefit – flex spending
• We met our new next door neighbors and hit it off straight away
• I got two Easter cards in the mail (Thank you Terre! And Lisa!)
• Got to talk to a bestie and got invited to her birthday party in June. Haven’t seen her in over a year!
• Finally made a decision on the Covid Shot (maybe a blog entry on that later)
• Enjoyed watching a couple of YouTube shows under a cozy quilt last night
• Watched Designated Survivor episode (our new Netflix show) with George
• Sleep was welcome and divine for most of the night

So as stated today is a new day. I’ve said my prayer (prayer journal) and read my two chapters. And it’s payroll day. I will keep on with the liquids until my body says eat. It will let me know.

Hope you all have a good day! Keep the prayers coming in case I get over analytical about my own! LOL. Thank God for his Grace and Mercy over one such as me!