Thursday’s True Colors

I’ve not had any Greek for a while now. I decided yesterday on a whim to use Uber Eats to order lunch. It’s a lot of food and typically I’m miserable after. But it’s so darn good. I decided to split it in half and eat half yesterday and the other half for lunch. That was a good portion. I enjoyed it so much. I don’t do Uber Eats very much, but on some days it’s really convenient. However, usually twice the price for delivery fees and tips.

I bought a couple of masks for George from my coworker. She has given me several free but I said I would buy some if she had masculine ones. She does such a good job and hers are so comfortable. The reason I’ve been gearing up on the masks (I have some ordered on Amazon) is that I get the feeling that mask requirement is going to become mandated. And sure enough our county it became mandated yesterday. And of course my masks have not arrived yet. I’m sure they are on a slow boat from China even though it says they are shipping from the US. Interesting when you look at the tracker it shows “shipped from CA”. However – normally you can see “scanned at this location” and then “scanned at that location” but there is no activity. So I am sure they are coming from some out of USA location and before it gets there it keeps just saying “Shipped from CA”. Once it arrives in CA from China or wherever, I guess it will start showing the scans. Does this not just get your gizzard? It says US seller. But I guess that is true. It’s still coming from overseas somewhere, lol. So that is pointless to say that. It needs to say US Manufacturer. I’ll be more specific next time I order. When I order Prime, I really want to get it in a couple of days as that is the service I’ve paid for, for prime. Grrr. Anyway we sit and wait but in the mean time he has these.

I texted him to tell him I bought these yesterday. No response. Am I the only one that their husband won’t respond to texts? Had I been any other person he likely would have at least responded something. I asked him about it and he said he got them but had nothing to say. I said “thank you” would have been appropriate. (??????). And so there you go. My life. May as well have been texting the neighborhood groundhog.

Things like this do not help the pysche. But then again I guess it is why I am here. Someone is reading, listening, and usually will respond. I think I’m a words of affirmation girl and I rarely get them. Heavens to Betsy I might get the big head and think I was someone important or worthy of existing. Anyway, he may hang the darn things from a ceiling fan if he wants. But I have done my part in trying to looking out for him to keep him alive, well, and from getting a citation or whatever they will be doing for enforcement. I do understand people get busy and forget to text back. But his wasn’t that reason. Maybe he thought he’d thank me later. Yeah we’ll go with that one.

Here’s our meals for the week. We eat well. I cooked spaghetti last night while he went to the store. We have a list on the right to “choose from” in the coming days. At least Eating is something we do well together. No problems there. We do manage to email back and forth on that at least. I guess it’s the subject matter that gets the attention. Food does the trick. It’s worthy enough to communicate about. Masks aren’t.

We had a storm come through on the edges of town right around sundown. It made for an excellent glow. The breeze was most awesome. Once the sun was down it was ugly grey but the breeze was still nice. These are actually photos with NO change in coloring.

Well I ordered this letterboard from Amazon to put in my office and it will be behind me on the wall when I film from my office. I will move the white board to the opposite wall. I think I also want a small white shelf to add beside it. And I will have a plant and an item or two sitting on it for decor. A work in progress but want to make it fun for the videos. I have to figure out how to move everything around on the other walls. Something I have to do usually with a beer in my hand mid afternoon on Saturday!

The next video is coming together! I filmed a small session yesterday. And I only have a couple of more things to video before it’ll be set to work on. So it looks like I’ll be able to pull these off about every 2 to 3 weeks maybe in my spare time. Probably by fall I will able to determine what a comfortable schedule is. Right now two weeks is tight and three weeks is doable. If I had to set a set schedule right now I would do two weeks. That just puts the pressure on. But supposedly people don’t want to subscribe if you don’t have a regularly set schedule. So eventually I’ll set one. I have also been looking at the music and I believe I’ve selected what I’ll use for this one.

So day one with the Social Media experiment? It went well. Did I miss Facebook? No not really. I accidentally opened it by habit once because of the red alerts. I think I have over 100 alerts and a couple of messages. How did it impact me on day 1?

Well I felt relieved and I felt a release of sorts. I was more in touch with myself and my feelings and my to do’s and my wishes. I felt a sense of achievement I was not expecting from your comments here and also some other’s comments to me. Others were proud that I had even taken the step to “try it” even. I hadn’t expected to feel I’d achieved anything on day 1. But apparently it is a bigger deal than I thought in others minds to be away from FB at all.

In addition, I finished a Bible Study on YouVersion at lunch instead of being on Social Media. I did not feel more alone. I guess I already felt enough of that anyway. Social Media was not keeping me company any more. It’s not a conversation but a political pull or an opinion play day. I quite enjoyed not seeing any of that mess.

I did miss wanting to post my Greek food, lol. But who gives a fire anyway? Only about 5 people were liking my comments and pics anyway. Probably weren’t even seeing my posts. And I did miss being able to ask why Trump was saying he wanted to defund the testing sites? I saw an article that said he said the numbers would quit going up if we quit testing. I didn’t see how not testing would help. I mean if you don’t want to know there’s a virus there, then stop keeping tally I guess and it’ll go away? I am not really understanding all of it. Do more testing, less testing? I guess I should not watch the news but had I not, I wouldn’t have known our county was requiring the masks. Everything is always so confusing these days.

Anyway – bottom line on 1st day without Social Media – was a success. I’m not having withdrawals but enjoying the extra time. Also listened to music yesterday. I have a song to recommend:

This is Justin Timberlake and Anna Kendrick’s version of True Colors as in the Troll movie. This song is beautiful they way they do it. I found this consoling yesterday. I hope you enjoy it. I listened to it on my iTunes. I made a note to mention it here on the blog and lo and behold there is a YouTube video. So enjoy.

And hope you have a wonderful day. It’s month end and quarter end so very busy and will be for the next month.

Take care! Only one more day til Friday. Thank heavens!

Social Media Experiment

Well, I am about to do a “Thing”. I am going to remove myself from Social Media starting today through the end of June. I’ll be back on July 1. That is actually about a week I believe. And when I say social media, I am specifically referring to Facebook, Instant Messenger, Instagram, and Twitter. Those are mainly the ones I’ve been using. Honestly rarely on Twitter. I’m going to see if I miss it or if my mood improves.

I will remain on WordPress (blog) and YouTube (vlog and watching others videos as I know they bring me joy). Any posting from the blog or YouTube that automatically posts to Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter accounts will continue to do so – as that is something that is set up to occur for me and that will continue.

Why am I removing myself from Social Media for a week?

Well, for several reasons, but primarily there are TWO main reasons.

  1. I suspect that social media is the main culprit in altering my mood and my mindset, which I am set out to change.
  2. I could really use some more productive time toward my own agendas and to do’s.

So to break some of that down……

Is Social Media a Mood Altering Source?

I suspect so. I have been feeling an array of emotions lately and I suspect that most of them are related to things I’ve seen or read on Facebook and other social media sites. I believe that is where most of my negative energy is coming from of late. And energy, positive or negative, transfers into others. You are what you read, you are who you hang out with, you are what you fill your mind with.

The COVID-19, the racial ________ (I don’t even know what to call it so I’ll let you fill in the blank), the political fiascos. All of these things have now all melted into one – it’s all viewed in a political light and has become very confusing to know who to trust, who to believe, and what the facts are. Then on top of that, add in all the Know It All factors (I call them KIA’s) into that and their quickness to attack and step on their fellow human kind as if they were dirty trash on a sidewalk. I’m just not ok with that. I have been so mad coming off of facebook lately, thinking how rude people are. I’ve been sad, that our human race is actually like this. I think how disappointed God must be with the likes of peoples actions, words, twisting. It’s horrifying. And it makes me sad knowing people are so full of hate and for what reason? How sad to have missed out on a life of love. They do not have love. They do not have God, most certainly. They follow the Prince of this World. And we all know what will happen to this world, if you believe The Book.

While Instagram is mainly a positive experience for me with lovely pics and a bit of humor, I still will refrain from spending time there over the next week – from a time standpoint.

There are some other factors that have played into my mood of late, but unfortunately can’t really shed those factors out as easily. There are just a few you come in contact with that well, you’d rather not, as they are judgmental or in some way make you feel inadequate, or just in general make you feel bad or not worthy. And Lord have mercy none of us need that right now. But some things in life you just can’t shed so easily. So you learn to cope, ignore, park it, forget it.

I also want to enjoy having my own ideas and not filled with the ideas that others are trying to cast upon me. I don’t want to be filled with hate, judgment, and people’s views on this or that. Quite frankly, I want my head to focus on everything and anything OTHER than COVID-19, racism, violence, hate, differences of opinion. I don’t want to put my thoughts on there and have it be attacked. They are my thoughts -“just go away – you go post on your page” and “give it up I’m not changing my opinion so just go away”! I want to just flick them off with a finger. And I can. I am flicking them off with a button. The off button. Well sort of.

Is Social Media a Time Suck?

I think we already know the answer to that one. And I do need some more time back. I want to get into God’s word as I need God to be the center of my life and not Facebook or other Social Media accounts.

I want to work on my to do lists.

I want to do and enjoy things that make me happy.

I want to spend my time on things that give me positive energy.

I want to spend my time on people that I trust.

I want to spend time with people and things that emit joy and happiness and freedom.

Being in the Know

I do think it’s important for us to “Be in the Know”. So I have NOT eliminated the News. I have to have some connectivity to the world to be able to have some knowledge to know how to protect myself on a daily basis. I mean if there is riot in a certain area of town, you need to avoid that area. If a tornado or earthquake or traffic mishaps and knowing where the crime is and if our president is still alive and all that kind of thing. And when the dust storm is coming! So I’m not eliminating the news from my experiment either.

I Will Let You Know How it Goes

I’ll let you know in a week or so how it goes. I do plan on getting on Facebook, my main Social Media source, and letting everyone know that I will be gone as there is a certain expectation we have of one another now to see our posts and comments within a day or two, particular instant messenger. But IM, once a quick convenient messaging service, is now filled with various videos with everyone’s agendas for or against their views.

I’ve been angry, sad, depressed overall this past few weeks. I am turning my focus to other things over the next week. So let’s see how it goes. Will I be happier? Will I get more done? I am hoping for a better and more loving attitude, getting more reading done, more time with God, less fear over the state of our _____(everything) and a cleaner house!

A Day of Fresh Air Spent with Friends and a Small Rant

Here she is…that new simple but sleek Coffee Pot that I love – from Amazon. We have enjoyed the brew yesterday and this morning.

We had a nice morning yesterday just lounging a bit. Was happy not to have to go do the errand running we were planning at first. George had wanted to go to McKayes Bookstore. But due to Covid-19 and not wanting to put too much into the day, George decided we’d enjoy our morning at home. It was his day so he got to decide.

He made his veggie pizza and got the filet mignon beef bobs ready and I made dressed eggs for our friends get together at Paul and Judy’s. Cheryl and Joe also. It was rainy off and on and instead of pool time we sat around and talked on the patio. Fans and frequent breezes from nearby rain brought comfortable temps.

We had a lot of appetizers and munched. And we had an amazing dinner with all of our compilations. Kabobs (both beef and chicken) and burgers, pasta salad (yum), dressed eggs (or deviled eggs however you prefer – I switch the terms), potatoes. Key lime pie, brownies, ice cream, strawberry toppings for dessert.

Here was my view. Believe it or not other people were there, lol. I think this was before everyone else arrived. We were all headed to the table and I got there first. I never know if people mind my taking pics so I usually don’t. Sometimes I do but usually not.

We enjoyed chatting and telling stories and having people to talk to. We laughed. That felt good. I needed it. Last week I had a tough time just with everything. For some reason just being tired and a bit tired – no a LOT tired of the times along with so many things I was trying to do – it was just a bad week. But yesterday was like a breath of fresh air. Just taking a deep breath, enjoying ourselves with friends, and not thinking about anything else at that moment. No to do lists, no demands, not even the hobbies. Well ok we did make fun of some of the stupidity that is going on out there without feeling judged by the Facebook masses. That was awesome. To be able to share your views and not get smack talk in return.

Well OK I did shoot some B roll scenery while there which for me is kinda A roll in the videos as it is set to music and turns out usually nice to watch. I took videos of the flag blowing in the wind, flowers being gently rocked by the breeze, and a pool scan. So that will be so pretty in a 4th of July video don’t you think?

So I guess you can say I’ve started on the next video then, lol. My goal is to make them no longer than 13 minutes. Someone said the last one was too long. I agree. I had a lot more material than I thought and when weeding it down I only got it down to 20 or so – it might have been 17. I can’t remember. But anyway it did get long for SOME attention spans. I think the click through rate was about 50% or something like that. So I think that means about half skipped through it or parts of it. (No it doesn’t tell me who skipped thru so no worries, lol).

I enjoyed the scenery around the pool area. It was such a nice little getaway for a few hours.

It’ll be our turn to host. We have no pool or nice patio (ours has lawn mower equipment and tools and wheel barrows). I tried to have a nice place on our patio but all that kept taking it over and when things start taking over an area, I get disgusted and just quit cleaning it. I’m not going to bust my chops to keep up a patio area (or any area) when it just keeps getting messed up with tools and yard barrels and such. It is a never ending battle I don’t have time for so I gave up. I even quit cleaning it off once a year. There was no reason to. I’d clean it and it would just get junked right up and I can’t sit and enjoy and junky spot. So no more.

I brought the patio furniture to the front porch instead for looks. No…we just hang out inside when company comes. Sometimes the sun room but usually it’s too hot or too cold to enjoy. So not very exciting in the summer but it is what it is. We get to enjoy that FINE blue linoleum we have, that I call my ocean so that I can “get over that” since I have to live with it every day. But not much longer b/c I will eventually “put the foot down again”.

George should be so glad he married me because some women – and I’m going to say MOST – would not have been so patient with a lot of these things. He lucked out. lol. I just go get lost in my computer or a hobby and try to forget it.

He probably wouldn’t agree that I’m patient over that, but I have known a lot of women in my lifetime and most of them call the shots when it comes to things like that – the kitchens and house decor. When I call the shots I have to put my foot down to do it. lol. Oh well. There have been many foot drops over the years. Most of them about led to divorce, but I work too, and I live here too, so…..I do get to have a say even if I have to make a splash sometimes. (I’m remembering a bathroom redo at the old house, a table I wanted to buy but was $100 short but it matched our new dining room and I didn’t want it to get away, and my car after mine had turned into a Flinstone mobile and I had to drive in high crime areas to work, and can’t forget that time I wanted to spend my Credit Union money for Christmas gifts). None of those were pretty moments, but the time came when it was necessary and the foot went down. I do develop some stubborn against stubborn when needed. Ha!

He is usually good to ask me also before spending money, and he’s pretty good to let me pick what we give each other for Christmas as a big item so I’ve been happy that we have bought TV and leather sofa and recliner, and a nice new fridge. That has been very nice so I gave up the floor replacement and kitchen redo’s for that. That was a lot cheaper. But it is time for some upgrades and I don’t want to be in a situation that we have to do them when we move out and have to spend the money but not get to enjoy it. If we have to spend the money to do the upgrades to sell the house one day, I’d much rather enjoy it too. Right? So it needs to be done soon. I was not popular for holding that opinion when we sold the last house. I was considered ungrateful by a few. My guess is that some didn’t understand the whole picture. But anyway, yeah I guess it’s best not to get me started on these things huh? I have a few sore spots. I like for things to be kept up and look nice. I was raised that way. But when you marry, you often take on the views/ways of that person. George has never been that way. If it works you don’t upgrade to make it look nice. So that has been a sort of issue at times -if my wishes don’t fit his model of our finances.

So we have blue linoleum and ugly counters. And again, I will say, he is so lucky I’ve not put the foot down over it – yet. Most women need their kitchen and he does most of the cooking. Ask any woman and they would have said “oh no that would have been gone a long time ago”. I really honestly don’t cook much now because I no longer like our kitchen. I just like for things to look good and feel good. So that is why I personally don’t like to entertain here because I’m embarrassed over it compared to what most have in their homes. Oh should I get started on the carpet? It’s about to go as well! ;-O

One day…I’ll be rid of the damn blue linoleum and pet infested carpet. At least we have friends that still enjoy being our friends regardless, lol. But yeah – there has to be a major carpet reclean before we have anyone over! The pets have not done us any favors.

I love flowers with rain drops on them. And that is my vent for the day.

And Paul and Judy’s “Albert”. He is such a sweetie. An older dog. And so is our Roger and Maisy getting there. There was talk of new puppies at their house yesterday!

Oh I did get a pic of George’s veggie pizza:

It’s crescent dough (baked first) and then spread on the cream cheese. I think he mixes the cream cheese with the powdered ranch dressing mix, but I’m not sure. That’s what I’d do if I were making it. And then chop up whatever veggies you want and put cheese on it. Makes a great appetizer. Very filling though.

And I need to get dressed and get out the door.

I have the coffee pot to return to UPS today. If it is raining I may have to wait until Wednesday. I think I had 14 days to return it. It’s supposed to storm today. I’ve not taped it up anyway, so I think I’ll wait and do it later and not rush today.

Alright. Ya’ll have a superb Monday! Over and out!