Busy Weekend and Plans Ahead!

Maisy at the vet and Roger in the background

What a busy Saturday we had. It was a fun one but pretty loaded. First of all after George came back from his normal Saturday morning Yard Sale run, he and I took Maisy for her normal shots. I guess it ended up being more of a check up. And a good thing too. She hadn’t felt too good in the last week or so, but was feeling better. Still since we were there, we discussed with them about the cysts and her not feeling good. The cysts were not a major area of concern b/c they moved around and were “soft”. However, she said she has a pretty major heart murmur and said that would be more likely of a cause to give her a couple of bad days – however, it could have been anything. She got her shots and since she was fine we didn’t discuss anything any further. She is not coughing a lot so no need for meds right now. At some point she will go on heart meds like Tugie.

We were at the vet for a very very long time. So many people have to go on Saturday and this is a very good vet with a huge customer base now for this area. There is one that is nearer to us and I keep mentioning to George we should go and try it out. Likely we would have less wait times and it’s 15 minutes closer. I hate to leave them but it’s starting to not work for us very well. So we will see.

One of the funniest things happened at the vet. This cute lady came in. I’m saying that because she was just the cutest thing. She came in with a cat in her hands and I was thinking “she is brave to not have that cat in a carrier”. About that time the cat sprang from her grip and ran thru a door of an exam room (disturbing whatever dog was in there making it bark) and then went back into the vet back area and was running around. I could see through an opening a variety of people surprised and then running back and forth through the vet office trying to catch this cat. It was truly hilarious. I was so entertained. lol The lady sat by me and we talked a bit. They gave her a carrier for the cat while she was there. How funny it was!

Then after the vet, we raced home and George got a shower (I already had mine for the day) and I “attempted” to fix my hair and changed clothes and we headed out for a family baby shower. It’s fun to have it where men can go too. That is happening more often so the Dad gets to enjoy the opening of the gifts for his child. I love that. And the male folk get to enjoy and celebrate too. It’s only fair. Here are some pics of the event. This is friend Richard and Kathy’s son and his wife (their 1st grandchild).

The shower was precious. Cute ideas. Love the writing on the diapers to make for some fun entertainment on those late night diaper changes. Here are some that George and I contributed. One of our favorites was on that said “Oh Sh**!” that someone wrote. Everyone laughed at that one. That would be fun to grab those. The shower invite suggested that if we brought a pack of diapers our name would go in a raffle for a prize. What a great idea. And instead of card to bring a children’s book (about the same price these days). So we signed our names into a cute little book. What a great idea b/c the cards are eventually trash but the book can live on! So we are excited for everyone for “Little Travis”! And excited for Richard and Kathy as they will soon be grandparents and have a lot planned! We will be planning a dinner with them soon also as Richard retires in 33 days! And we are booked the date of his retirement party so we promised a trip out to dinner with just us 4 to celebrate. We’ll have to get that in the books and on the calendar! We are booked up through November I think – actually through mid Dec now I think. Isn’t that crazy?

George and I spent some time today thinking of “how on earth” are we going to get things done, lol. But we will. We always do.

Anyway then after the baby shower we went to a brewery to kill some time before our Crotchety Gourmet dinner. We went to a brewery we had not been to before. A very “hipster” one. This one was very different. Lots of varying tastes that keep growing in several directions. Beer with a lot of citrus or vanilla or just weird off tones I’d not heard of. I stood there like a deer in headlights. We, who do breweries quite often, felt a bit lost. Or at least I did. We struggled a bit to find the one we wanted. George and I picked the same one for me. Sometimes I run my pick by him so I don’t order something I won’t like. He knows my tastes. Mine was a citrusy Pale Ale and was pretty good. So I told him I’d be open to coming back and trying newer things. He was not so open to it. But said “well you know me, I won’t turn down a brewery though”. lol Anyway, we enjoyed it and it was different. We fingered through a “Nashville Scene” – like we used to in the old days before the Internet. Always looking for music scene happening. And rarely going. But it was fun looking. We usually went to the free events we were invited to in those days. It was all we could afford – free tapings at Opryland for TV specials, free company events that Gibson was having or that we were invited to. Anyway nothing interesting to us in the Nashville Scene these days. I think we enjoy making our own fun now.

Then we were on to our dinner….at Coco’s Italian Market, which I believe has been around for a while. Not sure why we have not been there before. It was quite the cute place. And the food was excellent. This is in the “Charlotte- States – Nations” area of Nashville.

So today was a day of rest and work – laundry done, kitchen cleaned, bathrooms cleaned, Isagenix order done, Amazon orders done, and “to do list worked on”.

Mom doesn’t want the Fit Bit as she doesn’t think it will serve her needs. It doesn’t have the heart rate.

George and I worked on the Fall Bucket List and had a wonderful conversation of plans and fun times ahead. This has thrilled my soul and the adventurer side of my spirit. I’m so excited. Here’s what we have planned.

  • We are going to have the Seafood Lobster Fest with Mom
  • We are going to go to the Apple Store soon and pick out my Apple Computer – woot!
  • We talked about our upcoming Spain dinner picking out a soup and salad to “pitch” to our friends Don and Lisa for the special meal we are planning (I love having foodie friends, lol)
  • We did our fall bucket list. Pics to come of that. I’m doing a separate Dec list and a Winter list. Also not doing them poster size anymore but “notebook paper size”. It’s just easier.
  • Also put up a list of Nashville restaurants to try when we are out and about so that we don’t forget about them. We often have opportunities for nights out.
  • We talked about vacation time in 2020! 🙂 Upcoming trips include things like:
    • Amelia Island in the Spring and take Mom and see Aunt Martha and Uncle Ken
    • Next summer or fall long weekend – trip to mountains of east TN, Waynesville and Asheville.
    • And a big trip either summer or winter to the Rockies! He doesn’t care. Someone have to take care of our babies though.

Much done on the “to do list”:

  • Fitbit figured out – a “no” for Mom.
  • Fall Bucket list done
  • Mom’s seafood nite planned
  • Maisy’s rabies shot done
  • Birthday gift cards purchased and cards signed and ready to send.
  • Blog Logo done
  • Ziggy Marley tunes uploaded to Itunes.
  • Notebook ready for writing projects (isn’t it always ready and waiting? lol)

All that is left is making a new list!

We have talked about Christmas and shopping and have had a great relaxing day today. I’m excited that the Cox household is a unit of making plans together again and making life work and I’m looking forward to our trips and our meals and our excursions. And our movies and being with family and all that we have upcoming. And I’m excited about fall as I see some cooler temps coming in the extended outlook!

Saturday Morning w/Coffee

Well, it wasn’t a particularly exciting week. So not really a lot to blog about. So I just played my little Farmville Tropical Island game to wake up with coffee the last two days. The Bob’s Red Mill order came in and now I’ll have oatmeal to go for some time. For some reasons the stores no longer have this and this is a really good oatmeal with no added sugars and flax and chia seeds. I’m not sure why it’s not in the stores and selling. I suppose the demand lies with those with sugar. But America is coming around the curve I suppose. Maybe one day we’ll have some healthy drive-thru’s with gourmet salads that actually taste good.

I didn’t get much accomplished on the list this week, I’m not sure why other than I did work til 6 a couple of days and had errands to run after on two of them – one including the store. So I guess that is why. Then eat/watch show with George and then on to bed.

George and I have been watching Season 3 of the Durrells in Corfu this week. And we watched some of Frankie and Grace on Netflix as well now that we have streaming and can get it. The Durrells came in on DVD. We still do that by mail b/c George has some 300 movies to watch. If you like to watch oldies – they are there. But they don’t have a wide selection of the new stuff that comes out it seems for DVD. When we switched it opened up so much else to watch.

So yeah, not much done on the “to do”, but at least making strides toward things. I did get Mom’s fit bit charged. Now I have to download the app again to be reminded of what this version can/will do to see if it is what she needs or wants. She wants to track heart but I don’t think mine will do that. I could be wrong. I think it just does the steps. I’ll know soon.

George and I cannot really believe that we are booked up for Saturday’s through Oct and November – it’s not like hugely booked all day but there is at least one thing per Saturday going on – either in the morning or evening. And we have our trip of course planned to see Katy and Cody. WE had one day open in October and I had that one day in October reserved to do a seafood fest with Mom and went to talk to George about it and he had tentatively scheduled a golf game with friend Jack and another guy. (????? Of all things. Golf. He doesn’t even play golf.) So I’m not sure what will happen. Will it be us doing a seafood fest for Mom or George playing golf with friends from work? We shall see what he chooses.

We are wondering about having time to shop for Christmas. WE used to plan excursion weekends to go to various places and do big shopping. Not as many to buy for now, some are getting gift cards and it’s just not the big shopping event that it used to be nor big Christmas events that it used to be. We will make it special for those that are still here the best way we can. I used to feel sorry for family’s that didn’t have big Christmases. Now that we are in the part of life where we don’t have the big Christmases, I’ve decided I’m somewhat ok with it. I have my memories. And if family comes we will have as big of a Christmas that we can and will enjoy it. We will make our own the best way we can with family and friends.

Christmases change as one goes through their life – at least mine. We used to have a Christmas at home (and still do) and had one at each parents and then we’d go to each of the grandparents. It was almost too busy then and a whirlwind. Very tiring but very fun. As people pass away and get older that phase changes, as kids get older that phase changes, and then there are the family that is far away – like my Aunt and Uncle and Katy and Cody. We see them when we can. And Mom which is an hour and a half away and it’s just enough that to put a 3 hour round trip drive with dogs in tow and requires planning. And then there is the family that is aloof and not really wanting to participate which automatically by default eliminates the shopping and makes it smaller scale. So all those things combine for a much smaller Christmas and a much smaller shopping excursions. So we will make it special for those still around and wanting to participate. And if no family interested we’ll have our own little Christmas and celebrate with friends in January for our Winter Solstice fun amidst our hibernation period, lol.

I think Katy and Cody will get to come for Christmas. I’m not sure when. I will also have to work some on the weekends (Sunday before Christmas) because it takes 2.5 days to close payroll and we’ll have a Tues and Wed we are off and people are still going to want to get paid. So I’ll have to come in Sunday and Monday before Christmas. And with year end stuff I’ll have very little time to take vacay time during that period. If I had a child at home that would be a big huge problem but I don’t so I think it will work out well. At least I will be free at night so we can do dinner if they (Katy and Cody) come to town.

Just writing about all this makes me anxious. I’m not sure why. I guess it’s the following:

  1. Life is always so busy.
  2. There is never enough time to do all the things you intend and spend time with family you need to.
  3. Mom is getting older and she is far enough away we can’t easily tend to her, let alone find time to just visit for fun
  4. It makes me sad in a way – even though I say I’m ok about smaller scale Christmases and having no vacay days during the holidays. I’m still adjusting. I’d rather take it when having things to do with my time – like a trip. It’s ok it’s just different.
  5. If George goes and plays golf should I plan a shopping excursion or some hiking time with my friends?

I guess just a lot of thoughts going through my head. But God says not to be anxious for anything so I will let it go and Let God and let Him have it like have done so many other times.

I saw this on FB and thought it was funny. Karma does have a way of comin’ ’round. lol

So we are incredibly busy today with going to the vet to get Maisy her shot and then onto a baby shower in Nashville around 1 and then on to dinner tonight with friends with our Crotchety Gourmet group.

I will get to rest tomorrow – well – do household chores, work on the list, do a devo, and all those things. So free time tomorrow but it’s not really free – just get to pick and choose which chores and to do’s to work on, lol.

And I’ll go and leave a private blog entry now. But you all have a great weekend! Oh and Maisy is feeling much better!

Office Fall Decor and Thoughts from the Shower

Here is a flavor of fall from my office.

Sleep was good last night and our evening was nice. George fixed hamburger steaks, fries and toasted onions in the air fryer, and salad and beans. We watched “Below Deck Mediterranean”. It’s the next to the last show. Then in October “Below Deck” will be on. It’s mindless entertainment and fun to watch. I’m glad George enjoys watching it. Or at least endures it.

We are enjoying the Netflix. George realized there was an Ultra HD instead of just HD. It’s more per month (maybe $3 more than what we had). He was like a kid and said “yeah yeah do that”. So we upgraded right from our seats with the clicker, just like that! lol And the difference is really incredible. So George went through and picked movies from the list and added to our “watch list”. Also I went through and picked some out before we switched to Ultra HD and now I need to go back and do it again b/c it opened up more movies for us.

The temps are getting cooler at night but during the day they rise up. I think we are living in a desert right now (I originally typed dessert – which might not be bad to live in – I think I’d choose cheesecake – it’d be soft.) I think we have a batch of really hot weather coming – like upper 90’s the weekend into next week. Normally the first week of October – Oct 5-8 brings a terrible thunder storm which really sets the dynamics to bring cooler temps in and there is still a battle of warm and cold air the rest of the year which each battle bringing cooler temps with it.

We are predicted for hotter than normal temps through the rest of the year with periodic fluctuations of warm and cool – but averages I guess are higher. Yes, I’ve been watching the weather channel a bit more lately. I kinda got away from watching it through the years when they had shows on instead of the actual weather. Lately when I turn it on they are doing the weather – might be b/c of hurricane season. Not sure. But if they are back to the old way of doing it, I’m good with that.

Something I was thinking about in the shower this morning. I have been listening to some podcasts that are spiritual minded. I rather like listening to some of these Self-Help type of things by listening on Audible to books like “Girl Wash Your Face” and “Kind is the New Classy”. It helps provide some surprising understandings about the psychology of why we are the way we are sometimes. I was a bit enlightened by my own “thinking through” of a few things after listening to a pod cast yesterday. On the podcast of “Girl Wash Your Face”, she was talking about the negative things that roll around in our head – like judgement of others and we often don’t even realize what we are thinking. That is so true. We are so used to our own thoughts – they are OUR thoughts and no one else can hear those thoughts unless we mouth out what we are thinking – which a lot of us do sometimes. We chide ourselves for the gossip or the unleashing of our thoughts to others. But do we chide ourselves for the negative thoughts we have of others, or even our own selves? We think about why we are having those thoughts, usually some other form of judgement or division or placement of what is right or wrong in our minds.

Having slept well and then getting up and taking a shower (an excellent place to think) I realized a few things. As a person that grew up in a spiritual family-which I am lucky to have been born into an extended family of Christian faith – but growing up in this world and having been taught black and white rules of Christian faith – it makes for a breeding ground of judgment against others. Think about it. When a person learns “right from wrong” you notice the environment you are in and when others cross the line, your brain makes a notation of it as a deviation from the rule, the norm, the law, the ______(fill in blank). I think that I have been listening and watching of so many through the years of my entire life of others commenting about people who have crossed the line. Their name is mentioned and their “sin” or “wrong doing” or “rule breaking” is then mentioned EVERY time their name is brought up. So, we have most all of us, done this, so there is no pointing of fingers to any one person, I’m not placing judgment here myself but just making observations of why we do what we do as humans.

So having been in that world for so long I think my brain was trained to constantly compare current situations to what is right and just. Which is a good thing, but it makes me define what is not right – ALL the time! Whether it be a person, or a situation. And of course, you know my nature is to make everything right, good, and better. And if I don’t I set to whining about it like no tomorrow – and that might be a Southern Magnolia thing. lol

Anyway, that was today’s revelation. But I have been making more notice of “my thoughts” lately and not just deciding whether to say this or that, but deciding whether I need to even be thinking this or that. It’s easy to say we should filter our thoughts and keep the evil thinking out – no bad thoughts of evil leading to sin, but have we actually thought about the things that we think of about other people when we judge them, why are we judging them? The book I was reading “Girl Wash Your Face” said to think about something good about that person when you have that bad thought. What a great idea.

It’s never been our job to judge others in the first place. A quick read of The Shack, will teach that lesson. And about forgiveness as well. But yet we all do it. And some of us more than others but we all do it. Some may have a problem getting past their judgments of others. It’s as if the person should just be named their “sin” or “rule breaking” and have it as a name tag or a placement on their forehead.

What if people just loved one another instead? What if people looked for the good points? What if people looked into the “why” something might have happened? What if people really need our support and kindness instead of our judgment and cruelty? What if instead of drawing lines, we drew closer? What if we realized drawing a line may not give that other person a chance to improve or be loved? What if it alienates them further?

These are thoughts that roll around my head in the shower, in the car, at blog time, at night before bed, in the morning when I wake. All in an effort to be a better person myself, to be loved myself, to not be judged myself, to do what God would have me do.

And what man would have me do – is to get my derriere to work so I can finish that last payroll closure for the plant that needs to be finished this morning. Hope you all have a superb day!

Summer Bucket List: Revisited

Well, we had quite a few things on the summer list and did a lot of them. Others were completely ignored. And a lot of my focus and goals began to change over the summer. But all in all, I’m thinking we had a good summer.

First let’s go with what we did! Not necessarily in order

  • UB40 Concert
  • Zaxby’s (if we had cards to use up we put it on the list
  • Katy came to visit and brought Shelby and we showed her around Nashville. We had a big weekend planned.
  • San Antonio – probably the highlight of my own summer was getting to see Kate and explore San Antonio with her and create a lot of memories – some better than others. (Bird incident, lol)
  • Got a long walk in. It must not have been too memorable but it was a walk so I checked it off the list. lol
  • Outback (we had a card)
  • We had friends over for a German dinner/evening (weekend) as they stayed over and we had breakfast and the girls shopped while the guys played Frisbee golf.
  • Father’s Day excursion – George had a list of places we went for this day tooling about doing all things George – I can’t remember what we did but pretty sure it involved a brewery and McKay’s and good food.
  • George’s Birthday excursions x 3. Thinking his birthday was going to be overshadowed by Global Celebration he scheduled 2 to 3 weekends of doing things – also including breweries, books, music, beer and expansion of my waistline
  • Global Celebration with Isagenix didn’t happen due to my changing jobs and not being able to be off, which actually was the straw that broke my already indecisiveness about pushing for my RV dreams, and decisions over my time and how much to donate to the cause. However, I did attend one thing, registration, so I could get my free products and backpack (:-P), so….I checked it off but also had an “x” through it.
  • Roger got his Rabies shot and it wasn’t time for Maisy’s yet
  • We went to Connor’s with our Crotchety Gourmet group. Our next outing is this weekend if I can find out information.
  • I made almond bread. It was ok. It wasn’t as good as the good/bad kind.
  • I tried Tai Chi. I liked it. I like the grace of it. I am not used to it so I haven’t migrated back. I’m not very graceful. I look like I’m trying to draw something in the air or reaching for things I can’t get on a shelf and toppling over rather than a person doing Tai Chi and seeming all balanced. I think yoga is more my style but I’m not giving up on it.
  • Although only 2 books are checked, I did reach my goal to do 3 books. And it might actually be more than that if you include all the audios. But I finished what I was calling my 3rd book this past weekend after this pic was taken.
  • We have indeed prepped for our yard sale. I didn’t check it off b/c it wasn’t finished.

And here are the things that were NOT accomplished (hanging my head in shame at some):

  • Candlelight Yoga – this seems so simple but the “candlelight” is what is holding me up. I keep thinking I need to do this at night and night is not convenient. So some Saturday morning I’m going to draw the blinds and do this, lol.
  • Centerville Wineries – We keep putting this on the list but never going. It is really something George wants to do but he plans a lot of our outings and it’s never mentioned so I think it’s not really a burning desire to do this. But perhaps we’ll take off and do it one day. Our fall is getting pretty booked though.
  • Implement Meditation. Well, I can’t say really that I didn’t do this. I could probably have checked it off as a yes, it’s done. I did check into meditation and I have “done it”, but really I think more than anything, I’ve created it as an option more so than a daily practice. I could do a mini blog entry but mainly just have learned two things: 1) that there are times we just need to sit and empty our minds and let the thoughts be felt and come and go 2) To let our minds do their own thing when waking up in the morning before grabbing the phone and seeings others agendas and thoughts b/c that gives us our own creative thought processes for the day. So in a way I’ve done this but it’s not like I’ve carved a time for meditation it’s just a method for getting up. Also prayer is another form of meditation in which I try to do each night in the deepest form. So “yes” but “no” – it’s just a way of life more than implementing a session.
  • Consultant. I did not enroll two consultants this summer. I did enroll a couple of people who wanted to improve their health. As mentioned the business goals to do this don’t have any fire anymore as there are no more dreams to fuel it. And no more time to fuel me with informational seminars in order to do it due to the job change so as mentioned that was the final event to knock this out completely but I was already on the fence. That said I’m still totally in love with these products and what they have done for me as far as energy and feeling better and the weight loss has been a plus. And I will be available for anyone interested and will still brag about these products and coach others if they are truly interested but I am not chasing after anyone trying to convince others to believe me. I’m just not into that. They can either seek me out and ask me questions or be without. I’m not chasing after folks. But I will share to those truly interested who are not afraid to spend a few bucks in the beginning to get started to build your inventory up. It’s kind of like getting married and setting up your kitchen groceries for the first time.
  • Weight loss goals. I really wanted to reach a certain point by now to keep losing. But I gave up cleansing during the payroll training b/c it was too much stress, plus all the eating we have done, plus my stress eating. I have to learn to not go all out on every excursion. My 25% eating bad and 75% good has turned in to 50/50 or 60/40. Not good. So I’m trying to reign it in a bit. We have had two much fun and I’ve let down my guard. My health numbers still not where I want them either. Working on cholesterol and bringing the sugar numbers down w/o the meds.
  • George didn’t get his wine kit – I don’t think. I think mainly is we have been buying some wines we like a various places reasonably and he probably just has wanted to spend his time doing other things. There is probably time to do a wine kit if he wants before the colder weather sets in, now that mowing will slow down for him. We’ll see, might put it on the fall list.

And that is all I have today, I will be working on our fall and holiday list to get us through Dec and then will do a winter list for Jan and Feb and March. I think it’s fun just to have a list to check off but we throw in a few other things as reminders – to use up gift cards or do things that we need to do sometimes that we don’t really want to do – like having a yard sale, lol. It just makes it a fun way to remember things or to look at when you have a free day and want to plan something.

So stay tuned for the Fall list. lol

Now to go get this payroll closed. Yesterday sure was a Monday in it’s truest form, but we got through it. At least with payroll there are definite answers and no “gray”. I’m a black and white person so that works for me. A bad day in payroll is better than a good day in some roles in my opinion, if you know what I mean. Let’s just say I was looking forward to going to work yesterday as I am today. When did that ever happen before?

Ya’ll have a good day. Maisy is much better but still not up to par. Considering vet. Tomorrow might be better than today though, but we’ll see. At least they are open after work. She is just not as excited and happy as she usually is.

Heavenly Three Day Weekend

The Makings of Chili Friday night

Well, what a weekend. A relaxing one but made a big dent in the “to do’s” while relaxing. Most weekends we relax too much trying to release from the work week. But I was able to get a lot of the errands done Friday and grocery shopping and house cleaning and even some laundry started so this weekend I’ve been able to do the following:

  • Worked on the Yard Sale, marking more items
  • Ordered a case of Bob’s Red Mill Oatmeal to have for work. Yes I did! Can’t find them anywhere and it was cheaper to order thru Amazon than Mr. Bob himself.
  • Got all the events and tasks/reminders added to my phone so I can answer questions and plan “on the go”. George often asks me something and I say “I don’t know I have to wait til we get home and see the calendar”. My calendar is bulky so I rarely pack the paper one.
  • The shower gifts are wrapped for next weekend and we are ready to go for that.
  • I have marked my Spain Recipe and have that bookmarked in my Google – this is for our Spanish Themed dinner with Don and Lisa. My task is the desert.
  • I have ordered the Springform Baking Pan and matter of fact it comes as a set of three (sizes). I didn’t need three but it was just as cheap and decided perhaps I will make some things with the small one. And maybe even make a cheesecake one day. Or a flourless cake. So why not.
  • And I’ve read – matter of fact I’ve finished a book. Of course it was on RV’ing. About a couple who sold everything and bought an RV. I was glued. And I bought the next book after that. They are actually out there doing it. It’s “We’re the Russos” on YouTube (Joe Russo wrote the book.)
  • I reset a PW after getting a security message from my old email address. It was actually the 2nd message as someone also tried to get into my spiritual blog on there. So I changed the PW now on both.
  • Sheets are on the guest bed now if I hadn’t mentioned that already.
  • I downloaded the new iPhone software
  • I upgraded all my apps
  • I rearranged all my iPad apps so the most used were in the front. This was needing some attention and deleted things not using. I was having to look for things. I guess your needs change periodically and so did my apps. Different from ipad to phone. I use them for different purposes.
  • And I spent some time looking at the next few weeks/months. We really have a lot of our weekends booked up other than Sunday’s through Dec 1. It includes a couple of times with Mom in there as well. I’m thinking our shopping will have to be on the fly but then again we really don’t have many to buy for anymore. But I think we’ll want to get on it. We are booked for Christmas Village so I think we’ll plan to do a lot there. It’s worked out well last year.
  • George has booked our “Steam Cave” visit in Hot Springs and the Hot Springs pool is fine at any time when they are open. (That was on his list, but we spent time talking and being excited about it.)
  • And I have caught up on all my RV’ing and Sailing shows (I hate it when it’s over. lol I live my adventuring through them. It’s like all the books I used to read have come to life before my eyes.)
  • Also signed the docs for our Roth IRA’s.

All that doesn’t sound like much but I’ve done most of the cooking – ok all of the cooking until tonight. I made chili Friday night and I made salad, a pan full of roasted veggies (yum), alongside a cup of leftover chili last night. And laundry and ironing, and taking care of doggies. And doing dishes and being all techy/geeky.

I also spent about an hour being all geeky making my iPhone avatar after the upgrade. How’d I do? I still don’t think the shape of the face is right, but it was hard trying to make it look just like me. The nose options didn’t help – there were only a few choices and none looked like mine. I made it using my new glasses style.

Here’s the dessert I’ll be making for Spain night. Tarta de Santiago

So I will be making this little gem. And will need to make the design. I’ll sketch it out on the back of a card/note pad so it’ll be sturdy. I will also look up the history again on the cake and take notes on that so I can tell everyone at the little Spain dinner we will be having.

Might as well turn the dinner into a learning experience, lol.

So I feel good about the weekend. Monday and Tuesday I will spend my time on Spiritual podcasts for my worship time. If I had another day I’d be doing some writing. It’s just beyond my reach but it’s always out there. I don’t have a fierce desire to write a book – if I did I’d have conquered it by now. The blog solves my desire to write, but feel if writing is my talent that maybe God would prefer I do some writing for Him. So trying to figure out what that would look like. I have been talking about this with a friend/neighbor. She has actually started writing and I feel like I’ve left her hanging. I just have had to deal with all this job change stuff and it’s been almost more than I could handle, trying to learn the new while the old kept pulling at my coat tail like a child hungry for dinner. It’s just been heartbreaking not having time for both and having to “let it go” by default. But all that behind now, new job sortof under control (still a bit to learn on the quarterly and year end duties and unemployment taxes and such, but I’ll get there).

Aside from us having the busiest time of the year coming upon us personally – with shopping and the holidays (much like everyone else in the world), I should have some time to focus my thoughts on this. Maybe I just start typing. Or maybe I form my thoughts and start typing with the onset of my new computer in January during the hibernation months of Jan and Feb.

I definitely know that my focus will be shifting some toward some new things. No longer feeling the need to “grow a business to be able to afford an RV” so I’ll let that dream die for now. I reserve the right to resurrect it at any time. If given an opportunity and George would do it, I would so do it in a heartbeat. Even on the weekends. But it’s not something he wants so I’ll put that aside for now. For now. lol Should we win the lottery – that would be my pick. What we put aside and on hold for our spouses. It’ll be good. He loves to travel so if not by RV we’ll still get to do some of it as we retire if not before.

So I think the genre of the music I’m enjoying is “Alternative”. Of course that spans over so much. It’s almost like it ties folk with a heavy acoustic and clear sound – not pure acoustic but has that sound. It’s nice travel music, lol! 😉 Like the Hollow Coves I mention – in that has the “Woods” song. I told George we could listen to whatever the heck we wanted going on our trip to TX with the new iTunes I downloaded (3 months free then 9.99 per month.)

Well, I guess my blogging is ending up being a lot less these days. I think that the first part of the week I prefer to get to work earlier with the closing of payroll and all. The week is very serious for me on the work front so that all goes well and I meet deadlines. And I want my focus on point as I’m dealing with the paying of taxes and accounts and GL’s and it has to balance just right. I was worried that I might not be enough of a numbers person but there are check points in place. It’s still easy to make an honest mistake, so I check and double check. But I feel that I have found my niche here doing this. There are only a few things that could spoil it for me now and hopefully none will. I’m going to think positively on that note and hope for the best.

So George has asked that I pick out our Netflix pic. Something always pulling at me when I try to blog, lol. It’s either work, George needing me to do something else while I’m at the computer, like print something or sign something or do something. The universe seems to stand in the way of wanting me to blog, but I find a way – just less often than normally.

Lately it’s been about catching up, relaxing, chilling, and redesigning my life as to what it needs to look like at age 56. A calling to do something that has an impact on others, that has a definite “you did this” and not a grey area of not understanding whether your day positively impacts a greater cause or not and not even being in control over my day – just wasn’t working for me. I need to know I’m making an impact. So I will continue my quest for what God wants me to do now and what to do now that the career part is “somewhat” settled – if all goes well! I couldn’t do anything with my life in the other job. I was just not settled there at all. It did NOT suit my persona any more. It’s just not who I am anymore. I don’t work like that.

Maisy has been under the weather. She didn’t eat much yesterday and totally lethargic. But today she is eating. She still has low energy though. But we will see how she is in the upcoming days. I worry she has something wrong.

The photos just stole my heart. Roger leaning his head on Maisy as if to say “I love you and hope you feel better, Maisy”. They are so sweet.

So I’m off now to go pick a streaming Netflix movie for dinner!

See ya in a couple of days. I guess I’ll have a new revised “to do” list by then. lol

Big Night Out and a Vacay Day!

Cranes hovering over Nashville

The Anniversary evening, Wednesday, Sept 18th, began after work and our arrival downtown to enjoy a rooftop cocktail before our dinner reservations. For me, I love getting the photo ops! Above a view of Nashville with its cranes. The joke is that the crane is our state bird now. lol

The “Sticks” at the Roundabout in Nashville
At the bar of the Westin, Nashville rooftop bar area
Infinity Pool looking over Nashville, Westin Rooftop
JW Mariott Nashville
Look at that big “hole” under construction

It was fun looking out. Our cocktails were over quickly. A bar’s moneymaker cocktail drinks – small cups, large ice cubs, a big piece of fruit, lol. Not much room for anything else. $$ dropped and onto the next rooftop bar next door at the JW Marriott, which was my absolute favorite.

My cocktail looking out over Nashville
Figuring out where the elevator buttons are. (Screen)

Some of us might have been looking all day for the 34th floor button or the Lobby Button. Duh! Touch Screen. But of course. Then on to the Steak House for our reservations. On the way George admired the cars of those checking in at the Marriott.

George had to stop and stare a bit at this car!
He was pretty fond of this BMW too.

I said if he wanted something like that we should just get a Mercedes Wonder Leisure Travel Van! He said “oh I will just stick with a Honda”. lol

Oak Steak House, Nashville, TN
Anniversary Cards on the Table usually spell out for a free dessert
The free anniversary dessert came! A fist bump later, we inhaled it.
My view. The ceiling was very nice!
That’s a wine rack back there!
Valet Parking area, The OAK Steak House, Westin, Nashville, TN

So it was a wonderful evening and we enjoyed every minute of it. The food was awesome and the cocktails and rooftop bar hopping was great!

We ate like little pigs. And that was our excitement for the week!

The work week went well. I think the long hours are over now unless we have a quarter end or year end or weird weeks where holidays are messing up payroll processing time. Anything given to the former job now is mainly just about an hour and a half a day of answering questions, sending files etc. All working out fine and felt a flood of relief as the responsibility shifted. There is comfort in knowing that what I am setting out to do for the day will indeed be done. I like being being able to work on what is planned. I like how every day my job is still different though. Even though the next week repeats itself, it is still never completely just alike. There are various things that change up each week and I love the routine. You DO have to put a lot of thought into it and a lot of check points. And double check yourself again. So it is still challenging and I enjoyed each day last week. This next week or so is the big tax week in which I have about two weeks or so to get all the monthly taxes paid for states we are signed up for monthly and then there is the quarter end which I will be learning. I think you have to actually file in each state at the quarter end. I’ve not done this so I have to learn how to do that. I think Dec is both quarter end and year end and rather an exciting week. So I didn’t schedule a lot of vacay time for the Christmas week and New Year. Just have to deal with that the best way we can. That said I think I have some time for Christmas shopping and wrapping.

Anyway, it’s been a great week. And I’m off today. I didn’t get a lot of blog time though this week. But catching up today.

This morning’s vacation day led me to go and get my eyeglasses and my sunglasses picked out at my Provider. When I go pick those up I will leave them with my regular glasses so they can be turned into computer glasses.

My new eyeglasses
My new sunglasses.

Then I went on a huge grocery spree. I was glad the bill wasn’t huge though. I did get a lot of fresh veggies and so we will be forced to eat goodness this week. We’ll have to plan our meals so we don’t throw it all out in a week. I want to fix chopped baked veggies in the oven like Judy fixed. Oh it was so good.

Tonight we are having chili. I bought that stuff last week. I need to go get it started here in a few.

Today has really gone fast. I got up at 5 b/c Maisy let me know I’d overslept, lol. I fixed coffee and the dogs breakfast so George wouldn’t have to. I watched The Weather Channel, sipped coffee, and played Tropical Farmville. And washed a couple of loads, ironed some pants, packed my cleanse kit and IsaPaks for next week and went ahead and put fresh sheets on the bed.

I looked out the window and there were deer strolling through the yard, a neighbor through the trees had rolled his garage door back and was sitting in the chair obviously feeling the breeze, watching the stream down below, maybe there were deer down there too. Made me smile that in today’s world someone else had the day off and was enjoying it.

I took our doggies out and thought all the deer were gone at that point but Roger let me know there were deer there. He raced toward them. They are on a leash so he can’t get far. The deer know that. That look at him like “oh it’s just you”, lol. They just go on eating or sitting there. They are very curious about the doggies though. I have had the babies come close because they were curious. Today they were sitting around and didn’t budge, after their morning breakfast lol.

Roger is having trouble walking this week though. We are having to carry him down the stairs and back up again to help him out. His legs have never been strong. His body is heavy. So bless his heart. I hate to see him go down. I hope it’s not a permanent thing. He also is sleeping a lot but he always has. We love our Mr. Roger. So he is getting a lot of loving.

And I did get a few things done this week that was on my to do list: I transferred money over to cover my little shopping spree which was not required of me but I figured I would especially with these eye glasses coming up. Three pair at once – but they will last several years. I booked our hotel room as previously mentioned for our trip to Texas stopping on the way and on the way back in Hot Springs. oh the eyeglasses were on the list so that is all partially complete. I also did the vacuuming which was very necessary. I still have quite the line up of to do’s and surprised I did not get more of them done but I’m convinced you have to do about one or two a day. I just got so far behind the last few weeks with all the work hours.

So at least there is an opportunity to work on it this weekend.

  • Mom’s fit bit
  • Sheets on the guest bed (why is this so hard? lol)
  • Clear out iphone photos
  • Make mammogram appt
  • Finish marking yard sale items
  • Order Bob’s Red Mill oatmeal. Why doesn’t anyone carry these instant oatmeal cups anymore? Grrr
  • Do our Bucket List for Fall/Holidays
  • Put our events on my phone calendar
  • Meal planning
  • Plan seafood nite at Mom’s
  • Wrap Shower Gifts
  • Buy some birthday gifts
  • Book Maisy’s Rabies shots
  • Spain dessert recipe
  • Find Spring Form Pan
  • Read
  • Work on Blog
  • Work on some writing projects
  • Upgrade our drivers license
  • Figure out what to get people for Christmas
  • Exercise
  • Catch up on my shows

So I know it’s the same list I’ve been doing. Let’s see how many I get done before the weekend is over, lol

So I ended up doing the 3 month trial for iTunes and then it’s 9.99 a month after that and you still get to keep your old tunes in your library. I really think that is the way to go. I end up spending $ here and there buying songs and why not have access to all of them? I get tired of the same old songs anyway. Then I can use my phone to stream and I have unlimited wifi so – that is good. When we retire all that may change but still that is not much per month for someone that loves music! I like the mix it fixed for me. It was nice. So I just did that in the last hour – we’ll see how it goes but I’m thinking I will like it. I end up hearing all of these new songs on my You Tube shows and no one has heard of them yet. It’s almost a new genre and I don’t know how to find those types of songs. They just feel good and sing to my soul. Like “The Woods” by Hollow Coves. So I’m hoping to tap into some of these songs that I like. I’m looking forward to playing with it. Oops I stopped to play already! Yep love it. Well, off to cook chili while listening to iTunes and and hanging out when George gets home.

Glad to have two more days to the weekend. Every weekend should have three days to it to bring balance. What are you doing this weekend?

Hot Springs Booked!

Hot Springs, AR

Our Hot Springs, AR stay is booked on both ends of our Texas trip. I booked through BringFido.com like I did last year. This year I booked a bigger room. The other was ok but I got the executive suite with a living area for a few more $ a night. I think it is worth it as the dogs will be comfy having a sofa. What we do to spoil our dogs. We also booked an extra night. We decided to go for Friday night too. George is already off that day. I didn’t take a vacay day for that day but will probably go in to knock a few things out and then head home around noon. I have certainly put in enough hours to get off a bit early, lol. George wanted to have a day that we could go to the Hot Springs. Hard to do with the schedule when we just roll through for one night – have to wait for the check in time and then it is late by the time we are settled and the next morning check out and off to Texas, so by staying Friday we can wake up there and have all day Saturday. We are going to a German restaurant on the stay before Texas and the seafood restaurant on the way back. So I’m excited to get our Hot Springs “Texas bookends” booked at the half way point b/w here and TX.

George has been tooling around the internet looking at Abilene, TX. We are going to romp around there for a day. It’s looking like we will postpone going to Fredericksberg as it’s a bit too far for this trip with all we want to do and Cody wouldn’t be able to go as the family is on the ranch that week as well and he will be doing extra hunting guides and such.

We are going to put on a nice Thanksgiving meal in the late afternoon on Thanksgiving day and inviting the other guys on the ranch. It worked out great as they are away from home and without family and no Thanksgiving otherwise. So looking forward to that day. The guys will be shooting and no doubt will take George wild pig hunting on the ranch. He had a hay day with that last year.

So all of our thoughts are gearing up for that trip and you know it’s really not that far away. It seems like it but it’s already mid September. It’s not far.

Cleanse day was successful yesterday. I was not able to cleanse much during the first four weeks of learning payroll. I didn’t eat much during that time. The weeks I was by myself and in process of shedding the other role I wore, I began eating everything in site, along with George’s birthday crawls, lol. My old habits crept in as I allowed regular mayo, regular dressings, and so forth. But quickly I could tell the pudgy was coming back. Dang it. So I began cleansing in the last three weeks or so but often would come home and have to eat dinner as just so much was riding on my shoulders and anxiety of having so much sitting at my feet to be done for the other role (wasn’t enough room for all the to do stack on my desk, lol). So it was successful all the way through. I made it. And I’m looking forward to a cookies and cream peanut butter shake. Sounds fattening doesn’t it? It’s not.

Not sure what is for lunch today. I’m craving a Cracker Barrel salad, but with the heat and the payroll schedule (big bad important payroll day is Tuesday and Wed). So I need to have something I can reach for. I have found it’s all to easy to order UberEats but it’s expensive and I don’t need to continue that habit. I think I have one more frozen dinner I can grab. If not I may have to order something. I think I only have tuna in my little fridge and I’m not in the mood for tuna.

I told George I would fix Spaghetti tonight. I should be home at a decent time to be able to do so. I’m certainly going to try. And that said, I need to get a move on it!

Ya’ll have a superb day. I guess tonight I will try to knock another thing off my To Do List. I’ve been trying to knock something off each night. This past few weeks have really put me behind. When I’ve been off finally I’ve not wanted to do anything but decompress. So transferring $ from Isagenix to our account to pay for my clothing spree, I need to do tonight. And that’s probably all I’ll have time to do. Ya’ll have a good one. Oh and I can’t tell you how good it feels to only have responsibility for one job. Be still my heart and take in the pleasure! I’m serious, somebody get me a Life is Good t-shirt for Christmas! 😉 I’m no longer in a field that impossible to conquer. And my Mom reminded me that the job had sent me to the emergency room more than once. So I’m thankful I’m OUT! Not even mentioning the name! 😉

Great Weekend: Friends, Crossing off To Do Lists, and Shopping

We received a call from friends Paul and Judy Saturday morning wanting to know if we would come over and eat steaks pool side? Will we? Ye-ah! So we had a great time. They fixed the big Tomahawk steaks from Sam’s Club and we brought shrimp and lobster and had a late summer Surf and Turf dinner party. Casual conversation and catching up with friends. The meal was wonderful!

It was a nice time and I had to get pics of Albert. Love me some Albert!

So this weekend went so fast. Usually when we are home they slow down a bit. We had two days until about 3 to get things done. I spent a chunk of it writing and relaxing, playing a computer game which is a wonderful way to relax for me. I can’t believe I did not get any of my YouTube shows watched so I’ll have a hay day this long weekend coming up getting caught up with my fleet out there and my RV’ers. I love to see what they have been up to and where they are each week.

I did get laundry caught up. Poor George, I think every stitch of underwear and socks he owned had settled to the bottom of the laundry pile and I had worked from the top during the last six weeks and never having time to empty the whole thing and get it done properly. So I was shocked at the amount of whites. He was thrilled to have them back, lol. It’s not that he was out but I guess he was watching them dwindle.

Got the online orders placed, paid an invoice on line – we usually do things the old fashioned way – by check – which is George’s preference. But this one was due now and so I paid it where I’d ordered some shoes. Kenny G uploaded to iTunes, and Isagenix ordered for the week and also spent some time deleting old emails. I haven’t had time to even check my personal emails – lots of things to answer or look up.

I spent time assessing my medical numbers over the last three years from reports. Even with Isagenix, my cholesterol is still up and sugar still not where it needs to be. Everything was better when I was on Metformin. I chose to come off because I was eating better and adding in more nutrition. However, we bought a cow, pig, and lamb and have been eating so much more than chicken and fish – and have eaten BBQ, hot chicken, and going to breweries here and there. So I don’t think our lifestyle is changing enough to be able to come off meds and combat it with nutrition alone. That said, I still decided to stay off the Metformin and “try again”. I am going to try to do all the right things and make a new commitment to making the right decisions. If not, I’m going back on Metformin – based on the numbers – I think that helped everything across the board – not just the sugar issues. I just don’t like taking meds. I’m not doing the statins.

I also do NOT eat enough greens and fruits – so I’ll have to begin doing that. I did a search on cholesterol lowering foods and will need to try to eat more of those. Always a battle and while Isagenix has helped – it’s not lowered it. It’s kept it from going higher than what it was before Metformin. But I need the numbers to go down. I am disappointed that Isagenix didn’t totally solve the issue but I think it would have if I didn’t go hog wild and eat like a cow, literally at night. George is a good cook. lol lol lol And with stress and I have had too much of that in the last six months, I have a tendency to stress eat, and the reward myself at the end of a stress bomb period. Too much of that lately. “Oh that was awful, let me reward myself with a burger”. That has to stop. I’m rebelling against my own self, lol.

Anyway, I spent some time on Netflix picking out CDs for the queue but there is not much good on there. Matter of fact even the streaming didn’t seem to have a lot of good movies. What is up with that? Are they not getting the access to them anymore? It seems very limited, period. Anyway, there were a few I had not seen. So I upgraded to the streaming for a while. We get a free month. And there are a lot of TV shows more than anything that we can watch. We also have free Prime with Amazon.

So what all streaming per month do you pay for? I’m trying to decide if it’s worth it? Who has all the shows once they come out? I didn’t see a lot of them yet on Netflix so maybe they no longer have that market cornered. Or maybe I am just not interested in the latest ones that do come out. They are all weird and violent or haunting. We’ll try Netflix out til we are bored with it I guess and go on to something else. George has been buying old movies from yard sales, we watch them and then he sells them at McKaye’s gets credit and we find even more movies. But I’m tired of watching old movies, lol. I want to watch some good ones. I also want to find a good TV series of a show we look forward to binge watching at times.

Yesterday, after the Titans game, George and I went to do a little shopping. I needed some retail therapy. Since it was late in the afternoon, I was not terribly in the mood to shop but we had already made our plans. So we went to Belk where I could buy eye liner and check on the clothes. Woah – they were having a big sale. Went through and grabbed everything I liked that I could afford. lol Had a big try on session. George waiting outside the dressing room – he was very patient. Nice of him to want to go and so we had to wait til the Titan’s were finished. But was glad he wanted to go. All of this was funded by Isagenix cycle money. I have a few customers. I don’t intend to continue doing the do anymore. I’m ready to slow down but while the remaining funds come in, I plan to spend them on clothes or things like that. I’m sure it’ll be dwindling down as time goes. It’s just time to slow down life and not ramp it up. I’ve struggled with that and quite frankly didn’t have much time for it. I’m open to share but people will have to pursue me. I’m not pursuing them and that is a relief too. I’m glad to have my life back to tell you the truth.

I came out with a lot of shirts and a pair of pants and it wasn’t all that much. The sales were good. I was needing a few more clothes since losing weight. Although I think I have put about 5 to 8 back on having eating half of Nashville during George’s birthday month. Time to buckle down on the food and exercise and healthy lifestyle again and do better on the fork and knife meal. If not I’ll have to go back to meds and I really don’t want to have to do that. I think exercise would solve the issue too. But I’d have to give up something to do it. I haven’t figured that out yet. But I will have to. That has always been the problem. Hopefully my work hours will improve now and I will be able to leave like a normal person and give myself time to take care of myself. Can do more workouts to YouTube. I kinda enjoy that on Saturday mornings.

Anyway I need to go and finish getting ready. I need more coffee. And I’m looking forward to this week having less pushing on me. It’s been ridiculous for a long time and I feel amazing relief.

Saturday morning sun room time with Roger.

Ya’ll have a wonderful day.

End of an Era

Publix now carries Freshpet!

We are so elated that our Publix now has fresh pet. Publix is easy to drop into and out of quickly. Parking is easy, layout is simple, check out is quick, and none other can provide such excellent customer service. But usually what we were needing to rush in and get was Fresh Pet. And they didn’t have it until recently. Yes Publix is high on their prices at times but they do make up for it in their widely popular BOGO specials. We don’t mind paying a little higher for the convenience of the quick stop and go. I might add that they also tend to cater to some higher quality brands and good quality nutritional food choices. So we are so excited that we don’t have to conform our choice of grocery store, to whether or not we need dog food or not. So this was exciting. But not near as exciting as handing over the final responsibilities for the HR role in the past week.

I woke up thinking that I should write a book about my HR Career. Would anyone read a book about “behind the scenes in HR field?” You read about the airline industry, the food industry, but what about what really happens behind the scenes of HR? lol I may have to write that book. I’d have to hire a lawyer first to protect myself from writing about all the things that I have witnessed in my 30 something career in HR. Might even have to hire a body guard, lol.

All that said, I finalized much of my HR career on Wednesday in a meeting as I handed out many of the final and immediate needs that needed to be done (that I could not get to for doing the payroll job) and then again on Friday night I stayed til 7 to close out some final things on benefits and pay an invoice upcoming so the new person wouldn’t be faced with that immediately.

And so Friday was my “transitional” day in my mind – not so much with my current company as just a transitional ending day of my HR career as a whole of 30+ years. It felt like a retirement of sorts, w/o a retirement party or w/o a thank you for your service – b/c I am after all not retiring and I have no idea if anyone is thankful for my service. And it doesn’t matter anyway b/c God and I know my heart and all the details when everyone else does not.

While I have mixed feelings over a few things I don’t really understand, I have no regrets, no anxieties, no fears, no worries, and no mixed feelings whatsoever about my decision to change paths. It feels good to the core to have made this change. It feels good and I’m happy to let go. This is so God led, God defined. And an answer to prayer. I feel I left a what was a very confused situation (for me) for a well defined role and for that I am grateful. No more trying to be everyone’s everything. That always wore me out.

Again it’s the whole shebang of HR that has morphed into more than one person can do – the facets are too large of all the responsibilities with legal, workers comp, benefits, government compliance, DOT regulations, and the country’s hiring situation makes for a rough time in recruiting and filling the job roles and the needs and the time it takes is just more and more all the time. And at 56, I am just so blessed and overjoyed to be able to do something that suits more of my persona and my skills and more importantly, my desires, at this point. I no longer desire to spread myself thin across a lot of hard to change issues. I do enjoy though, being able to see something get accomplished and feel like I’m making a difference. I’ve taken it to the level that I can – let someone else with varying talents take it to another level. It’s a blessing for us all. And I’m elated. So that felt good getting in the car Friday at 7 pm and driving home. A wave of relief, praise to God, and a feeling of celebration and getting on with the weekend.

I told someone at work I feel like I can finally buy a “Life is Good” t-shirt. I think I will start a collection! I did actually enroll in their emails to keep up with the shirts. I think it would be fun to start a collection of Life is Good t shirts, don’t you? A reminder that life can be what you make it. Choose happy. And that I am. Working over here and there for 1 job is one thing, and working over trying to do two jobs or two or three is another thing. I was not a happy camper and life was not good the last few weeks during the transition. It was a physically draining, emotionally draining six weeks. Learning a new job, trying to hang on to the old, finally seeing I couldn’t do both, couldn’t even answer or look at email for days at one point while training and learning payroll. Oh gosh it was something and my former assistant came in so strong and became me and I know she is behind now but she did it. I’m so proud of her and I finally let it go little by little and kept trying and kept trying and getting a few things done and mainly answered questions and coached but then being able to let it go was so freeing.

And now the weekend is here and I’m having a relaxing coffee drinking, game playing, private blogging (yes I finally updated that), public blogging kind of morning. Need to get on with the household chores and to do lists.

But, this is the last time you will speak of me talking of HR. It’s turned off – the button is on “off mode”. It’s no longer my responsibility or worry. I will answer any questions or needs of course that the new regime has and be helpful to answer or show how something is done, but I’m off to the land of payroll and taxes. Excel and the calculator are my new friends. I think I’ll name them. I think I’ll name Excel “Edward” might call him “Eddie for short”, and the calculator we should name him Calvin? Or Carter? I’m up for suggestions? If they are friends they should have names? lol

Due to the transition period I’d not been able to get much done on the to do list. I did do:

  • The sun room
  • Fall decor
  • A lot of Bible study this week, prayer, meditation, podcasts
  • Ordered the Baby shower gifts
  • Big huge grocery run after a late night of work on Tues night
  • And not much else – just working, sleeping, eating, and doing it all again.

So here’s what’s still on my plate and we’ll see what I get accomplished:

  • Check on LTD invoice
  • Check my personal emails
  • Upload the Kenny G CD
  • Pick shows on Netflix for George and I to watch
  • Figure out if Mom would want this old FitBit I have
  • Put the sheets on the bed
  • Finish several loads of laundry
  • The ironing for next week
  • Book the rooms for Hot Springs
  • Eliminate photos from my phone
  • Order LTD order
  • Order Isagenix order
  • finish marking yard sale
  • Spain dessert Recipe
  • Find baking pan needed for recipe
  • Plan my vacation for Friday
  • Magazine Project
  • Clean kitchen
  • Read
  • Redo the blog (wouldn’t you like to see a different theme?)
  • Bucket list for fall
  • Writing Project 1
  • Writing Project 2
  • Writing Project 3
  • Writing Project 4
  • Put my calendar events on my phone
  • Pick out my Mac computer – what are my needs – what are my wants
  • Eye glasses and planning my day on Friday
  • Planning for Christmas shopping
  • Update drivers license so I can fly (update requirements)
  • Vacuum

Lots to do and I won’t get it all done. But next week is a 4 day work week in payroll/accounting so I’ll be working hard and fast to get it all done in 4 days as I have vacation day next Friday. I’ll be so glad as I need to get my glasses so I can see the computer better. Going to get a dedicated pair of computer glasses. And new personal glasses, and then sunglasses too. So a big whammie but encouraged by George to go ahead and get them all done. I love getting new glasses.

Just about every day when I come home, there are deer in the yard. Right at sundown they come out. I was blessed with deer all week. Even at work, when dropping off the over night paks, there were deer 5 feet away and just looked up at me as if old friends. I always tell them they are pretty. They seem to be calm with my “animal voice”.

So off to get things done on the list. Mainly laundry and cleaning at the moment. Hope you all are having a good weekend? What do you have going on? I love to hear from you.

Guarding my Heart and Letting it Go

I erased yesterday’s entry. I was tired, whiney, tired, and whiney. And nothing good comes out when you are tired and whiney. Even though sometimes it is necessary to vent. And nothing bad was said, just tiredness and whineyness. And writing is so lethargic for me. The people that need to read it don’t, and the people that don’t need to read it do, and the purpose is not to make anyone feel bad, feel inefficient – although maybe some might need to consider a few things – lol – but that is where I need to communicate directly and where I decide if I will or won’t communicate, establish boundaries and so forth. I don’t like conflict so therefore I don’t always communicate. I rather will just compensate on my end or be willing to live with it. But you know what – neither does anyone else communicate. That seems to be “the great fault” of everyone not to communicate, give expectations, draw boundaries, set goals, set parameters, state their wishes, their feelings. So a lot of times instead I park my thoughts here and guess what others expectations and feelings are. And again did I say I was tired and whiney?

I have a lot of questions, feelings, opinions, anxiousness, concerns – just a lot of feelings and emotions about a lot of things across my life that I keep inside and some days it all just bubbles over or out. And yesterday was that about having to work so many hours and all that is wrapped around this transition period. And a lot of the stuff I’m saying below is just random very deep seeded things that are just part of my “make up” that I want to say.

Those of you that know me well know that I am a somewhat perfectionist when it comes to wanting to get things done. I have very high expectations of those around me and of myself. And I have protection over my time and I get anxious over it b/c I get anxious as I see what can happen and has happened.

I don’t like conflict and yet when it occurs I get very defensive and try very hard not to get defensive since I know that about me. I know that I have a protective and untrusting feeling at times when I don’t know someone’s intent or if they fail to communicate. It leaves one to guess. It makes you think negative things about yourself or others. I’ve recently learned “I am good enough”. And other’s inefficiencies do not mean that it defines me. So some things you just let go and let God. And I have done that very well, I think at times this past year. And I will do it now.

I know that psychologists say that this is the norm for those that needed to feel like they had to protect themselves and usually something that stems from childhood. I never liked conflict as a child and I think I developed a fear of getting yelled at and so I’m always shielding and protecting myself and providing fences and defenses. And that should teach us that “love can move more mountains” than bitterness, meanness or yelling. Sometimes love is truly all you need and there is not enough of it. So I confess that I burp out my deep insides sometimes and spew with anger when I feel I have been taken advantage of, not appreciated, or if my feelings have been hurt if I am tired and whiney, lol. I know it’s normal to need to communicate, but I don’t need to whine or make people feel inefficient or bad. It just is what it is. And I’ve turned all my frustrations, hurt, anger, anxieties, fears, over to God in prayer last night. As so much has built up in so many areas of my life in the past month. We have a tendency to just try to fix it all or let it lie dormant and ignore it but sometimes we just need to hand it over.

So it feels good this morning to be purged and God centered and he is the one that will handle the rest for me. He’s my counselor, my spirit, my rock and He loves me even when/if no one else does. He has told me I can rest in Him. He has told me He will handle any enemies against me, the food that comes to me, the very things in life that I need, He will provide, that I need not worry about anything but the tasks at hand today for today has enough to handle on its own.

I have so much to be thankful for. The future looks bright. I love the new job. It is going to get better as the old one fades and is no longer a part of my psyche. It’s just been a hard transition for me to watch the other go down that I worked so hard and to not be able to get it all done or to help my (former) assistant more.

For a long time, I have said “God leads my paths”. He has not forsaken me yet. He takes care of me. He knows what is best for me. And I’m happy with the changes I’ve made. I think what I’ve been able to do in HR has been incredible, whether others think so or not. I am the one that knows what I all have done to make things better and it’s usually things that people don’t see. God knows. And He has also gotten me this far. And so I know in the future, He will continue to lead my paths, whatever they are. And He knows the desires of my heart. He knows that I need to feel a sense of accomplishment and purpose toward a goal. And I have that now.

And it’s Friday and that makes anyone smile. Much to accomplish today and I’m later getting out of the house than I need to be but hey – if I am late who cares? I have worked enough hours lately to be a few minutes late from here to retirement, lol.

So I’m good, things are going to get better. Even though I didn’t sleep too good last night for George’s snoring and having to eat so late (I finally left at 4:45 to get may nails done so I didn’t work late last night.) Yay! It’s all good. Glad to have a good calm weekend to relax. The full moon didn’t help this week either. I always believe it brings out the unrest in us all. Ok, so I’ll go out and buy my “Life is Good” tee shirt, lol. And I’ll try not to post when I’m tired and whiney.